Ivory Tower Kid (feat sendflowrs) [prod taha]

lyrics

can’t even face me this evening when i shut the door and run
baby this feels wrong 
like everything’s undone
i put down the foot, but all that says is that you’ve won
girl it’s not my brain
yeah it’s u toxic on this one

foggy mirror, a long drive
misty fields, and a grey sky
eyes on glass, as it spitsrain
waters wet, the tears u shed were crocodile

i see yellow lines but not th same thats on th road
we’re in different times its spiralling out of control
u dont share my highs and i jus keep that on th low
its getting cold now girl i gotta go (shoutout shizu)

ill jus pack my backs, no intent of coming back home
we were on a path were i thought u couldn’t break this mould
delusion got th best of me, guess i was never told
it was written in the stars but now its more than cold

cold cold yeah its more than cold
ice shards forming on my arms and i cant feel my toes
hope ur somewhere where the logs ablaze or that of coal
ill be sitting in the outlands where its well below

i hope ur happy as u weren’t before
ill say take care while on hardwood floors
dreams of incoming meteors
oh on my chest i can feel the force

this pressures stronger coz of what u said
depressing stronger than ive ever felt
an old mossed statue
but my heart still melts
deep in th dark forest will u find urself

i see yellow lines but not th same thats on th road
we’re in different times its spiralling out of control
u dont share my highs and i jus keep that on th low
its getting cold now girl i gotta go (shoutout shizux2)

ill jus pack my backs, no intent of coming back home
we were on a path were i thought u couldn’t break this mould
delusion got th best of me, guess i was never told
it was written in the stars but now its more than cold

cold (caves)

Mixed/Mastered By Me
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
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[Lyrics]
holding onto you is what i need i don't wanna spend time listening everytime we fight and you're always crying oh why feel your touch i want you tonight i don't know where you are quit hiding from me 

don't know where you're going i keep calling your phone pick up the call before i lose tone oh i apologize

i don't know whats going on i feel so dead inside all i see is black and white no longer I'm alive 

holding onto you is what i need i don't wanna spend time listening everytime we fight and you're always crying oh why feel your touch i want you tonight i don't know where you are quit hiding from me

i can't escape from all of this pain just take me away far away from this place x2 you treated me so bad i didn't take you back i know that I'm a mess but baby can you wait for me 

goodbye (nevrfall)

i can make something out of everything i see...
prod. @jolst & @sainttomorrow
art by @/ashleydhe on instagram
love u all, album next week
from the bottom of my heart, i hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
i need help
could u lend me a hand?
cuz the foam on the waves
just threw me into the sand

i need time more than anything
i can make something out of everything i see
but i just want to breathe for once
i don’t think thats asking much

to take, to give, to love
living is hard enough
im so used to the brace before the impact
that when i sleep i just wake before the contact

and now i wander
and i wonder
if its over, dead and gone
if my memory takes too long
are u someone i can rely on?

i need time more than anything
i can make something out of everything i see
but i just want to breathe for once
i don’t think thats asking much

i think i waited too long 
i know the damage is done
im moving mountains just to solve
all of the problems i’ve caused
i’d rather take it all in
than try to fix what i broke
cuz every time i step a foot in
i just slip and then choke
i think im losing whats in front of me
and whats in front of me
is the ocean and some company
but what is company
when im all alone
i’ll try to cope 
but i dont wanna know
what’s really gone now

the weight is heavy on me
and i’ve been falling backwards
i cant stay steady i just
pray for better days when i think i need you
more than i’d admit
i wanna cry and fucking quit
my stomach pulls and shakes and twists
take me back to those i miss

i need time more than anything
i can make something out of everything i see
but i just want to breathe for once
i don’t think thats asking much

VII. mountain mover [jolst x saint tomorrow]

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@navyxower
@strivemusicau
@northshoremusic
@torvamia
@shizukesaaa

h3art_3at3r w/ NAVYXOWER, strivesad, The North Shore, torvamia & shizukesa. [+ sogimura]

It's been far too long since I got Teddy on one of my tracks.

I haven't been doing well in regards to my mental health lately, so this song paints a small picture of how I've been feeling inside my head these days.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

Explain away the reasons I can’t find my way back to the way I used to be before
You changed me, and I don’t know why
I’ll starve myself to see the ribs poking out of stomach like a sore
And I can only bring myself to cry
I don’t see a reason to be here anymore
But reasons lead to treason that I cannot ignore

I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

(Teddy)
My health doesn’t matter
I’ve been going too hard
See a blade jump to my skin
It goes “oo la la”
Like “oo la la”
I’m addicted to it
Like “oo na na”
Like “oo na na”
I’m tired of coping the way that I have the last couple of years, um
Starving myself because food disgusts me, I hate the feeling
I hurt myself because you won’t do it, jump from the building
Freefall, heart beats, love is an illness

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Intrusive thoughts will be my end
Rewind the clock so we can start again
Any of this even matter?
It makes my heart go pitter patter

Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

drawn 2 u (flesh)

Final Track on my album 'for better or worse' 

produced by @livingpuffy and elvien

Lyrics:
i’ve meant to say this for a good while 
but i think i’m glad i tried 
said i would focus on the progress 
but i’m afraid i lied 
am i running to the future 
to escape what i left in the past 
yet still i’m anxious 
cuz i’m afraid new good wont last 

looks like i’m doing it again 
flip the same old story 
rewrite and change the narritive 
claim it all felt boring 
so if things get worse 
can i work it out 
or am i just fucked 
for if this comes crashing down 

i remember when it was me 
taking shots in the dark 
just to feel something 
now it’s the other side 
should i apologize 
and lay it rest go and hope for the best 
but i’m terrified everytime i take that call 

down away the rabbit hole 
i faked the things that I never knew 
while this keeps burning 
heads not turning 
no concern yet im still wondering 

do i know anything 
do i know anything 

looks like i’m doing it again 
flip the same old story 
rewrite and change the narritive 
claim it all felt boring 
(do i know anything)
so if things get worse 
can i work it out 
or am i just fucked 
for if this comes crashing down 
(i guess that we’ll find out)

if things get worse [prod. LIVING PUFF & elvien]

Track 9 on my album 'for better or worse'!

produced by @livingpuffy 

Lyrics:
grey skies through bloodshot eyes 
i still can’t feel a thing but at least i’m trying 
take me there to a place i’m not terrified 
can you see in my face all the black and blue i hide 
it takes a toll when you walk in circles 
working miracles just to find a new low 

when you found me 
i had nowhere to hide 
broken felt dead inside 
transparence amplified
took the long way 
to find a reason why
needing to rectify 
strung out from taking my time 
ill call it bad but youll call it luck 
meet in the middle shake off this rut 
that i’ll kick when i find my place 
when you found me 
you caught me in my fall 
had nothing left to give 
so i gave you my all 

start to think that maybe i’m colorblind 
pull the shades feel the light as i try to remind myself through the fear and doubt
what it’s like to be strong when the lights go out
but maybe i’m wrong and maybe you’re right 
that we’re not all gone to win a desperate fight
and i know that 
it’s beginning
if you’re with me
then i’m winning

when you found me [prod. LIVING PUFF]

Track 1 on my album 'for better or worse'

Guitars by BENNYKAAY 
Drums by me

Lyrics:
i’m waiting for something i don’t know exists 
imperfect reflection of a hope for happiness 
can something remind me why i started this 
from the start to end 
feel like i’m lost again 

i’m waiting for something i don’t know is true 
a perfect example of what I’d want this to do 
but i worry what the story has for me and you

give me a second just enough so i can empty my head 
a second chance that I could use to heal
clinging to moments where I thought that it would all stay the same 
my coping method cuz i still feel 

lost (x2)
so if you read between the lines 
you can see why this is dying 
but until then 
i’m spent 
wasting away, never enough

beginning of the end 
or the end of the end of the beginning 
i try to keep my head up 
but there’s always something missing 
darling 
what’s missing darling 
what’s missing?

at the beginning or the end 
i think i’m lost

lost pt. II [prod. BENNYKAAY & evan carr]

produced by sorrow bringer

mixed by me

mastered by teddyboi

art by my lovely girlfriend <3

lyrics:

(go away from me now, i don’t wanna see your face)

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
cause the damage is already done

you took advantage and had your fun
don’t you think the time has come
for you to let go
the soul owes no bonds so lose control

but the memory won’t fold 
i’ve been losing sleep and growing old
it’s been fuckin weeks and it’s been cold
my rooms been stinkin’ foul from the mold

everybody ask me how
how i even do this
frankly i just push along and don’t think i’m an artist
faintly i’ll just make a song and don’t think i’m a above this

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
enemies always start out as friends

once dear to me 
it should’ve been clear to see
but in this fog i couldn’t recognize your face
the feeling of the shock it put me in my place 
i hate the taste 

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
i know you think that you can erase and or amend
but you can’t so just accept

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
it’s time this ends

(random mumbled gibberish lol)

if things get worse [prod. LIVING PUFF & elvien]

evan carr

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