prod by me :)

lyrics:

i just woke up from a dream
where i got to hold your hand
hold my head up while we're out
i really doubt you'd understand

spin my wheels out
lost traction
don't know how to feel now
caught up in reaction
you told me forever
it's not lasting
i just feel like dead weight 
pretend i didn't happen

i'll have to hold myself
i don't got no friends if u couldn't tell
i could say my feelings but it wouldn't help
so i'll change my dreams just to make it sell

looking for a way out
nothing's gonna change now
take me to ur lakehouse 
remind me all i hate bout you
i know its fake now
but i dont wanna face that truth
been 7 days now 
is it too late to facetime you

i didnt like what i saw in the mirror 
so i made someone and i hope that i wont fear her
i wrote a song about it listen till my ears hurt
no matter what the message isnt getting clearer

never wanna talk if it's not your turn
never gonna stop just to hear me hurt
cause it's what i got its what i deserve
tryna take my heart boy you got some nerve

i'll have to hold myself
i don't got no friends if u couldn't tell
i could say my feelings but it wouldn't help
so i'll change my dreams just to make it sell

looking for a way out
nothing's gonna change now
take me to ur lakehouse 
remind me all i hate bout you
i know its fake now
but i dont wanna face that truth
been 7 days now 
is it too late to facetime you

(cause i've been)
looking for a way out
nothing's gonna change now
take me to ur lakehouse 
remind me all i hate bout you
i know its fake now
but i dont wanna face that truth
been 7 days now 
is it too late to facetime you

lakehouse

this took a while
huge shoutout to dirkle aka @deadman

prod. me
live instruments recorded by me also

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lyrics:

(chriad)
you know your words cut deep
everything you said to me
you make it hard just to come back home
you know i'm struggling
'cause i'm never sure what you mean
when you change your mind and i never know

but i know the
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason
i don't understand your feelings
and you never step out to calm down a bit
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason [for the rest of my life]
put all the blame onto me
you give me no choice but to leave

(deadman)
i‘ll take the blame for it all
despite the fact i tried
you just put up a wall
and filled my head with lies
and i know you won't change, love
you fucked up the way i think, love
and i don't know what i'm doing here
with someone who'd take my life
(deadman + chriad)
if they could now

(chriad)
if they could now
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
truth hurts you don't want to hear it

truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
truth hurts you don't want to hear it truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

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truth hurts (ft. deadman 死人)

never let you leave

stream

w/ @scrobaby

//
now everyday feels like a waste of timeee
i’m fucking sick of it 
i hate this life
and i’d do anything to change, i’d try
i know it’s not for me
i bite my tongue but now i think it’s time i show my teeth
cuz all my life i been a people pleaser
been a bit too nice i’m fucking putting me first
i know it’s not for me
i bite my tongue but now i think it’s time i show my teeth

love it when u do it like that
i’m jus tryna kiss u right back
love it when u do it like that
i’m jus tryna kiss u right back

in my t shirt
ima bite it til my fucking teeth hurt 
i could please u
tell me what u like
baby i could get u right yuh

waste ur time 
i don’t wana waste ur time oh no
waste ur time,
i don’t wanna waste ur time

teeth

all plats

guitars by @ease-up-kid
prod corefish


I don't think that I could be any better than the
Way they perceive me, ah
I don't believe it
4, 5 tether my own feet to the ground, I can't be seated
Fuck it, I'ma breathe this
I need some sequence
My head feeling over and out
I steal the pieces
Put it back together, the sound was just a pretense
4, 5 tether to ground, the stance anemic
Lost my head up over the clouds while I was geekin'

I let my soul curl down to the deep
Oh, how can I compete when that boy's better than me?
It's obvious the methods are ephemeral
Please pick up a lonely message
Just a friend to appease
I guess I fucked up bad
Then never looked back
And I got things I regret
But never wasn't that
Tie a string, brew a spell
I'm under an attack
I hold a drink, wish you well
And sever my attraction to spend

I think I lost my spot on the roster
Was I an imposter?
Don't know, but the cost made my pockets hurt
Play the slot, let the rot burn
I fiend in the sheets for success
Why can't I be the best? It's like

Spend another damn week
Learning something I'll freak out about
Oh my God, is it something I seek out?
Without any prompt, rhyme or reason
Playing my scene, stage right, I'll be leaving

Fucked up bad and never looked back
And I got things I regret but never wasn't that
And now my whole body's spent
And I couldn't attend
My own breath pitch the depths, breaking sober attempts, fuck

I let my soul curl down to the deep
I lost all my friends 'cause they're better than me
So pick up a pen, write a stanza or three
Get big on the web and go back and retreat

I let my soul curl down to the deep
Oh, how can I compete when that boy's better than me?
It's obvious the methods are ephemeral
Please pick up a lonely message
Just a friend to appease
I guess I fucked up bad
Then never looked back
And I got things I regret
But never wasn't that
Tie a string, brew a spell
I'm under an attack
I hold a drink, wish you well
And hope that my reaction would end

I let my soul curl down to the deep
I lost all my friends 'cause they're better than me
So pick up a pen, write a stanza or three
Get big on the web and go back and retreat

I guess I fucked up bad
Then never looked back
And I got things I regret
But never wasn't that
String brew a spell
I'm under an attack
I hold a drink, wish you well
And sever my attraction to spend

4, 5, TETHER

im done

prod. kidhoodiee + anh + vnoahh + me

lyrics soon

having fun + playing

I'm stuck in my headspace
Mind stuck in rotation
Blame the earthquake, can't shake it
My memory's fading
I spoke to a doctor, she said I ain't fine
Emergency sessions gon' keep me alive
I'm stuck in my headspace
Why am I forsaken

So you can break my voice, make it hurt
So maybe we can take my words
And play all my mistakes in hertz
Just let me let you down

Blood rush, my head
I can't do this again
Find me in egress
I'll leave you for death

Running so long, adrenaline fades
Chasing dreams, I can't keep pace
I'm done chasing butterflies, we all got our fake lives
Through windows the pain lies to lead us astray
I miss me, I miss the rain
Rose tinted cellophane
Terrified down to the cells in my veins
I'm racing my mind, just to feel heard
It used to be debilitating, now it's just the worst
And either way I think of you, the bad days I reverse
I can't see you in a bad way
No, it just hurts

Eat me alive
Come drag me under
Your tears crystallise

So you can break my voice, make it hurt
So maybe we can take my words
And play all my mistakes in hertz
Just let me let you down

Blood rush, my head
I can't do this again
Find me in egress
I'll leave you for death

I am adrift
Coasting on excess of my emptiness
But I got my decaf tea, a little 2CB
I'll break down some walls just to feel the debris
Chip my stone
I'll never know why I never gave us a chance to know us
Leave me, I need to breathe
Hoping you'll disagree

Let me learn to forget
I been feeling like death got the better end
(That was the time of my life)
Don't let me think this out loud
But it's alright
And I'm okay
I hate that I miss you, I do
Wish you died to me when I died for you

So I'm gon break my voice, make it hurt
And play all my mistakes in hertz
To save myself, please
Let me let you down

Blood rush in my head
I can't do this again
Find me in egress
I'll leave you for death

egress (death)

FACE OFF

prod simon m, patrick o'neill, and me

cold sweat
cold heat
hot hands
my bed
you in your dress
hot death
white teeth
hot mess
hold your breath
i wanna be near you (oh!) 
where you are
who you’re with
where you’ll go 
i don’t know (oh!)
you let me in
i’m along 
aperol (oh!)
I can see you for all
Hit the wall (oh!)
empathy is critical 

I’ll be where you are x3
and baby you can have whatever you like 
Where you are 
I’ll be where you are x2
and baby you can have whatever you like
You sent

get along
you look at me 
look like you know 
so pardon me now, if we don’t
I’m in the side room
in the back of the club for a breather till we get back on
gimme a light
I’ll get you something to roll 
you can’t interfere where you’re broke
hit with the fire
I’ll get you in for the low
And maybe we see how it goes
And I guess, that you’re doing it wrong baby
You’re giving it up like you’re dumb
But that isn’t fun baby 
You’re holding a whip, with your tongue
No pulling a punch baby 
They say that a girl is a gun
You could be the one,maybe 
you could have whatever you like 

anything you like 
just me and you with no delusions
and there, you’re right 
it’s just enough to over hear
in the air tonight 
you feel the crush
you feel the moving
it’s rare tonight 
and baby you can have whatever you like 

I’ll be where you are x3
and baby you can have whatever you like 
Where you are 
I’ll be where you are x2
and baby you can have whatever you like

hot death
cold feet
hot fuss
interest 
don’t act like it’s ridiculous 
it’s just 
the way that you move
and the way that you are
you know I really can’t describe 

I’ll be where you are x3
and baby you can have whatever you like 
Where you are 
I’ll be where you are x2
and baby you can have whatever you like

hotdeath (oh!)

Passenger - Reggae Infused album reimagines Daudi Kabaka’s iconic Kenyan hit Passenger through the lens of Jamaican reggae, blending East African pop sensibilities with the laid-back grooves and syncopated rhythms of reggae. It’s part of the Reggae Infused series, where The Jamaica Band collaborates with Kabaka’s catalog to create a cross-cultural fusion that highlights both traditions.