it's just me vs myself
I can't fight the feeling that this going south
gotta leave for my health
gotta venture out of comfort leave the pictures on the shelf
~
entering a dream state
I am who I be ayy
fuck what all ya'll think about me
wish for my defeat; fake friends
waste time with these plans
build up to no end
anger build inside of me but I can play pretend
~
whats the end goal?
we rushing to the end zone?
or chasing fleeting feelings, pound some liquor; in the friend zone
i'm lost now
frost mouth
bite down on my neck now
fangs deep in my arteries
drift right to sleep 
lay cross down
~
heavy eyelids
fear arises
everybody judge your actions
passing
can't neglect your single passion
traction
building up
anxiety taking the wheel
quietly spoken; conceal
I sit and I wait for the right-time
I cope when I smoke in the night-time
  ~
entering a dream state
I am who I be ayy
fuck what all ya'll think about me
wish for my defeat; fake friends
waste time with these plans
build up to no end
anger build inside of me but I can play pretend
~
shivers running down my spine
where my time at?
skeletons up in my closet rotting 
I don't like that
I can't face myself
but ill face the blunt
my perception melts as I start to run

DREAM-STATE [prod. brevanti]

new place, same scenery (prod. sorrow bringer)

ｕｎｔｉｌ　ｔｈｅ　ｄｕｓｋ　ｅｒｏｄｅｓ，　ｏｒ　ｆｉｎａｌｌｙ　ｇｅｔｓ　ｔｏ　ｍｅ

produced by @cartermetro & @gualabeatz

hey, 
workng on a lot; it's been difficult to come by many things lately, 
but i'm really trying to get there
thank you so much for all your support
thank you so much for listening
thank you for being here
take care of yourselves
i love you
drink water 

i don't wanna lose the emotion
i don't wanna sweep it under the floor
'kay girl fuel that substance
like, somehow it knows you need something more
i don't wanna feel real love yet
'cauese love ain't love, it's knowing your core
and i know you know that you're running
better shape up 'fore you keep that

this is not gonna work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect my worth, yea
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i'm just a broken bird

when my neck goes stiff i try to stretch it
get some leverage into heaven
seen a lot of angry faces, disappointed my decisions
cold bed, lost friends, time spent just forgetting
sharp pains, dull fate; stimulate the seven senses

oh my, don't cry, feel fine that you're falling (2x)

fuck time killed over cheap thrills
like wine spills for some dopamine
i still that i'm unreal, so i choose to be who i wanna be
not swept up like room dust, when it turns dusk and i can't see
how i once felt, if i did well, for the person who had wanted me

never really know if it's a drill
am i really dying? wish i'd know that
write it all on the will
this windowsill really goes back
when all i had was to heal
now all i have is to collapse
coffee cans over pills
hands quake from the cold blast

this is not gonna work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect my worth, yea
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i'm just a broken bird
(i'm just broken)

40 minutes pass uh
hot water still rolls off of back yo
never can relax, i
step out the moment the feeling retracts
now i feel in mass
got nowhere to go, so i'm making a track
easy as that
you know that you feel it so fade in the grass

neither fight or flight 'cause i'm aware of my abilities
i'll chalk it up until the dusk erodes or finally gets to me
i guess we tend to trust in what we fight for
but don't let a road become an eyesore
open up your mental, persevere and take a dip
just because you weren't there, it doesn't mean they ain't exist
i create to stimulate when no one's there to fill me in
'cause when your home's a hollow body, i could a little pinch, so

we can probably make it work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect your worth
(worth) 2x
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i am just a broken bird
(i'm just broken)

cans [prod. cxrter x gualabeatz]

lyrics:

we sang this song in the shower too many months back
a memory and an hour ill never get back
pour me up in this cup cause thats a quick hack
for erasing these flashes my brain will still track

told you if it didnt work, youd be all my songs
told you im obsessed you didnt see it you were dead wrong
now im in this room just sipping steady so im headstrong
its my medication and its cheap id rather be gone

cause he’s touching your hair, got his hand on your hips
and he looks in your eyes, got your taste on his lips
so now im trying to sleep, but this is all i can see
im tryna get so fucked up, somebody hand me the bleach

im tryna bury myself, im tryna burn through my mind
i wanna black out the vision of you in bed every night
like is he better than me, and does he do what i dont
im sure youre glad as can be, while i just lay here and smoke

i just lay here and smoke
i just lay here and smoke

bacardi on the floor always spill some
soak it with my skin just to feel sumn
my night aint even started its a killer one
im faded out my mind and im not even done

i wanted to end it, i wanted to go back
i wanted to do it all over the way that it was when i knew that
nothing was changing, we all stay the same please
dont forget me forget it its okay im drunk on the daily

cause he’s touching your hair, got his hand on your hips
and he looks in your eyes, got your taste on his lips
so now im trying to sleep, but this is all i can see
im tryna get so fucked up, somebody hand me the bleach

im tryna bury myself, im tryna burn through my mind
i wanna black out the vision of you in bed every night
like is he better than me, and does he do what i dont
im sure youre glad as can be, while i just throw up the most

ive ever seen
now im seeing green
now its turning to black
ill just lay on my back

Obsessed

obsessed

prod me
guitar by me <3

restless in these sheets
the nightmares scare away the dreams
“if i could only have a chance to run away from everything”

but would i take it?
this is everything i know

i stay amongst the thieves
that took my life away from me
if i could only take a second of your time to let me breathe

but i cant save this
i can never feel like home.

practice what you preach
youre taking it
way too far to bring
a fraction of what the
world turned out to be
back to ashes 
avoid my company

chapter III: avoid my company

prod. me
guitar by sharp

I'm tired of being the one that has to reap
what you sow the voice reminds me what I couldn't be
I'm sick of living without the lungs to breathe
in I can't exhale the toxins in me

this was never meant to last forever
I'm ultimately terrified you'll find somebody better for your needs

when did every string between us sever
i couldn't see it coming I was blinded by the weather in the trees

take me somewhere safe and sound
when you decide to come around 
and tell me how you really fuckin feel

I think my times run finally out
the clock has stopped the ticking now
Is anything you told me fuckin real
(hello?)
I don't know what to think anymore
(goodbye..)
you left me here to rot on the floor

chapter I: safe and sound

https://tr.ee/oQfN01jBHc

produced by metlast

lyrics:

wastin all my time with you, yeah
i just wanna get high with you, yeah
[x2]

if i die today would you miss me?
show up to my grave just to kiss me
i don't feel the same unless you're with me
can you heal my pain, can you fix me?
[x2]

can you fix me?
i'm not doing good, can you convince me?
and when i'm six feet-
deep, would you even miss me?

i would go, anywhere as long as i'm with you bae
call my phone, down to hear it if it's something you say
i don't know if i'll make it everyday is doomsday
but i'mma try to make it through this tuesday

wastin all my time with you, yeah
i just wanna get high with you, yeah
[x2]

if i die today would you miss me?
show up to my grave just to kiss me
i don't feel the same unless you're with me
can you heal my pain, can you fix me?
[x2]

wastin all my time with you, yeah
i just wanna get high with you, yeah
[x2]

would you miss me?

God restores the lost no matter how far we have run from him....

Bethany (Shine Again)

Don't Put Your Faith In Me

Baby Blue Umbrella

mixed by @polearm
featuring @sewerperson
produced by @splashgvng and @irby314

tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral
tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral

i think ill be late to the grave at my own damn funeral
say what you say i know i act quite unusual
fake homies fake like they dont know that im on to them
its okay whatever bro cuz 
i was never fond of them
i just copped and popped out to LA
shot the shit and kicked it with my bae
told my brothers theres another way
now we been grinding time to fill the days
we been on the sun in outerspace
stress was melted
felt it drip away
i been on a hella different wave
i been on a hella different wave

sewerperson:
moonlight thru opening in the sun roof
it feel like one of these times where i just have to tell u i
love u
and i dont wait till the morning
and i dont wanna wait anymore like
tell me
how many of these nights u been alone u really happy
everything im feeling come back round to overlap me
i guess i just wanted u to know ion know what id do without ya
i guess i just wanted u to know i still been
selfish
sorry
i cant help it
promise
blacked out
i cant feel if im honest
can u tell me bout ur face cause i forgot it
since i pushed most those memories into my closet

tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral
tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral

chapter I: safe and sound

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