From the album Go Hard(2013). Download it here: blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/go-hard
Art by homura910210 (https://twitter.com/homura910210/status/1386878887930458112). 

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remix kreayshawn girls rituals devi mccallion

Yellow Bile + Figaro the Kid - "Go Hard" U-Mix

slimy oozing bubbling stuff erupting

touching all my clean white t shirts

dont ask me where ive been or ill have to lie

floating

in reference to my weekend

asleep behind the wheel 

havent eaten

feels good

try to keep it real

my body armor is so camoflaughed, bitch!

its got invisible rocket launchers right on it

holding on to way too much

watching my hair grow 

fucked up    

broken bones 

i notice those hurt the most when you wake up and remember how they happened



time for altered vision 

betrayed

i know you feel that way 

while im indifferent

betrayed 



who do i need to hurt?

to make shame a motivator that will work 

and after that sustain an outlook 

without constantly reminding me of how long it took

i know it wont be like before



i never believed that 

i know we both see that i need to do more 

i said i agree that 

this shit wont stop driving a wedge in the floor     



exceptions 

satisfaction is guaranteed

except when i dont land on my feet 

exceptions

i love them

just please love me  



and im a beast when 

my anger reaches my dome 

its just a circle

but it is all ive ever known

Bad Boy Cat Toy

Millionaire Pedophile - Girls Rituals

Probably my favorite song on this album.
The "main loop" is from a rehearsal recording of my math-rock type band, Ultra Death Men, sped up and cut up.
The song is about a lot of things, as always, but was most heavily inspired by my first trip to San Diego. It was a pretty strange, negative, and intense part of my life, but the experiences I had there had profound effects on my outlook.
The first line of the lyrics references one night Bradlea and I were driving through the desert and the entire dusk sky was literally a full rainbow.
The reiteration of that part of the song the second time is about how I'd wake up every morning to a collection of four cats sleeping on me and they'd all scramble away from me when they realized I was awake, as if to hide the fact that they'd been sleeping on me.

Loud Noise In My Room

There are US tour dates coming in August and November which you can see more abt on my instagram as the story develops. Special thanks to nora who suggested adding some piano
https://www.instagram.com/dei_genetrix/


"It's perfectly alright to step outside the law, because the law itself is aberrated" 
-L. Ron Hubbard

Darkness, We live in some
Darling, please give me up
Sometimes, it seemed like hope
Promise, you didn't-
Don't
Assume there's something here for you
I thought it thru.
Every single chance we ever got we only fucked it up
I think its wrong to lead me on
Don't assume 
It's just us two
Me and you
We're having fun
But I cannot live with myself and 
I'm still so scared of touch

Really
Don't fuck with me nowhere
But then, it's just not what I need
Say that we're put here for something, that's something that I can't believe
Think that I'm living my life, I think I'm a mistake 
Thought that we're reaching for something did worse than just get in your way
It's not a test
We play for keeps
We make a mess  
Who'll clean up me?

Clean up me?

UP TO DATE TOUR INFO: https://blacksquares.neocities.org/
Fresh Straw Berries Tour with Bubblegum Octopus

BanG Dream! Ave Mujica AMV
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uyPspF3VF0s

TYSM to (un)familiar. who contributed some mix notes for me

Tiny little problems
Everybody's got 'em
Who wins the race in the race to the bottom?
Maybe got a problem
Probably got a lot of them
K so rotted give a fuck if it's toxic

People say I'm too old for this shit
So true, I'm too old for this shit
People like to say I'm too old for this shit
That's so true, I'm  too old for this

Day after day
I feel so dumb
Pressed up against
Unnatural
'n weighted down
By what I want 
A thing I covet
I can't become
   
Pull at me, you're so entitled
Quiet as the tomb
Who put in design, desire
Signal, interference,
All-in-one?

In perfect darkness
Bathed in all potential
Peeking thru the keyhole:
Know,
One day we'll all forge-

Tiny little problems
Everybody's got 'em
Who wins the race in the race to the bottom?
Maybe got a problem
Probably got a lotta them
Shits so rotted give a fuck if its toxic

People say I'm too old for this shit
So true, I'm too old for this shit
People like to say I'm too old for this shit
That's so true, I'm too old for this

Inside myself
Echoes my life
Crushed up against
Filled up to the eyes
Bleed out the meat
Blot out the sky
Caught in my throat
Just trying to say goodnight
Just trying to say goodbye

In perfect darkness
Bathed in all potential
Peeking thru the keyhole:
Know,
One day we'll all forget

Forget

Theme song for Special Girls Story, in development by Rabbitmaiden Softworks. Art by yogurt200
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I can't stay here
If we weren't built to find a way
If we-
If I don't ever escape
Please just remember I'm here
Ocean waves will wash me off
Kiss my heart and lock it up
Tie me up and burn us down together

I can't stand the echo of the grinding of the planets teeth
She's always sleeping in
Her restless dreams--
Still I feel the walls close me in between us
Once I thought I'd live for love
My silly praying, was it all just sugar spun?
It's like a web in negative
We're still not sure whats in between us

And I've been held, and still I'm cold
I've been peirced, and I've been shot thru by love dearly
And when my blood pumps thru the walls
I hope my new form in my new life here can hear me
Because dreams aren't enough for me anymore
You act like a little tampering never set you down the right path

Climb the stairs
Sleep it off
Take a bath
Fill the world with blood
That's just how things are
So can you just hold me close under the grace of God
Clear the air
Scheme and plot
You're a mess you cant clean up
I don't even need to read your thoughts coz they just spill out like they're water or something

Something
....I want something
I can't ignore it
Something
It's like a thread
Pulling my center towards it

Acting strange and desperate
A shimmer of light reaches down to me in the dark
Realm of color around my head

Halfway from the surface
I feel a wireframe design for hope but I'm scared
Even if it doesn't feel real yet

Can we work together?
I'm all in your face cos I want your attention
But you haven't noticed yet

Don't believe in failure
Our fantasy seems empty but we already made it this far
Realm of color around our heads

I'll tell you everything I know
I'll tell you everything I know
I'll tell you everything I know about love

Short text on the revelations of divine love

We put the holes into our hands
With just a handful of solutions
People want to live in peaceful times
But who really does the choosing
We stay holed up
We get hold down
We play peaceful, pet, I'm patient now
But when we die in a hallway of a hospital, who cares?

Lets talk about
Lovers friends and family
Torn to pieces by predation
Watch my God go blind and start to die
From too much information
I bear the mark of everything up on my body
Blow the world to away nothing
And still,
Whos there?
Who cares

I want
I want you
I want you to solve my problems
You said
That you wont/cant do that shit my stomach hurts
F off
Reach out
To the door if you still see the world out there
Ow fuck
I want you
I want you to solve my problems
You said
That you wont/cant do that shit my stomach hurts
F off
Am I evil? Blame that shit on mental illness
Reach out
To the door if you still see the world out there

My bodytype
Spillin’ on
Poison spills out
Headheld high
Wishin’ for
Them to tear it off
Y'never know
Tramadol
Let em all down
Hide ur face
Emotional
Reactive clown

We're in foreverness now
No one will fix it for us now
We’re looking thru a keyhole
We can only see together
We live in bitterness now
No one can fix it for us now
We’re looking thru a keyhole
We can only see together

In my dreams
There's still a place
Where we can go
And I think
My thinking's useless
If I just forget it all
Thinking of what I do not know
As I stay unknown in hospital
4L pussy, next best thing
If, after all, true love really is just impossible

I'm It!

4L Pussy

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https://guineverepriscilla.bandcamp.com/

I'm trying to get busy and sick
I need a Halimede type on my dick
This halloween's gonna been sick
We'll all be howling and dying to kill

Dying to kill
Shit'll be real
Everything you think, yeah
Everything you feel
Ohh
Ohhhh
Oh, God!
Oh God yeah
You never know

You never know
You never know (I do, yeah I really do)

every kid wants to be hanatarash (I do, I do, I do)
57 wedged between their teeth (I do, I do, I do)
every kid wants to be roy orbison, in divine wreath, unaware of underneath

Second time around, it just gets darker
Third time around, it just gets darker baby

i wish i was bradford cox (I do, I do)
i wish i was bradford barker (I do, I do)
the third time around it just gets darker
but i can manifest it more for you (Yeah you can Lex!)

don't run away babe dont run away
(But I stand where I stand
I can't change where I stand
I will stand my ground)

Dying to kill
Shit'll be real
Dying to kill
Shit'll be real
Dying to kill
Yeah
Yeah
Yeah
Yeah oh you never know

Dying To Kill

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