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Songs to cry yourself to sleep

i want you so bad tonight

╰(*´︶`*)╯♡( ✌︎'ω')✌︎(*´∀`)♪All time vibes pt5

Destroy yourself

this was an archive but i haven’t had a studio in almost 2 months so here u go 💕

hard2leave ft chanelfather prod.@444jet

this is to you <3
@mental
@176s
art by oddy

[blxty]
i don't think that i've been alright
lately it's felt like i'm underwater
and when that ask say that i'm fine
really i am not okay
okay okay okay okay
forget how i feel
it doesn't even matter
it feels like lately i've been falling in these patterns
when i'm with you my brain is scattered 
feels like i'm moving backwards ugh
it's like i'll never meet your standards

i wanna figure you out
i wanna see why you frown
you know i wonder why it's you,
that my world spins around <3
there's something missing.. 
it's my heart,, and you have stole it
i'm falling into your arms
i swear it's all just a dream
pls pinch me
it's not real
it's so fake
i can't take this anymore
i swear that i'm just a bore
to you.

[mental]
i take a breath i cant feel
my lungs
im falling head over heels
for your love
i know that youre better than me
give it up
ill be whatever you want
this feels like more than a crush

ive never felt the way that i feel right now
ive never been so shy when somebodys around
ive never felt like i was bound by fate
but when i first saw ur face
it was already too late
for me

[blxty]
to me i'm screwed
i've seen the truth
see right thru you
i'd lie for you
i'd cry for you
i'd die for you
i swear i would lose it all for you
girl this is to you
da-da-da-da

[blxty & mental]
blxty: hey mental i have been horrible!!
mental: hey blxty why are you horrible?!
blxty: i put it all onto myself and it's WAY too hard!!
mental: i think you should rest a little more ):
blxty: i can't take this anymore X.X
mental: dont forget what you're fighting for
blxty: i can't.. i can't.. i just can't do it!!
mental: i think you can do it i believe in u<3
blxty: i think i can do it i believe in me (x4)
oddyssi:

to you ft. mental (sense)

spoti: https://open.spotify.com/track/3yZueO8TUXxGNettYqIRKw?si=ea2af00ec1e94b2c

where do we go when we fall in love w/ zebatin and fallen oceans

none of this is true, it’s just catchy

lyrics:
i knew it wouldnt last
after the first time
you put your cig out on my back
do you remember that
like i was never here
you say you hate me 
so ill disappear
ya ill disappear 

i been cryin on the floor without you
i dont wanna feel this anymore
but you show up when i dont want to
hear your voice outside my door

so i say that i never loved you
but you're all i think about
and i wish i never called you
but its too late to worry about that now

i took you like a drug
i was addicted 
but i never felt enough
no you never filled me up
and you were never here
you didnt love me
so you disappeared
ya you disappeared

i been cryin on the floor without you
i dont wanna feel this anymore
but you show up when i dont want to
hear your voice outside my door

so i say that i never loved you
but you're all i think about
and i wish i never called you
but its too late to worry about that now

too late to worry about that now
i just wanted to make you proud
and id listen to you despite my doubts
and you didnt want to work it out
x2
(hey)

and you didnt want to work it out
(hey)

take me back to any time b4 this

i thought that i would be okay
all on my own
guess i was wrong
oh well what isn't there to like
except the long
eternal night
don't play pretend i know what you're like
know all your quirks 
how you fantasize
but i guess it's all in my head
like how you said
it's all in my head
(x2)

now i look crazy
and that's one thing i've been feelin' like lately
but i'm okay
at least i think so
nothing's for sure but at least i am here
so
i can't be that bad
at least i think so
i might be lying to myself when i say so
but take my word for it
that's all i ask for
i think i need to ask for some help more

but don't hit me up
even if i look like i need it
cause i don't need it
i'm better off alone
even if that's not what i say so
(oh)
i tend to do that
go back on my word like screw that
i don't think i need help now
and i think that's a lie
but i've made up my mind now

yeah i made up my mind now
(x3)
and i won't look behind now
don't play pretend i know what you're like
know all your quirks 
how you fantasize
but i guess it's all in my head
like how you said
it's all in my head

i thought that i would be okay
all on my own
guess i was wrong
oh well what isn't there to like
except the long
eternal night
don't play pretend i know what you're like
know all your quirks 
how you fantasize
but i guess it's all in my head
like how you said
it's all in my head
(x2)

guess i was wrong

lofi beat 2 drink urself 2 death 2 (prod Denny Phantom)

can't even listen to this song cause it makes me so sad but hope u all enjoy <3

prod by LARUE MADE IT
my socials
www.instagram.com/starfallxo/
twitter.com/starfallxos

(verse)
all the memories we made
all the problems we faced
all the time that we wa-
all the time that we wasted
all alone, once again
you were never really mine
no you would never really try
i let you cross over my lines

let it go
but i can't let you know
that i wasn't enough
were you truly in love
let it go
but i cant let it show
that i was never really tough
guess you could read through my bluff

(hook)
you said
you were never really, you were never really in love
who am i to really, who am i to really trust?
feels like its been a while but baby
throw my feels in a pile and baby
ignore it all for a while, and baby

(verse 2)
a hand to hold, when it's getting cold
we're falling out, it's hard to control you again
the lies you told, it's getting old
you threw away my heart that you folded and bent
it's a shame we never happened,
feel the same from when it happened,
you were my biggest distraction

i can't,
i can't take this lightly
i know it ain't likely,
but i want you beside me.

(break)

memories

Chance! (prod. Glumboy + KxngRada)

Like Me! w/ Saturn (prod. Dylvinci)

To The Max! w/ Heygwuapo (prod. Goyxrd + Glumboy)

Do It For Em! (prod LJ + Glumboy)

lyrics:

Create the bond
And break the bond in anger
We were once and once again are strangers
Piercing me her eyes have turned to lasers
Create the plot and skew the plot to make her
I hope this feeling in my stomach blows by
You were the only one to read me thru my eyes baby
I was fucked by u made it alright baby
now without you part of me dies

I thought human nature gifted moral code but I was wrong
She could kill me now and I would still try to put it in a song
Circulation leaves my fingers while I jot down these poems
I feel being hated still holds more than being alone
Ive lost too many friends to the same shit I take
Heavens way too full for someone that had willed this fate
The bottles never deep enough to drown out this pain
And the pills are never strong enough to alleviate this weight
Create the bond
And break the bond in anger
We were once and once again are strangers
Piercing me her eyes have turned to lasers
Create the plot and skew the plot to make her
Break me again
And again and again
When im numb Ill say sorry to my family and friends
Im on drink im on pills im on ten im on go
In my head I hear voices telling me im better cold
I dont know x4
But I dont know
I dont know x4
Huh
I dont know x6

Back in Dallas I thought I could make time
I was nervous but I tried to play fine
I feel my pills push down on top of my eyes
But In the 416 I really come to life
Inside of this city when u cry its pure ice
Snow is blinding me in these college streetlights
Oh what happened to me I guess in the end our time flies
That’s why I think ill come and check on u tonight

Kill me and then love me and then cut me and then stuff me and then dump me in this ditch
I was so damn whipped
U ungrateful bitch
please just choke
This about people that did me wrong
If u feel me just sing along
I had never felt how I was
On that evening night in that house
But Im too scared to reach out
So ill be here thinking about it

Back in Dallas I thought I could make time
I was nervous but I tried to play fine
I feel my pills push down on top of my eyes
But In the 416 I really come to life
Inside of this city when u cry its pure ice
Snow is blinding me in these college streetlights
Oh what happened to me I guess in the end our time flies
That’s why I think ill come and check on u tonight

crusher (branwen)

when ur around (prod. brody)

three wheels and it still drives!

Slice Of Strange (prod.Mo beats) {vid in description}

sit back, ion show remorse for a single thing i do
if i did, then i'd start looking like you, like a bitch
i think i see sum wrong wit that shit
wrong with that stick, yeah i'm the wrong one to piss off 

stab myself and let the blood touch my lips soft
look at me and then look down at my hip
sawed off, i wish i was joking
i can't talk cause i'm still choking up, up

fuck what i say, fuck what i do
ion give a fuck bout myself, fuck bout you too
everything i say is a problem for you
ask me if i'm wanted to die, probably i do

yeah probably i do, i'ma take this glock
and let them hollows go right through
rope tied around my neck until my face is turning blue
everything i wanted i wanted because of you
'til i wake up and see that it ain't true

sit back, ion show remorse for a single thing i do
if i did, then i'd start looking like you, like a bitch
i think i see sum wrong wit that shit
wrong with that stick, yeah i'm the wrong one to piss off 

stab myself and let the blood touch my lips soft
look at me and then look down at my hip
sawed off, i wish i was joking
i can't talk cause i'm still choking up, up, up. up

yeah probably i do, i'ma take this glock
and let them hollows go right through
rope tied around my neck until my face is turning blue
everything i wanted i wanted because of you
'til i wake up and see that it ain't true

(all i want is you)
(baby all i want is you)

no remorse

[Verse 1]
Realize
Don’t cry

[Chorus]
Don’t you realize 
I see all the lies
(Yeah)

[Verse 2]
You loved me?
It was all gone into the night
You left me
It was not the best thing
Had a feeling something’s not right
Always here alone

[Chorus]
Don’t you realize 
I see all the lies
Don’t you realize 
I see all the lies

Realize

Lyrics:

My love you and I
Could consume the night
And Become one with the sky
As we fall and my faith is recalled
Every part of me thralled by your touch
Why?
Is this love? I don't know
Could you entrust me your soul?
As we fight fire with sound
I ask could you stay for a while?

As the wolves begin to howl
And the moon stares back and frowns
This world is crumbling as time counts down
Before the end arrives

My love you and I
Could consume the night
And Become one with the sky
As we fall and my faith is recalled
Every part of me thralled by your touch
Why?
Is this love? I don't know
Could you entrust me your soul?
As we fight fire with sound
I ask could you stay for a while?

Avalon

hold me like this one will be the last time 

prod: michael harrison and gavin hadley 
master: @onlyfriendyeah

i took a trip out to vegas 
and you had lost your wallet 
i think we both tried to save it 
i think i knew i can't stop it 
cause baby we were breaking 
so many cracks spread without 
and by the time that it had split 
we had planned out a house 

i can't love you enough 
i'll try my best till it's done
baby you're all that i want 
i wish you'd tell me that once

i'd give up everything i have to fix the things ruined
but i just can't make myself put my heart through it 

i don't want it to stop 
i can't feel it all 
i don't want you gone 
i ran right through the wall

tell me everything
you want it too
i can't be your rendezvous
even if i tried 
i couldn't even if i wanted to
i always lose 
it's the truth 

i don't think that we can try again
now there's no me without you 
and baby i know that you lied again 
cause that's just what we do 
tell me that everything will be alright 
hold me like this one will be the last time 
kiss me so softly, i'll cry the whole night
grab on my body and look in my eyes 
look in my eyes

i can't love you enough 
i'll try my best till it's done 
(did i say too much, did i say too much?)
baby you're all that i want 
i wish you'd tell me that once

icantloveyouenough

bad dreams with @beautifuldayguaranteed

lyrics
We play this game everyday
That I just don’t wanna play
I lock myself in the dark
I’m asking can you stay away
You’re asking me, if Im feel fine
Don’t talk and don’t show my face
You’re asking me, if Im feel fine
Don’t talk and don’t show my face

Oh no no, I’m not gonna do it again
I hate the feeling that i have this feeling deep in my chest
You told me we would be forever bitch, you just like the rest
Get what you want and then you leave me straight up back in the past oh no no

One phone call and six bad dreams
You’re playing with my heart and I can’t sleep
Been going on and on for countless weeks
Know I should cut you off but no , it’s just so hard

Fuck it I’m crashing the car
Oh no I’m not going far
You took the key to my heart
Fuck you bitch don’t even start

Cause now I’m done with the games
Fuck you, you causing me pain
Thought what we felt was the same oh no no

I don’t understand what you want
I can’t tell if you want me gone
Why do you hit me up i told you to stop
I will never go back never go back so please give it up

How many times did i mistake it for love
So many times when you told me that we done
Pretty fucking dumb that i thought you was the one
Now i’ll never be the same, never be the same again

We play this game everyday
That I just don’t wanna play
I lock myself in the dark
I’m asking, can you stay away
You’re asking me, if im fine
Don’t talk and don’t show my face
You’re asking me, if im fine
Don’t talk and don’t show my face

Oh no no, I’m not gonna do it again
I hate the feeling that i have this feeling deep in my chest
You told me we would be forever bitch, you just like the rest
Get what you want and then you leave me straight up back in the past oh no no

bad dreams

bad dreams w/ silent boy

stream

bad dreams w/Silent Boy [siemspark x rip.warheart x prodbyjos]

a rendition of hearts burst into fire by bullet for my valentine

hearts burst into fire

This album is not monetized by me nor is it mine. All of the artist's work is linked below. All credit goes to the owners.
Youtube Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DYcUt0DGK6w&t=1271s
Josh A's soc:
SPOTIFY: open.spotify.com/artist/2rWCIhENZ…nASaCV8CdQkH3qcg
INSTAGRAM: instagram.com/officialjosha
TWITTER: twitter.com/officialjosha
YOUTUBE: www.youtube.com/channel/UChjW_gdgSDMmfoyeyeveKvw

Josh A - Suicide Benz

thank you for everything <3
i hope you enjoy this is much as i do

guitar: @jude18

lyrics:

oh fuck i'm drunk went and did it again
i cut my ties guess i'm losin a friend
i'm stuck your lies makes it harder to mend
my heart self harm makes it easy to pen

i'm not the monster i get painted as
but i bite her neck like i'm a maniac
i love when she screams, when she cuts me i bleed
i get high as the stars, then i fall like the leaves

my minds gone bad yo whats the date
my hearts so cold bet a few could relate
now i'm fucked in the brain, now i'm fucked in the tub
i'm fucked so often i'm prolly up on the hub

i'm prolly out of my luck, i'm prolly stupid as fuck
cause every time that she hit me i feel adrenaline rush
i feel my energy thrust, its like i like being hurt
i feel the knife in my gut, i think i'm cryin too much

i've been playin to much, 
one minute you hate me and the next you wan fuck
just look at my love, yeah look at it goes
every time i'm up it seems like you want me more

and that sucks my heart's inside my lungs
i hit my plug he fill me up
i don't want nothin but your love
you hit me up and said we done

oh no oh god what have i done
become all the things that i've been runnin from
i thought we were done talkin shit, were above that
but words turn to fists its becoming a  blood bath

but i'm drunk so i run back, if you call me an asshole
i don't have a comeback, i'm not just an asshole
i know that you know that, you're craving my soul but i already sold that

i'm bravin the cold, you already know that i hate this
fuck love i wanna be famous, at least i can't be shameless and
spend all my time gettin wasted, but that's you wanted right
i don't wanna hang on right, i'm on my own tonight
you make me wanna die, i'll let you kill me some other time

oh fuck i'm drunk went and did it again
i cut my ties guess i'm losin a friend
i'm stuck your lies makes it harder to mend
my heart self harm makes it easy to pen

i'm not the monster i get painted as
but i bite her neck like i'm a maniac
i love when she screams, when she cuts me i bleed
i get high as the stars, then i fall like the leaves

my minds gone bad yo whats the date
my hearts so cold bet a few could relate
now i'm fucked in the brain, now i'm fucked in the tub
i'm fucked so often i'm prolly up on the hub

i'm prolly out of my luck, i'm prolly stupid as fuck
cause every time that she hit me i feel adrenaline rush
i feel my energy thrust, its like i like being hurt
i feel the knife in my gut, i think i'm cryin too much

cryin too much w/ koi & lil xtra

Deserved +skress

SPOTIFY + APPLE

nowhere left to go

drunk

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bad dreams w/Silent Boy [siemspark x rip.warheart x prodbyjos]

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