I wanted peace, you wanted war 🗣‼️

this really brings me back to 2020, like rxseboy and that stuff <3

Verse 1:
stuck inside, might fade away.
I’ve been taking this day to day.
I’ve been making up white lies.
In the summertime, can’t run astray.

feel like my minds on pandemic.
all the things I can’t stomach.
therapy, i ran through it.
bad vibes til my heart plummets.

My arms weak.
And my chest hurts.
Staying cold inside sweatshirts.
I got three scars on my torso.
Cuz it cut deep when I met her.

But that’s old news.
Sitting up in this cold room.
Laying down when I need to.
All the clothes that I bleed through. Yea.

Verse 2:
I don’t wanna talk anymore.
Closed off behind open doors.
Mom’s here, doesn’t understand me.
Surrounding me, but still feel abandoned.

Lotta things that they never will see.
Midday, but I’m falling asleep.
These people never honest with me.
Because I won’t get better, no promise to keep.

Maybe I’ll try to relax.
Asking a lot, but avoiding the facts.
I wanna know if there’s hope in the end.
I’ve been trying to cope, but I’m moping instead.

Slow it down.
Heart’s rhythm keeps slowing down.
bloods moving, it goes around.
until it stops, it’s over now.

@sorrow x @nuxe x @zaini - they couldn't save me

Go Now (feat. Lxst Boy) [prod. Mist3r]

Churchill Downs REMIX

*music video*
https://youtu.be/ha3jlyoufbE

produced by @zainibeats & @beowulf 
mixed & mastered by @zainibeats

jomie & powfu - followed by a cloud (prod. zaini x beowulf)

I swear you’re so perfect but tragic
One look in your eyes I can tell that you’ve had it
You’re trying so hard just to break those bad habits 
Not seeing your worth just the pills that you smashing
Just to take from the pain but the people keep laughing 
They’re digging you deeper to cause a reaction 
you reach out for help but they think it’s attention
But I’ll stick by your side doesn’t matter what happens

Hope your warm when I’m not there
And I hope your brave when you get scared
And I hope your strong when theres despair
So I’ll hold you close till my arms wear
Cause you give me light when I can’t see
You bring me hope that I can’t reach
And you give me faith when I’m empty
You give me the strength when I can’t breathe

when I can’t breathe
think abt the tricks under your sleeve
matter fact life gettin messy
your fault cuz you know I don’t get no sleep
it’s abt what you put in the stare
makin it harder to breath
got me here trippin on air what is it that they don’t see

you’re makin it harder to quit this
look to the heavens have god as my witness
wrong all along on the mission hope I don’t you don’t miss me when I go missin
if I lose my flaws I think you come back
buti think that there would be tention
yea you say I’m wrong but I think I’m right
that’s y u jest sent me a message

look me in my eyes tell me that it’s gon be fine
every night when the light off see ur poltergeist

i know what your saying now
I’ll pick up the phone and I’ll play it loud
I’ll let ‘em all hear what I really found
if you want me dead I’ll leave unannounced

Hope your warm when I’m not there
And I hope your brave when you get scared
And I hope your strong when theres despair
So I’ll hold you close till my arms wear
Cause you give me light when I can’t see
You bring me hope that I can’t reach
And you give me faith when I’m empty
You give me the strength when I can’t breathe

Too Tired To Breathe w/brecken (prod. poppy ozu)

Lyrics…

Shit I’m Still hurt but it’s all right
Fuck I don’t know what to feel like
Anxiety mix with the moonlight
Who am I is 
What I’ve been thinking all the damn time
Low key
Lately I’ve been feeling so lonely 
I been to the bottom but fuck what i thought I only
Care about your mental while sentimental I’m hoping
Your better with no pressure I put on you so  I’m sorry

Sorry cause I know that I wasn’t the best 
I’m sick of this can’t get rid of what I feel in my chest
Doesn’t matter if I’m by myself or I’m talking with friends 
I know I wont get that text or maybe see you again

I know it’s tough and you had to leave
But just thinking about us it gets hard to breathe
So I’m going 30 over when I finally think
it’ll never go back to what it used to be

Hitting turbulence 
Beautiful ignorance
Is what I felt when I thought this was permanent 
Attachments a burden
I can’t find the words for it
Thanks for your time cause I swear that I learned from it
That’s what I think
At the very least
I’ll always be here if I’m someone you need 
I promise

Shit I’m Still hurt but it’s all right
Fuck I don’t know what to feel like
Anxiety mix with the moonlight
Who am I is 
What I’ve been thinking all the damn time
Low key
Lately I’ve been feeling so lonely 
I been to the bottom but fuck what i thought I only
Care about your mental while sentimental I’m hoping
Your better with no pressure I put on you so  I’m sorry

Shit I’m Still hurt but it’s all right
Fuck I don’t know what to feel like
Anxiety mix with the moonlight
Who am I is 
What I’ve been thinking all the damn time
Low key
Lately I’ve been feeling so lonely 
I been to the bottom but fuck what i thought I only
Care about your mental while sentimental I’m hoping
Your better with no pressure I put on you so  I’m sorry

I Don't Want Something Else (prod. autrioly)

i poured it all out for you...

Discover Thomas Reid:
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Youtube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCgwYdPzYFFKWu_7tCAAGQZw
Instagram: www.instagram.com/thomasreidmusic/

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Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/sadboyprolific
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/bloodyneckbites
Twitter: https://twitter.com/sadboyprolific

Written by: Thomas Reid & SadBoyProlific
Produced by: Ocean Beats

Lyrics:
Thomas Reid:
I don’t know how to act
I don’t know what I’m worth
I tried to get you back
God knows it didn’t work

I don’t know how to act
I don’t know what I’m worth
I’m aiming for the sky
Better off in the dirt

And I

Gotta slow down
Gotta keep up
Life a race and that’s why i run
From all these feelings
Easier dealing
With all the demons 
Inside my skull

Kept from my past
Maybe they’ll leave
If I don’t look back
I’m out of breathe
So fuckin tired
Maybe I’ll trip
My time to expire

Yeah
And I poured my heart and soul out for you
Yuh
So empty, I poured it all out for you
For you
For you

SadBoyProlific:
I got a wife and a queen
But these days it feels like I don't have a shorty
I just got someone who says that they love me
and stare in my face while they fuckin ignore me

Fuck it
You don't wanna spend a day in my life cause that shit could get gory
Huh, fuck it
Everyone hates me, I feel like I'm Chris
Shit, actually feel like I'm Cory
I'm stuck in the middle
I'm stuck inbetween
Still tryna feel like this shit actually means
Something to me
But fuck it

Tryna find worth in myself and my team
But I don't have people around me that really believe
Just people that keep trying to boost
Me and my damn self-esteem
Yuh
But I don't need confidence
I don't need anything

Thomas Reid:
And I poured my heart and soul out for you
Yuh
So empty, I poured it all out for you
For you
For you

Thomas Reid & SadBoyProlific - Poured Out (Prod. Ocean)

Lyrics

(Autrioly)
fighting for
there's nothing worth of
fighting for
in me
safely 
I cannot stay
if you aint here

(Dysphoric)
Think that I’m cursed you’re still crossing my mind
It’s been awhile a minute it’s none of my business I know that inside
I still want to talk but I will understand it if not I’m too far out of line
Still don’t know why you keep on haunting my thoughts
some reason I keep holding on
like is it so wrong
to hope it’ll work out this time

I’m sending a text and I hope it returns
You’d think after all of this time I'll have learned
Involvement with you will do nothing but worsen
All of the hurt
On my very person
Wander too close to the flame and get burned
Well none of that matters at all I’ll traverse all over hell
And stay steady searching 
A different version we actually work
wait

(Autrioly)
fighting for
there's nothing worth of
fighting for
in me
safely 
I cannot stay
if you aint here

(Dysphoric)
Nah you were lost to my memories
Now you wanna show your face now that I’m healing from everything
I remember all the times that I was holding you next to me
Then you threw that all away, you even know what you meant to me?

I can’t control my breath man it feels like I’m dying
I need to calm myself and readjust to my climate
Anything that I accuse her of she’ll prolly deny it
But I know I'm something convenient she was passing the time with

I’ve never gotten my closure
And suddenly it was no more
“I need to work on me”
Or was I not the person you hoped for
I held that shit on my shoulder
It’s motivation I’m closer
The person, version I wanna be now you wanna start over

You never wanted me then
And I hate how nice you are because it hurts in the end
Yeah I would have been fine starting, staying as friends 
If you rejected me then I would be better than this damn

Perspective (prod. autrioly)

Lyrics... 

(Autrioly)
Take my hand and don't lie to me
I've been a fool, I've been a fool to your lies
Take my hand and~

(Dysphoric)
I wanted peace 
You wanted war
I wanted reality 
You wanted more
I don’t rely on a drink 
To do all my thinking
While you sleep on the floor
I never listened 
Guess that’s the case
Now all of your friends
Said just to leave
Told them the negative
From your perspective
That I wouldn’t get it
The thing is that you never told me
Communication 
Is nowhere found
Our relationship 
Let’s burn it down
Cause you brought
To much inside out
We could have talked
But it’s too late now
It’s 2am
And I'm making sounds
Trying anything
Just to drown it out
And cops were called
To the neighbors house 
They’ll never know it
Saved me from myself 

What we had 
Burn it down
Don’t be sad
Burn it down
Future us
Burn it down
Fuck it just
Burn it down
What we had 
Burn it down
Don’t be sad
Burn it down
Future us
Burn it down
Fuck it just
Burn it down

(Autrioly)
Take my hand and don't lie to me (what the fuck)
Ive been a fool, Ive been a fool to your lies
Take my hand and~

(Soku)
I’ve been a fool for the way that you speak
But darling I know you was lying to me
So let’s change the perspective
And change up the mood
And burn what we have
Then we’ll scatter the ashes
Could never imagine
I swear that I hate it
You said, no you blamed it
On your inclination
My time you was wasting
I go and get out
I swear that I’m burning this shit to the ground
Yeah I wanted it all
Yeah but you wanna fall
Out of the depths of your head
You was sinking in
Started a war without giving me reasoning
I don’t know why
I even try
Music and static inside of my mind
I was ecstatic till you told your lies
Feeling, I’m feeling like I wanna die

(Dysphoric)
What we had
Burn it down
Don’t be sad
Burn it down
Future us
Burn it down
Fuck it just
Burn it down
What we had
Burn it down
Don’t be sad
Burn it down
Future us
Burn it down
Fuck it just
Burn it down

Burn It Down w/Soku (prod. autrioly)

Produced by boyfifty & kuji

-lyrics-

(Lxst Boy)
Been a minute, I’m sitting
I’m thinking about you 
let me finish, I didn’t 
I didn’t know how to
Where did all the time go?
The memories we made
used to live them in the moment
now I write them on a page
I got
I got something to say
and God knows you won’t listen
I’ve been holed inside this room
there’s no escape, it’s like a prison 
and I know it’s probably cliche 
but karma came to repay
I met up with the reaper
now my heart is set to decay

An omen in the breeze 
I’m sorry I can’t stay 
I’ll never fall asleep
oh baby, I’m dead awake
in my head
I’m a wreck
I cannot say what’s inside 
oh darling I might
I might run across this bridge and jump it
I don’t 
I don’t mind

(Rxseboy)

drawbridges, open closing, like our dms.
Yea every couple days I’m getting blocked, now I don’t see them.
I pretend.
Like everything is good, go like ya recents.
But you decide it’s time to be petty without a reason.

It’s really improbable, create the obstacle, I swim around while the current is changing.
I got a bottle of, problems, I swallow em, mixing too much now I’m drowning in pain meds.
Yea, I never thought that it would get to this point.
I’m jumping off the bridge, cuz everything I loved you destroyed.

water under the bridge w/ Rxseboy

at ya brain (prod by koilake)

Just trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

Burn It Down w/Soku (prod. autrioly)

Dysphoric

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