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Clout

im gonna give it all up

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@adny-disgraci

lyrics:
black and white is comfortable cuz the grey is always a silver lining
i'm used to watching the cars pass and seeing my life flash by behind me
i'm pretty good at fading into the background cuz everyone just wants to stab me in the back now
i'm pretty good at fading into the background cuz everyone just wants to stab me in the back now

[adny]
stab me in the back now
i'm workin' hard but they keep tellin' me to back down
every step, every move i make they always crack down
they say you'll never make it till you make it out of that town
every day is rain i just feel like king cyrus
everywhere i go i always feel like there's a bias
i'm thinking this'll never go away like a virus
and i'm still feeling blue like my iris
no i'm not syre
i don't smoke so i'm not gettin' higher
i've been feeling low talkin' flat like a tire
you told me you love me but i know that you're a liar
i hope this comes back to haunt you
for consolation yeah i still want you 
but every time i speak about you i'm still gonna taunt you
baiting, berating, i'm stuck here decaying at 16
i think i should start medicating, i hate it

black and white is comfortable cuz the grey is always a silver lining
i'm used to watching the cars pass and seeing my life flash by behind me
i'm pretty good at fading into the background cuz everyone just wants to stab me in the back now
i'm pretty good at fading into the background cuz everyone just wants to stab me in the back now (x2)

silver lining w/ adny

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@ihateshinigami

shoutout kais for making this with me 
follow him: @https://soundcloud.com/ripkais

lonely eyes (w/ kais) (prod. caspr)

This is a re-upload of a song that was deleted by vivant and he gave me permission to re-upload it! Yay!

get me out my head w/ schwarzie (prod. vivant)

If My Heart Could Talk (feat. Yung Summa)

Heart In Despair [feat. Yung Summa](prod. HXRXKILLER)

surprise song, had a bit of creativity tonight.

whats the problem go and live a life you hate
loose ties
almost threw up
saw your face
yeah theres memories that keep me far away
but reality it puts me in my place
ive been thinking bout your words
how you say
if you mean it
would you stay
give me a chance 
let me prove
i could do
everything that he could do
what could he do I couldn't do


got a feelin in my stomach
how you say
useless felt like i was in the way
got a history of feeling out of place
but you knew that
said you loved me 
never went out your way just to prove that

x2

what's the problem go and live a life you hate (prod.cobalt)

lyrics:

foreign forest:
when you're next to me
feels like destiny
kill me, rest in peace
feel invincible
baby you're all I need
all the stars in the sky 
shine for you and me
where'd your man go?
girl did you leave him at home
good you better off alone
come through baby
let's get sentimental
take some photos
let you take them home
ayy, you look prettier without your clothes
strawberry skies
she got kiwi eyes
smoke 'til it's dry
buzzin like a fly
blown like a blizzard
feeling like a fucking wizard

corey slabs:
ima kiss you
I feel like pepe le pieu
ask me what im into
even when you know it's you
lets remember all these pictures
taking polaroids, girl, and shots of liquor
yeah i'm fucked up
off the drugs yeah
all these endorphins yeah
they got me fucked up woah
yeah i'm fucked up ohh
my heart so frozen it's oh so cold

foreign forest:
when you're next to me
feels like destiny
kill me, rest in peace
feel invincible
baby you're all I need
all the stars in the sky 
shine for you and me
x2

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strawberry skies ft. corey slabs (prod. jody x righter)

Lyrics:
I've got so much left to say, you wont hear this anyway
you've been gone for ninety days, no more trial till I pay
You wont pick up your damn phone, it's okay I'll stay alone
With my thoughts without my home, my heart has no place to go

I hope you stay safe
Take care while I'm laced
Don't know where my place is I'm just here for the drinks
I hope you stay safe
While you're gone always
You'll never come back so I guess I'll just hang up

I just thought if I left you a message you might learn a lesson and then learn to call back
I just wanted you always forever but now it's like never I hear from you all that

I just wanted to trust, the things we discussed
I'm riding a train, to get on a bus
A ride to the airport cause now I'm in love
But I never told you, you already run

Away, for good
You're gone, for good

Staysafe

staysafe

produced by eric godlow

featuring @wethher

thanks for listening <3

this song isn't about you, don't flatter yourself (ft Wethher) [prod. eric godlow]

Not Sorry

No auto-tune or voice correction used, poured my haert into this one, love you Minivans <3
Lyrics-
Oh, Where do I go
No direction in my heart nor in my soul 
Oh, Where do I stay
I feel like I’m not meant to fit in any place 
I never knew what I wanted to be in everybody else’s mind
I don’t know why I ever try again
Maybe if I make up a new lie again
You will let me peak inside again
Oh, Where do I go
No direction in my heart nor in my soul 
Oh, Where do I stay
I feel like I'm not meant to fit in any place
So I run away, run away from all my problems
It's okay as long as I get ahead of them
Am I ahead of them?
Do you even want to know the reason that I cry
Everynight I look inside myself I wanna die
I wanna cry again
But Inside
I don't feell like I'm alive
Maybe something's wrong inside this little soul of mine

Where Do I Go (Prod. Ghoul beats)

lemon tree (prod. bytheswitch)

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(FREE) Lo-fi Type Beat - For You

Prod - Kado


https://soundcloud.com/kadowav

Losing it 

Losing It - Kado

Prod - Kado
https://soundcloud.com/kadowav

Better Off In The Ground - Kado

Your Birthday

https://open.spotify.com/artist/4vv1FFVqxnHyQFLmWxjizb?si=HrU92sWkToW9s69gzT8KOQ

CRASH

lyrics:

(kindmile)
I wanna be happy like a pretty rich girl 
Daddy handed her the world 
Oyster came with a pearl 

be happy like a star on tv 
Got me wishing it was me
Am I to ugly for the screen? 

be happy like I always thought I’d be 
but i’m too busy counting sheep 
I could never live my dreams 

be happy
be happy
be happy
be happy

I wanna fuck again for the first time 
That giddy awkward feeling now seems sublime 
I wanna get high like the first time 
But it’s like every time I do it it just toys with my mind 

I’m always like fuck this fuck that 
I whine that life is so wack 
it’s all me 
It’s my fault 
Autumn leaves 
I fall 
Happy ending? Nah, life is nothing like a fairytale 
Prince Charming nah I got no princess in a wedding vale 
Society tells me that I’m not good enough 
Depressions a bitch and she got my ass cuffed

I wanna be happy like a pretty rich girl 
Daddy handed her the world 
Oyster came with a pearl 

be happy like a star on tv 
Got me wishing it was me
Am I to ugly for the screen? 

be happy like I always thought I’d be 
but i’m too busy counting sheep 
I could never live my dreams 

be happy
be happy
be happy
be happy

(doan)
One day imma be happy
Shit I’m lyin to myself again
I been lyin to all my friends
Sometimes I just want the end 
But I just sit and play pretend 
That in the future I’ll be happy then
Sometimes I wanna start again
I’m high but it was better then
So pills became a better friend
At first they were to pass the time
Now it’s a means to an end
I don’t think u could understand 
Maybe I could explain 
But even if u think u know we’ll never feel the same pain
Fuck this world 
They don’t want me to win 
Everything I do a sin 
It’s like my past and future got me pinned
Cuz I don’t like who I been
I used to like who I’m becoming 
But so much shit overwhelming 
Voices in my head are floodin
All my thought are gettin muddy 
Death stopped by he thought that it’d be funny
Gave me visions of the end 
I thought that it would be more bloody

(kindmile)
I wanna be happy like a pretty rich girl 
Daddy handed her the world 
Oyster came with a pearl 

be happy like a star on tv 
Got me wishing it was me
Am I to ugly for the screen? 

be happy like I always thought I’d be 
but i’m too busy counting sheep 
I could never live my dreams 

be happy
be happy
be happy
be happy

be happy w/ doan(prod. immortal)

RIGHT NOW (feat. KID E$S & NICK ALEXANDR)

do you feel pain

I won’t get my hopes up (prod. caspr x saint tomorrow)

PRAYER - OFTEN (PROD. TWON TWON)
mixed & master: mixed_by_saabye

OFTEN (PROD. TWON TWON)

I see passion in disguise I still hate 2 say goodbye , im goin luv u til I d1e


(yea this off dome but its cool sleep on me)

what's the problem go and live a life you hate (prod.cobalt)

data ★ star