i close my eyes
im too high i cant sleep
i was alive
but dead when u found me
u became friends with the enemy
i dont like the way that u do things
you wont change 
what the point in all of this?
talking to a wall
you dont give love its opposite
i dont like the way that u do things
i dont like the way that u do things

im jus speaking with my chest
i wanna runaway from this music
and one day go start fresh
cuz i think im starting 2 lose it
and my mind starts to forget
and idk if this music 
will make it any better

everyday im feeling less
got zero time and so much stress
i wonder when this all gon end
i hope that its soon idk tho
idk tho
hopefully my life gon change
where the lights go?

and im feeling so cold
and idk where 2 go
slowly losing home
so i got no hope

all them years have passed 
counting cash
im on the high road
i wish love would last
falling flat
girl im so done
ill have a heart attack
karmas back, give it to me
and ive been waiting for the day
but the days seem the same 2 me

i close my eyes
im too high i cant sleep
i was alive
but dead when u found me
u became friends with the enemy
i dont like the way that u do things
you wont change 
what the point in all of this?
talking to a wall
you dont give love its opposite
i dont like the way that u do things
i dont like the way that u do things

enemy [under the maple tree]

feel a sickness in my stomach thinking back on when it happened
but im only seeing glimpses of the feeling not the action
and i never came to terms, im not surprise my own reaction
now im nauseous in the bucket, least its kind of a distraction

burrowed in my brain i swear it feels like a disease
it likes to taunt me til im helpless, even more it likes to tease
i wont go to sleep, cant get away, its back in all my dreams
i was tainted, it was taken, so its probably as it seems

i just wish you had the power to sit down and read my brain
so i wouldnt have to mention all the things i cant explain
but it wouldnt be that easy, hope you wouldnt go insane
if you feel all that i feel, i feel it might be such a pain

i been lately having visions of the day i died in life
when i speak my heart beat fast, i feel a chill right down my spine
why the fucks the world so fucked man, think that i was only five
i aint never tell no one cause i can still pretend im fine

wish that i could help myself but i was just a kid
cant confront my deeper thoughts inside so then i hid
when i hit the blunt just makes it worse, and then i split
cant turn off the flashes in my brain, cant make it quit

now i only know this pain
every memory i buried coming back inside my brain
thought i burned it all to ashes but the scars remain the same
spent my whole life feeling dirty when i bathe, cause im still stained

but you wouldnt understand, thats why i feel so alone
so alone
feels like a dirty secret in my bones
in my bones
now it looks darker when you see the world for things it doesnt show
but i couldnt speak, so now nobody knows
nobody knows
nobody knows

Nobody Knows

lyrics //

didnt bother writing
i swore its all behind me
i saw it all play out
i saw the silver lining

guess we both figured out 
the reason weve been hiding
sick of all the run around
im sick of how you want him

you can try, break it off 
turn around take the fall
it was just the two of us
left the town where we grew up

holding onto grudges
im holding on nothing but
use me as a substance
pump me right into ur blood

(pump me right into your blood
im my mamas only son 
im my mamas only son)


i can be the one you want
i cant heal a broken heart
found me in a local bar’s street
find it funny when they run
find a feeling in a cup
fighting ppl that i love

my fist been clinched, i dnd my phone
miss the kid i was but now hes grown
if you’re the queen
then id be at ur throne
a peasant in the midst of common folk

you can try, break it off
turn around take a fall
it was just the two of us, 
left the town where we grew up
holding on to grudges, i’m holding on to nothing but
use me as a substance
pump me right into your blood

substance [neverforever]

Shout out my man wraith for killing his verse in this song, go check out his music and tell him swamp sent you!❤️

https://on.soundcloud.com/LmhrUsjh5Pws53rJ8

Lyrics:

I’m not too comfortable 
What made it obvious 
I could just tell by that look on your face 
And You get so nervous sometimes that you bite on your nails and forget what to say 
Such a shame 
But that’s ok I’m too youug to care or to dumb to realize I wasn’t prepared 
I can feel it, there’s a chill in the air we’re in the calm of the storm the void is here don’t be scared 

I tend to choke on my word’s they just never out 
Guess the cats got my tongue somewhere tucked in his house 
I’ve spoiled beyond all return so please turn around before I let you all down 
It’s too cold here in this realm that I call my head such a lonely hell 
The airs so thin throughout this shell 
Inthe catacombs of my former self 

Leaving my texts unread
Don’t even care what's said
Why even bother send
Baby it’s time this ends

I have my hands in my hair
I rip and I tear
I’m scared of a memory
Lost in the air
Deep in despair
It’s all into ashes
They fall off my blunt like a flare
I’m barely scared
But also
I’m barely here
I got an eighth
In my bloodstream
Feeling like nothing
Fuck up this body
I guess that I never was someone to care

I’m not too comfortable 
What made it obvious 
I could just tell by that look on your face 
And You get so nervous sometimes that you bite on your nails and forget what to say 
Such a shame 
But that’s ok I’m too youug to care or to dumb to realize I wasn’t prepared 
I can feel it, there’s a chill in the air we’re in the calm of the storm the void is here don’t be scared

comfortable w/ Wraith

Tell me why my songs nonprofit 
They’ll talk shit about my sound but they’ll still jock it 
If you mock it then you gotta stop it 
Me and deadends just dropped another project 

And I’m still sitting all alone 
Paychecks on my phone 
New York is still cold 
But this blunt warms my bones 

Bitch I am over you 
My girl does stuff that you could never do 

Natalie
taught me to breathe 
Myself is free
Cause myself is peace 

Imagining
a better me 
Is new to me 
But its worth it now 

Fuck Snapchat, come kiss me thru the speaker phone 
Black flat cap 
I got gold on my pinkie tho 
Racks on racks 
New York is still freezing cold 
I’ll text back when this feeling starts to get old 

Fuck Snapchat, come kiss me thru the speakerphone 
Black flat cap 
I got gold on my pinkie tho 
Racks on racks 
New York is still freezing cold 
I’ll text back when this feeling starts to get old

New York (prod.tothegood)

i been on some new shit

i been tryna set pace 

i ain’t tryna do it 

if i ain’t gonna get paid 

i might pull up in a new whip 

i jus hopped out w a dead fade 

i swear i popped like 7 pills 

and i put that on my dead mates 

i come thru on a scooter 

mgp w red tape

im dressin like it’s 2012

n im doina let’s play 

im dressed like adam sandler

i got gems like adam sandler

my gun click like adam sandler

i throw kicks like adesanya

ok bro no one asked ya ???

run in like get ur hands up !!!

i might drop out like im supertramp 

n die out in alaska

im fuckin skint again so i draw the cold water

these 8 phenny tabs got me movin like a walker

these 8 phenny tabs got me thinkin should i call her

im on her dads facebook im movin like a stalker 

this 80mg got me sweatin like a sauna

this 80mg turn me to a fuckin talker i chat shit bro



im chatting shit to a stranger on xbox bro

asking about his disability and how it effects him at work n that

ADESANYA (JOLST + LYUSTRA)

Lyrics:

Hey
What if I was dead
Would I be up in your head
What would be all the stuff you said
That's what's going through my head
But I shouldn't have to die
To know I'm something in your eyes
My heart's been sewn up a couple times
My cars been totaled a couple times
What if I was dead
Would I be up in your head
What would be all the stuff you said
That's what's going through my head
But I shouldn't have to die
To know I'm something in your eyes
Your phones been blown up a couple times
Like who am I to you
Like who am I to you 

I feel like an asshole half of the time
'Cause I don't want to be brushed aside
I just want to be recognized
For how hard I always try
Talking to the ghosts up in my mind
They kind of look like you I'm not gon' lie
We kiss and it tastes like formaldehyde
When you're gone I close my eyes
'Cause it's a place to hide
But why can't I just be there for myself
If I love me then I don't need nobody else
I like to think that I'd choose heaven over hell
This life is purgatorial that's how I feel

Hey
What if I was dead
Would I be up in your head
What would be all the stuff you said
That's what's going through my head
But I shouldn't have to die
To know I'm something in your eyes
My heart's been sewn up a couple times
My cars been totaled a couple times
What if I was dead
Would I be up in your head
What would be all the stuff you said
That's what's going through my head
But I shouldn't have to die
To know I'm something in your eyes
Your phones been blown up a couple times
Like who am I to you
Like who am I to you

what if I was dead

Lyrics:

[Foreign Forest: Hook]
Not a single cloud in the sky
Could rain on me when you're by my side
And all the plants and leaves come alive
Feel the tickle in my stomach
Baby yeah you give me butterflies

[Foreign Forest: Verse]
Later on you'll figure out
What's wrong and what I'm all about
Wait for the day you fly away
Leave me with this pain in my head
Later on I'll figure out
I was wrong I shouldn't shut you out
Sorry that I made you wait
It's 'cause I carry all this weight
We're in love and now it's great
Still I'm scared
Somehow that I'll mess it up
And you'll want me out your hair
But at this point I don't really care

[Foreign Forest: Hook]
Not a single cloud in the sky
Could rain on me when you're by my side
And all the plants and leaves come alive
Feel the tickle in my stomach
Baby yeah you give me butterflies

[Plxntkid: Verse]
Baby when you kiss me
Baby when you lift me
I can feel it all up in my body, oh
I can not resist it
I can feel the bliss when you look in my eyes it’s magic
I don’t wanna let you down
But I know I will
At some point and I'm sorry
Baby if you give me time
Wanna make you mine 
So bad it hurts me
I’m so sick off myself
But when you look at me
I get such butterflies

what if I was dead

foreign forest

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