Ialreadyadoreu

thanks to @frvrndalwys for this collab, love him so much <3

Lyrics: 
[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on

[verse: frvr&alwys]
Help me I'm dying
I said I'd be fine I was lying
'Cause I knew from the start you were leaving
But I can't move on from this feelings
Stung when you left
Numb now that you're gone
My heart hurts theres no point in moving on
I'm fucked up so I make another song
You weren't there when I was not strong

[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on

[verse: gothurted]
I'm trying to moving on
But you're always on my mind
I feel so fucking low
Even when I'm always fine 
I swear I've never meant to hurt you
Shawty I would never
I think I'll never leave you
Doesn't matter what you will say  

[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on
I'm trying to moving on

STREAM

moving on ft. frvr&alwys [prod. metlast]

shout out @demxntia for hopping on this and making it pretty and @wavewalk for making such a sick unique beat go follow them

Sui:

sick of floating here being stagnant in life know this aint right
but everytime a good thing happens 
storms come in and wash progression all away 
good things come along but they dont ever stay
no~~
days dont ever last, curb with broken glass 
sitting there watch the mf cars pass
never show 
anymore emotion feel like going over board like
carry us away, lost my way at night 
flowing down the undertow again
caught up in the fucking cyclone 
waves will crash and pull, leave me on my own
Ill sink with this mf ship never making it back to shore

Dem: 
I don't give a fuck anymore
go to war with myself at the core
you know i felt this way before
everything i used to love feels like chores
i don't know~
which way i should go~
i hope there's room to grow~
i hate feeling so, low~
oo~ oooo~ ye
oo~ where do i go, cause i just dont know

Bofa:

Drowning to my sorrow, keep that to myself
You can save yer rescue, i don't need yer help x2
NO
days dont ever last, curb with broken glass 
sitting there watch the mf cars pass
never show 
anymore emotion feel like going over board like
carry us away, lost my way at night 
flowing down the undertow again
caught up in the fucking cyclone 
waves will crash and pull, leave me on my own
Ill sink with this mf ship never making it back to shore

broken glass w/ demxntia ~ [p. wavewalk]

[Prod. Loopy]
https://soundcloud.com/prod_loopy

Lyrics:

It’s kinda funny how we fucked up, where’d the time go?
All our dreams, all our dreams, Out the window

It’s kinda funny how you do; I wasted so much time for you


Forever I would bleed for you!
Tell me everything I wanna hear, I know it’s not THE TRUTH!
Fuck am I supposed to do?!
When everything I ever loved has been slaughtered, FUCK it's TRUE!

Forever I will bleed for you!
Tell me everything I wanna hear, I know it’s not THE TRUTH!
Fuck am I supposed to do?!
When everything I ever loved has been slaughtered, FUCK it's TRUE!

Fuck you doing to me?! I can’t seem to let it go!
I fucking loved you but I guess that’s not enough for you!!
Break my bones again, and mend me till your heart's content!
Just slit my throat, the pain just never seems to fucking end!!

I swear I love you, but I gotta fucking let you go!
What you did to me was wrong, I hope goddamn know !!
You can’t repair the scars you made, the blood is on your blade!
Forever I would bleed for you; the hate is all I taste!!

Forever I would bleed for you!
Tell me everything I wanna hear, I know it’s not THE TRUTH!
Fuck am I supposed to do?!
When everything I ever loved has been slaughtered, FUCK it's TRUE!

Forever I will bleed for you!
Tell me everything I wanna hear, I know it’s not THE TRUTH!
Fuck am I supposed to do?!
When everything I ever loved has been slaughtered, FUCK it's TRUE!

THE TRUTH [Prod. Loopy]

Produced by Paryo

Lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_joXtIT0is

LUV U BABY WHY YOU NEVER TELL THE TRUTH

Lyrics:

[Verse]
see i've been trynna find a way
but cant escape this fucking place
and you know that i'm fine
had to say it just in case
trynna stay in my own lane
dont give a fuck bout what u say
all i see is fucking rain
and trynna live with all this pain
all i do is fucking sleep
heres my heart that you can keep
yes i know that love is fake
but i fell in it way too deep
i cant go back theres no help
yeah i rather burn in hell
being stranded in the woods
just wanna die, i wish i could

[Chorus]
i survived, but no one tried
can you look me in my eyes
not much time for me to hide
help me find a brighter light
yeah im fine but theres a line
i have nobody by my side
it's been ages since i cried
thats why im stuck inside my mind
i dont know what to do
i was waiting here for you
come and save me, luv you baby
why you never tell the truth
fucked up feelings,
have no meanings, 
stayed up 2 nights
it got me bleeding
why you gotta do this
tell me why

[Bridge]
yeah tell me why
i stayed up 2 nights
tell me why

baby i tried
waiting for you 
but you didn't reply
why, why

[Verse]
see i've been trynna find a way
but cant escape this fucking place
and you know that i'm fine
had to say it just in case
trynna stay in my own lane
dont give a fuck bout what u say
all i see is fucking rain
and trynna live with all this pain
all i do is fucking sleep
heres my heart that you can keep
yes i know that love is fake
but i fell in it way too deep
i cant go back theres no help
yeah i rather burn in hell
being stranded in the woods
just wanna die, i wish i could

[Chorus]
i survived, but no one tried
can you look me in my eyes
not much time for me to hide
help me find a brighter light
yeah im fine but theres a line
i have nobody by my side
it's been ages since i cried
thats why im stuck inside my mind
i dont know what to do
i was waiting here for you
come and save me, luv you baby
why you never tell the truth
fucked up feelings,
have no meanings, 
stayed up 2 nights
it got me bleeding
why you gotta do this
tell me why

Biteki びてき

brighter light (prod. Paryo)

Artist:
https://soundcloud.com/deadfishpoland

Producer:
https://soundcloud.com/hxrxkiller

Lyrics:
don't ever fall in love they say
it's the biggest trap, don't go this way
you're gonna get it when you grow up
20 years old, still didn't got that

cause i just wanna feel, your heart next to my chest
i just wanna be for you and feel so blessed
don't care about shit other ppl say
when you're not around i feel like i slowly start to fade

cause i just wanna feel, your hand clenched in mine
don't ever let me go, i hope we're fine
when you're saying that you love me i feel so alive
baby don't cry over this, together we can brightly shine

and that is how i'm feeling
i don't want to lay, staring at the ceiling
i just want us to be together
heart to heart, thinking bout whatever
comes to mind
baby we are fine
don't worry bout a thing
i can deal with anything
yea
for you, i'll do everything
i'll do everything
cause

cause i just wanna feel, your heart next to my chest
i just wanna be for you and feel so blessed
don't care about shit other ppl say
when you're not around i feel like i slowly start to fade

cause i just wanna feel, your hand clenched in mine
don't ever let me go, i hope we're fine
when you're saying that you love me i feel so alive
baby don't cry over this, together we can brightly shine

i just want to feel

deadfish - i just want to feel

[+] every time you lookin' at the stars, it's me.

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mj_2y8j_czw

* prod by jody *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[intro:]
i went to the future just to watch you die
i don't want to think about the reasons why
baby you know i'm a dark angel
i got blood dripping down my halo

[hook: 2x]
every time you lookin at the stars, it's me
i know you ain't die but you be hauntin me
you the one that made my heart shatter
but i don't think i really ever mattered

[verse:]
she just want my dick and it's alright
i know you ain't never gonna call right
so i'm just gonna fuck this bitch
and when you hearin this
i know you gettin sick, yea

feelin like i never really mattered
but i be in the cut like a dagger
drugs on me baby im on saturn
floating thru space off a ladder

hauntin me

music video

hauntin me (music video in desc)

All vocals, lyrics, mastering by me.
Beat by @sorrow_bringer
STREAM on SPOTIFY - releases February 11, 2021.
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/doublemydose/far-from-perfect

LYRICS:
The rains back now
Got my head up in the clouds
I’ve been waiting for this sound
I find comfort in it
Made it to the fall
Been thinking bout it all
Still don’t know who to call
Why do I dwell on…
Memories, not living in the present
Lost and disconnected
Feelings of rejection
Staring, at the cracks in the pavement
regretting what I’ve wasted
not embracing changes (oh no)
Help me find what I’m missing
Mistakes make make up my history 
I’m honest no more mystery
I wish I could take back
All the pain of relapse
Anger’s how I react
You never deserved it
I never was worth it
I'm so far from perfect
I'm drowning at the surface

far from perfect - single

far from perfect

SPOTIFY

Far From Perfect (prod. sorrow bringer)

Artist:
https://soundcloud.com/gothurted

Producer:
https://soundcloud.com/metlast

Lyrics:
I know that I got no friends that I can count on
I know that you left my life and that u moved on
But I don't know if I can go ahead
You broke my heart and now I'm feeling dead
I know that I got no friends that I can count on
I know that you left my life and that u moved on
But I don't know if I can go ahead
You broke my heart and now I'm feeling dead

I can't count on you
But you can count on me
You know that I'll be here for you
Whenever u need
Break my heart again
Not even the first time
Smoke to heal my pain
Shawty want to face time
You don't want me to leave
But then you disappear
I'm just trying to live
Even without you

I know that I got no friends that I can count on
I know that you left my life and that u moved on
But I don't know if I can go ahead
You broke my heart and now I'm feeling dead
I know that I got no friends that I can count on
I know that you left my life and that u moved on
But I don't know if I can go ahead
You broke my heart and now I'm feeling dead

gothurted - ahead

[prod. HXRXKILLER] @hxrxkiller

Lyrics:
Theres a reason that ive been so distant 
I figure i can go and hide the pain
ive been on my own for a minute 
And no one sees me when its bout to rain

Dont ask whats going on inside
I dont even know, got death on my mind
Dont ask whats going on inside
Get so fucking high so i dont ask myself why

Like will i always feel like shit
Why do i still love u bitch
Im tryna make it out of this
But is it even worth it

I want to end it all sometimes
Ive been watching all the time go by
Those distant memories 
Feel closer then their meant to

Ive been trying to forget you
Ive been stuck here without you
Was that even the real you
Ive been broken and so bruised

Ive been so stuck in the past
Think of better times, i wish that i was back
i think my whole world might collapse
I think my whole hearts made of glass

I wish that you could tell me
Just don't cry just dont cry
I feel safe by your side
Just dont cry, its alright

Fill my lungs up with smoke
Girl i was waiting, where did you go
Everything hurts me, does anyone know
Where did you go, where did you go

Ill carry on
Imma find a way to make it worth it
As long as im alive ill keep on searching

One more song
Gotta get out all this shit im feelin
Ill be here even when im bleeding

I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FORGET YOU

ty @alainite for the featuring <3 

[chorus: gothurted]
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
Took a pill cause I don't want to feel shit
Try hard to keep going on the same shit
Cause every time that I'm alone I've been getting hit
By this feeling that is trying to make me die
It's all right, keep walking, keep faking a smile 
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
About you cause every time I do I cry

[verse: alainite]
Yeah every time I do I cry
'Cause I’ve been staying up so late at night and I’m just burning
'Cause I can’t find another way to kill the pain
And I’ve been crawling down this lonely road yeah I been wasted
Just tryna find a place where I can hide my pain

'Cause you’re everything I want and more, oh
Yeah you got me so bored of everybody else I'm sure, oh
That you got me ignored like everybody else I’m sure

[chorus: gothurted]
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
Took a pill cause I don't want to feel shit
Try hard to keep going on the same shit
Cause every time that I'm alone I've been getting hit
By this feeling that is trying to make me die
It's all right, keep walking, keep faking a smile 
Last time that we saw I was facing
Bad mood for the drugs I was lacing
Smoke a joint I don't want to keep thinking
About you cause every time I do I cry

Faking a Smile ft. Alainite [prod. yunny goldz]

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Far From Perfect (prod. sorrow bringer)

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