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most ppl don’t know the reason
you left that night

i’ll eat a mouthful of words
you wont hear me right

each time i try 
its for my family line
hope that when i die
that youre there waiting on the other side


when you left i never felt the same
when i go out now i hide my face

youre taking years off my life, im bleeding red
you saw right thru my lies and went to bed

im sorry about it
still mad about it now
one day youll find that, in more ways you let me down

bleeding red

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girl you tore up that apartment
when we started growing cold

someones daughter, needs a father
but he left her all alone

left the bar when i was carded
wasent 21 years old

took my heart, now its discarded
whyd you use it as your own?

last ditch, i rest my eyes in a parked car
so sick i left my wine on ur bar cart
time ticks and love will leave u with a dark scar
words slip and i think you just took it too far

where do we go?
im stuck on the outside
been losing control
been losing my damn mind
but you’ll never kmow
our loves on a faultline
turn me to stone
when im gazing at ur green eyes

baby i think thats toxic
maybe you think im all wrong
one word and im changing the topic
suprised myself that im moving on

yet u coiodnt care less
7 days same clothes got a loose neck
i was down on my own like a reject
pardon my problems i feel like a nuisance

last month i saw your mom in that walmart
on lunch i shed some tears on my carhartt
as kids we measured heights and left a door mark
we grew quick it’s such a shane we didn’t go far

fault line [jacob vallen]

prod. den

its so cold 
in this home
whered u go?
whered u go?
whered u go?
we watch the snow fall
you place your hands on my face
a feeling to keep me warm
until we head back to ur place
its so cold 
in this home
whered u go?
whered u go?
whered u go?
its so cold 
in this home
whered u go?
whered u go?
whered u go?

pushpull w/ notcursed (den)

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hey dont remind me of this
hey dont remind me of that
it don’t surprise me that i had it all and then it kicked the can
i wish i aint care if you laugh
i care about their view too much
and idk where i stand
but im tryna be in the palm of ur hands

baby thats way too much
& i couldnt hold it if both of my hands held out
and i dont mean to say too much
i couldnt think why you want me to be around
you told me i did enough
but it really don’t compare to all that you done
and maybe if i was in love then i woulda chose you over drugs

you dont know what it means to be addicted
i was conflicted i was so broke
i think you sense it i was inflicting all of the
damage in all my bones
but that was my mission you wouldn’t get it
that was the only thing up in my home
other than dishes i had been washin just to get out of their face be alone

(halfhearted)

yeah i’m not alone when im up in the night 
voice in my brain said im crossing the line
coulda been worse but im barely alive, put down my weapon you sharpen your knife 
didn’t know any better,pull me apart by the holes in my sweater 
put a stamp on my letter, wait seven months but you still won’t answer 

lost and was found in the town i was raised in
praying on my downfall give em entertainment 
right hook to the jaw leave him right on the pavement 
for the last few months i been feeling like im vacant

i get racks and they know
family upset when i walk in the room
stuck on the times i was passing the bowl
but look at me now i found peace in my soul

(brecken)
you got a peice of my soul
i want it back like asap
you wanted me to go home
left you right there ima walk back 

told me that id get evicted if i ever got a place of my own

but i been here 4 months cuz i dont listen
honestly dont think you think i could grow

month four w/ halfhearted (dash)

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Do you hate it when I chicken-scratch
These paragraphs
I could hit the backspace
Trust the sword, in your two hands
And say your half
I could care less these days

No I never was supposed to have enough of you
But closer only helps as much as patches do
I swear I’ll try it all for you
I’ll bare the weight til
These weary legs fail
The wires tangle
And I’m stranded, mangled

I’m doing all that I can
What is it all for
All for the damn war
I feel the blood on my hands
I feel like less of a man
why do we do this
Wasting the meaning of human
Already know that I don’t wanna do it
Girl 
Raising the blade isn’t worth what it’s proving

Do you hate it when I chicken-scratch
These paragraphs
I could hit the backspace
Trust the sword, in your two hands
And say your half
I could care less these days

swords (hero x emptychest)

got another stomach ache
a new home, another shape
broke down on the tracks as you walked away
i’m missing home
i watched it burn today

i’ve been chasing dust
it’s such a long road
i’m walking it
two feet in the dirt
it’s a journey and i’m not equipped
climbing up the bridge to look down on this vacant town
but it’ll never feel the same since you’re gone
it’s a different sound

you would take my hand and tell me i am not a letdown
and if i fall this time you won’t be there
i’ll only hit the ground
i paint it all grey
to show there’s nothing left
i’m in a ghost town
one more day
i’ll no longer be around

stomach ache [deadends]

12 deep im still lookin for the bottle
everytime i go to sleep i pray i miss tomorrow
anything and everything is never what i thought no
god i hate ur memories they make me feel so hollow

every day the same bullshit
what the fuck is you pulling
you aint give em the context
you aint showin the full clip

everyday the same toolkit
who the fuck is you fooling
why you worried where im at
dont threaten me just pull it

who are u when im not around?
you wont ever make it out that town

12 deep im still lookin for the bottle
everytime i go to sleep i pray i miss tomorrow
anything and everything is never what i thought no
god i hate ur memories they make me feel so hollow

sell me thru the goddamn payphone
co-drive in this rally race u didnt get the pace notes
anything and everything ill take it to the face smoke 
god i hate this place and i dont wanna wake tomorrow
 
[notahero]:

tryna quit these drugs is so hard
i know you can’t hold my hand through it all
i’ll keep singing through the fall
till the end of it all

but it’d be so much easier if you met me half way
i think i left a piece of myself at that lake
i wake up throwing up with my pale green face
nothings coming up from this sorrow i cant break

i heard you’re doing better now i hope you break a leg
i hope you break your face

before i go to sleep 4 pills to my face
when i wake up i feel mad that it’s another day
i’m puffing a medical cart this shit feel like it’s fucking laced
i’m fucking describing this shit to you let me go at my own pace

let me go at my own time
i know you love me by the way you take my jeans off it’s time to fucking dine
yea it’s time to fucking die

tell me who was your favorite person when you were alive
cause mine is you

i will not hesitate for smoke im like a juul
i can see the stars in your eyes ill put stars on your roof
she saw me crying im like babygirl nah im cool
nah im cool



context ft. notahero (jolst)

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soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

i been pouring up some purple potions gotta better my flaws
youre right that i aint get the notion but still i called you
i think you think i have it easy baby what would you do if you were me
but who is me
swear im better off writing my eulogy
im so full of me
at the same time felt a decline in the way that im viewing me
im scraping up rust off my armor maybe that way i could get clean
i feel the atoms that make my being whole just fold and rot and die
she pour out red wine but she rolling brown eyes
i cant fight this battle baby theres a thorn in my side
it feels like too much energy just to try to survivie
i got none left im giving out pieces of my soul for this shit but the songs dropping right?
the songs drop on time
i fought a hard battle but the sword has dulled through time
i put this lighter to the blunt and watch it shine
it look just like a shooting star when im passing by

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

better i was

thought u knew how better i was

scraping off the rust (p. kaydo)

prod. all we left unsaid

(demo)

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we're spinning round and round
all i want is to make you proud
i still hear your silent whispers
even if youre not around
i got too many problems
and you added many more
theres certain things i cant ignore
theres no explaining what i saw
i waited way too long my friend
and i cant give enough for both of us
set me alight
you go do what you wanted to
and i wont wait for you

i wanna be something to you

I sang “Colours” last night as a small tribute, with just my voice over acoustic guitar and a soft organ humming underneath. As I reached the first verse, the simple melody felt very close, and the organ filled in just enough warmth without overpowering the guitar. The mix of guitar and organ gave the song a slightly different texture than the classic folk version, but I felt it still honored Donovan’s spirit.

When I sang the lines about yellow, blue, green, and freedom, I could feel the emotional weight in the quiet moments — the organ would swell just enough to support, then pull back to let the acoustic strings lead. Performing it that way made me appreciate how delicate the song is, how much space it allows for expression. It was a modest tribute, but I felt connected to the song’s mood in every line.

pushpull w/ notcursed (den)

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