every once in a while I return to this poem and it’s everything I need to hear, each time.

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lyrics:
ever since i heard his voice across the hallway
i kissed his lips and turned my back and thought well ok
maybe this could finally work
and i won't be left in the dirt
all of the bleach shirt
is dripping onto my skirt
and now im finally home
but i won't pick up my phone
80 missed calls it's okay
ill call them all back someday
and when i do it'll ring 
it'll go on endlessly
til i panic and hang up
pour liquor into my cup
ill fuck my life up again
and then ill finally quit
ill wish u luck to move on
ill cry and then you'll be gone
but this won't be the last u see of me ill be inside ur dreams
clawing at my grave while 6 ft under ill be ripping the seams

ima go back and replace every single little mistake
till i can't walk anymore
i will collapse on the floor
my legs will buckle and break 
and i'll fix every mistake

washing off
all the dirt on my shirt so im pretty and clean and u stick out to me

mistake (prod. mgnta)

Lil Peep - Veins

DRAMA QUEEN (prod. skinthewitch)

you said okay

saturday dec 14 2013

bubble boy, an insignificant cell on a strangers body. a nobody, with no purpose, but i’ll still find a way to draw parallels to who looks better with their shirt off. now it feels like the world is spinning too quickly and sometimes i just can’t fucking believe that i’m here right now. please, i’m begging you to compare me to someone else. spit in my mouth,  then on my chest. let me taste you so when you’re gone i’ll know exactly what i’m missing. it’s 1am and i want to be apart of you in ways you’ll only bring up when you talk shit on me years later. until then i’ll kiss your stretch marks, and you’ll run your fingers across old scars, and together we’ll repeat 'i love you' until the mirror breaks.

the root of my problems doesn’t have a root at all. it isn’t a string or trail of bread crumbs i can follow back to a single moment. it isn’t a suppressed thought, it’s a voice that convinces me my thoughts are worth suppressing in the first place.

we'll repeat 'i love you' until the mirror breaks

don’t hold your tongue
i know we’re done
i’m not an idiot
there’s no coming back
from where we’ve been
and who we’ve been with
but these are not the people
we thought that we would touch
and i’m scared that if i see you
i’ll start missing you too much

i know i felt like home
a year ago
when this was new
we’ll learn who we are
when we drift apart
when we drift
but when did we become so old
tomorrow i turn twenty four
and i’m still chasing the dreams
we had in high school

now we’re clinging onto objects
that someone else had touched
in hopes that we still smell them
in the fabric and the dust
i took the book you wrote me
and i tore it into shreds
but i still keep it in a shoe box
in a space next to my bed
i want to hold you until i’m empty
and i’ve got nothing left
so when you let me go
could you do it slow

and i’m sorry that i went away
i just needed some time to make
the pain into something
you can hold

july 8th, 2014

Blueprint - Until Now

you're a mess in public

@kitcallico on instagram
contact info -
kitcalicoband@gmail.com

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lyrics :
just another face
doing fine and great
its cold out here but thats okay

did you hit rock bottom
will you be re-done
ill wait for you 
another day

you were right, i miss it all (demo)

please live p.dash

first track off Europa Radio a new album by Ste Star
https://littlelrecords.bandcamp.com/album/europa-radio

Europa Radio

Credits to the producer @whotreaze Don't forget  Kailee drops her song at midnight make sure to check it out.

Kailee Morgue  - Signs (Prod @whotreaze)

you can’t ever look past the way that you yourself felt
talk to yourself, well, that’s the meaning of self help
and don’t beat yourself up in the pursuit of self happiness
because half the battle’s asking passionately just what “happy” is
take some time off to self reflect and self measure
sometimes you need to be self centered to understand yourself better
I’m feeling self possessed without the selfishness of self obsession
but if I do this for myself and no one else then it is self expression
self confident in that I’ll never let myself forfeit 
every word I write I’m certain I’m just painting a self portrait
and to all the self destructive people who feel they’ll never be themselves again
just know I understand that self inflicted pain is self defense
so don’t sell yourself short or label yourself as stupid
because when you’ve hit rock bottom every movement is a self improvement

be yourself

she never changed 
she wakes up and wears the same thing
every day
every day
i lay awake
run my fingers through my hair
im so ashamed
im so ashamed

ive got it in me
youve got it in you
im always searching for the truth
but i am not a man
im not good at what i do
i feel like i always lose
but i keep doing what i can

she is livid and shes warm

when im back
in the bay 
i get stuck in my old ways
its a cage
its a cage

ive got it in me
youve got it in you
im always searching for the truth
but i am not a man
im not good at what i do
i feel like i always lose
but i keep doing what i can

she is livid and shes warm

be yourself

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