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Wait Until I Fall

prod. 2001

shoutout the homie skrwd <3

woah
in the silence i will drown
tonight 

i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

in the silence i’ll drown tonight 
no one can save my life (save my life)
all i needed was a friend 
to come and pull me out of the quicksand 

SKRWD:

its been a while and i still feel abandoned
it comes to mind all the time, i cant stand it
every night i lie awake to reminders of the sound
maybe i wont feel a thing on the way down 
i dont get it
you never meant it
so whyd you wanna be the one who said it?
i dont get it
i dont get it
why say it if you never meant it?


i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

(in the silence i’ll drown tonight no one can save my life)

in the silence i’ll drown w/ skrwd (2001)

mix & mastr @fleshgolem

ft @lxstboymusic 🐐

lyrics

[mæsk]
i felt planets hit and all took was a single touch
it was a smoothe sail out to nowhere so ima a bit out of touch
i hit the main land swear it wasn’t this lush
but now i seek more just a temporary rush

scattered throughout the stratosphere 
holding down the atmosphere 
let ur guard down, drop my wings and let’s get the hell outta here

avoid the snakes when they appear
a fallen angel anaware
surrounding take its toll
but this endless ether baby

how much more
more can u endure
it’s gone get hot, just don’t get torched

there’s gon be changing course
and err pushing through a force field 
my voice is hoarse 
but we can make it out no matter the power that storm yields

just follow my lead 
what is life without a dream
extrinsic value to me has never meant a thing 
i’m finding lightning from within
but there’s more behind my skin
ur over more than half of me
am i fighting just to win?
(this is endless ether baby)

[lxst boy]

(this is real life, open your eyes)
I made a pact with the devil
he told me im destined for damage
I gotta go, running away 
packing my stuff in a panic
my life aint worth the air that I breathe
but im finding a way to manage
I guess ill keep quite 

I aint got philosophise im too afraid to talk about
maybe its not 

the real man in charge is in the sky and hes just looking down
I am not worthy of the life that ive been living now

but lately ive been tired of fighting entities who live around

my brain my rules thats something they better figure out

the sun it scorched my eyes

I keep records of pain thats what this is
yeah and day 14 I really hate the wilderness
but I gotta push through coz survivals worth the risk
I guess writing all these poems aint gonna fix my loneliness

I guess its over now
we can settle down

endless ether ft lxst boy (fantompower)

Concrete

paranoid ;darkout; (prod. Jolst)

v v v 

tell me how life changed and u dk why
smoking every night to get the words out of ur head
woah
please talk 2 me 
woah
but if u got like nothing to say then say nothing
ill know what u mean, ive been frontin too
woah
dont say a word
woah
ill sit in ur garage as the light just hums 
steadily more steady than my beating heart could
but please be proud of me because ive gained a few pounds since i got here
and i think i learned everything i felt was irrational 
i had a case of a thick ass skull
and everything i learned in school was useless
got alot of shit to say so hold my drink rq
stacking building blocks like a god damn child
does a come first or b come last
i still stay up but idk why
gtf to bed u gotta be alive tomorrow
swear to god ill be alright just have a good day at work <3
ill find some shit to smoke
maybe roll the rest
even tho it makes me feel hella god damn depressed
im really sorry i think i made another mess
im tired as fuck i wanna go to sleep right now 
jst give me some space or i will shut the fuck right down
(im tired as fuck i wanna go to sleep right now 
jst give me some space or i will shut the fuck right down)
swear to god ill be alright just have a good day at work <3
ill find some shit to smoke
maybe roll the rest
even tho it makes me feel hella god damn depressed
im really sorry i think i made another mess

non profit

mess

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mess (chronyc)

lyrics-

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i dont wanna wait too long
*too long*
ill just watch you smoke out ur bong
*out ur bong*
im getting sick of all talk
i needa take a walk


cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i wont be around too long if i stay here
say hi to the neighbor while im fried
i know shes pretty, i dont like my life
taking out the trash, while i look into her eyes

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i dont wanna wait too long
*too long*
ill just watch you smoke out ur bong
*out ur bong*

sorry that im sorry (prod. secre swallowtail)

thank you HKFIFTYONE for this feature <3
.
Every time I see your face I know
You cannot be replaced
You are my home
I feel your whispers on my skin my love
They fade away
I start to fray
Blinkers till I'm numb

What have I become?
You know who I am
This wasn't in our plans
I hope that you're a fan
I feel that I've been damned
I crave to hold your hand
Even if can't dance

Won't you hit me up for plans?
Said you like the way I stand
Bet you miss the way we talked
How we'd drink and not get caught
Send me loving and you ghost
Completely melt me when you post
Can't stop crying so you know
Taking blinkers for my soul

What have I become?
You know who I am
This wasn't in our plans
I hope that you're a fan
I feel that I've been damned
I crave to hold your hand
Even if I can't dance

HKFIFTYONE
When did things change so much?
The pain I hold deep in my gut
I'm stuck alone
I'm in a rut
I have to move before time is up
If you knew what you meant to me
You'd feel it too
You're a masterpiece
But as it stands
I'll never be
The one you want
Baby, I can't see

What have I become?
You know who I am
This wasn't in our plans
I hope that you're a fan
I feel that I've been damned
I crave to hold your hand
Even if I can't dance

What have I become?
This wasn't in our plans
I crave to hold your hand
Even if I can't dance

Secret Heart of A Bean

Secret Heart of A Bean ft, HKFIFTYONE (prod. ʇlnɐɟ)

Secret Heart Of A Bean Ft. HKFIFTYONE (prod. Fault)

world wins // prod heavenly haze

My heart is like a fireplace 
But when I wake up its all the same
The reassurance often comes late 
But I’m alright still breathing 

The sycamore tree will be left be
Wind and rain don’t remind me 
I think my soul paid off the fee 
Or my hearts no longer receiving

I’m over the hill or I’m out of my mind
The forces that guide, when will you be kind?
Forget the six counties covered with smoke 
The forest is my home

I wish I could say it better 
The route the the soul has been severed 
Like a flower cut from the stem
Mother nature’s branch has left 

I’m over the hill or I’m out of my mind
The forces that guide, when will you be kind?
I’ve wandered through silence, I’ve spoken in rhyme
Memories from the past that were never quite mine,
Forget the six counties covered with smoke 
The forest is my spiritual home

I don’t know the way 
I don’t know what to say 
This sentimental feeling 

The forest to the lake 
Cannot wash away 
The sentimental reasoning 

The four forces of life have caved in
Earth Wind Rain and Fire Where have you been?
The elements known at the beginning 
All I see is blinding lights 

I’m over the hill or I’m out of my mind
The forces that guide, when will you be kind?
I’ve wandered through silence, I’ve spoken in rhyme
Memories from the past that were never quite mine,
Forget the six counties covered with smoke 
The forest is my spiritual home

Spiritual Home

Heartbreak Hotel

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Thank you for you 🫶🍟🔐

Secret Heart Of A Bean Ft. HKFIFTYONE (prod. Fault)

Faulted