a thirteen minute synth piece recorded in february of 2017. improvisational, slowly building, and performed in one take. the clip at the end is of my niece. the way she said, "sometimes i fall down" resonated with me a lot. i don't know why. or... i don't know. i guess i do.

there are dolls scattered across the floor. none of them are yours, they belong to me

A lullaby for a restless mind.
Pretty on the surface.
Unsettled underneath.
Available everywhere on 01/09/2025.

goodnight moon

Frozen

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you were a home that i wanted to grow up in

this time is different
i feel different
lost under tension
fateful companion
your skin is frozen
my wounds closing
you overestimate
the ones you love the steps you take
i want us to be best friends but
maybe baby i cant pretend
when im asleep
is when you call me
don't talk too deep
we'll be sorry
find hope in nothing
we are nothing
i want us to be until the end
maybe baby i cant pretend

the pictures on my phone are all of you

from the album "we call our houses a home"
https://hospitalflowers.bandcamp.com/album/we-call-our-houses-a-home

last may (sitting by the parking lot under the yellow lights)

hummingbird

action scene

even the stars can be hollow

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bandcamp: https://wishing.bandcamp.com/album/to-forget

make your way back home
to the other side of town
or anywhere i don't come undone
but you hold my hand and you promise me
that we'll be just fine when we fall asleep
you'll be the one that holds me up

but when you're gone it's all just
black walls black sheets black eyes black clothes
black cars black streets black skies black holes
i'll be the one that's giving up

make my bed and leave
soap and shower clean
tugging on my sleeve
i need to leave
hope you got that job
at the bakery
it keeps escaping me
crazy me

are you coming home?
you've been gone all week
i can feel the gaps like they're missing teeth
you're the one who keeps me up
but when you're gone it's all just
black walls black sheets black eyes black clothes
black cars black streets black skies black holes
i'll be the one that's giving up

https://wishing.bandcamp.com

to forget

wishing - missing teeth

sing me something sweet to sleep to

smoked so much till i could feel something
the cold resided i'm erupting
cleared the dew as a drip to the ground 

take my heart and twist my tongue
rip my teeth out one by one 
squeeze my arms so i don't feel so numb

did you know i'm not great at communication, i sit alone but my mind's abrasion wears me down

did you know, i'm too scared if scaring you off so i'll just leave

being dead is still better than being me (demo)

i record songs and write poems and i really hope you're having a good day.

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