off the dream, i dream the happiness with you

Where’s my glasses

days dedicated to the thought of being through 
and i just want to lay in bed with you 
and admit that i'm so tired of everything i do 
but with you - it was new 

and i can't stop thinking of the moon 
or the nights i saw your breath in the room 
so draw a line within the snow 
between what you thought and what you know 
and in that space i'll build a home and i'll wait 

if this fire goes out i will keep you warm the best i can 
i'll throw everything i have into the flames just to make it last

in the absence of everything, i promise to keep you warm

you're on the phone 
with someone who doesn't know 
about your soul and how it 
can't be held by flesh and bone 
and i guess that's fine 
i would never want you to 
stop your life 
but when i saw you both 
with your shoulders touching 
sitting so close 

i knew i'd hold on to this feeling 
i'd hold on to anything at all 
was it my fault 
because i easily confused you 
for someone who would hold my hand 
when things got hard 
when things got dark 
because oh my god 
when they get dark 
they get so dark 

you were always a shitty friend 
and you would leave when i got sick 
you never called me on my birthday 
i want to call you on your birthday 
so i'll hold on to this feeling 
i'll hold on to this hate 
for as long as i need 
for it to help me

learning to hate you as a self defense mechanism

this time is different
i feel different
lost under tension
fateful companion
your skin is frozen
my wounds closing
you overestimate
the ones you love the steps you take
i want us to be best friends but
maybe baby i cant pretend
when im asleep
is when you call me
don't talk too deep
we'll be sorry
find hope in nothing
we are nothing
i want us to be until the end
maybe baby i cant pretend

the pictures on my phone are all of you

i keep writing songs for people i'll never know

smoked so much till i could feel something
the cold resided i'm erupting
cleared the dew as a drip to the ground 

take my heart and twist my tongue
rip my teeth out one by one 
squeeze my arms so i don't feel so numb

did you know i'm not great at communication, i sit alone but my mind's abrasion wears me down

did you know, i'm too scared if scaring you off so i'll just leave

being dead is still better than being me (demo)

if you love me, come clean

give me back my sweater

where did you go, and what did you do
with all the time you were too scared to move
and what is it like to be by yourself
for three and a half years
for roughly three and a half years
if we could just pretend that i went to college
and that is why you, you haven’t seen me
i wanted to go, but not for this long
i over did it
why did you say that i was one in a million
because i believed it i thought i had something
that you were too scared to lose
so if we could just pretend that i went to college
or traveled abroad and did something different
anything but just sitting at home
for three and a half years
writing song after song after song
so what is it like to be by yourself
and not feel like you’ll die
around everyone else
i thought i was one in a million
well thanks for nothing
yeah thank you
thank you 

if we could just pretend

dandelion hands - ily x11

reupload of "what the heck" from the album "i tried to run away when i was 6 but got too scared to cross the street" by i tried to run away when i was 6 (but got too scared to cross the street). that's a long name.

buy the album on bandcamp: https://blastreality.bandcamp.com/album/i-tried-to-run-away-when-i-was-6-but-got-too-scared-to-cross-the-street

listen to it on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/79zLBKlL1V4Agt0guR3nFx?si=9DdgcmDjSoi84o9u7IBuUQ

i tried to run away when i was 6 but got too scared to cross the street

i tried to run away when i was 6 (but got too scared to cross the street) - what the heck

i record songs and write poems and i really hope you're having a good day.

learning to hate you as a self defense mechanism

flatsound