i want to be erased

The Individual (HS Final)

Cutting Ties

😥

The Upload

TubularTuesdayVol.99

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BW3nbMKpIsU

Existential ft. killstation (prod. killstation) *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XhbLrKSBk7c&t=64s

promises 約束

Save You(prod. Nonbruh)

cet album est pour toi

my parents didn't want me why would you
you're the best so i will do, what i will do, for you
my parents didn't want me why would you
you're the best so i will do, what i will do, for you

i've got problems in my brain, you,
help me ease the pain, 
help me numb it out when i been cryin in the rain cause
i've got these demons that i can't shake

show me what i face, show me what you love, promise not to break my heart </3

you deserve better

you deserve better (p. ocean)

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~ Backup Vocals By Hollowed Hope ~

Sons of Icarus ft. SpaceMan Zack (prod. N1N9TEEN 99)

Death Race For Love

Who Shot Cupid

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( < )
How I truly feel about everything...
follow me on Instagram @sshvdow

Havent felt the same happiness since elementary
People tryna lock me in creative penitentaries
My high school experience started fuckin with me mentally
Cant see ahead of me
Embeded in my head is thoughts of feeling

Empty
Thoughts so sick
Thats why I where the mask often 
I get lost when I spit

Everythings dumb
I'm feeling numb
Hating my presence
Like a bad christmas

Is this hell
Oh well 
Im dissmissive

Tell me
If I'm dreaming 
Thats what Im wishing

I cant find a human I relate to
I cant find a person that dont hate who
I am
I am
I am

S S H V D O W
I cant find the will to love you
S S H V D O W
I dont know what this has come to
( x 3 )

"EMPTY" p. boyfifty

soul noun \ ˈsōl  \: 

1. Emotional or intellectual energy or intensity, especially as revealed in a work of art or an artistic performance.

GOODSPIRIT (Feat. NoahTheProducer)

"things need change yeah i swear"

written, produced, mixed, masterd by TRECHOR BOY
cover art by TRECHOR BOY
guitar riff courtesy of MARC GARCIA 
vocals: @sushisai, @trechorboy


Lyrics: 

[SUISAI]

cause i cant fight
those subtleties and little things
take over me

you'll never see me again !

like please just slow down
bad heart beat skipping when i breathe
every night somehow
things need change ye i swear
like look around at what ive become now
like holy fuck what a let-down
constant bombarding to the walls
tear this place to the ground

(X2)

[TRECHOR BOY]

watch out 
for when i pull up, limousine
sippin white sprite, cola, no codeine

another day pass bash my head through plate glass 
now im bleedin from my fuckin- 
i cant feel anything below my neck & 
you stand still and watch it take me out

[SUISAI]

like when did we decide 
feelings compromised
every little thing
that you said to me
i thought we'd be
better off this time
wish we never tried
lie to myself
bottle up to the brim
overflowing
right out that top
CAUSE I CANT HOLD BACK
NO SENTENCE CAN EXPLAIN
STAY QUIET
TRACK BACK TO BEFORE ALL OF THIS
HAPPENED CAUSE WHAT WAS THE POINT

like please just slow down
bad heart beat skipping when i breathe
every night somehow
things need change ye i swear
like look around at what ive become now
like holy fuck what a let-down
constant bombarding to the walls
tear this place to the ground

BAD HEART

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BAD HEART w/ suisai

"You can never be there for me like you did :(" - van

Demxntia: @demxntia
Mix/Master: @polearm
Prod by: @deadyami
Artwork: @Ihateshota (on twitter)

My Spotify playlist: https://tinyurl.com/yx9xprau

"Is Anyone Even There? ft. Demxntia (Prod. Dead Yami)”

Lyrics-

Chorus- 
I’m working hard on my self
Nobody ain’t even help 
I’m fighting this on my own
Don’t need anybody els 
Put my pride on the shelf
I’m reaching out for hand
Is anyone even there?
I doubt you would even care x2

Verse-
I doubt you would even care
If I came to you with my heart in my hand
You’d let me wait outside in the pouring rain
I want to feel loved, but it’s always the same 

Pre-chorus- 
You can never be there for me like you did
I haven’t felt love in my heart since a kid
I’m sorry if I burden you with all of my words
No matter what I do I’m still stuck with this hurt

Chorus- 
I’m working hard on my self
don’t need anyone else
I’m fighting this on my own
Nobody ain’t even help 
Put my pride on the shelf
I’m reaching out for hand
Is anyone even there?
I doubt you would even care x2

Demxntia/ 
it’s just me and myself in the end
even if i told u u won’t understand
don’t wanna burden my friends
don’t wanna hurt u again
never said i was heaven sent
everyone needs me for something
get what they want like it’s nothing 
can’t get a second to myself
lemme be myself for a second

Pre-chorus- 
You can never be there for me like you did
I haven’t felt love in my heart since a kid
I’m sorry if I burden you with all of my words
No matter what I do I’m still stuck with this hurt

Chorus- 
I’m working hard on my self
don’t need anyone else
I’m fighting this on my own
Nobody ain’t even help 
Put my pride on the shelf
I’m reaching out for hand
Is anyone even there?
I doubt you would even care x2

Is Anyone Even There?

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Is Anyone Even There? ft. Demxntia (Prod. Dead Yami)

BIG THANKS TO THE [@MERCENARIESCOLLECTIVE] FAMILY [@DISTORTIONTHE1] [@MUGETSU117] [@DEPTHSTRIDA]

[HOOK]
doc acog, red dot, i dont give a fuck
bitch id rather smash your head with a fucking tomahawk

big gat, pull up, traps will leave him screwed up
dumb lad, chewed up, stepping in my room bust

maestro, stay low, getting peak like fucking beaulo
evil eyes, someone cries, evil eyes, someone dies

[@DISTORTIONTHE1]
I'm like a walking  dreadnaught, head shots 
Weapon Been cocked, get got, get a lesson in red dots 
Heads off, block flex, feds watch, bomb threats
Flex on offense, left off brought death

Acog, blown off leave him as a victim 
Hanging from the door gonna pop him with the head shot
Bomb zone, injured, boy ain't gonna get up 
Flawless, Victor's, banging off the red spots 

Im in the zone, Im flexing when I kill your drone, 
Already, got that 2-1 , you're a loser bruv, my dudes will come in heavy
Guns is blowing thru ur belly, frontal grip to keep it steady 
Bodies dropping in objective, got my bait and switches ready

[HOOK]

[@MUGETSU117]

KERATOS LOADED, ACS IN HANDS
PRONE BEHIND MY SHIELD, WATCHING UP MY CAMS.
ZAPPING ON THE SIDE, PINGING YOU OUTSIDE.
DON'T YOU DARE TOUCHING UP MY EVIL EYE.

PEAKING WITH THE LMG
THE ROUND WILL END QUICK YOU WILL SEE.
THE TIME YOU'LL WASTE TO GET ONE SITE.
YOU'LL BE THE ONE TO DROP ON SIGHT.

BEWARE MY EVIL EYE.
ADRIANO MARTELLO, WILL BRING YOU MUERTO.
BEWARE MY EVIL EYE.
ZAP ZAP YOU'LL THINK YOU'LL GET HACKED.
BEWARE MY EVIL EYE.
AIN'T NEED 3 SPEED TO SHOP YOU KNEES

[@DEPTHSTRIDA]
what the fuck, you actually tryna talk
this is doc, get caught in my fucking acog
we are not apart, allies down I shoot a dart
restart get up and now shoot the fucking tards yuh

Gustav kateb, peek the corner patient 
bitch I'm never changing anchor the objective 
Gustav kateb, peek the corner patient 
bitch I'm never changing anchor the objective 

GIGN got some fuckers dying, GIGN got some fuckers crying
GIGN got some fuckers dying, GIGN got some fuckers crying

[HOOK]

DEADMEMXRY - BROKEN OPERATORS [x DEPTH STRIDA, MUGXTSU, LORD DISTORTION]

DO YOU REMEMBER

remix of 'september' by earth wind, and fire.

download

september rmx

VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZLwSyzwRCsA
Prod by me & @yongerbeats
mixed by me

So Icy Records!

thought we were forever but u know ur clever
so u would do shit like just lie in my face
never say never but my heart is severed
i dont think i ever wanna see you again
i gave you trust and you gave me lust
i guess i deserve it for fuckin a friend
i can look in your eyes and see when your lying
so how you gone look at me tryna pretend

i been running from demons so gotta get high
i smoke me a blunt to reset my mind
i smoke to the face
cause imma get paid regardless of what the fuck i do tonight
she been on my mind
she know im shy
she know i fuck better when im off the drugs
i aint seen my momma yeah it's beena  minute maybe im missing all the love

i had to move out my hometown
now i got money and hoes now
ur bitch aint a whale but she goes down
and people surprised cause im profound

pull up with me, we vip, im in the back of the club w the ice
diamonds on me,im really shining, tell me why yo hoe is tryna be my wife
she know imma star so shorty a stan
i pop xanny bar and fly to japan
designer my pants to stunt on ur mans
i feel like imt ecca im flying to france

oh yeah
it's tommy szn (lol)

Tommy Ice - Forever (Video in description)

free downloads are available, just click the 3 dots.

lyrics
i think i might just go home
i think i'll just go home alone
i'm just so drained from all this shit
i am not feeling it

act like i got all the answers
i'm always disappointed after
i am just so lost
i'd buy guidance at any cost

in the bathroom at a party
i've been here for awhile
contemplating going home
cause i don't wanna socialize
i am wearing my ripped jeans
high status brands
didn't mean for it to go this far
it all got out of hand

i think i might just go home
i think i'll go home alone
i'm just so drained from all this shit
i am not feeling it

act like i got all the answers
i'm always disappointed after
i am just so lost
i'd buy guidance at any cost

i got no reactions
i just act like a zombie
in a weird headspace
can't figure out what's reality

gotta put my phone down
that shit was way too bright
i honestly don't know
how i'm getting home tonight

how am i getting home tonight
none of my friends are sober right now
how am i getting home tonight
none of my friends are sober right now

me at parties

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100K

Old Skool Vans, Pt. 2

Written By:
https://soundcloud.com/glnna
https://www.instagram.com/iknowglnna/
https://twitter.com/iknowglnna

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https://twitter.com/olmosmusic
https://www.instagram.com/olmosofficial/

Olmos - 67 Miles

Prod. by Layer One
Lyrics by
Basick @realbasick
Qwala @osamarikorea15
한국사람 @1430
Mixed & Mastered by Errday Jinju (얼돼) @errdayjinju
Artwork by @l0stisland

Basick)
aint no sucka can do anything to my name
when i came to the game. it was obvious that i was gon bring
fame to my name. im lyrically insane . 
all these 뻔한 내가 짱이란 shit. fuck that 
나 좋다 빨아줘도 내가 원하는 건 억대.
you ladies in the back. dont just watch. work that.
거기 뒤에있는 남자 위험해 바로 손떼 
but i agree i would like to * on those racks
so 내가 하려는 말. 은 there ain't no such thing as
힙합은 이게 정답. 좆까고있네 bitch ass
그딴거 없어 병신아. 이제 횟수로 10년인데 
정답같은건 없더라. i been zig zaggin and
doin this and doin that 욕 쳐먹다. 누군 빨고
다시 욕쳐먹다 랩에 집중할때야 이젠
yeah i'm fuckin' with ya. i want that fuckin' money and the fame
i want you to get wet when you hear my fuckin name

한국사람)
원하는건 말만해봐 안닿아있지
시간은 흘러가고 결국 다잊지
마음에 품었을때가 내 가입식
내 새끼들은 정신 다 나가있지

걱정마 내가 널 올려다줄게
어겨졌던 약속처럼

Qwala)
오년안에 타임매거진에 나올수도
머그샷을 찍을수도
크리미널 flow 난 뭐든 하겠죠
국힙 95% 랩퍼는 죽어
맨 정신으로 버티기 어려워
월화수목금토일
생각 없고 생각 없고 돈 벌어
i got too many flows
too many style
난 라인도 필요없이 성공할꺼니까 
개처럼 벌고 정승처럼 
개처럼 벌고 정승처럼
개처럼 벌고 정승처럼
쓰자고 됫고 음
에디슨 보단 테슬라
아니 테슬라보단 아인슈타인
아니 누가 나은진 잘몰라
근데 우린 이런걸 원하잖아
근데 너는 뻔하잖아
근데 너는 뻔하잖아
음 예 레이어원 빝
음 예 Q는 레이저 빔
음 예 레이어원 빝
음 예 q는 레이저 빔

한국사람)
원하는건 말만해봐 안닿아있지
시간은 흘러가고 결국 다잊지
마음에 품었을때가 내 가입식
내 새끼들은 정신 다 나가있지

걱정마 내가 널 올려다줄게
어겨졌던 약속처럼

붙타버려 like corona
다 섞여 목 껴서 모여
안면근육엔 히로뽕
맞다 알고보니 걍 동공
심장이 안 뛰는 젖통
그럼 좆까지 그 연도는
그냥 침범하지 그 영역
못 갔지 10받고 공연
근데 난 진짜 그 정도는
하늘위서 비밀 전도
모든일에 걸어 손목
친구는 등돌려 적도
맞은놈 마음만 걸려 
그럼 좆까지 그 연도는
그냥 침범하지 그 영역
심장이 안 뛰는 젖통

POP KIMCHI (feat. 베이식, 콸라, 최성)

"GHOST"
FEATURING SURF.
PRODUCED BY VVD.
ENGINEERED BY M-PIECE.

COVER ART BY VVD.
PHOTOGRAPHY BY VIC ROBERTS.

Ghost

Available on iTunes

Ghost (ft. Surf) [Prod. by VVD]

Carbonated Water

heartbreak feat. OSCA & Roan [prod. @nickmira_ & @Ihatemondayss]
Mix & Mastering @saabyee
Hope you guys like it 💔 Feat. OSCA & ROAN
Just love me.

STREAM SPOTIFY

heartbreak feat. OSCA & Roan [prod. nick mira & Ihatemonday]

u can watch from the sideline now BITCH

prod. @smilecrayola
cover art by digital yams

✨Polar ✨
💎 @polar333 💎
💎 instagram.com/ihatepolar/ 💎
💎 twitter.com/ihatepolar/ 💎

✨Kevin Kazi ✨
💎 @yvngnamek 💎
💎 instagram.com/kevinkazi/ 💎
💎 twitter.com/kevinkazi 💎

lyrics:
Flashing lights, count money, it's a cash cow
You was talking shit, but I'm getting to my bag
Lots of vices in my head that I can't even count now
And I've been popping xans, but I still can't seem to slow down
Now she hit my phone I decline, I don't lose time
It's by no surprise, got my bro on the FaceTime
Called because I glowed, and she wanna see my wrist shine
I fly coast to coast, while you sitting on the sideline
Ya

I just made a rack flipping packs time to upscale
Bitch I'm independent making money off of resale
I don't fuck with fakes ya I buy that shit for retail
My teeth filled with ice hit the blunt then I exhale
Your new shorty pretty nice ima steal that
Look into my eyes, heart of ice, but don't feel bad
I stay up at night playing games while you still sad
Never trust a hoe cause you'll never get your soul back

Flashing lights, count money, it's a cash cow
You was talking shit, but I'm getting to my bag
Lots of vices in my head that I can't even count now
And I've been popping xans, but I still can't seem to slow down
Now she hit my phone I decline, I don't lose time
It's by no surprise, got my bro on the FaceTime
Called because I glowed, and she wanna see my wrist shine
I fly coast to coast, while you sitting on the sideline

Pulled up on your hoe with Versace on my eye sight
She just fell in love with me, I think that shorty my type
Ride up in my phantom got me feeling like a poltergeist 
Porsche Panamera ima skirt off, they like Jesus Christ
Bitch I'm sipping potions, by the ocean
Shorty she approaching, give her slow dick
If you wanna be my lover, treat me right
Molly got me seeing colors, flashing lights

Flashing lights, count money, it's a cash cow
You was talking shit, but I'm getting to my bag
Lots of vices in my head that I can't even count now
And I've been popping xans, but I still can't seem to slow down
Now she hit my phone I decline, I don't lose time
It's by no surprise, got my bro on the FaceTime
Called because I glowed, and she wanna see my wrist shine
I fly coast to coast, while you sitting on the sideline

May not really like me, but you will never meet me
This shit has a price, house of lies, it ain't easy
And how I never know they're a snake till they leave me
Then they come back when I blow say they need me

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sideline w/ kevin kazi (prod. smilecrayola)

December 13, 2019

kami oshie - "we'll be fine" (ft. https://soundcloud.com/polar333) (prod. https://soundcloud.com/diamoonofnhg)

LYRICS:
(Kami)
And you'll remember
That feeling this December
Tell me you'll remember
Just wanna be together...

Girl, you give me butterflies
I’m just tryna treat you right
I just wanna call you mine
I just wanna know if I
Cross your mind late at night
Right before you close your eyes 

(Polar)
And I remember
I’m tryna treat you better
Tell me you remember
Then maybe I’d feel better
We had an ember, I’ll be fine
I’ll fall in love, we’ll be fine

I can’t remember the last time you told me you loved me
The last time you held me deep in your arms
And now with all these stage lights
I cant keep my head right
I just need the right one to call my own

(Kami)
God it’s been torture
Just wanna be warmer
By the heat of your body
Just want you to love me
Now we’re in the back seat
Naturally, we’re kissing
Make my heart beat
A feeling I am missing

(Polar)
And I remember
I’m tryna treat you better
Tell me you remember
Then maybe I’d feel better
We had an ember, I’ll be fine
I’ll fall in love, we’ll be fine

(Kami)
And you’ll remember
That feeling this December
Tell me you’ll remember
Just wanna be together
You’ll be my treasure, you’ll be mine
We’ll fall in love, we’ll be fine

follow:
twitter.com/kamioshie
www.instagram.com/kamioshie/
www.youtube.com/channel/UC_gh1_oXL45tXJSxPhtRc3A
open.spotify.com/artist/7grb7j4O44MurFMtPknN9r
https://app.matter.online/artists/@kamioshie

Polar333:
https://soundcloud.com/polar333
https://twitter.com/ihatepolar
https://www.instagram.com/ihatepolar/
https://www.youtube.com/user/ItsThePolarEdits
https://open.spotify.com/artist/5Fa13D7BW2UmAA7RZ0AJnb?si=M2xdu_6kRom7S6cOhufv3Q

Diamoon:
https://soundcloud.com/diamoonofnhg
https://twitter.com/DiamoonOfNHG
https://www.instagram.com/prod.diamoonofnhg/
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC8ZutX3w4muIAf6HTmYjK5w
https://open.spotify.com/artist/3jE3lRTWd5zLFXh69OZYq7
https://traktrain.com/diamoonofnhgbeats#350087
https://app.matter.online/artists/@diamoon

Mixed by @iamjcast

We'll Be Fine (ft. Polar333) (Prod. Diamoon)

[+] stop talking words are useless.
* featuring @trechorboy + @sushisai * prod by @boyfifty *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[verse 1: seejayxo]
you could take my love and you could throw it out
got me looking at the stars when you not around
thats why i be jaded, fuck what u be sayin
i ain't even playin when i say that i'm make it
i don't feel anymore, eyes hella sore
i got the bag and it's Christian Dior
i'm callin for you, i'm callin for you

[verse: 2 trechor boy]
gas inhalation took me on vacation 
 i never get love i hate the sensation 
a life worth lived makes no sense 
cuz  we all die in da fuckin end like

lemme paraphrase Thoreau, he said
“rather love, money, faith, show me da road”
and i uh, i guess i understand that now
dont vibe with the lies they be tellin u now

[verse 3: suisai]
stop talking words are useless
can never hold up
What did you expect it 
to be different 
Shouldlt even have to convince
but they all look from outside
Walls could cave in at
Any givin moment
it looks like its the time to
Stop wishin for it to get better
And wash that pain away
Pitter patter of rain on the rooftop
i could lay in this bed all day
  And think And listen and look 4
For a sign pls remind me again
what really matters at the end of all this

[chorus: seejayxo + trechor boy]
like i want it all too
fuck it i'll fall through
i thought i loved you
i thought i loved you
like i want it all too
fuck it you'll fall through
i thought you loved me
i thought you loved me

useless

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useless (feat. trechor boy + suisai)

Baby Bottle Prod Zvanz

They call it falling in love cause you can't fucking stop it...
(This is the last single before I begin to release work from "Past the Stars")
Written by: @itsyungvan x @sinxi
Mix/Master: @sinxi
Production: @prime
art by: @scottysplash

Lyrics-

yung van-
I'd be lying if I said you didn't cross my mind
I'd be lying if I said you didn't cross my mind
you pop up when I'm in class looking at the time
tell me that I'm crazy reminiscing
I forgot everything we were missing

You only love me because you used to
I'd tell you I love you but that is old news
when we split up, I thought I told you
I fell in love, but with the old you X2

Sinxi-
and I fell in love but with the old you
oh I catch your perfume as you pass-through
oh I think of the times that'll pass soon
oh I gave you my heart? I didn't mean to
I've been playing it over a couple  hundred times
yeah, the things I could say and ways to stay dry
yeah, to get you to see that I'm okay this time
but would it be a crime to try again one night

yung van-
You only love me because you used to
I'd tell you I love you but that is old news
when we split up, I thought I told you
I fell in love, but with the old you X2

they call it falling in love cause you can't fucking stop it

they call it falling in love cause you can't fucking stop it

i fell in love, but with the old you

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I fell in love, but with the old you ft. Sinxi (Prod. SteezyPrime)

lyrics coming soon. s/o @daddydandy for hopping on this with me <3
written by andy sanborn &flowars
mixed/mastered by destroythewall
cover art by andy sanborn

On My Mind feat. Flowars (prod.iof)

Cruel

had a blast making this, beat was made by me. also the vocals :)

Lyrics 


Issues:

I’ve been dealing with these issues 
on my own
But i’ve been runnin in circles 
tryna find my home
Well i’ve been missing something
But i dont know
But i find hope every time 
you text my phone

If seen you up
And i’ce seen you down
But now its hard to tell
Coz you’re not around
You lift my face

And you look so cute 
In your raincoat
Waiting for spring
But its the same snow
Different ocean
In the same boat
Different song but same tempo

Breathe deep
And eventually you’ll come to see
All the different option
You life will bring
Everyone’s different but we’re still the same breed
All of us are climbing up the same tree

Issues

Hope you enjoy the new song! big thanks to @itsnvrmnd and @khareel for doing such an amazing job on this, be sure to go check them out! 
spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/6JrzNNzyZDZCaRyShSbvMd?si=MgwT87hpQYuyhTEwCkWqMg

Lyrics:
NVR/MND

Yeah
It's not your fault that i say i change but stay the same
it's not your fault that i'm holding on to past mistakes

You know that i've fallen all my life, but i don't mind

if you want me gone, cuz i say i'm sorry
and you tell me that it's all okay if i'm around

and if you tell me to go i'll take my leave
but i just wanna let you know
that you'll find everything but peace

and i just wanna know when we'll be back
the way we once were before we all started to crack
High school summers were so care free
life hits hard you see

cuz i just want you to know
baby i lost my mind
and i don't really know when i'll be back
cuz i've been off my grind

Khareel:
I waited, for you to say
"I changed my mind, i changed my ways"
What a waste, every moonrise hey
That's not fair
Coz all my days
Were dark as grey

I lashed out, last year
We we're never friends
But i wrote letters dear
It's not the hair nor the face
Coz your words,
Are smartly done, i gave away
Cowardly nice, i hide away
I sincerely hope you're okay
You're on my mind, that's not right.

Moonrise Ft. NVR/MND & Khareel

lyrics: 
(hook)
i’m trying to hide 
the feelings inside
cuz big boys don’t cry
it cuts like a knife
it digs in my side
but big boys don’t cry
don’t look in my eyes
don’t ask if I’m fine
i don’t wanna lie
i’m tired of life
but say i’m alright
cuz big boys don’t cry 
(big boys don’t cry at all) 
 
(verse 1)
i've been sitting in my room
just chilling my dude
i don’t care about much
that’s a lie, i just try to act tough
deep inside i’m really big wuss
i’ve going through a lot but it don’t show
smile big, so my parents really don’t know
like a fridge cuz my heart stay so cold
they say to be a man
you gotta be strong
walk around with ya fist closed  
I’m a big boy now be aware of it
to be honest man 
i think need a therapist
to be honest man
i think i’m really scared of this
they say i gotta be tough 
i ain’t sharing it  
playing 21 savage really ain’t me
i just wanna be a man 
so they feel me
stack my pride so high to the ceiling 
sadly, this bottled up pain
just might kill me 
(pain just might kill me)

(hook)
i’m trying to hide 
the feelings inside
cuz big boys don’t cry
it cuts like a knife
it digs in my side
but big boys don’t cry
don’t look in my eyes
don’t ask if im fine
i don’t wanna lie
i’m tired of life
but say i’m alright
cuz big boys don’t cry 
(big boys don’t cry at all) 
 
(verse 2)
i think i’m growing up way too fast
age 10 and i wear a fake mask
i’m afraid that my life might crash
cuz if you ain’t first 
then your just last
when I’m grown
imma be like them
even walk, try to talk, be a jock like them
maybe then 
i will actually finally fit in  
bottle up everything, and when i’m all out of my luck  
kill myself like them 

(hook)
i’m trying to hide 
the feelings inside
cuz big boys don’t cry
it cuts like a knife
it digs in my side
but big boys don’t cry
don’t look in my eyes
don’t ask if im fine
i don’t wanna lie
i’m tired of life
but say i’m alright
cuz big boys don’t cry 
(big boys don’t cry at all) 

(bridge)
big boys don’t cry at all
yeah
big boys don’t cry at all
yeah 
big boys don’t cry at all
yeah 
big boys don’t cry at all

listen on spotify!

big boys don't cry (prod. con)

go follow @lilskeleskrrt & @diamoonofnhg rn or else

sui ~
emberz fall
the crackle of the campfire
let the smoke fill the sky
cover up all the past life
run away through the night
dont look back again
cause its to painful
focus on the future
if there is one
for me in this world
maybe one day
everything will be ok

7am again guess its time
i better sleep
havent ate in 2 days
friends worried bout me
cause on the table
those things i want
but lifes unstable
cant carry on, no

you can find me escaping
reality in my room
looking for an answer
forgetting everything
on the table
those things i want
but lifes unstable
cant carry on no

nothing for me here in this place
everything is dull now
cant calm down
draining heart
will drown me in my own blood
soon enough

skele ~

nothing for me here in this place
thinking ab days that i wish i could i erase
and i know that you look down on me
im a disgrace
ive been pushed right to the edge
you can see it on my face
emberz falling from the sky
reminiscing ab you and i
baby i cant bear to see you cry
ill be waiting in another life

sui ~

7am again guess its time
i better sleep
havent ate in 2 days
friends worried bout me
cause on the table
those things i want
but lifes unstable
cant carry on, no

you can find me escaping
reality in my room
looking for an answer
forgetting everything
on the table
those things i want
but lifes unstable
cant carry on no

nothing for me here in this place
everything is dull now
cant calm down
draining heart
will drown me in my own blood
soon enough

calm down w/ skele ~ [p. diamoon]

prod: @wstdyth
mix/master: @trechorboy

lyrics:
cause you were the one who wasted my time
but i just cant get u out my mind
cause i miss the look of love in your eyes
and now im wishing that i could rewind
(x2)
i remember late nights in your arms
i remember we were kissing in the dark
lay alone in the backseat of my car
pulling strings through the cracks of my heart

i dont think i need this
ive been staring at my ceiling
hoping that things could get better
but nothing good ever lasts forever
(x2)
cause you were the one who wasted my time
but i just cant get u out my mind
cause i miss the look of love in your eyes
and now im wishing that i could rewind
(x2)
cause u were the one who wasted my time

rewind (prod. wastedyouth)

https://soundcloud.com/cxldblxxd

lyrics:

she my coke girl 
keep it in your coat girl
told me love hurts 
cut me like the drugs first 
no concern, point of no return
my place in hell is already reserved

my body shakes like anymore and I'm in the dirt
I'm a idiot it's what I deserve
sobriety I can't confirm
Ion know if it even occurred 
 
jump train lines I'm just tryna save time
three white lines shine under club lights 
I was feeling fine like alright 
then I split my mind into two sides 

push rit now I pick where I fly
wrist slit na I'm bleeding inside 
for christmas I want a new fuckin spine
leave me lone need slience when I write

coke girl (prod. cxld blxxd)

produced and mastered by demxntia

@demxntia
@gehrmvn
@diondugas
@infamousgertrude

CASIO

[prod. Dead Spyro] @deadspyro

Lyrics:
[Frvr]
I can feel my insides 
Crumble into pieces
Everytime i think of you again
You again

I know that im not fine
Baby you can see it
Do you even think of me like that
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore

Baby i was falling way before

[Kais]
do u even think of me?
Im not who you want me to be and I know 
think of things we’d see
I know you cant do that, im already jus a memory

time dont fly by,
i feel like im stuck in your eyes
why do you use a disguise
I crumble to pieces at night

[Frvr]
I can feel my insides 
Crumble into pieces
Everytime i think of you again
You again

I know that im not fine
Baby you can see it
Do you even think of me like that
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore

Baby i was falling way before

Crumble Into Pieces ft. Kais

Lyrics:
heard you around, i wont call back
im my own self, not your fall back
i been living fine but yourself i know you got some problems all that

better tell me now what you wanna do
ima listen now then ill run it through
let it all come out while im in the booth
choking it all down what i mean to you

hitting my line like i been lost
where you been living with the cost
staying up late when panic calls
heard you been fine man not at all

now you know me with the fame, and the name, in the place, where im hiding an ace, cuz your fate, is the same, when im dead in the grave, youre displaced, a discrace, while im lost in the haze

marceline whyd you have to go and get me all fucked up
know youre seeing what im posting im just tryna push my luck
got me drowning in gin got a bottle drink it up
cuz you sick in the brain watch me dying from your lust
Marceline, you vampire queen
Drink my blood take my red sheen
Watch it drip from your sharp teeth
Take my life have all of me

you said toughen up why dont you be a man
got bruised on my body so i took a stand
been fighting these demons before it began
it piled up so high i could see all the lands

you know me im not one who lives up in their body
im always floating round i loiter in the lobby
of all the thoughts i run from cuz im getting sloppy
my mind is out of order and im really sorry

marceline pt 2

Sorry friend
Sorry lover
I'll smother my nerves
Cause you got nothin to do with it
Try to laugh
I try to listen
I don't like to talk
But glad I got you to do it with
You show me joy
You owe me nothin
I wanna love but never
Seem to go through with it
Second floor
A messy carpet
Perpetual buzz
But you got me to go through it with

Can you teach me
Can you teach me
How to love again
I just wanna
Give it all back
Give it all back to you now

Show and tell
Leave an impression
I'll pressure my sleeve
My hearts jumpin for cover now
Show me hell
I'll give you heaven
I got what I need to stop
Sleepin the color out
I'll act out bein grateful
As a practice, not a symptom
Of a chemical balence
You showed me that a callous
Doesn't mean nothin can feel right

Can you teach me
Can you teach me
How to love again
I just wanna
Give it all back
Give it all back to you now

Take all of me
Take all of me
Until there's nothing
For me to hurt
Take all of me
Cause I'm only worth what I give away

Can you teach me
Can you teach me
How to love again
Cause I just wanna
Give it right back
Give it back to you baby

(Woah)
(I wanna give it right back to you)


Mixed and produced by King Theta
Mastered by https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

CASIO

DYING IN THE CUT