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Overwhelming

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In Your Head

“The Book” is one of the most emotionally raw and personal songs I’ve ever written — a classical rock ballad that captures the moment I finally told my mum the truth: that I had been sexually abused when I was around eight years old.

Written in 2003 and first released in 2014 on my debut album Time Machine – Reflecting Shattered Dreams, this 2025 AI-reimagined version breathes new life into that moment of painful honesty.

At fourteen, I was torn between silence and the unbearable weight of memory. The lyrics unfold like a confession — a boy’s attempt to open his “book of shame”, haunted by feelings too heavy for his young heart to carry. Each verse is a page from that book — fragile, fearful, but necessary to read aloud.

The arrangement builds with emotional precision — beginning with soft piano and strings, then swelling into electric guitars and orchestral textures that mirror the storm of confession. The chorus, “Why must I fall and break your heart,” captures the impossible fear of hurting the one person who’d always protected me.

The closing line — “I cried” — is not just a lyric, it’s the truth. There’s no dramatic ending, only the release that comes when silence is finally broken.

“The Book” isn’t about blame; it’s about courage — the courage to speak, to face the pain, and to begin healing.

THE BOOK

[Verse 1]
I could read you a story
From my book of shame
I'm haunted by feelings
That find me again

[Pre-chorus]
I can't run away
I can't find a place to hide
From this memory

[Chorus]
Why must I fall and break your heart
I've prayed for salvation, no one comes
I cred

[Verse 2]
I'm lost in emotion
I'm feeling the pain
I'm tired of reasons
I have nothing to say

[Pre-chorus]
I must find a way to hold onto this pain
You don't want to see this

[Chorus]
Why must I fall and break your heart
I've prayed for salvation, no one comes
I cried

[Vocal Adlibs]
[Instrumental]

[Chorus]
Why must I fall down and break all your hearts
I've, prayed for salvation but no one comes
So, why must I fall down and break all your hearts
I've tried to fight this, but I just can't go on

[Outro]
So, why must I fall down and break your heart
I've tried to fight this, but I just can't go on

[Spoken]
I cried

The Book

This is an edited clip of our version of the Tubeway Army single from 1978 which was written by Gary Numan and later featured in his 1979 'Touring Principle' live show albeit a much different take on the track. We are hoping for an official release for this track in 2020.

Bombers - Edit

About

I’m Dean R. Chandler — a London based songwriter, recording artist, and storyteller. My music is rooted in a lifelong search for meaning, weaving together themes of love, loss, faith, alien contact, and humanity’s future.

My upcoming double concept album Human Odyssey (set for release in January 2027) is the culmination of decades of writing and reflection. It’s a narrative journey that begins with a search for God and ends with an encounter with extraterrestrial intelligence — exploring not only what it means to be human, but also where we might be heading as a species. Musically, it draws inspiration from the epic storytelling of Jeff Wayne’s War of the Worlds, the synth-driven edge of Gary Numan, and the emotional depth of artists like Tori Amos and Chris de Burgh.

I previously released Time Machine – Reflecting Shattered Dreams (2014) and continue to revisit my archive of songs written across 35 years, reimagining them with today’s tools and sounds. Some pieces remain intimate and acoustic, while others expand into dark rock, industrial, or orchestral landscapes — but all are connected by a focus on emotional honesty and cinematic storytelling.

Beyond music, I’m fascinated by the intersection of creativity and technology. I’ve been experimenting with AI-driven composition and production to bring old demos to life and to spark entirely new works. For me, these tools are not replacements for human artistry but extensions of it — ways of unlocking stories and emotions that otherwise might have remained hidden.

At its heart, my work is about connection: to the past, to the future, and to the unseen mysteries of existence. Music, for me, isn’t just entertainment — it’s a chronicle of transformation, a conversation between spirit, science, and sound.

https://www.linkedin.com/in/dean-r-chandler-b19715382/
www.deanrchandler.co.uk

The Book

Dean R. Chandler

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