black docs and fishnets on
they'd kill to look like u and
i'm not so self-assured
i just wanna go home
ur set to stun
and every mfer finna try it on
ur set in stone
and i look like trash when i'm standing next to you

you command the room just like you do
you command the room just like i don't

now it's makin me nauseous
why u wanna b here
with a jaded bastard?
click click boom
chka-chk-boom
if looks could kill
then you'd do better than a shotgun shell
kill kill, kill kill me now
you'd do better than a shotgun

it's just a matter of time until you clear your mind
and realise, you'll realise it
it's just a matter of time until you clear your mind
and realise i'm trash compared to you

buckshot boy [prod. yungspoiler]

produced by me and @heylog

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lyrics:

I’m broken, I know that
I’m trying to get up
I’m falling apart
That should be enough

showing my good side
Have to keep my composure
But always get angry
I’m tryna keep it closed

Tell me something
I’ll ignore it
Always angry
I’m just broken

Take it out
On people that I care about
Always sorry
For all the stuff that I have done

Someday I’ll fade
Away, regrets
Still there 
6 feet in the ground
With me

Don’t need you to
Pity me, I don’t
Deserve anything
Oh anything at all

on a borderline to kill all things i obtain
all i gave was kindness, u don't provide the same
i leave it all inside but man i'm bound to explode
i'm holding in my blood that just might come out my nose

i don't really see a point in this
ima cut you and your stupid friends
before i hang up get the bye bye
no voicemail i got the right mind

ima bleed out if i don't cover up
my wounds hurt, they're all deep cuts
so i stg u need to stay away
behind my back i could feel ur blade so

stab me good and cut my face and gouge out my eyes
staring at a wall i've stared at too many times
the way the shadow shapeshifted its way in the light
sinking to the floor cus it turns out i was right

broken

broken (feat. heylog)

stream

96.2's 'The Flower Hour' hosted by Guardin

The Flower Hour (Nov. 23, 2022)

Produced by @leftquiet and me :) 
Out on Spotify :P

who are we 
to some degree
everything I touch Will break 

These things I think 
I shouldn't blink 
Death might be the only way 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain

CRAWL

@heylog @prod-oc 

they crowd around like sheep
i count them i can't sleep
and who can i believe
when they all watch me bleed

u used to be home but
now i don't know u no more
say you're gonna change
but now you're acting like a whore

how could you hurt someone
that u swear to still adore?
don't you call this love
when it's rotten to the core

they crowd around like sheep
what watches over me
and we've all been warned
what lurks within our core
now that we fell off i'll soon be away
hate how i walked cus my arms barely swayed
now that i'm gone i think you'll be okay
ur not who i wanna be with anyway
if anythings wrong the tone raised too quick
who do u think u are giving me lip
glad that i left while i could i'll say this
i'll feel bad for any guy u end up with
enable the moon picture on my phone
i wanna ignore, wanna be alone
i'm not sorry at all for leaving you
by far the best decision i could do

spotify

sheep w/ heylog [oc]

prod. weepings

You don't need me, like I need you
You don't see me, Like I see you
~
I feel like I don't know you anymore
I'm not important to you
Tell me what the fuck to change so I could be perfect to you
I remember when she was the person I'd confide in
Nowadays learned to suffer in the silence
~
late nights on facetime turned to where the fuck did my time go
Crossed lines I'm crosseyed Imma drown my pain in this merlot
Each time i'm over you, you comin back, show your new tats with a photo
this Push and pull is intoxicating I love it,  pretend I don't tho
~
I don't know where I went wrong
I just want to feel like I belong
Everywhere I go I feel like I'm a burden
Pop a couple pills and mix it with the burbon
When I'm off these drugs feel like a different person
She pull my heart from out from chest just like she was a surgeon
~
You don't need me, like I need you
You don't see me, Like I see you
~
late nights on facetime turned to where the fuck did my time go
Crossed lines I'm crosseyed Imma drown my pain in this merlot
Each time i'm over you, you comin back, show your new tats with a photo
this Push and pull is intoxicating I love it,  pretend I don't tho

u don't need me like I need u

salty!  w/ atlas

didn't feel right to do w/o the boy @guardinmusic , hope y'all get this stuck in your heads.

s/o to @ _ikiryo_art on insta for the pretty visual

lyrics:

[flowars]
Everything you do is so damn perfect
Even when you're killing me
I love the way you look with bloodstained lips, so sexy
You can suck me dry until I'm dead or dying I'm okay with either,
Only for the monster with my heart in hand will I ever suffer

I'll protect you fallen angel, and your demons too
I don't hate you for your nature, I'm a monster too
Tear my heart to pieces and I'll piece it back together
Just to keep the peace I'll suffer with you for forever

Happy will never matter as long as you get your way,
I'm happy just to have you but it's suicide to stay
Who am I today, who are you but sorrow?
Sometimes I dread tomorrow, I feel my life is borrowed
Sometimes my chest feels hollow, and that's just because she swallowed

My sweet temptress, evil empress, poison princess don't lose interest
I might distress, I get so depressed when you leave me; cold and bleeding

Everything you do is so damn perfect
Even when you're killing me
I love the way you look with bloodstained lips, so sexy
You can suck me dry until I'm dead or dying I'm okay with either,
Only for the monster with my heart in hand will I ever suffer

[guardin]
she likes the way my hands glide
up her hipbones in the moonlight
kiss my chest and 
leave an imprint
lost my mind again
girl don't trip it's
like whatever
my heart isn't together
my mind is in the sky with chance of cloudy weather
it's okay if i let her down she'll find someone better
if lying to myself is what it takes then imma let her drown
and i can drown too
these bottles in my bedroom
they comfort me in silence sippin' violently like you do
the corner of my lip is split from smoking like a damn fool
if words don't have a meaning why the fuck i got these tattoos?

[flowars]
I'm just food for you my love
Break my rib and suck my blood
I'm just food for you my love
Drink till you're drunk
Or I'm ash and dust

Don't gaze too deep in her eyes
There's a pain that she could never hide
You wear such a pretty disguise
Lure me and I'm so mesmerized

you're a blood sucking pest and I know
love is a test and I'll pass another go

bloodsucker (feat. guardin)

bloodsucker ft. guardin (prod. 8milotb)

LISTEN ON SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/album/59CywC3libzFJgQYO33do5?si=Mdfv-LICRJi2IahZ0dof3g

music video: https://youtu.be/vwiZmfvRrXs

produced & composed by colliding with mars
lyrics & cover art by colliding with mars
mixed and mastered by polearm
additional vocal engineering by leorinda

lyrics:
[Verse]
I need you now all the time every time
Got my heart in a ziplock bag with all the notes that I sent you when I was deaf

The world could end but
I wouldn’t move a muscle
I’m at peace
When it’s just you (and you, and me, and you)
I don’t wanna leave your house this time
Parting ways feels like tearing my soul in half
I don’t wanna have to leave this time
But I guess that’s just the pain I entwine

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s so easy with you here
Could suspend all of my fear
Many miles above the earth
I can’t jump without your gaze again

[Chorus]
All I’m wanting is a single thing
I just want you in my arms when I fall asleep
All I’m wanting is a single thing
You could fill in the blanks with your eyes tonight
All I’m wanting is a single thing
I just want you in my arms when I fall asleep
All I’m wanting is a single thing
You could fill in the blanks with your heart tonight

[Verse]
Liplock
Falling way too fast and I can’t stop
Got your enamel pin over my heart
Guiding me as I violently crash through the floor

*kiss*

Liplock
Falling way too fast and I can’t stop
Got your enamel pin over my heart
Guiding me as I violently crash through the floor

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s so easy with you here
Could suspend all of my fear
Many miles above the earth
I can’t jump without your gaze again

[Chorus]
All I’m wanting is a single thing
I just want you in my arms when I fall asleep
All I’m wanting is a single thing
You could fill in the blanks with your eyes tonight
All I’m wanting is a single thing
I just want you in my arms when I fall asleep
All I’m wanting is a single thing
You could fill in the blanks with your heart tonight

LIPLOCK

Winter

6:40 in the morning on an empty road
Keep cuttin it close
On the 14th floor
Keep showin my code
Keep hearin you're chorus in the
Back of my mind
And it's keepin me afloat

But this is critical mass
We both fill up the room
and this is real as it gets
You grew up too soon
The only moment is now
We just figured it out
I can't feel the ground

Can you keep a secret?
I've got nowhere to be right now
Meet me in the deep end
In the silence I hear you loud

Try to pick up my feet
Didn't get much sleep
Keep starin at the sun
Feel the retina burn
Still can't unsee
On the redline stop
Can I hear your thoughts?
Can I hear your chorus in the back of my mind?
Still shakin off the shock

But this is critical mass
We both fill up the room
and this is real as it gets
You grew up too soon
The only moment is now
We just figured it out
I can't feel the ground

Can you keep a secret?
I've got nowhere to be right now
Meet me in the deep end
In the silence I hear you loud

I didn't know
I'm sorry
Taking apart every word
Every corner and cranny of story
Are we nothing but story?

Can you keep a secret?
I've got nowhere to be right now
Meet me in the deep end
In the silence I hear you loud

Critical Mass

VERSION III artist | i’m also DAKOTA DOGMA

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LIPLOCK

Colliding With Mars