much love to @kaiyko <3
art by both of us (flower pic by love-abia on tumblr)

[demxntia & kaiyko]
you're the flower that I saw that day
I miss the way you comfort me 
I lost my sense of feeling love
the day you walked away from me

[kaiyko]

The other day, I swear that I saw your face, 
hidden in the crowd like a ghost that just fades away
I promise I wanted to see you next spring time
But by the time you come around I wont be the same girl I am 
now you start to disappear, can't help myself but drown in fear
I'm counting all our days spent together 
and I wish good times could last forever and
this is all the time we have, and I know our goodbye is shattered
but you'll be in my heart till the end of forever because...

[demxntia & kaiyko]

you're the flower that I saw that day
I miss the way you comfort me 
I lost my sense of feeling love
the day you walked away from me

[demxntia]

waking up alone I feel like part of me is missing 
flipping through the photos of the memories we shared 
and I swear that I remember all the days we spent together 
but I ruin all the things that I hold close to me 
now I'm regretting every thing we never did I can't face it
the thought of you alone breaks my heart and I hate it 
but I hope that the sound of my voice is enough 
to reach the one that I'll always love

[demxntia & kaiyko]

you're the flower that I saw that day
I miss the way you comfort me 
I lost my sense of feeling love
the day you walked away from me

When the sun sets I'll try to remember 
the things you that you promised when we were together
I'll dry all your tears if it means that you'll stay
I'll find you again and again till this pain fades away

the day you walked away

spotify, apple, etc.

the day you walked away w/ kaiyko

visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vjj1MrPACMc

you'll say you're sorry
but you won't mean it
i'll say i'm sorry
but i won't change
as long as i'm still
breathing i will
always feel this pain
that won't go away

it doesn't matter how much i try
cuz i cannot find
peace in my life 
i'm in pieces tonight
and i'll say i'm alright
so you won't ask me 

maybe i just need to leave this place
there's nothing left for me here anyway
all my friends have gone their separate ways
now the picture is painted grey

i can't feel anything like i used to
my memories scattered can't tell who i am
there's a hole where my heart is supposed to be
and the mirror reflects my enemy

you'll say you're sorry
but you won't mean it
i'll say i'm sorry
but i won't change
as long as i'm still
breathing i will
always feel this pain
that won't go away

it doesn't matter how much i try
cuz i cannot find
peace in my life 
i'm in pieces tonight
and i'll say i'm alright
so you won't ask me

i won't change

yall went crazy for me this year, thank you so much. 
this is my last song of the year so i hope yall enjoy it as much as i did making it.

this was inspired by the song "somebody else" by the 1975 and @montydatta; i wrote this song abt the same person i wrote "the words i should've said" to around this time last year and now we're finally together <3

---

[verse I]

baby i admit it
i'm possessive
ion ever mean
to come off
aggressive
wit my emotions
i'm expressin
ion ever wanna
be too excessive
when i get jealous
or too invested
toss n turnin
in bed while 
i'm waiting
on ur message
i been thinkin
abt the way that
u smiled when
i sang in front of u

[bridge]

ion ever wanna change that
and ion ever wanna change u
oh girl ur perfect and
i jus wanna entertain u
are u lyin in bed?
have u fallin asleep yet?
are u thinkin of me?
cuz ur still in my head babe

[chorus]

ur runnin around 
inside of my mind
i'm missing the sound
of ur voice tonight
and i hope that u feel
the same way too because
nobody else can have you

[break]

yeah, oh
nobody
 
[verse II]

and i promised u
that i'll be by ur side
when u need me to i'll
always try to provide
cuz ur worth everything
in the world and more
now ur the reason i sing
honey i'm all yours, and

[bridge II]

i would never wanna change that
and i would never wanna change u
girl i'm not perfect
but i would never try to blame u
are u lyin in bed?
have u fallin asleep yet?
are u thinkin of me?
cuz ur still in my head babe

[chorus]

ur runnin around 
inside of my mind
i'm missing the sound
of ur voice tonight
and i hope that u feel
the same way too because
nobody else can have you

nobody else

thank you for 6K. glad to finally work with one of my best friends in the scene @ihateshinigami

i never asked 
for the cards 
i been dealt with
and i still
don't know
where my mind is
feel like
my happiness and i
have part ways
feel my eyes
growin heavy
on my pale face

and all i ever
wanna be is enough for you
but i never get close
no matter what i do, and
everybody is sayin
i should relax
but the stress is 
piling up as time elapse

and i swear it never gets better
i been sleepin less and less
this shit is lasting forever
but i try my fucking best
i got too much on my plate
i'm sorry i'm far away
i promise i don't mean to be
but this ain't easy to say

so don't go away from me
i just need a little bit more time
don't go away from sme
i just need a little bit more time

when it's said and done 
i hope that i'm enough
for the ones i love
but it's getting tough
so just bear with me
you're the one i need
i've been losing sight
got no room to breath


[shinigami]

w/ my eyes wide open
i see clearly now
stretch my hands
let fate fall into place

up and down i been falling
cold wind calling my name
i'm not the same as i once was

i'll take you away
to a world that is glistening
where everything's fine
have you even been listening?
i'm falling apart
you knew this from the start
lay your head in my arms
we'll never be apart

losing sight w/ shinigami

A new song to celebrate the upcoming holiday. <3
prod @l1lbiscuit
art by @ maepetals (insta)

lyrics:

See my girl in my head while I lay in my bed
When I'm up so late and I can't think straight
But my minds on overdrive, I see her in my mind

(oh hey, oh hi, oh hey, oh hi, hello)

And I tell her she's the one
Cause my baby so fun
Cause my babygirl fine
And she hotter than the sun
She prolly double a dime
Without a reason I rhyme
My speech impediment died
While looking into her eyes
I wonder if I'll survive
Loving her gets me high
I kiss and I wet her thighs
I never did realize
She tasty like apple pie
She the apple of my eye

Girl even with your clothes on
I can see your soul I'm
Addicted to your glow
I think we're compatible
Let me check my horoscope
Baby swear it's not a joke

See my girl in my head while I lay in my bed
When I'm up so late and I can't think straight
But my minds on overdrive, I see her in my mind

(god damn god damn, uh yuh, god damn god damn)

Won't you be my valentine, babygirl won't you be mine?
Cupid got me lookin' stupid, girls out here are really ruthless
(2x)

You could be my everything, I think that we could be a thing

See my girl in my head while I lay in my bed
When I'm up so late and I can't think straight
But my minds on overdrive, I see her in my mind

Valentine

Valentine [Prod. Lil Biscuit]

merch: https://demxntia.bigcartel.com/product/alive-again-tee

astari: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5srEHn2jjmM
produced by @skress
guitar by me
art by digitalyams

yeah it's getting late 
oh god my mind is wandering off again
baby i'm afraid
of all the pictures painted in my head
tryna find a way
wipe the canvas clean and make amends
baby i'm not okay
i just wanna feel alive again

tell me when i can start my life again
cuz the anchor at the bottom
keeps my ankle in the sand

ion think it's somethin u would understand
i wanna get my shit together
but it never go as planned

i just wanna be enough for you
yeah i just wanna be enough for you
when i'm barely enough for myself

yeah it's getting late 
oh god my mind is wandering off again
baby i'm afraid
of all the pictures painted in my head
tryna find a way
wipe the canvas clean and make amends
baby i'm not okay
i just wanna feel alive again

i just wanna be enough for you
yeah i just wanna be enough for you
when i'm barely enough for myself

alive again

alive again [prod. skress]

demxntia
 i said home is where ur heart is
oh i feel so warm in ur energy
and baby if im being honest
it isn’t the same without ur company

girl it’s not the same
without u in my arms
ive broken promises
but it won’t break ur heart 
ik it hurts every time
we fell apart
but we could heal these scars

it’s like a part of me 
is missing when ur gone

SPOTIFY

broken promises [prod. skress]

how much do i have to give
just to be enough?
tell me am i really living
in this world or not?
i can't stand this feeling
no i cannot sleep it off
i can't stand this feeling
no i can't just give it up

no i can't give it up
too much on the line
i can't fuck it up
shit changed ever since
i got my money up
my old friends who don't
hmu no more but that's okay
ima make it on my own
it'd be easier w/o u fuckers
blowin up my phone

askin "what've you been on
oh you made a couple songs
yeah we need to talk more often
i been worried all along"
i said fuck out my face
i been tryna chase a bag
cuz the effort that i put is
always more than i get back

how much do i have to give
just to be enough?
tell me am i really living
in this world or not?
i can't stand this feeling
no i cannot sleep it off
i can't stand this feeling
no i can't just give it up

conditional love
it's fuck what i want
you don't have to lie
ik you never cared at all
i've seen thru it all
i won't drop the ball on myself
don't be hittin up my cell

give it up [prod. skress]

OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO HERE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pbnrnTJpvB0

shoutouts 2 @kaiyko as always!!

let me have a minute to get
my head on straight
i really haven’t been myself
for almost 28 days and i think
what a bummer could November really be?
i think there’s something that my eyes can’t see
cuz lately i’ve been getting so upset
with almost everything 

i don’t wanna be a villain
in this story of mine (neither do you)
i don’t wanna be a perfect person
that’s just a lie
but you keep taking all the words that
keep falling out my mouth
i don’t think you see what my
problem is even all about

oh, what a lie 
that we live
it’s alright to be 
alone sometimes
what a life 
that we’re given
it’s alright to to be 
alone sometimes

efforts wasted
and so am i tonight
feelings faded
like everything in my life
different faces
i’d rather stay inside
been gone for ages
so why’d you stay tonight?

i don’t wanna miss you
i don’t wanna need you
i don’t wanna feel like
i’m nothing without you
i don’t wanna miss you
i don’t wanna need you
i just can’t pretend
that i’m perfect without you

oh, what a lie 
that we live
it’s alright to be 
alone sometimes
what a life 
that we’re given
it’s alright to to be 
alone sometimes

and i don’t wanna
live a life where
i’m feeling sorry
so baby take all
my mistakes
and blame it all on me
cuz i’m not you and
you’re not me
so we can just 
call this a tragedy
but then i’d be
lying once again

it's alright w/ kaiyko [MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

i know it’s unfair
we can never see each other
even if i’m not there
it doesn’t mean we’re not together

you’ve been thinking in extremes
and ik that you don’t mean it
we can work as a team
cuz baby i ain’t leaving

our problems aren’t permanent
i can save us from fallin
i’m determined
once the storm passes by
we’ll stop hurting
and be glad we together
i’m certain, it’ll be worth it

it’s not permanent
i will save us from fallin
girl i’m determined
once the storm passes by
we’ll stop hurting
and be glad we stuck together
i’m certain that it’ll be worth it

i’m not givin up on us
i’m not givin up on us
i’m not givin up on us
no i’m not givin up on us

i’m not giving up yet 
haven’t been in love like this 
since forever, since forever 

now i’m too invested in you
not what i expected, it’s true 
baby i’ll be your protection 
you can rest your head cause 
there’s nothing i wouldn’t do 

waiting for the sunrise 
when we make it through 
i’ll get lost in your eyes 
like i usually do 
deep inside i know 
that this is meant to be 
every moment leading 
up to when you’re here with me

our problems aren’t permanent
i can save us from fallin
i’m determined
once the storm passes by
we’ll stop hurting
and be glad we together
i’m certain, it’ll be worth it

it’s not permanent
i will save us from fallin
girl i’m determined
once the storm passes by
we’ll stop hurting
and be glad we stuck together
i’m certain that it’ll be worth it

so i’m not givin up on us
i’m not givin up on us
i’m not givin up on us
no i’m not givin up on us

i won't change

demxntia 🌐🖤

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sweet cunt

Mellow

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