soundcloud recommended me this song as "more like sadboyprolific" 👍

my penuts are getting jorked to this song

Lyrics...

This the way back like let’s turn and see
And I realize I ain’t living life I’m underneath 
All my peers I barley go outside I hold my peace
I ain’t tripping yeah I feel alright I’m building me
I’m gambling everything that I turn to a beast
Cause all my time it stays focused on finding words to a beat
Part of my life has been sacrificed on the craft that I speak
I guess I’ll trust in the process like I’m embiid on his way back like

Ima keep moving forward cause I don’t have many options
One of ‘em is a 9 to 5 but me I ain’t really bout it
Cause this shit on my shoulder keeps me in the darkness surrounded 
And when I think that it’s over it comes back stronger, I’ve had it
Iceland or London cause fuck it I need to take a vacation
I’m still debating if I’m loved or I’m hated but regardless 
I wanna be stronger person someone with no replacement 
I know there’s importance in patients but the flame is burning

Jet lag 
I know I’m tired as shit but I’ll find my way back
All them nights that I’ve given I’ll get ‘em right back
And some more with that deal
But that a dream like in ville
Trying not to get overwhelmed with
Jet lag 
I know I’m tired as shit but I’ll find my way back
All them nights that I’ve given I’ll get ‘em right back
And some more with that deal
But that a dream like in ville
Trying not to get overwhelmed with

Everything that I want or that I wanted to be
I overthink everything when I step on a beat just to remember there’s nothing for me I can actually lose 
I’m worried for nothing but y’all feeling something that’s close to redundance to fit in my shoes 
The shit I created you hate it or love it I promise that’s what i see life through huh
All of the struggles and moods
A pen and a pad that had sat in my hand with the blankets that padded the room
Flooring the pedal to move
You’d think that I wanted to die but I kept it inside me to use as a fuel
I made it this far with a goal on my mind so can you tell me how the fuck Ima lose 
The pressure been bubbling too
It feels like the weight on my shoes they increased or the gravity set to times two
Squaring up globes like in 96 when they won 72
I’m back on my bull
To shoot for the moon 
And I guess if I miss
my target then it’s
Snake way n a trip
like goku on his way back like

This the way back like let’s turn and see
And I realize I ain’t living life I’m underneath 
All my peers I barley go outside I hold my peace
I ain’t tripping yeah I feel alright I’m building me
I’m gambling everything that I turn to a beast
Cause all my time it stays focused on finding words to a beat
Part of my life has been sacrificed on the craft that I speak
I guess I’ll trust in the process like I’m embiid on his way back like

The Way Back (prod. falak)

change ft. cavasoul (prod. swaine)

"Watch You Leave (feat. Ivri & Brecken)"
Produced by Ocean

 Thank you all who listen

*lyrics*
It's kind of odd watching you be a person I can't recognize but I'm glad you're okay
And I'm not used to the emotional withdrawal, could i get a hug before you drift away?
The winter season how it loves to mock me, I can't be who you need, it’s written all on your face
If awkward silence and a two word answer is the best you can do it's time we go our own ways

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Why do I make it worse than it has to be
You could let me try
Or I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave, me

Never knew love life could be this bad
Crashed out
Put down
I never knew life could be this sad but
Troubled minds think alike

I'd love to think that it's all in my head,
but that's a lie

I heard that you wanted me dead, blocked now and I know it depends
On how I sin with my friends
Blew clouds, and I'll do it again

Wake up, I don't wanna live another day if I don't change up
I hope I change up

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Watch You Leave w/ Ivri & Brecken (Prod. Ocean)

produced by nate2timez, boyfifty, & lxst boy

-lyrics-
don't speak, you've got nothing to say
you'll leave on another rainy day
say you'll change but you always stay the same
in the deep dark, I don't wanna

I don't wanna save the day, you don't appreciate 
anything I do for you
and I don't wanna say goodnight, knowing you're with him right now
girl, oh good for you
say we'll work it out then we end up here again
you'll just embarrass me in the end
and I don't wanna save the day, you don't appreciate anything I do for you

back and forth again
losing lots of sleep
I cannot pretend
I just make-believe
that everything is fine
then I look underneath
all the petty lies
then you decide to leave
I need me some air
if you wanna fight then baby fight fair
say that you hate me then expect me to care
yeah, how do you expect me to care?

I don't wanna save the day, you don't appreciate 
anything I do for you
and I don't wanna say goodnight, knowing you're with him right now
girl, oh good for you
say we'll work it out then we end up here again
you'll just embarrass me in the end
and I don't wanna save the day, you don't appreciate anything I do for you

huh
deep dark with my eyes closed
got caught in the wind by the cyclone
and i got the time but how would i know?
i never drop my songs it’s a cycle
and if i called right now would you answer?
cause you dodge my texts every single time
i write bout you, every single line
hits hard like drums from nate2timez
i hate the guys you always used to talk bout
thinking back, red flags better back out
lights out yeah i feel i’m boutta black out
“giving tree” hitting your line, where you at now?
i don’t wanna know what it takes
i don’t wanna know what you’re taking away
i cannot fake what i feel in my brain
heart in my hands better take it away

(don't speak, you've got nothing to say
you'll leave on another rainy day
say you'll change but you always stay the same
in the deep dark, I don't wanna
I don't wanna save the day, you don't appreciate 
anything I do for you
and I don't wanna say goodnight, knowing you're with him right now
girl, oh good for you)

the deep dark (nate2timez x boyfifty x lxst boy)

produced by Jacob Vallen & Lxst Boy

-lyrics-
on these warm September nights
fireflies dance in your eyes
we can take out time
I don't wanna grow up, we got the rest of our lives
time stood still when you kissed my cheek
when I close my eyes I see us in dreams
try to soak up this moment and make it last
when we're old and grey, hope we look back on

past lives, we were seventeen
I'll write songs for you and me
stay here, we can make-believe
stand strong, baby we're evergreen

please stay
take it day by day
and I don't wanna know a life without you
tell me what's it gonna take?
please stay

Neverland don't seem so far away
when I'm by your side, I know I'll be okay
I know you know
soon we'll find us a home
hold tight, we're almost there
I'll hold your hand and push back your hair
look me in the eye when you say that you want this 
forever and ever and ever and ever and ever

past lives, we were seventeen
I'll write songs for you and me
stay here, we can make-believe
stand strong, baby we're evergreen

please stay
take it day by day
and I don't wanna know a life without you
tell me what's it gonna take?
please stay

past lives, we were seventeen
I'll write songs for you and me
stay here, we can make-believe
stand strong, baby we're evergreen

please stay
take it day by day
and I don't wanna know a life without you
tell me what's it gonna take?
please stay

Seventeen Evergreen

(lyrics)

yeah I'm leaving 
for good but this time I'll let you know
why did you have to come back into my life?
I was doing really good
then you sent that text that night
can we give it another try? 
can we give it another try?

my heart is just eroding
blood in veins are frozen
nutrients amounts to none inside my chest are rodents
i used to be a person
but then i met you 
what you dont know about love is that it takes two

takes you to give me back
effort that you lacked
i was doing wonderful then you threw me on tracks
leaving me for dead
our story must end
cause if it carries on then we'll create wounds you cant mend

we both sleep alone
its better this way
wish that we did go 
and meet another day

im staring at your photo
I knew you'd never change
so I'm asking you like the rain to please go away

November (lostcage)

produced by nate2timez, Eric Godlow, & Boyfifty

-lyrics-

lxst boy:
i want the time back that you took from me 
i got blindsighted by your personality 
i tried it all, sent a text and called
with no response cause baby in reality
i been tryna move on
put it in the past and don’t look back 
put you in a song cause im petty like that
pouring out my heart and you don’t text back 

i see you on the other side 
baby don’t you cry
on the dark side
i can’t save your life
oh, baby i tried
i see you on the other side 
baby don’t you cry
on the dark side
i can’t save your life
oh, baby i tried

eric godlow:
i tried
oh, i tried
bully me, its over 
but you haven’t seen the other side
i cant hold you back no more
heart feeling like a flatline
text me back a little more
i’ll put you in the past life
(ldo me wrong)
that’s fine
(or do me dirty)
yeah that’s fine
if you really hated me
you talking back like punchline
you been putting weight on me 
like feeling on my waistline
bitch just save the silly talk
i’m busy in the daytime

lxst boy:
i want the time back that you took from me 
i got blindsighted by your personality 
i tried it all, sent a text and called
with no response cause baby in reality
i been tryna move on
put it in the past and don’t look back 
put you in a song cause im petty like that
pouring out my heart and you don’t text back 

yeah, uh
i wanna have everything that we had that we left in the past
uh, yeah
you wanna throw away everything, girl there’s no taking that back
uh, yeah
you try to pull away, try to say that you got way too attached 
yeah, yeah
you put me on blast cause you think you can take it all back
back to the times when the talks we had never escalated, feel the saturations
i tried to be civil, you’re talking in riddles, your tears are like precipitation, right?
it’s raining, it’s pouring, your lies are distorted, i’m thinking i’m hoping it rains today
pen to the paper, i’ll get to that later, but i’m thinking i’m hoping these chains will break

otherside w/ Eric Godlow (nate2timez x eric godlow x boyfifty)

lyrics

just stay inside
i dont want you to die
in my heart
and in my life youre always mine
im so selfish it makes me hard to love
im still haunted by memories i cant touch
and that cigarette was almost just too much
it reminded me of the night i fell in love

oh i stopped smoking six months ago

but i could use a smoke right now i got shit that you dont know
and youll never know
try to understand but you wont
i just had something to take the edge off
mama told me theres nothing good about being a slack off
its hard to try when i feel everything but nothing at all
she asked whats wrong i told her baby thats all
i couldnt expand on it
dont want her to get frazzled

oh dont worry about me baby im fine

i just need another drink to help me get through the night
thats my life
thats my life
still scared to live
but im slowly losing the fucking fear to die
thats my life

5am (miercoles)

produced by Boyfifty & Autrioly
cover art by po9t

-lyrics-
i said its all my fault, cause my backs against the wall
but really she's the problem, she don't listen when i talk
to be honest after we fight, i'm out just kickin rocks
i have a hard time coming to terms with what i lost
I do not ask questions, just keep my eyes forward
tryna hold a conversation with her is torture
she'd rather fight me, than fight in my corner
i'll end up on dateline, she would still mourn herself

sometimes i think bout a wedding ring
then she pulls away cause she hates everything
take a break, then break up, our heartstrings
im so stressed over something i can't see
sometimes i think bout a wedding ring
then she pulls away cause she hates everything
take a break, then break up, our heartstrings
im so stressed over something i can't see

sometimes i still think about us
told me to stay then shes putting me in handcuffs
i dont respond, and now we dont talk much
except when she asking me for 10 bucks
penny for my thoughts? nah girl thats 50 bucks
honestly im thinking that im glad that you were'nt enough
cause now i know my worth, thats a topic u ain't pickin up
i can see the look in your eyes, the jig is up
now i got this music and i got my 15 minutes fame
life gave me lemons so im squeezing out the minute maid
i hope it rains, let it rain
let it rain

sometimes i think bout a wedding ring
then she pulls away cause she hates everything
take a break, then break up, our heartstrings
im so stressed over something i can't see
sometimes i think bout a wedding ring
then she pulls away cause she hates everything
take a break, then break up, our heartstrings
im so stressed over something i can't see

Stressed Out (boyfifty x autrioly)

lyrics!!

let me go, i’m not home
picking flowers and i guess we made a mess right 
two hours i’ll be boarding on the next flight
let me go, im not home
rain showers taint the letters i would hand right
so two hours i’ll be boarding flight

what’s right what’s wrong?
i know it’s hard
i know they try to beat you till you break apart

(beat you till you break apart)

watching the devil walk in
i do no talking
my pockets been full since august
so thanks for that bitch
lost in a broken promise so dishonest
my fault was never flawless 
just a problem 
act up i’m the only reason i get no love
did it to myself
you know that’s bad luck
watch me tear my eyes out
all my bridges fall down
omg i guess iv been smoking every night now

but you never cared dosent matter 
you were always scared of moving backwards
girl that’s all i ever did for you
girl that’s all i ever did for you

let me go, i’m not home
picking flowers and i guess we made a mess right 
two hours i’ll be boarding on the next flight
let me go, im not home
rain showers taint the letters i would hand right
so two hours i’ll be boarding flight

let me go [boyfifty]

lyrics ⬇️

Cover ur eyes dont look at me if you see me without you
no big surprise i gave you a thousand hours in the rearview
i wasted my time
really thought everything you said was so true
but i wasnt right
ur breaking my spine

they all see me smile still
from the outside it seems like im fine
but right now when i close my eyes
i find out That i crossed the line

im pushing 95 on the backroads
passing street signs i dont see those
got scratched eyes and a runny nose
some feline made me overdose

had one try now im over those
Still some nights 
on the summer roads
see the sunrise
i can see home
but thats not even where i wanna go

(evergarden)

bags under my eyes
i dont think i care enough
too bad i cant fall asleep 
knowing u try to gaslight me 
cross my mind
putting myself first for once
oh its unlike me i think
oh it weighs on me i sink 

she said my songs alright but it sounds unlike me
its just me being honest and its getting too much

i can see home w/ evergarden (yunnygoldz)

Just trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

The Way Back (prod. falak)

Dysphoric

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