NEVERBEENBETTER

Mixed/Mastered By Me & https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc
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Prod By https://soundcloud.com/stezzyxl
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(Lyrics)
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[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it 

[Auby]
i came to plead again
please end my suffering 
looks like my hands are tied
in the palm of your hand
let me take solace that youll be here with me
im done with all this constant wondering
cant look you into your eyeshouldnt be very surprised
sorry that im a mess
i promise i tried my best
living in a web of lies
without you i wouldnt survive
no type of medicine could fix what is happening

[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it x2

[Verse]
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe 
and i just wanted you closer 
these lonely thoughts are getting colder 

[Outro]
and i just wanted some closure holding each other till we're warmer 
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
 i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe

breathe w/ auby (stezzyxl)

produced and mixed by brody
4EVER

[LYRICS]

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Where did you go and why did you leave?
You carved your name in my car with ease 
Rejecting Carr like a recall disease 
I’ve been making decisions I’ll regret next week
If the weddings in autumn, I hope that you freeze 
Cause lately you’re sin and I am the priest
You pray I’m ok, but you call out my name
Rest lies in your face who am I to blame 

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Myself from this planet being here caused me agony
Too scared to pull the trrigger kill myself inside a fantasy
Instead, wish you well when i’m dead, 
Blood scattered on my walls same walls that move sideways,
That’s my new wave, fuck all of the death,
hard drugs to get me thru the days
Fuck what i said, 
That shits old fashion to me now i think that i’ve had enough
Never really done a drug if imma keep it a buck,

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

[outro]
Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll be okay
Reflection stayin tainted with the flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase

Sideways feat. Ila (prod. brody)

mix and master @ztope

lyrics

i await for call on death row my dear
i knew how this would end up in but still i steered
we crossed the bridge and now i can close my eyes without a constant fear 
they think th war is over but you will always be stuck in here

can’t u see the clouds are rising 
the fog is gone, my hearts still pounding
savour this, my gift, the present
the sky light blue and a moon so crescent

growing.evermore (killedmyself)

mixed & mastered by Ally Holloway + nate2timez
produced by nate2timez & 2001
written by Ally Holloway
٩(× ×)۶
and I really have to do this for myself;
growing up, and facing fears, and learning i cant dissapear	
its one thing after another
study hard, and dont blow your cover
learn all the lessons you lost
cause school was tough, and inside youre soft
you loved your dad, cause he was all that you had
to pat your back on the way, and say its okay
you loved your mom, (I love you) cause she was your home
(my home) and your only friend or anything that made you feel a little bit less messed up  
cause a little means alot ;/
and now i got almost everything that i want
but im stil trying for what i- dont have,,
"dont look back" is what they told me,
so ill keep on living till the, old me dies
dies (What a-)
dies
dies
until-
until he dies.

I'm on my way

mixed by me
mastered by Ally Holloway
produced by metlast
artwork by my gf <3

constantly looking towards the sky
and wondering why i’m even alive
i can never begin to fathom
why i was even put here on this earth
was it just suffer?
beyond what i could imagine?..
i’ll let gravity, grab me by the feet
to pull me 6ft deep

(oh underneath 
their decaying bodies still haunt me)

dragging me under the ground
slowly suffocating so i can’t make a sound
it seems i’ve found a new home
with the ghost around im less alone
hoping i could find a better way
to rid the world of my lunacy
looking for any opportunity
to fade away and ameliorate this world…

of me
so cold
and empty

so i solidified the thoughts inside my head
the thoughts that were telling me i’m better off dead
no matter what you said to me
6ft deep is where i fended up being
so as the light from the tunnel grew darker and darker 
my mind grew further and further away
you should’ve stayed stayed with me 
but you left my body alone to decay

(you left me alone
traversing the unknown)

ameliorate this world (metlast)

cantstop (prod. siem spark)

lyrics-

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i dont wanna wait too long
*too long*
ill just watch you smoke out ur bong
*out ur bong*
im getting sick of all talk
i needa take a walk


cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i wont be around too long if i stay here
say hi to the neighbor while im fried
i know shes pretty, i dont like my life
taking out the trash, while i look into her eyes

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i dont wanna wait too long
*too long*
ill just watch you smoke out ur bong
*out ur bong*

sorry that im sorry (prod. secre swallowtail)

safety (secre x heyrick)

prod. wisssery

i think im dying
i dont want violence
i wont sleep, wont close my eyelids
smiling thru pain and dont like it
i did what i could to bite it

u saw the same thing i did
cant lie, i still miss ur lips
my blood seeped thru ur dress
and i think this aint depression
and i think i learned my lesson
oo-
cram it in first,
dont grab ur purse
yeah..
oo!

if i cant lie
then i cant try,
yeah
if i cant smile
then i can lie </3
o - o 
i couldnt care much more than i do,
breaking down my boundaries to make it up to u


( who said im not depressed? )
( im fucked up by thursday next )

who said im not the best?
i know ive been depressed
im in over my head
talking always kills me..

I'm on my way

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