common courtesy

4 https://soundcloud.com/underscores & https://soundcloud.com/pincode8485

i gave up on mixing this

nowhere to be, ever (a remix for underscores x 8485)

glass fort

sinkholes

https://ffm.to/bhredblueandgreenlights

A light show of colors, the screen is my window to her sight

32723

w/ @saoirsedream

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic

lyrics
Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

I wanna write a song for you
I got stuck on the attack
Every word I say to you
You just repeat it back
It's not like I believe in you less
I'm not keeping score and I don't need you to guess
What I'm thinking all the time
Imma just keep it to myself
Never confide don't need no help
Never confide don't need no help
Baby kiss me thru the phone
JK's that's a stupid joke
Hope I laugh so hard I choke
Hope I laugh so hard I-

Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me

And so I put my mind away
I'll figure it out anyway (Baby you help me)
Do you even know who I am?
Do you even care? Do you even care?

red blue and green lights (w/ saoirse dream)

defsharp.ffm.to/fakedit

Slow down
you’re making it harder to know how
Do you see right through me?
You’re out of patience, I know that
I know now, now

But you’d get intimate
and you’d go through with it
what do you get from this
if it doesn’t feel like anything?
why do you drag all this shit out
when you know you’re gonna leave?
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?

if you really wanted me
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?
if you really wanted me
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me

you could’ve had me, i swear
you had me wrapped around your finger
and you didn’t even care
this keep-away shit that you do
just doesn’t feel like you’re being fair
but what would i know?
(it was never my fault)

and you’d get intimate
and you’d go through with it
what do you get from this
if it doesn’t feel like anything?
why do you drag all this shit out
when you know you’re gonna leave?
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?

(if you really wanted me)
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?
if you really wanted me
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me

I know you can walk me through it
But let go of my hand
It’s over and you don’t have to talk
I know how this ends

(Good enough)

would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me?
if you really wanted me
would you have faked it this much
if you really wanted me

BUY / STREAM

Faked it this much

"i have all the problems i need right here !"

(featuring @bhproducer & @singin-in-the-rain)

written and produced by self discovery, bh & stormkloud
mixed and mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

[bh]
i'm feeling like i'm spinning right back uh
i'm sorry if i'm losing my track but
i'm escaping all these places
i am mentally trapped in my head and it's killing me
everybody knows where i'm at uh
oversharing, that's my bad
i hope that i don't fall behind the race
i'm going at my pace i'm going at my pace

there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home

[self discovery]
put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

[stormkloud]
how do i fix myself and
how do i call for help
i'm scared
all familiar but i feel it
i know this has to quit
so how do i pump the brakes
yeah we could just sit and wait
right here
so i wonder if there's time for me
to stop and realize
it's not really something i can change
and i'm sick of wasting all my range
when new places get old
and old faces i told
to watch out for greatness
oh, how bold !
i think i'm better off
sticking to what i know

[self discovery]
there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home
but i'm scared i'll be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
should i be wary
of whom i've shared my side
prepared to be the last one left
in purgatory
i'll hold my tongue
it's for my story
it's fair to say that
guilt has been my guide !

put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

spawnpoint ! (feat. bh & StormKloud)

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

Parka

https://fanlink.tv/ifyourewithme

originally made for FORM's 'All Nighter 9'


miocene memorial garden
@cash-official @acloudyskye @viznode @suji_scared @ejtheloser @shameless_wav @jhlofficixl @gethosyne

visuals by @gethosyne, @suji_scared @viznode & https://x.com/_exaflares


I hide the words again from myself
Knowing no one else is there, to tell
And always fighting, to understand you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
(I'm still alive)
Haven't really been fine

Wait
Feeling lost, can you say we're bound to fate?
Scared of losing everything along the way
I can't change
Chasing a ghost that won't show face
Pile up these dirty leaves
Pointless things ah yeah
Convenient that
There's things I have to tell you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
Haven't really been fine
You took all the time from me
Just passing me by
Show me some life

I keep us tied to each other
Your face in all the places I've been
Still stuck around all the corners
Staring out there

Hide your words
Obscure my face
An empty place
It doesn't even matter
I throw it all away
To escape your face
It fills me with dread
Cause it doesn't even matter

Tell me now
What if we couldn't take —
Call it out
Feeling of echoes
No one knows

listen to me
How did it go
when it fell
out of my reach
Reach out to me
Hopelessly waiting
Wandering out sight

Didn't waste my time
Watering all these dead flowers

Don't go chasing this
Don't go chasing this
Cause I wanted you to know
There's a fire outside your door
Engulfing everything

Just for now
Just for now
It wouldn't matter anymore
Until the dust settles clear

Just for now
Just for a moment

So fingers crossed
Left behind

IF YOU'RE WITH ME

IT'S ALWAYS MY FAULT !!! x3c

Was originally an anv9 song I made with my friends so it is a bit ott and also there are a million credits

CREDITZ (in no particular order)
Suroki - lyrics vox prod mix master whatever man idc
DanielXo - prod
mistmurk - prod+additional vox
Machi - guitar+additional vox
EyesAndArrows - composition+piano
Flood - prod
Maringennnn - guitar

Art by me with guidance from me friend !!!

LYRICS !!!! <3

-------------------------

Fetch ! :D

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

I spend my life on basic
Tasks so I don't have to change it
You don't know what you want at all
[YOU GOTTA GET IT GO !!!]
My friends invite me places
They think this time I'll make it
SO WE FEED THIS CYCLE
[WAS IT ALWAYS MY FAULT ?]

----- CHORUS -----

I think i get it !

Find a little lie
Wear it for a while I

Burn it down to the wire

I can't forget it

Break your sullen smile
Tell me take your time I

Can't keep doing this
Fetchquest

----- Post-Chor -----

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

I'll get what you want

I know it's not enough

I'll get what you want

I know it's not ...

----- Bridge -----

I'mma
Make a whole new track
Then i'll change it
Face it, 
why do I bother anyway ?

Pick it up
Drop it off
Look around
Find another
Pick it up
Drop it off
Look around
FUCK,

Gotta
Try out brute force motivation
You went and drew your heart out
Don't erase it

Pick it up
Drop it off
Look around
Find another
Pick it up
Pick ip up
Pick it up

----- CHORUS 2-----

I think i get it

Find a little lie
Wear it for a while I

Burn it down to the wire

I can't forget it

[YOU GOTTA GET IT GO !!!]

Break your sullen smile
Tell me take your time I

Can't keep doing this ...

I think i get it

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

Find a little lie
Wear it for a while I

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

Burn it down to the wire

I can't forget it

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

Break your sullen smile
Tell me take your time I

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

Can't keep doing this

ITS ALWAYS

Fetchquest

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Thanks to all my friends 4 cheering me on this year, sorry for always making things so difficult.

