Songs to cry yourself to sleep

spoti: https://open.spotify.com/track/3yZueO8TUXxGNettYqIRKw?si=ea2af00ec1e94b2c

where do we go when we fall in love w/ zebatin and fallen oceans

lyric video/visualizer on youtube:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CA5_dnw66L4&ab_channel=ghosthands

lyrics:

you’re a liar when you say
you’ve figured out your way
make plans that turn to air
and then you hesitate
i’m a coward when i talk
does that mean i care a lot
it all makes sense in my head
oh well

i won’t wait till i’m dead
fate is russian roulette
it’s all there
in the mirror can’t you see
we’re just too scared to check
life’s been lowkey a wreck
but that’s not news
just count to ten and breathe

there’s more to waking up than this
an endless chase for bliss
has it changed you at all
and what has it made you miss
oh well
i really shouldn’t check my phone
there’s no point in being known
is it really that bad
that I’ve gotten used to being alone

i won’t wait till i’m dead
fate is russian roulette
it’s all there
in the mirror can’t you see
we’re just too scared to check
life’s been lowkey a wreck
but that’s not news
just count to ten and breathe

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breathe

thank you for listening w/ @imgeist and @lilskeleskrrt

// skele
so what is this, same old shit
i don’t want to wake up and deal with it
one last kiss, i’m a hypocrite
think of all the things i’ll miss
giving up, i’ve had enough
i’m sick of always fucking up
i know you’re not the type to call,
got my back against the wall

// edacity
and I’m so close to giving up
time and time I’ve tried again,
but still i fuck it up, I’ve had enough
breathe easy
you can believe me
it’s not your fault, not at all
got your back to the wall

spend too much time in my head
wondering when i come back
if you’ll be there
cause i’m so scared

so you know
(things will never be the same again)
that i’ll always be there
please stay close
(but i swear)
it’s right where i want you

// skele
so what is this, same old shit
i don’t want to wake up and deal with it
one last kiss, i’m a hypocrite
think of all the things i’ll miss
giving up, i’ve had enough
i’m sick of always fucking up
i know you’re not the type to call,
got my back against the wall

// geist
yeah my backs against the wall
but for you i’d take the fall
and that night i can’t recall
for your love i paid the toll

now it seems that i’ve lost myself
i tried to find the peace in this hell
my hearts has been locked on top this shelf
this isn’t going to end well

so say goodbye 😕
but don’t show me that pitiful face that i’m dying to kiss .3.
won’t you stay the night?
what choice do i have when you give me those eyes

// skele x geist
so what is this, same old shit
i don’t want to wake up and deal with it
one last kiss, i’m a hypocrite !!!
think of all the things i’ll miss
giving up, i’ve had enough
i’m sick of always fucking up
i know you’re not the type to call,
got my back against the wall

// geist x edacity
i don’t want to see you pretend
i want to stay till the end
and what’s the point if we’re friends
it’s all inside of my head
wasted all of this time i’ve been wasting
leave this place in the dust
where we made it

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edacity x i'm geist - all the things i'll miss (ft. skele) [prod. desmo]

TRANSMUTATION ft. ICHIKA NITO (PROD. JOHN CUNNINGHAM)

prod @rosesleeves 
@bronzestandardlistening

(joss)
i can’t speak at all
without hearing somebody else’s opinions

made me wanna crawl 
outside my skin and never see people again 

it was killing me
dont need it
not a bit 

for all the good things said 
i just hid
almost quit 

always another thing 
damn it stings 
i hate these things

(rose)
wish i was in control
its been a while since i truly knew what was going on
don't ask me why i'm still going at this point idk
this place no longer feels like home
at one point i belonged

(joss)
at one point i belonged
it’s been a while since i could tell you what was going on
at this point i don’t know
and i can feel reality is slipping from my throat 

(boysinblush)
it feels like 100 times could never be enough

sometimes its like im runnin with my feet up off the ground

and i wanna keep goin when u say u want it rough

i know u didnt mean it when ur sayin all that stuff

i gotta let it go, but im a psycho

you got me burnin the house that i built in my head

and i cant even kick rocks cuz im stuck in my bed

and this shits never gon change its gon haunt me forever

(joss)
it was killing me
dont need it
not a bit 

for all the good things said 
i just hid
almost quit 

always another thing 
damn it stings 
i hate these things

(rose)
wish i was in control
its been a while since i truly knew what was going on
don't ask me why i'm still going at this point idk
this place no longer feels like home
at one point i belonged

(joss)
at one point i belonged
it’s been a while since i could tell you what was going on
at this point i don’t know
and i can feel reality is slipping from my throat

don't need it w/ Rosesleeves & boysinblush

stream on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7cEHmU9mHQuoYD8nQznoXy?si=fdd44e6a98054ea1

lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dEaVPM1WVhk&t=1s&ab_channel=ghosthands

silent walls (reimagined)

@sorrow - i hate the situation, but congratulations (prod. sundwn & autrioly)

lyrics :D

lemme start off, i feel empty inside
when i look in your eyes, is the only time i'm alive
when i look in your mind, i can tell you despise
everything, i can't reside

in the place that i feel is the safest
i feel like i'm going out tonight
i can taste it, it's real, it's amazing
i feel like i'm taking my own life away

everyday it rains no brighter days
need to exit life, like right away
just hideaway
keep waiting on my lights to fade

what you meant to me
what you kept from me
i don't care about a thing
i want you next to me

i can't think of anybody less than me
i can only think about you texting me

exit life

exit life (siem spark, 5head)

Is it selfish that I want to forget
Your arms around my neck
Pulling me in
We were so recklessly in love
The worst pain, when love is not enough
Can't take back the things I've done
The guilt is eating me alive
I can't forget your bloodshot eyes
I left a piece of me to die
All that I long for is you and I

Lately I can't find myself
Loving anybody else
Every word you said is haunting
I don't want to close my eyes
I still see you every time
Every night
And the tears I cry won't fix me

I suffocate under the weight of every moment I can't change
Too many things I need to say
But you're a ghost and I'm too late
I can't erase the scent of your perfume
Forget the love that I once knew
Through the fallout, I'm still tied to you
Despite the pain, I cannot fight the truth

Lately I can't find myself
Loving anybody else
Every word you said is haunting
I don't want to close my eyes
I still see you every time
Every night
And the tears I cry won't fix me

Haunting

thank you for all the love yall given me from when i started earlier this year, here's one last song before 2017 ends. i love yall, and i got hella plans for next year <3 
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we both know i'm not the best at showing just how much i care 
but every word you've ever said, just know that i'm not unaware 

of all the little things you'd do, and everything that makes you cute 
cuz i'd give up the world in a heartbeat just to show that my love is true 

and i know it's been awhile, it's too late for me to say
that i still really love your smile, and i regret it everyday 

i lie awake, im stuck in bed,
thinkin of the words i never said 
i lie awake, can't leave my bed,
thinkin of the words i should've said to you
the words i should've said to you 
the words i should've said to you  

and i know it sounds cliche, i'm writing letters in my songs 
singing the same things over and over, like how i'm sorry i was wrong 

i know you hate when i apologize, and you hate that look inside my eyes 
you tell me it's alright, but i still hate it when you cry

i lie awake, im stuck in bed 
thinkin of the words i never said 
i lie awake, you're in my head 
thinkin of the words i should've said to you
words i should've said to you 
words i should've said to you  

and now i've gotchu you in my song, it's the least that i could do
anytime, just say the word; i'll do my best to make it up to you

cause there's nothing i wouldn't give to see you smile like you did
and there's nothing i wouldn't do, for one more chance to be with you

buy/listen

the words i should've said

much love to @keshibeats
pleasure working with u brother <3

//demxntia

don't put up a front with me
is this really how you want it to be?
ik you're lookin for excuses to make other plans
when he's not around to hold your hand

and all the times that you called me
crying on the phone
please don't sell yourself short
cuz you're scared of bein alone

i don't wanna see you hurt anymore
no i don't wanna see you hurt anymore

it kills me
everytime that we speak
ik that you wanna be free
but ur trapped in ur memories
yeah it kills me
oh, baby it ain't hard to see
you're happier when you're with me
you're happier when you're with me

//keshi

take my hand
i need your attention
fuck yo man
i’ll teach him a lesson
if we speak in bodies
we can’t tell nobody
fuck you when u lonely
but i know she say that i am not enough
in my heart i know that i am not enough

//demxntia

baby girl it kills me
everytime that we speak
ik that you wanna be free
but ur trapped in ur memories
yeah it kills me
oh, baby it ain't hard to see
you're happier when you're with me
you're happier when you're with me

so don't put up a front with me
is this really how you want it to be?
ik you're lookin for excuses to make other plans
when he's not around to hold your hand
so don't put up a front with me
is this really how you want it to be?
ik you're lookin for excuses to make other plans
when he's not around to hold your hand

it kills me

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it kills me w/ keshi

This album is not monetized by me nor is it mine. All of the artist's work is linked below. All credit goes to the owners.
Youtube Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DYcUt0DGK6w&t=1271s
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Josh A - Suicide Benz

thank you for everything <3
i hope you enjoy this is much as i do

guitar: @jude18

lyrics:

oh fuck i'm drunk went and did it again
i cut my ties guess i'm losin a friend
i'm stuck your lies makes it harder to mend
my heart self harm makes it easy to pen

i'm not the monster i get painted as
but i bite her neck like i'm a maniac
i love when she screams, when she cuts me i bleed
i get high as the stars, then i fall like the leaves

my minds gone bad yo whats the date
my hearts so cold bet a few could relate
now i'm fucked in the brain, now i'm fucked in the tub
i'm fucked so often i'm prolly up on the hub

i'm prolly out of my luck, i'm prolly stupid as fuck
cause every time that she hit me i feel adrenaline rush
i feel my energy thrust, its like i like being hurt
i feel the knife in my gut, i think i'm cryin too much

i've been playin to much, 
one minute you hate me and the next you wan fuck
just look at my love, yeah look at it goes
every time i'm up it seems like you want me more

and that sucks my heart's inside my lungs
i hit my plug he fill me up
i don't want nothin but your love
you hit me up and said we done

oh no oh god what have i done
become all the things that i've been runnin from
i thought we were done talkin shit, were above that
but words turn to fists its becoming a  blood bath

but i'm drunk so i run back, if you call me an asshole
i don't have a comeback, i'm not just an asshole
i know that you know that, you're craving my soul but i already sold that

i'm bravin the cold, you already know that i hate this
fuck love i wanna be famous, at least i can't be shameless and
spend all my time gettin wasted, but that's you wanted right
i don't wanna hang on right, i'm on my own tonight
you make me wanna die, i'll let you kill me some other time

oh fuck i'm drunk went and did it again
i cut my ties guess i'm losin a friend
i'm stuck your lies makes it harder to mend
my heart self harm makes it easy to pen

i'm not the monster i get painted as
but i bite her neck like i'm a maniac
i love when she screams, when she cuts me i bleed
i get high as the stars, then i fall like the leaves

my minds gone bad yo whats the date
my hearts so cold bet a few could relate
now i'm fucked in the brain, now i'm fucked in the tub
i'm fucked so often i'm prolly up on the hub

i'm prolly out of my luck, i'm prolly stupid as fuck
cause every time that she hit me i feel adrenaline rush
i feel my energy thrust, its like i like being hurt
i feel the knife in my gut, i think i'm cryin too much

cryin too much w/ koi & lil xtra

Angelbeatz

nowhere left to go

my first official release as an artist. So happy to of been able to collab with two amazing artists @rxseboy & @powfu 
Hope you guys enjoyed it, please support on Spotify aswell :)
https://open.spotify.com/track/50HURWGNsCiJw4qFDQu40X?si=i47qp5K_TQ-hJpRretA2pQ

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the bootleg boy & Rxseboy - the day i died (ft. Powfu)

more

Shinigami - Sanctuary Pt. 3

rxseboy x powfu x alec benjamin x sarcastic sounds x sistaprod - eyes blue like the atlantic pt. 2

drunk

oh, but, babе, you know
it happens all the time
you givе your heart to someone
but they go and change their mind
you don’t have to stay you know
if it’s all a waste of time
'cause i’m used to having no one
to lay here by my side

Songs to cry yourself to sleep

Valanor💜