I can't pretend,
you're not around,
you want me dead,
I want you now,

my lips been chapped,
since we broke up,
its enough, these girls arent enough,

I know that you want,
me back in our bed,
you've been with your ex,
while im in your head,

I used to call you baby,
you know you drive me crazy
said that youd come n save me,
baby, here I am just waiting,

I cant escape the hole you've dug

Prod by. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCj5C0NwiOG0MgY5mwf5Ejtw

lyrics: 
I always wonder why you did this to me 
I never got any closure
The pain made me older 
It lingers in my thoughts 
And it haunts me 
Pictures on your facebook  
They taunt me 

I always wonder what it would've been like with you here 
But instead, I'll never know because you disappeared 
Now I feel so unlovable 
cause its all I've ever know

Because when you're ten years old 
You just want your dad 
You never understood how he could be so bad 

I remember laying in your arms 
And feeling so safe 
I didn't know that I would 
Lose you one day 
It's been like 7 years now 
And idk how to process
the fact that i lost you 
It all just feels so wrong 
Idk what to do 
So I'll write another sad song

all i've ever known (Wraith Nîr)

originally performed by nothing, nowhere
reprod by caves
non profit cover

lyrics

I'm a 20 something 
somethings running thru my veins
I'm feeling quite alone
used to say I gave a fuck about a shit
but now that shit that I dismiss gets in my bones
and u can tell ur friends that ima mess and that I always stay at home 
but ur alcohol will fade away
those local bars and glory days are gone

how about that?
still stuck in the past
did u think it would last?
this too shall pass

passed out slow, yeah 
and it's all in my head
or its all too real
either way I'm fucked
either way I've had enough
and I did this to myself 

_twenty_something_(nothing, nowhere cover; caves)

@shikixo
@kindahaunted
RARE VID: https://youtu.be/YXwdBd9copk
lyrics:
baby i don't wanna eat i wanna fade away
i don't wanna fall asleep i wanna die today
i been smoking on formaldehyde it eat my brain
and ik yr fucking him so i just lie awake

well like i guess we were in love until we fucked it up n lost it
i been staring at my ceiling waiting on an open coffin
sick of these 4 walls and the agony of silence
i think i'ma be alright as long as i stop lying
everything i touch been turnin to gold i feel like midas
i can't fall asleep cuz in my dreams yr always dyin
baby why u cryin?
baby r u proud of me?
i did everything i said i would to those who doubted me
but i know u see me with a sold out tour
but i cut 13 lines and i cut 13 more
and i regret it everytime u knock i open the door
tell the boys pack their bags, they're all goin 2 war

4 leaf clover, bby i been feelin lucky
u can take the pain away, it gets replaced with all this money
u cut thru me like a razor cuz u kiss me, leave me bloody
i been gettin better on my own, don't tell me that u love me
u shouldn't tell me that u love me, i don't wanna find out
just a whisper while ur leavin, i don't wanna cry now
i don't wanna know the truth, think i need to lie down
i was thinking u were mine now :'(

and i think something's wrong w my head
i can't go thru that again ;)
i need some rest i'm braindead
need something for the pain

formaldehyde (prod. taylor morgan) [vid in desc.]

burning like a star, doomed to die alone

lyrics: 

dont know how to make this right
always feelin' so dead inside
its all i can do not to end this life
yall just fuck me up and leave me here to die
god knows im so sick of cryin
fuck this shit i feel like dyin
dont believe anything they say now
ima light up to relieve this pain now...

dont know why 
i cant face this world
im always starin thru the blinds 
dont hmu im just a waste of time 

dont hmu im just setback
id rather be alone and hit this gas pac
pls dont get to close to me
everyone who does becomes the enemy...

dont talk to me...
if you do youll just want to leave
im backin down i dont want this 
nothing that i do could ever, ever stop this
burning like a star, im doomed to die alone
everybody leaves ive never had a home
just go away, i dont wanna talk now
im perfectly fine being a shadow in the background

oooo a shadow in the background
oooo the sun comes out
i dont make a sound...
i dont make a sound....

shadow in the background [+taurs & jolst]

produced and mixed by brody
4EVER

[LYRICS]

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Where did you go and why did you leave?
You carved your name in my car with ease 
Rejecting Carr like a recall disease 
I’ve been making decisions I’ll regret next week
If the weddings in autumn, I hope that you freeze 
Cause lately you’re sin and I am the priest
You pray I’m ok, but you call out my name
Rest lies in your face who am I to blame 

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Myself from this planet being here caused me agony
Too scared to pull the trrigger kill myself inside a fantasy
Instead, wish you well when i’m dead, 
Blood scattered on my walls same walls that move sideways,
That’s my new wave, fuck all of the death,
hard drugs to get me thru the days
Fuck what i said, 
That shits old fashion to me now i think that i’ve had enough
Never really done a drug if imma keep it a buck,

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

[outro]
Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll be okay
Reflection stayin tainted with the flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase

Sideways feat. Ila (prod. brody)

SoundCloud struck the original and denied my claim even though i own a lease. so here's the song unmonetized. sorry for the delay.
"lifefuckinhatesme" track 1.
prod. metlast and 5head

lyrics:
i been tryin my whole life
to figure sumn out
but nothin ever goes right
and i thought i was gonna be okay
when you came into my life
but now you're gone
and im pretty sure its my fault
guess you couldnt handle me after all?
and i swear to god this is the last time
cuz all this bullshit weighing down on my mind

its weighing down and its been so fucking long
since i felt okay
im running out of things to say
feelin so fucked up every day

and it never seems like i can ever figure out
wtf is going on inside my mind
but im trying, believe me im trying
but i swear to god it seems like
they're always lyin
so idk why i keep on tryin
i just wanna let it go
and ion really know
why nowhere feels like home

i just wanna go, but nowhere feels like home
i been feelin so fucked up
feelin so alone
i just wish that there was somewhere that i could fuckin go
guess ill just settle for another night stoned...

all i've ever known (Wraith Nîr)

Cypression