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The Upload

BEHIND

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lyrics:
I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Call me a fuck up
My whole life's been a suck-up
Can't do anything right
Laying here every night

Thinking about it
But don't wanna talk
And my thoughts keep on screaming
They never shut up

And I don't want the help
I will never know why
Something's blocking the feelings
'Cause I think that's right

Oh, you know it all
Tell me how I feel
Since you love judging me
Oh, you don't know
'Bout what I'm dealing with
You don't know at all

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am,
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Walking out and
I feel like everybody is staring at me
Reminiscence bout the days
When I felt ok

Maybe I need meds
To numb me out
I don't wanna take them
But I'm already fucked up

Can't just feel all right
I just can't feel ok
That's why I can't sleep at night
I won't tell no one a thing

I don't know why
Voices tell me what do
Bottle up my pain, so you
Can look at me falling through

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel
x2

3 am

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lyrics:

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid

I never wanted
to end up like that
alone and aching 
with no one to talk about stuff
that troubles me and I can't
deal it with on my own
I've been to therapy
didn't listen now I'm at the start

I never wanted to feel like a burden oh no
so sick of hearing that I'm better off dead
Don't need your pity, no
I Don't want any meds
I know I'm god damn numb
but pills just won't help

I need therapy
I am going numb
could you look at me
and maybe dm me from time to time

I don't think I'll be okay
I think it's needless to say
that I need someone to stay
is it bad that I'm afraid
x2

Afraid

i'm not okay

i'm not okay (feat. Lil Xtra & nothing,nowhere.)

lyrics
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fuck my life
fuck my health
you don't care so i'll go fuck myself
fuck this job
fuck this car
every song that i write just coexists with a scar
and i've got paragraphs about the shit that i will never say
cause it'll kill you just to hear me whine and bitch all fucking day
maybe the grass is green in other states where i choose to reside
maybe a glimpse of light will formulate and catch my fucking eye
and maybe you'll hear this when you check my page and ask if i'm alright
cause i've been afraid of all the darkest places lying in my mind

i will convince myself i'm dying but then act like i'm just fine
my mind's a scary fucking place and i can't fix it while i drive
but my car is lucy in the sky with diamonds going sixty five
and you're just a pot hole maybe yoko ono screaming by my side
is this the end of things i'm strumming strings just trying to decide
cause i am afraid of me so save me please i beg you just to try
i'm losing my purpose lifes a circus they said please enjoy the ride
my seatbelt is broken eyes wide open as my body starts to slide

if i escape the wreck i'll disconnect from everyone online
i'll pack my belongings i've been longing for this moment my whole life
i'll disappear for months no mentions of my status or a clue
i'm fine don't you worry there's no hurry to return to what i knew
it's hard to calculate these conversations if i'm being truth
-ful i wanna congregate all that relate to everything i spew
in midst of my disconnect i'll stay in check & keep in touch with few
as long as i'm open im just hoping that it's something i'll get through 

cause i'm a fucking wreck
oh what the heck
why do i even try
i lie in the grass
high off my ass
& watch the clouds just pass on by
if life has a purpose
i am nervous
to unravel what is mine
i'll trip & i'll travel
down the rabbit hole
& ditch my bags inside

ditch

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Nonsense (prod. by llouis)

These Times Don't Feel Right

Punching Bag (feat. Anthony Ortiz)

featuring @sewerperson
produced by @prodjody

highway (ft. sewerperson)(prod. jody)

produced by LIL DUSTY G 

lyrics : 

PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME BEHIND
THE WEIGHT THAT U CARRY IS EQUAL TO MINE
SHOW ME WHATS IN YOUR MIND
AND ILL UNDERSTAND WHY UR TAKING UP MINE

PAIN STOP WHEN WILL THE PAIN STOP
WHEN WILL THE RAIN STOP
I HATE THE RAIN DROPS IT RAINS ON

THE SHAME ON
ILL TAKE THE SHAME ON ILL TAKE THE BLAME ON
THE ONE TO HATE ON SO HATE ON ME
WAIT LONG DONT MAKE ME WAIT LONG
DONT MAKE ME SAY SOME I DONT WANNA HAVE TO
SAY SOMETHING

SOMETHINGS WATCHING OVER EVERY OPTION
EVERYWHERE I GO I DONT KNOW IF I CAN STOP IT
STOP PLEASE STOP IT I DONT WANT THIS
SOMEWHERE DEEP IN MY SUBCONSCIOUS

SAME WE ARE THE SAME 
NOTHING YOU SAY
COULD MAKE ME CHANGE MY MIND NOW
HEY I KNOW YOUR PAIN
WE SHARE A NAME 
STILL YOU WONT KEEP ME FROM HAVING MY WAY

PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME BEHIND
THE WEIGHT THAT U CARRY IS EQUAL TO MINE
SHOW ME WHATS IN YOUR MIND
AND ILL UNDERSTAND WHY UR TAKING UP MINE

MAKING YOUR WAY UP 
YOU WILL FIND
ALL THAT YOU NEED IS RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE
SO LETS TAKE THE DAY OFF 
ONE LAST TIME
FILL UP MY MIND WITH THINGS THAT I LIKE
YOU KNOW WHAT I LIKE…

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Lyrics - 
verse 1:

you're gone in the morning 
and now im living in silence
but i still have your number in my phone
i wish that i could see you again 

you are the reason why 
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend 
still wish that i could see you again

hook:
you are the reason why 
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend 
still wish that i could see you again

still wish that i could see you again
still wish that i could see you again

verse 2:

yeah i still remember 
how you looked me in my eyes
how you said you love me 
and how we danced for the whole night 

do you ever think of me
because baby i still think of you 
and everytime you're not with me 
i can't breath
just wanna hold you close to me

you are the reason why 
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend 
still wish that i could see you again

hook:
you are the reason why 
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend 
still wish that i could see you again

still wish that i could see you again
still wish that i could see you again

you are the reason why
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend

wish i could see you again w/LEVI

produced by me
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lyrics:

And I’m so sick of always fucking up
Always apologize, it’s the last time
Blame it on me, i’m never good enough
Lost my peace, now I lash out

Cant get rid of the taste out my fuckin mouth
Carve out my tongue, said too much, bleeding out
Doesnt matter what I do, it’s way too late
Screaming out and procrastinate

I can’t
Stay here
Mental
Dread and
Pain gets
Stronger
Isolated

I can’t keep it up, nah
Throw me out, leave me to rot
I think it’s easier that way for me
You have no say in this, so just leave me

I dont care what they say
I ignore, most of dms
I don’t know why it’s so hard to
Keep a convo, maybe laugh

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

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Full Of Hate

back to weekly songs soon i promise.
its a new era

prod. sorrowbringer x me <3

lyrics:

try to impress but it comes out fuckin gibberish
torch me to bits as the reputation settles in
mediate the confilct intimidate the cheiftans heir
this human form my disguise and i'm shedding skin
fighting tooth nail claw and i won't let em in
run me out the town i'll come back with an army
we'll tear ur men to bits roast ur offspring with a charring
the grass will dye red by the end of the night here

unless u stop hunting me
i wait here for your concede
i stakeout with 9 slugs in me
i chose truth n i was wrong to
but still i breathe
i've been up all night plus a day and a half
i still worry for my kind now that u lash out like that
it seem clear to me ur people xenophobic
i had trusted u but it's clear to me that is over

my friends won't leave their caves cause of u and it breaks me
so all that i can do is rid ur people from our place here
ur buddy shot me nine times what u gotta say to that
i'm gonna murder all your people i don't care if they our friends
get out my way i got buisness to do on ur village
there's a couple hundred people that i really gotta see
they got appointments to get their heads lopped off at this moment

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try to impress but it comes out fuckin gibberish
torch me to bits as the reputation settles in
mediate the confilct intimidate the cheiftans heir
this human form my disguise and i'm shedding skin
fighting tooth nail claw and i won't let em in
run me out the town i'll come back with an army
we'll tear ur men to bits roast ur offspring with a charring
the grass will dye red by the end of the night here

unless u stop hunting me
i wait here for your concede
i stakeout with 9 slugs in me
i chose truth n i was wrong
but still i breathe

revenge

impatience Ft. sendflowrs

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

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