do this, do that w/ sideview drive (thislandis)

i was waiting downstairs on my own 
staring at the painting 
are you coming home ?
i bet you're still debating 
i can feel the pain in my chest escalating 
i just punched a wall cause I'm feeling animated 

i get angry i get mad over heated
had to turn to drugs cause i was seeing demons
pressure in my heart yeah i keep on bleeding 
still waiting for you to come home again
to complete my healing 
times going fast haven't seen you for seasons
didn't take any pictures cause i didn't think i'll need them
can't look through my memories cause i burnt them for treason 

i was waiting downstairs on my own 
staring at the painting 
are you coming home ?
i bet you're still debating 
i can feel the pain in my chest escalating 
i just punched a wall cause I'm feeling animated x2

what could of been?  
you kept me the dark like an eyesore 
you hid me away from reality
got me thinking why your still fucking mad at me 

why your still fucking mad at me?
i tried my best yeah i tried fucking everything 
you don't know me
you don't know me
you don't know me
part of me feels like I'm just a phoney

animated (jolst)

<3 ft. @stevenawelch

LYRICS:
Afterburn at night
Fireflies take flight
Lighting up the sky
In the shape of a heart for you and I

Slowburn, lowflame
Ignite, butane
Run back, constraint
Feel the heat come take a taste
Fireflies light up the sky
In a heart formation
I cant believe whats in my eyes
I need no hesitation
No debate into my conscious
Think too much i might get nauseous
Wash away, all my sins, and what i did wrong
I love you here i love you now, so lets not prolong
My feelings are here to last in my fragile heart

Walk too far when in my shell
Anxious stutter cant you tell
Free myself when i ring that bell
Til then ill reside in my own hell 

V3nn:
Reside in my own hell, sometimes I can’t tell if I am well 
Baby please give me some time to excel 
I just really want your love why can’t you just tell 
I just wanna get away from here, 
blow pack everyday, while the haters stare 
And I can never do this shit on my own 
That’s why I need you I can’t be all alone 
I remember all the long nights crying on the phone 
When laughed in my face, am I a fucking joke ? 
Smoke so much weed my lungs hurt, I might choke 
And I got a Dutch so you know that bitch slow burn

Fireflies ft. v3nn [prod. yunny goldz]

lyrics : 

(hook)
i always lie say i'm okay 
i'm burning bridges everyday
throw me into the ground till i decay 
a cry for help i can't convey

(verse)
and maybe i can keep taking these sleeping pills
until my kidneys fail 
until i'm feeling ill
until i'm feeling guilt
until my blood spills
and i be sleeping way too much and therapy don't help
i need to get my shit together focus on my health
and everyone that i know around me chasing wealth
i need to grow the fuck up but i don't feel compelled
i need to grow the fuck up like everyone i know
yeah i'm not special and this music shit is just a joke
i've lost all interest in the things i used to call my home
i step outside and take a walk and i still feel alone
and i did way too many pills when i was way too young
can't even smoke weed anymore cause i feel like im stuck
my hands are cold my mind is racing and my chest is numb
i pray to God to lend a hand he said i'm too fucked up
i need to work on all my problems but i'd rather run
i take a look up in the mirror and i know i'm scum
i try to fix my brain but it's been overrun 
with false perceptions of myself and i am not the one
(i try to fix my brain but it's been overrun 
with false perceptions of myself and i am not the one)

(hook)
i always lie say i'm okay 
i'm burning bridges everyday
throw me into the ground till i decay 
a cry for help i can't convey

Decay (prod. irby)

Lyrics:

Yeah im wishin you the best
But in the same breath i don't
Cause i feel it in my chest
That i could never really cope
The trauma bond you have wrapped round my fingers
I let them go but they always seem to linger
Sinking deep into the puddle that i built myself
Your holding onto me like im a doll sat on your shelf 

I don't wanna say your mine
I don't wanna say it's fine
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that has crossed the line
Feel like i am losing time
Get me off this fucking ride
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that enjoys the high
But i don't
No i don't

I wish i never met you
Its easier said than done
Would i be saying the same shit
If i was the one who was left on top
The trauma bond you have wrapped round my fingers
I let them go but they always seem to linger
Sinking deep into the puddle that i built myself
Your holding onto me like im a doll sat on your shelf 

I don't wanna say your mine
I don't wanna say it's fine
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that has crossed the line
Feel like i am losing time
Get me off this fucking ride
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that enjoys the high
But i don't
No i don't

Holding onto you like i'm an addict that has crossed the line
Holding onto you like i'm an addict that enjoys the high

Crossed the Line (Wolet beats)

Had this one sitting in the vault for more than a year and a half now, big thanks to @lilspudxlp for mixing/mastering the track

Time's running out and I can't stop it
I feel like it's all a test
I used to hate being under pressure
It really is all in my head
Everything will work out if you stay focused
Don't let all the small things get to you
If only I knew back then what I know now
I probably wouldn't be feeling so damn anxious
I don't want to go back
To how I used to be
I need to make a name for myself
And follow my destiny
I'm not getting any younger
So why wait when I can start now
You only get one life so you might as well make the most of it
It's so sad
I've seen so many dreams die
I promised myself that I'd learn from them and live my life without any regrets
I hate wasting my own time
Cause time is something I'll never get back
I had to cut down on watching tv
I'd binge watch something then go and hit the sack
This one life we have is so precious
I don't know why I keep taking it for granted
Maybe one day it'll all make sense
I guess for now I just need to keep moving forward
I won't stop until I take my last breath
Every bone in my body could be broken
And I'd still run with whatever I have left
[x2]
Diamonds form under pressure
If I don't struggle then I'll never get better
I know this pain I feel's only temporary
But my legacy is gonna last forever
I've proven to myself that I can fly
I don't need anyone to stay afloat
It's really all up to me in the end
I really am my own greatest foe

Make The Most Of It (prod. 2001)

fun lil thang i did w @t33thkicker
hope ya enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh i cannot endorse it no, uh
wait three weeks just to hear from ya babe
no i wait, then i force it oh, no
its an uphill battle to see ur face
then i go, how unfortunate
know you think about torching it
1:03 screen glow from ur portrait, oh
i’ll be ok girl, don’t wait up
cuz my heart ain’t porcelain

ask me somethin
i don’t know what
i don’t think u try
it aint half a street
i don’t move ur feet
i can’t tell u why
this half a man
has seen half the shit
that’ll make u cry
i don’t fuck around
cuz the last i did
i got no reply

i don’t need u im past it
3:30 clock im dashin
eyes on the screen
tryna see what im listening to
i forgot where my cash is
i do not know u we tight knit
nobody got me no vice grip
i got way too many vices
despite this im fightin myselfff

in the back of the party i off myself like its ego death
i don’t speak a word i just shut my mouth and i pass that test
is it hard enough to make every sunrise feel like the end
cuz i feel so stiff when i spend those nights on that cardboard bed

so i cannot endorse it no, uh
wait three weeks just to hear from ya babe
no i wait, then i force it oh, no
its an uphill battle to see ur face
then i go, how unfortunate
know you think about torching it
1:03 screen glow from ur portrait, oh
i’ll be ok girl, don’t wait up
cuz my heart ain’t porcelain

porcelain [mags]

prod by me
lyrics: 
clouds roll by
rain fades away
cold air
brush along my face

know ill be okay
im safe in your embrace

winter weather its december 
soon ill reach the end
of this cold year dont leave me here
ill rot until i end

winter

lyrics

Bonded to a soul I couldn’t see, blinding light
Every morning like funeral coz I’d thought she died
Itching off her skin that’s what she wanted in her life,
That’s not alright
You chose a wrong vice

Choose another path I’m not doing these fairytales
Change can’t come abruptly but shits changing anyway
Taken by the winds takes too long to get back in to place
That’s not alright
I’ll stop riding these tides

woahohoh
Been thinking bout my fate
And its not looking great
No I cant travel time
But I been thinking bout it lately, my mind is mostly drained
But this script is still right

Ive been here too long when I said take me
But this body I ain't wanted it quite frankly
She's gone now but she will come around the next day
Still she wont take my soul until I'm empty

Till I'm empty,
Id pick up all my shit and dip if I didn't hav this death key
A blade she holding lefty
She prepped the night but then she just went on and left me
Oh it hurts more than when its threatening

long nites

long nites. (jolst x keyblade808.7)

fine fine alright ok (hero)

long nights of the figting and its been getting old 
so you packed up boxes and you said hit the road
jack all in my system you try to play yhe victim 
but
the writings on the ceiling,
the walls were just depleting 

i try to be my best and im doing all i can 
but im falling the thru the floor 
and im sinking where i stand 
its hard to cope with less and i hope you understand that im nothing more than flesh if i couodnt be your man

winter cold tells me something thay i dont know
wind chill on my heart sub zero word to homie nick i tried but not a hero 
tried to make a list but i left it up in reno
i don’t know whats gotten into you but i cant help but wonder why you lost our love 
i know im not enough x2

yeah i know its hard x2


long nights of the figting and its been getting old 
so you packed up boxes and you said hit the road
jack all in my system you try to play the victim 
but
the writings on the ceiling,
the walls were just depleting 

i try to be my best and im doing all i can 
but im falling the thru the floor 
and im sinking where i stand 
its hard to cope with less and i hope you understand that im nothing more than flesh if i couodnt be your man

guess i couldn’t be your man
3 years gone now i dont know who i am
but i know its hard
but i know its hard

Make The Most Of It (prod. 2001)

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