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crash (jolst)

shoutout @sendflowrs for the carry
prod: @afterlife66

polaroid w/ sendflowrs (afterlife)

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(verse) 
i thought you cared about my feelings
every night i’ve been screaming
questioning what’s life’s meaning 
what i’ve been believing 
holding on to every little thing that ever mattered
you know that my hearts been shattered
sayin that the medicine will always make me better
but every single day i always get sadder
when will i be okay
when every day feels like the fucking same
i’m holding on to all these memories 
but still i question why things won’t change

(bridge)
everyday feels like the same thing 
and i’m fucking don’t with it (i’ve had enough)
when will i 
be set free
from this life

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

blood doesn't run thicker than water (discent)

decomposing (switch)

CHORUS:

my eyes roll back
the skies fade to black
nothing stays the same
and i wish it wouldn’t change
the clouds are looking gray
as my colors fade away
and i cant tell what’s real and what is not
anymore
my life’s becoming a chore

VERSE:

(becoming a chore)

b-been wasting my time 
trying to find
happiness in that
that don’t feel right
how might i
survive this tragic life

(how might i survive)

i wake up and complain 
about the day 
before it’s even begun 
am i the only one
that feels this way
i cant look at my own face

BRIDGE:

to bare witness to face the facts that i just go on living the same boring shit… i cant fuckin do this


CHORUS:

my eyes roll back
the skies fade to black
nothing stays the same
and i wish it wouldn’t change
the clouds are looking gray
as my colors fade away
and i cant tell what’s real and what is not
anymore
my life’s becoming a chore

my life's becoming a chore (metlast)

i dont mind if im just wasting time
im alright when i see you smile
fuck my life 
why did you leave me
please dont cry
when you're reading
what i wrote you
sorry that i broke you

i dont wanna be okay
when i cant be with you
im drowning in this fucking pain
i needed you
i wanna kiss you in the rain
i miss seeing you
i guess now its too late to change
i needed you

when i see you smile (splashgvng x jolst)

cant you see im never right...
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-lyrics-
i think i saw you up, in my head last night
out with other men, cant you see im never right
trusting in myself is something i cannot get right
loading ur drugs in ur pipe while you cry

i know that you hate it, i always ask why
i sit in my room and just cut with the knife
you gave me last year, yeah its pretty that's why
i must fuck it up, cannot treat me right

sit on the phone on the bus in the night
collide with the reason that i am alive
get deep in my thought when alone, see the light
appear on my phone, that's a signal in time

you'll recognize me, yeah hope its not a lie
im cutting the line, ill cut out ur lies
ill stay on that grind, hope that life treat me right
dont know what to do, im nauseous not fine

i think i saw you up, in my head last night
out with other men, cant you see im never right
trusting in myself is something i cannot get right
loading ur drugs in ur pipe while you cry

gimme a reason that i shouldn't die
ill tell you a secret just help me confine
my demons inside, i fear what is life
you work all the time
dont see you at night

goodnight, goodbye (prod. reytee)

mix & master @ztope

lyrics

just leave me alone
over halfway down the street
babe  jus wanna go home

i get the feeling u vacant in every seat that take 
new conversation, the same shit
now all of this food is just tasteless

looking out in the distance 
i can still hear u say bye
jus reminiscing 
ig guess time flies
causing the dimming of light
dont make up ur mind till 
the fragments aline

just hold it there in place
warm the coldest state
forget th bigger pic
and lose a sense of space

no no no never no
eyes at the back of my head fully grown
but i cannot see the world fall to my toes

i never expected this
u never mentioned this
nods and sighs
we dont speak in sentences

cold, affection less
never questioning
stoped to care
but thats worse than ending it

“are u okay”
u “said i miss u” i turn to ur face
words to my grave
i won’t disclose what i felt that whole day
coz i thought u had changed

woah woah woah leverge woah
moved way too fast but ignoring th past yet if a meteorite crashed
yeh i think u would know
sometimes i wish and i hope
that, u would reciprocate this back 
theres a big a difference between a i miss u 
and my i love u so

no no no never no
get rid from ur rotation, playing it safe wasting time when we can move it the edge of the globe

dont wanna not live in this world but the walls are so thin 
no amount or brick or stone could make me suffice with this life
if ur not in the plans its a house not a home

never expected this
and now im crossing every bridge
burns behind me
there’s no way back to bliss

i hate myself 
so i read these passages
lock the safe
but they’re always cracking it

always go fast
but i never fasten it
if it hits hard please stop masking it
deep and buried 
always be asking it
surprised ive lasted this long

i always hated being sheltered
im not urs just give it up
i go to parties full of strangers
just to come thru and fuck it up
at least my music going good
but knowing me ill prolly fuck it up
tonight my head is feeling good
but of course i always drug it up

never expected this x8

crash (jolst)

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