this is some of the best music I’ve heard in years

mannnn can’t wait for the new drops this is still so good

this is so good why don’t bro drop again?

When I get equipment ima need a death right frat :, ) 💯🔥🔥🔥

lyrics

watch the green fade out
watch the brown fade in

u say u lie but what abt?
i dunt wanna run around :/

its so hard when u dont talk :/
ya ur going thru alot
im at ur door but its still locked.

hi whats good its bea again!
they claim tht ur not a friend!
when i start 2 shake
they tell take another ativan :/
im a hopeless junkie
they say i wont make it far :(
when i moved out 2 LA
i offered a seat in my car
u denied all my help..
u say u want someone else
i mean thts fair but im still mad
im still hyped up i jus got sad
u said i fell off after backrooms XD
but tht shit was rlly ass

ya fell apart but whats new
i never know what i do
u said its not me its u
the oldest lie u cud use

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fatiguée

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19x w/ zephyr

walls

Vocals by maxeem / cover by ekdsc (https://ekdsc.neocities.org/)
Produced, Mixed & Mastered by maxeem

ALL PLATFORMS - https://ffm.to/ichandle

[Intro]
I don't wanna end that way again
I end up wasting time
Staying far too long again
There's no one by my side

[Pre-Chorus]
And I know that it wasn't as easy as they said it is
Took a leap of faith into uncharted abyss
On my own, but for the first time
I feel new again, I've ascended into new light

[Chorus]
And I know it's not as easy as they said it was
I fell but got back up, and I'm the best I could be
Took many jabs yet prevailed
But you hurt me
Made me just better myself
Don't concern me
Say that you want something else
You'll get over this
I know me
I can handle this

[Post-Chorus]
In the dark for far too long
The darkness ended up being prolonged
I wanted more out of this song
Let me out, I waited too long
Don't wanna end up another face up on a poster
Lost all to time, lost all the faith that I had

[Pre-Chorus]
Don't wanna end up another face
up on a poster
Lost all to time
I lost all the faith I had

[Chorus]

And I know it's not as easy as they said it was
I fell but got back up, and I'm the best I could be
Took many jabs yet prevailed
But you hurt me
Made me just better myself
Don't concern me
Say that you want something else
You'll get over this
I know me
I can handle this

[Outro]

I spent too many nights
You won't see me up on that poster
I walked out the door
I don't wanna see you again
I can handle this I can handle this

LIIGHTWORK SOON :)

I can handle this

Produced by Bhertuy & Yeezo

Hate how this turned out
You’re still mad at me
It haunts me in my sleep
Fucked up my self esteem
You know none of us was right all along
So there’s no point telling lies
I hope you can make a song out of this when you degrade my life
Don’t get how you’re never past things I left behind for heights
You bring me back to places I left long ago behind

She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when I know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me
She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when I know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me

Even say I like me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me
Now I’m very fucking sure that you defo despise me
In another universe I know that you’re my wifey
Do you remember why I left ur house that night when I said bye to you
Do you remember how I felt when you called me and told me that I hate you
Do you remember how I felt when I took care the 3am of you who’s drunk as fuck
Do you remember how I felt when you took back the love I gave to you for someone else

She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when I know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me
She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when i know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me

Endlessly feeling my type of insecurity
I hate how this all happened from one night of routine
Endlessly feeling my type of insecurity
I hate how this all happened from one night of routine

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endlessly feeling my type of insecurity

prod utaqqa
lyrics:

nothing ever seems to change
is it me or is it you ? (ohhh)
maybe im the one to blame
whys it hard to say ur name
i like you better when it rains
lets drown our egos in the lake

hands shaking 
cant let go
kill my ego
arms might leak tho
keep ur cool
they might ask questions
watch ur back
might end up missing
x2

maybe im the villian after all
ill stay quiet ill stay hidden ill stay still in ur walls
yea im crying in a bathroom stall
dont act like you care now
i know that you never did
wait
hold up
i think that im
never enough
runnin out of luck 
need a re up

hey ! wait up, i think i still need ur touch

ego (utaqqa)

prod @remghost x @recyclexbin

mix/master by @bedhead2001

i don't really care about what they say 
i'll be with you when the skies turn grey
and if it gets bad, it'll be okay
sometimes it hurts, but i'm here to stay

lonely at night, staying inside
everything's cold and i don't know why
lonely with you by my side
being with you makes it hard to cry

i never leave when i'm seeing signs
i see starlight looking in your eyes
think i'm insane yeah they don't know why
i wanna be with you like all the time

but i'm damaged and manic
a fuck up, i just don't understand it
when you're not here i panic
no i can't leave, i'd regret it

hard to cry

@t1gerstar
@poisonedcheeto

remix: https://soundcloud.com/luvkurtis/spiral-mxjia-remix

[kurtis]
yeah yeah
the circles spinnin 
it goes round inside my head
yeah youre the only one im needin tonight

im tryna plan out my escape 
im so stuck inside a loop
i do the same shit everyday

i been fightin for a minute cant u help me 
cause baby how im fuckin livin isnt healthy
i dont rly mind i know one dat that ima die
so baby wont u come around im drinkin till i hit the ground

yeah
no i wont stop im takin rounds
smoke a bong and lemme rest
im tryna drown out sounds

drown out sounds yeah
im bein told to kill myself
these thoughts will be the death of me yeah
i need to down another pill

stop wait a minute open up and look around
boy wont u stop wait a minute 
u did this shit all by yourself 
boy wont you stop

exaggerating 
tried to hide and masquerade it
boy can u stop
the fuckin drinkin 
my body feels its slowly sinkin

again and again
no i wont stop keep playin pretend 
and again
and again
no i wont make it out again
yeahhh im

[tigerstar]
pickin parts of my own mind
bury me when im alive
baby how could i survive 
the enemies up in my mind

never meant to make u cry
i tried to hide out in the night
i been fightin with myself
but only one comes out alive

[tigerstar + kurtis]
i been fightin for a minute cant u help me 
cause baby how im fuckin livin isnt healthy
i dont rly mind i know one dat that ima die
so baby wont u come around im drinkin till i hit the ground

[tigerstar]
Drink yourself into a spiral
Succumbing to the cycle
No use tryna fight, it's something i cant fix
Something about it got violent

Ever since it got quiet it gets filled more noises
As your voice sighs and every single whisper cuts so deep 
Disrupts my sleep, makes me sweat cus you're seething again
Can't get through the night unless I pretend

Once I'm in your bed I don't really mean it
Before I hit the ground and finally black out
Was there ever a light to this meaningless place?
I guess i'll try to fucking drink it away
But I dont need it, I don't need it

pickin parts of my own mind
bury me when im alive
baby how could i survive 
the enemies up in my mind

never meant to make u cry
i tried to hide out in the night
i been fightin with myself
but only one comes out alive

[tigerstar + kurtis]
i been fightin for a minute cant u help me 
cause baby how im fuckin livin isnt healthy
i dont rly mind i know one dat that ima die
so baby wont u come around im drinkin till i hit the ground

<3

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spiral ft. tigerstar (simon m)

@55depths
@bleedteam
@zephyrcove
@eunhae
prod/mixed/mastered by me.
additional vocals by @riptenshi

i want myself back.

lyrics:
how could i look in the mirror?
all i see is someone hiding something
couldn't be any clearer
that i lost my way a real long time ago
did you really think you'd get this far?
are you truly fine with who you are?
cut the bullshit
you've been living a great lie
killed by guilt from the inside

you took a step back
and now you're losing your grip
i want myself back
yet i still do it again
i need to get back
or i'll just lose in the end
i want myself back
yet i still do it again
and again
and again
yet i still do it again
and again
and again
oh yeah i still do it again

(eunhae)
wait a minute
it'll be fine in the end
and if it doesn't
then at least we can pretend
we're in control and
it's all going to plan
i say i'm fine
but not and i'll just do it again
it's gonna take a lot of time
to heal from everything that makes me cry
i keep on trying even though i really wanna hide
i wanna grow but i'm still spending every day inside

you took a step back
and now you're losing your grip
i want myself back
yet i still do it again
i need to get back
or i'll just lose in the end
i want myself back
yet i still do it again
and again
and again
yet i still do it again
and again
and again
oh yeah i still do it again

on and on
i make the same mistakes
can't you tell
it's written on my face
pull the thread, unravel me
take it all
what's left of me
on and on
i make the same mistakes
can't you tell
it's written on my face
pull the thread, unravel me
take it all
what's left of me...

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do it again w/ eunhae

mixed signals +glaive (hibleach)

RIP BLEACH + ISAIAH COVER ART

prod goodbyex2002 and stargate !!

Issues w/ vaeo (evan sasha x med1c)

@55depths
@bleedteam
@zephyrcove
@und0thismess
artist and producer

i can feel you still,
a sovereign ghost
persuades my will.

do it again w/ eunhae

deathright

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