produced by cmb
written, mixed, performed by me
i love you always
hope you're well ^.^

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you were once in a lifetime
no i don't want to die for someone else
once in a lifetime
i'll toss my hurt and hide it on the shelf
no i wouldn't be with no one else
no i wouldn't be with no one else
but you're gone and i'm lost again 

i told my pops i'll be okay
he knows that i can't sleep at night
the thought of you with someone else replays like hell i'm petrified 
my arms stained crimson red
i wish you'd kiss me and tell me that it's all in my head
feel like a psycho i stalk you and then go back to bed
without you i would rather be dead
without you i would

forget all that i said
unscrew my head and put another, lay me down to rest
couple folks told me i need to let it go
told them they’re crazy and i left
i know that i could be a handful baby it’s part of my nature
fool me once, you fooled me twice, so much for asking for a favour
why do you look so blue?
your eyes have lost their colour bae, what’s bothering you?
don’t mistake me for a loon, i see right through you
it’s not a secret i miss you oh i see right through you
it’s not a secret i love you

you were once in a lifetime
no i don't want to die for someone else
once in a lifetime
i'll toss my hurt and hide it on the shelf
no i wouldn't be with no one else
no i wouldn't be with no one else
but you're gone and i'm lost again

lifetime

everything by me

im done explaining 
lets skip to the part where its all my fault
you untied my laces
expect me not to trip and fall
and honest to god
i wish i didnt care at all
the pieces of us
too much to pick up so move along 

what u thinking of
cuz i cant sleep at all
i want u to call my phone
what u thinking of
cuz i cant sleep at all
i want u to call my own

you must think im stupid or just dumb enough to turn off my mind
think i cant tell between the ugly truth and ur beautiful lies
but i know the signs
dont wanna taste my medicine
now i’m switchin sides
u never saw me how i am

what u thinking of
cuz i cant sleep at all
i want u to call my phone
what u thinking of
cuz i cant sleep at all
i want u to call my own

thinking of

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by plantcham
outro by aftrr
additional production by me

I packed all my bags and left my home town
And when I come I want to be something
Make my dad proud
Oh isn’t it obvious love?
That I miss you so dearly
Can you hear me?
Oh I’ll make it easy

Pulled your knife but I’m already dead
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?
Wore up your shoes kicking dirt in my face
It’s how it’s supposed to be love
God strike me down from above
Just tell me what you really want
What you really want

At a rest stop in a car with some people I don’t know
Maybe if we didn’t live far then our eyes would both be glowing gold
Dream girl don’t love me no more (don’t throw it away)
Threw my morals out like a whore (you threw it away)
You don’t gotta save me darling
I spent the last month getting high
Wishing I wasn’t alive and steady crying
I told myself don’t die yet
That’d be so violent

I’ve been up all night for you
Ruin my mind for you
Giving all this time for you
Peeling back my eyes for you
Oh baby can’t you see? (that my head is on the floor, bae head is on the floor)
Oh baby can’t you see? (do you love me anymore bae, love me anymore?)
Love me anymore

Pulled your knife but I’m already dead
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be? (go!)
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?

home

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by plantcham

Had the world in the palm of my hands
Oh pretty girl, why'd you do me like that?
The teller asked me if I've died yet
Told him give me couple minutes let me digest
Do you feel the high yet?
I like bleeding cause I don't think bout the time spent

Tell me, do you feel the high yet?
I like bleeding cause I don't think bout the time spent
I was clean for like a month but guess I digress
Tell me baby, do you feel the high yet?
Don't let go
I just need to get my mind right
Do as I'm told
I'll stay clear, outta your sight

Don't hurt me
I'm sorry
I hate my body
Do you smile at the thought of me?
Severed nerves and my bones grown weak

Oh judi
Oh judi
Have you thought about me lately?
Oh judi
Oh judi
Tell me, have I gone crazy?

Had the world in the palm of my hands
Oh pretty girl, why'd you do me like that?
The teller asked me if I've died yet
Tap her shoulder ask her do you feel the high yet

oh judi

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by plantcham

They tell me that I’m dumb
Shit, I agree with them
Yea, I was out tryna find solace
Picked up the j and couldn’t put it down
Couldn’t tell you who I am now
Left home to make my dad proud but I done lost my whole mind wow
I still, I still love you dearly
I don’t, I don’t want no one near me
And don’t dare offer me a cig yea that shit fucking disgusting

I’ll be gone
So so damn far
I was wrong
To lend you my heart
Are you better than?
You are heaven sent
5150
Now I’m hell bent
And I did it once
I’ll do it again
Get me out the city
Need a soul cleanse

Told the teller I’ve been so exhausted
He laughed and told me “go and shut your noggin”
I give more than I take like way too often
I built and lay down in my own coffin
Miss the days where I would watch the train go by
Don’t care if it’s fake, want to be yours tonight
Tell me what you want or where your heart resides
Tell me what you-
Tell me what it feels like
Tell me what it-

We’re young baby have pride in it
Spent the last five months thinking I’d die before I turn nineteen baby
Turn around, put your fists up
Wish I didn’t fucking miss ya
Turn around, put your fists up
I’ll be there cause I need ya
Tell another lie
Maybe in another life
Don’t think twice
I’ll show you I’m able this time

Told the teller I’ve been so exhausted
He laughed and told me “go and shut your noggin”
I give more than I take like way too often
I built and lay down in my own coffin
Miss the days where I would watch the train go by
Don’t care if it’s fake, want to be yours tonight
Tell me what you want or where your heart resides
Tell me what you-
Tell me what it feels like
Tell me what it-

5150

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by neverforever
additional production by me

They say, “give it time”
Suppose it’s only right
I wore a smile until the days had turn to night
I watched my knees give out as soon as I saw the text
I laid my conscience down to rest
I watched my options fade to grey
Till there was nothing left
I don’t wanna feel this way
I don’t wanna deal with it no more
The things I love about you
Are things I wish I could change

Are things I wish I could change
Are things I wish I could change
Wish I could change
You tore a hole in my brain
Pick up a piece of my remains
And leave the rest up to fate (are things I wish I could change)
Cause babe I feel like a slave
And I can’t deal with the pain
Don’t tell me it was all in vein
Oh these are things I wish I could change

change

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by kire

Tell me sweet lies baby
Tell me sweet lies baby
Tell me this shit is not real
Tell me it’s all a damn lie
I won’t give up this time
I won’t give up this-

Spent a month baby fuck- a lifetime
How do I say this so it come out right
Felt god let my hand out
Let it freeze up cause it felt nice
Pray I’ll see you again
Pray to god the phone rings and we’ll make amends
Pray to god my life don’t end
Pray to god won’t bloody up my arms and cry my eyes out again
Pray to god you’ll be fine if I’m on tomorrow’s paper
Love I hate to be a hater
But my eyes have grown so vacant
Know you love it when I say it
Like some shit about my music
Wrote my songs about you, won’t you take a listen?

Tell me sweet lies baby
Tell me sweet lies baby
Tell me this shit is not real
Tell me it’s all a damn lie
I won’t give up this time
I won’t give up this-

forswear

I dont care
how you see me
I dont care
if you see this

Call me up,
I won't pick up
Late at night
When guilt strikes out

Kill me now
Or let me be
If you stay
For once I'll leave

Lately I've
Been losing sleep
Gaining time
Waiting

Call me up,
I won't pick up
Late at night
When guilt strikes out

I dont care
how you see me

25jl9

idchysm (prod. xy1va)

(have you ever had, like, a serious relationship?)
i'll miss her
she means a lot to me
pretty cute
she was, but she wasn't
and i was sad 
'cause i know she won't feel it
kickin' rocks, from school
to my bedroom

damn mean girl
she's still hooking up
in front of my face
i don't know why she does it
it's not my fault
she's good at lying
to pretend
that girl’s got talent

won't miss her
she meant a lot to me
pretty cruel
for now and forever
and i was sad 
'cause i know she won't change it
but i don't care
go forward 'n go forever
(eww, i'm sorry i asked)

(witherdogs hahaha)
i'll miss her
she means a lot to me
pretty cute
she was, but she wasn't
and i was sad 
'cause i know she won't feel it
kickin' rocks, from school
to my bedroom

damn mean girl
she's still hooking up
in front of my face
i don't know why she does it
it's not my fault
she's good at lying
to pretend
that girl’s got talent

won't miss her
she meant a lot to me
pretty cruel
for now and forever
and i was sad 
'cause i know she won't change it
but i don't care
go forward 'n go forever
(withered lives)

that girl kills my mood

i dont wanna watch you 
i dont wanna watch you, 
move on, move on
i dont wanna watch you 
i dont wanna watch you 
move on, move on

turn down every girl that i meet
i just wanna get your smell off my sheets
close myself up when i feel affection
all i wanted was your attention 
i get a headache at night thinking you 
itll be over soon 

i dont wanna watch you 
i dont wanna watch you, 
move on, move on
i dont wanna watch you 
i dont wanna watch you 
move on, move on

what if i dont wanna leave you here
but i dont wanna watch you move on
i dont want you to move on
i dont you to move on
i dont want you, dont want you
i dont want you to move on

prod. by reactance

move on (by reactance)

(prod. xy1va)
laam:
please take me back to the way i used to be
just take me back to the way i used to be
im not who i was, guess i must be dead asleep
im not who i want, im not who i want

i dont wanna get better so i dont really try
my mind's in the wrong place, do i really wanna die?
or maybe im dead, i just want to be alive
come fix up my head, come fix up my head

get me out of here, this house is not the same
there is too much noise going inside my brain
you said im a loser, you dont wanna hear my name
im too bad for this, im too bad for this

please take me back to the way i used to be
just take me back to the way i used to be

cyruz:
i don’t even know who i am anymore
just take me back to the way i used to be  
im not who i was
everything’s broken inside me
there’s nothing left to say
i was just a kid, i was left in the dark
i cried in my room
no one cared no one came
left all alone, they watched me fall apart
what do i do
would they care even if i die

move on (by reactance)

foemee