metamorphosis v2

Produced by flower x luffy x dandee

Lyrics

Who could ever know that I would never
End up nowhere better?
I thought I'd be better by this time
Thought that last time and this won't be the last time

It's my purpose to feel like that I'm worthless
And I'm certain I can never change that
God you keep sending signs
But I need intervention

"Some of you ask God to take away things like stress but the only reason you were seeking God in the first place is because you were stressed out, so why would God take away the very thing that got you to him? For God to take away the stress you have to prove to him that blessing won't be your curse."

I know that it would
I know it would blind me
From the very thing
That was the reason I was fighting

I did it before
I'd do it again
Leave me at the bottom
If it'll keep me from sin

Cause I don't wanna be
Like this demon that I am
But I don't wanna be
That fucker I knew as Ken

I did not like, all the feelings that he had to go hide
His eyes always holding tears I never got why
I fight, he just went away into a bedroom
I'd die to get us a place we never been to

He'd just lay there
Crying "No fair"

Who could ever know that I would never
End up nowhere better?
I thought I'd be better by this time (x2)

thistooshallpass.

GHO$TBOY- i Feel Dead (Ft.AXG Karmah)

Produced by emma

Lyrics

I needa reset
I can't catch my breath
I been on my own for so long
Don't need a friend

I don't like to talk
Write a song bout how I been
I can feel their claws in my skin
When I'm in bed

I see humans walk around that already been dead
I see faces all around that I know just were sent
For me to fall back into a person I don't miss
Body hate my soul and I know my heart hate my head

Fuck it, blow it off, that's your only option
You don't even talk, what's on your chest can not get off it
So I recommend your neck, your head needs to be off it
Will it ever end? Cause I don't know if I can stop it

in my skin.

Produced by flower x nihil2free

Lyrics

Despair, I'm too busy in, no more time for friends
I cared way too much and then I was left again
You hit me up out the blue, where the fuck were you?
When I needed it, fuck this life I'm leaving it

When somebody tell you that they love you don't believe in it
I gave her my heart and turned my back she started eating it
Reaper where the fuck you at? Yo purpose I been needing it
Weaker than where I was at, a purpose I been fiending it

I can't let you go, I won't even lie
Don't know how to cope when you're not beside me
I love you so much, I can't explain
You don't give a fuck always leaving me in pain

I love you to death, I don't care about my life
I'll always be there even if you isn't mine
I know you don't care though, you gone do me wrong
Fuck this isn't fair bro, I loved her all along

I don't wanna leave, you don't wanna stay
One of us can't win and I know isn't me
You ain't gotta do me like that
What the fuck I ever do for you to treat me like that?

You don't understand, I'm misunderstood
Every thing is bad, I ain't ever feeling good
I don't wanna play these games no more
You told me you needed space but you just wanna hoe more

Despair, I'm too busy in, no more time for friends
I cared way too much and then I was left again
You hit me up out the blue, where the fuck were you?
When I needed it, fuck this life I'm leaving it

When somebody tell you that they love you don't believe in it
I gave her my heart and turned my back she started eating it
Reaper where the fuck you at? Yo purpose I been needing it
Weaker than where I was at, a purpose I been fiending it

reaper.

Produced by wowthissouzi x jxzxxd

Lyrics

I try to talk but it never comes out right
Don't like the thoughts that I got inside my mind
I wanna call but you won't pick up the line
I swear I try to treat you right but you just always wanna fight

Baby I don't like that
Hit you up but you ain't wanna type back
I ain't ever think that you was like that
What I gave you I will never give that to anyone again

"Why don't you make songs to spread love?" I ain't got none
"If you made a song that sounds like this then you would blow up"
Shut the fuck up, fuck y'all, you can really fuck off
Fuck that, don't wanna go viral for no dumb track

Cause I don't need that
All I need is her and she won't be back
Ever again, won't be better again
Gave her all that I had, ain't got shit left to give

I try to talk but it never comes out right
Don't like the thoughts that I got inside my mind
I wanna call but you won't pick up the line
I swear I try to treat you right but you just always wanna fight

Baby I don't like that
Hit you up but you ain't wanna type back
I ain't ever think that you was like that
What I gave you I will never give that to anyone again

IDLT!

Produced by kledyy x wowthissouzi 

Lyrics

What did I do? What did I do?
What did I do wrong?
How do I move? How do I move?
How do I move on?

Where did you go? I needed you
And you ain't show up, girl you make me sick to my stomach, wanna throw up
Aye I'ma pass out, you take my breath away
And I'ma crash out if you choose to go away

What did I do? What did I do?
What did I do wrong?
How do I move? How do I move?
How do I move on?

What did I do wrong? How do I move on?
Where did that girl go? I ain't have no one
I needed someone to save me
Here's my heart, don't break it, don't think I can take it

"Ken, are you okay?" Hell nah bitch I'm faking
Fuck all of these songs, please don't tell me I'm amazing
Your words stuck to me like a tattoo
I wish I could call you, I wish I could ask you
What did I do?

What did I do? What did I do?
What did I do wrong?
How do I move? How do I move?
How do I move on?

Where did you go? I needed you
And you ain't show up, girl you make me sick to my stomach, wanna throw up

What did I do? What did I do?
What did I do wrong?
How do I move? How do I move?
How do I move on?

What did I do? What did I do?
What did I do wrong?
How do I move? How do I move?
How do I move on?

Where did you go? I needed you
And you ain't show up, girl you make me sick to my stomach, wanna throw up
Aye I'ma pass out, you take my breath away
And I'ma crash out if you choose to go away

What did I do? What did I do?
What did I do wrong?
How do I move? How do I move?
How do I move on?

what did i do?

(lyrics)

It's 4 a.m., but I'mma push it to 5 Lookin' dead, baby, but I'm feelin' too damn
alive Baby, give me some time and I'mma change
our lives they Ain't fuckin' with it now, but baby, give

them some time Every day, every week, nothin' new, no sleep
4 Am lookin' at the mirror Just a sad boy with some eyes of a killer
What you sad for, baby, I can't remember What she mad for, I'm always right here with
her Teen lovin', just some teens fuckin', baby

They say it means nothin', but baby, it means everything
Baby, keep it comin', that's just that teen shit I'm still a teen, bitch
Screamin' fuck the world, comin' off a little mean shit
Fuck the world, the world mean, bitch I ain't stoppin' till my mama wip foreign

I ain't stoppin' till I hate this shit and it start to get boring
I ain't stoppin' till the music dead and got me mournin
It's 4 a.m., but I'mma push it to 5 Lookin' dead, baby, but I'm feelin' too damn
alive Baby, give me some time and I'mma change

our lives they Ain't fuckin' with it now, but baby, give
on them some time Every day, every week, nothin' new, no sleep
4 Am I'm lookin' at the mirror Just a sad boy with some eyes of a killer
What you sad for, baby, I can't remember What she mad for, I'm always right here with her

GHO$TBOY- 4:AM *prd.soprettyanxiety*

Produced by metlast x luffy

Lyrics

What you mean to me, I don't mean to you
You don't feel for me, what I feel for you
I would kill for you, girl I would die for you
Wish I wouldn't every single time I cried for you

Wish I didn't every single time I call to you
You don't care at fucking all bitch, I'm a flaw to you
You don't want nothing to do with me at all do you?
Why the fuck did I ever go and fall for you?

Maybe I won't ever know, maybe I won't ever get
Better than what I am right now, baby girl you heaven sent
Told me that you're here for me but I don't see no evidence
Graveyardwraith, I don't open up I'm reticent

I slept better with the false belief that you had loved me
Always tried my best for you, you made it look so easy
Why do I still call knowing you won't ever answer?
Staring from the window that my bloody hands have shattered

What you mean to me, I don't mean to you
You don't feel for me, what I feel for you
I would kill for you, girl I would die for you
Wish I wouldn't every single time I cried for you

Wish I didn't every single time I call to you
You don't care at fucking all bitch, I'm a flaw to you
You don't want nothing to do with me at all do you?
Why the fuck did I ever go and fall for you?

graveyardwraith.

Produced by R3DQX & discent

Lyrics

You won't remember me when I'm a memory
I'm so in love with you, you're a facade cause you act and you only pretend to be
Thought I'd be better by now but I'm not, I was sick and I only was withering
You'll never know what you meant to me, you'll never know what you did to me
I can't let go and it's sickening

I can't get you out of my head
Maybe I will when I'm dead
Maybe I won't, then maybe I'll haunt
That bitch until she finds death

9mm of metal inside of my skeleton
Wish I could say that the state that I'm in
Is better than the one that you left me in

But I won't cause I can't
I only wish I could hold you
I feel the wall on my back
If it was cap, wouldn't of told you

That I love you more than anything inside of this world that we're in
I'm in a hole, can't get out of

memory.

Produced by IOF

Lyrics

I don't wanna run
But you don't wanna come back
You're the only one
That I would ever come back to

So hold me closer
I say I need closure
But I won't ever close up
That door in case you show up

You think I'm okay but
I won't be okay cause
I know you're not with me
And I just keep pretending

That one day you'll come back
But that won't ever happen
Why the fuck this happen?
I wish I could go back in

I don't know what I need but I want you
Who you want I wish I could be but I'm not
Dude what the fuck did I ever do to deserve this?
All I ever needed was you but I'm worthless

I said I don't know what I need but I...
Who you want I wish I could be but I'm...
Dude what the fuck did I ever do...
All I ever needed was just you

I don't wanna run
But you don't wanna come back
You're the only one
That I would ever come back to

So hold me closer
I say I need closure
But I won't ever close up
That door in case you show up

i don't wanna run.

Produced by kewan x jaysset

Lyrics

Wanna heal but I can't
I mean I prolly could but I won't
What I feel isn't black
It gets darker than you'll ever know
I could talk but I won't
I can't ever let nobody know
What I have in my head
I won't ever be the one you hold
When it's cold, when it's dark
When I feel like I'm falling apart
This shit is old, wake up everyday
And I do the same shit and I play the same part
And I'm getting so tired of all the emotions
I keep to myself that are hurting my heart
Why the fuck did you let me get over you
Just to reach out to me? Now I'm back under you
Can't get you out of me

Leave me alone, I'm fine
I don't wanna be here anymore
I don't know why I try
I don't even have anymore hope
I'm a fraud, I'm a lie
Cause I know that I told you I'm fine
But I'm really not cause I know if I was
I wouldn't have to say that I am every time
I don't cry anymore, I used to a lot but I just got bored
I used to fall to the floor, screaming at God "Why the fuck was I born?"
Wanted to die, I tried but I failed, do I still go to Hell?
I barely care about my own life, you really think I care bout someone else?

emotions to mp3.

DADDY

Produced by R3DQX & discent

Lyrics

A while ago, I said I was gone be better
That was years ago, I still ain't no fucking better
I just learned to hide it in places you won't find it
You just can't get close enough to me to see behind this

Mask that I put on, really think that I'm gone die with it
Cause I just won't take it off cause I get frightened
When you can see me for what I really am inside
I don't like myself so loving me why would you even try?

I know you don't care so you ain't gotta fucking lie
Tread on me careful cause I don't care about my life
I'll take you with me if I choose to end it
You should think twice about fucking with my feelings

Cause I ain't got too many left at all
Can't seem to catch my fucking breath at all
So if you choose to involve yourself at all with me
You should really try to see what I don't want you to see

Girl I ain't really even that great
And I don't wanna ruin your day
So if you choose to stay
I want you to know that the blame won't be on me

Don't want you to say no stupid shit like:
"Should of told me what you were in it for before you fucking broke me"
Cause I know that I did, who I want can't find her
I might be an asshole but I'm not a liar

A while ago, I said I was gone be better
That was years ago, I still ain't no fucking better
I just learned to hide it in places you won't find it
You just can't get close enough to me to see behind this

Mask that I put on, really think that I'm gone die with it
Cause I just won't take it off cause I get frightened
When you can see me for what I really am inside
I don't like myself so loving me why would you even try?

years ago, a while ago.

Produced by ryini

Lyrics

A lot of times I don't feel I got no one to talk to
And all the drugs I take I promise that I try and not to
But people just avoid me so I smoke and pour a shot too
I'm walking to my grave cause tryna live is what I not do

I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
Dear Father, please save me from myself before I take me
I don't wanna stay here no more, I don't wanna love I'm so sore
I don't see the point of what it's all for, all I wanna see is her on all four

I'm not that guy I used to be
People are of no use to me
Seems like everyone got used to me
I'm falling back to what I used to be

I'm not alive, I'd rather die
Than to keep up hating my life
Girl goodbye, you're not mine
I'm not yours leave me alone (x2)

I'll fade away with the wind
Everyday's a day I hate being in
Or maybe I just hate my own skin
Is it really even that more different?

Cause the world is bitch that's why I say fuck it
Every morning is shit but I don't think nothing of it
Cause it's always been that way for me
God why'd you give so much hate to me?

I can't take it
How'd I make it?
This far I don't know
Cause I keep losing my hope (x2)

I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
Dear Father, please save me from myself before I take me
I don't wanna stay here no more, I don't wanna love I'm so sore
I don't see the point of what it's all for, all I wanna see is her on all four

I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
Dear Father, please save me from myself before I take me
I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning

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i lost her.

Lyrics

Fucking bitch, yeah I swear to god I hate you
You do all the shit that you told me that you won't do
I might fucking switch, don't you trip out when I do though
Hold up you ain't shit, what I'm tripping out bout you for?

Confused my lust for love, just wanna fuck her
That don't mean I like her, that don't mean I really want her
I might just get what I want and then I'll bump her
Swear I tried to care but she was stagnant so I dump her

I'ma ghost that bitch, I'll haunt her
She gone shake it like a red nose, not thumper
Ass fat, I'm gone hear it clap like thunder
All we do is fuck until we lose it, Oh Wonder

You can hold my hand but you can't save me
Every bitch I loved a sham, they hate me
If you don't wanna give me a chance, don't date me
I can't put my heart in your hands, you'll break me

Fucking bitch, yeah I swear to god I hate you
You do all the shit that you told me that you won't do
I might fucking switch, don't you trip out when I do though
Hold up you ain't shit, what I'm tripping out bout you for? (x2)

senseless! | Produced by Fantom

www.instagram.com/suissidee
(prod. @x10derrick)

rip peep <3

let me fall

let me fall (prod. x10derrick)

www.instagram.com/suissidee
(prod. @prod-mangetsu)

LLP<3

first sight (prod.manget$u)

Blind Boy

Lyrics

I don't mean to be but I been pissed off
Seems like everyone except me just hits off
If you don't accept me then get lost
I don't get life, it's a dumb cause (x2)

Jealous of everyone doing better than I am, cause I can't keep up
Helpless, I don't think this fun, I feel so alone, I don't got no one

It's so dark in my mind
Now the light just makes me blind
I wish I knew love, I don't know what it's like
Cause if it really was, you'd be here with me tonight

But you're not, you're out there
Fucking on some niggah while he's pullin on your hair
I hope that he breaks your fucking heart
How did I get bad? I don't know where to start

Was it when you cut me off?      
We could start a home but you're sleeping in his car
You ain't knew I know so it hurts more hard
That you lied to my face when you didn't need to start

Moonlit rose I fucking hate you
You're just a hoe, I fucking hate you
Where did you go? I fucking hate you
Fucking hate you, fucking hate you

I don't mean to be but I been pissed off
Seems like everyone except me just hits off
If you don't accept me then get lost
I don't get life, it's a dumb cause

Why in the fuck would you hit me up just to block my ass when I show I give a fuck?
I should of let you wreck that car that night you called me off 6 bars
Take note, this is what a hoe does, you'll be better off leaving them to rot and rust
Don't you ever fall for a bitch that need saving, she left my heart so broken and tainted

Don't you call me when you're falling
I can't care anymore
I'm walking off
I'm out of the door

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IHY! | Produced by klimlords

video 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pPoYQ4DKxVY
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(prod. @grave5y0 x @mangetsu-hoozuki)

metamorphosis v2

Daniil Doo-Young