ENDER

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ASPHALT

lyrics:

I don’t really like to say what’s on mind
feel like my hands and tongue are tied when I’m with you
when I’m with you
(x2)


you said “talk to me when you need it”
what’s the point if you don’t mean it?
too many missed calls
give me a reason
you don’t listen when I’m grieving 

I’ve been looking left and right for a reason
get excited when you’re leaving for the weekend
ima make a couple bands off the feeling
I just need a pen and paper, I don’t need them

tell me where you at when I’m hurting?
I can’t say a word without feeling like a burden

(yeah yeah yeah)

always feeling uncertain
gotta cut em off, close the blinds and the curtains

you don’t know what you do to me
fuck round with my head like you can’t believe 
I’m fine, I’ll be better when you fucking leave

(yeah yeah yeah)

I don’t really like to say what’s on mind
feel like my hands and tongue are tied when I’m with you
when I’m with you
(x2)

tongue tied

my personal favorite off the EP

produced by waves

lyrics:

It’s been running through my head
All the things I could’ve said
If I did, you wouldn’t listen 
So I’ll save it til I’m dead

(til I’m dead- dead-)

Does it even matter anymore?
Stuck with this feeling in my core
Something that I never felt before
won’t let me go

I don’t wanna talk about it
I feel it wrap it’s arms around
Put its hands over my mouth
Feel the need to scream and shout
But when I try it won’t come out

Would anybody hear me?
Would anybody hear me if i tried?
If I’m screaming for my life
When I’m needing for a sign
Can you show me it’s alright?

Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)

It’s been running through my head
All the things I could’ve said
If I did, you wouldn’t listen 
So I’ll save it til I’m dead

(til I’m dead- dead-)

Does it even matter anymore?
Stuck with this feeling in my core
Something that I never felt before
Won’t let me go
(x2)

let me go

produced by grayskies

lyrics:

it takes time to materialize your fantasies
in due time i'll find myself a remedy
or write songs, obsessing bout the melody
i'm headstrong but it's bout time that it gets to me

i shut down and shut my mouth
tryna save some face
a clenched jaw and a sweat drop

bout a second fore i break
if it all falls down
just know i gave it my all
til there was not more i could take
i don't call
and now they're saying that i changed up
it fucks my brain up
(x2)

they don't even try to see where i'm coming from
cuz when i needed it more, i had no one
but i don't even blame em for it
yeah, i would never shame em for it
i'd hate but i can't afford it

i'm way too focused on me
i'm giving into my hopes and greed
but they try to paint like it's much worse than it seems
and they wonder why i'm tearing at the seams
i try to bear it til i

shut down and shut my mouth
tryna save some face
a clenched jaw and a sweat drop

bout a second fore i break
if it all falls down
just know i gave it my all
til there was not more i could take
i don't call
and now they're saying that i changed up
it fucks my brain up
(x2)

break

produced by grayskies

lyrics:

I still save a seat for you
it’s just out of habit
I can’t remembered what happened

it’s like I blinked then you’re gone
it’s not the same place without you
don’t think I forgot you
why does it feel so wrong?
hate to go on but I got to 
My words never got through
and they won’t cuz you’re gone

there’s this void inside my chest
inside my head, I can’t fill it
don’t know the last thing I said,
the last thing we did
why couldn’t I cry that day?
no tears streaming down my face

I wish I could say goodbye- bye- bye 
would I feel the same?
or would I get peace of mind? - mind - mind
wish we could go back frame by frame
take it all away
one more time

but we don’t get what we ask for

why am I breaking down
I’m feeling it now
there’s no use in hiding when no one's around
I’ll figure it out
I won’t make a sound
I’ll keep it to myself like it’s all I’m allowed
I still save a seat for you
Only if I knew 
We’d be stuck like glue
Til the end

it’s like I blinked then you’re gone
it’s not the same place without you
don’t think I forgot you
why does it feel so wrong?
hate to go on but I got to 
My words never got through
and they won’t cuz you’re gone

still save a seat for you / don't worry about me

still save a seat for you

Bloody Shoes (prod Aki)

prod. grayskies

[LYRICS]
I remember what you did
You told me that you’d stay
I gave you my whole heart
And you just threw it all away
What we had it wasn’t perfect
But I still think that I’d say
I really really loved you
Even if it was all fake

And somehow I still wish you stayed

I knew we weren’t perfect
But I still tried to wait
I thought it would get better
Could you tell me if I’m late
I’m trying to find the feeling in my heart
That your love gave
This love I can’t forget
And now I realize it was fake

Oh what do I do?
I still think about you
Oh what do I do, I do, I do
Oh what do i do?
I still think about you
Oh what do I do?

I remember what you did
You told me that you’d stay
I gave you my whole heart
And you just threw it all away
What we had it wasn’t perfect
But I still think that I’d say
I really really loved you
Even if it was all fake

And somehow I still wish you stayed

I knew we weren’t perfect
But I still tried to wait
I thought it would get better
Could you tell me if I’m late
I’m trying to find the feeling in my heart
That your love gave
This love I can’t forget
And now I realize it was fake

I remember what you did
You told me that you’d stay
I gave you my whole heart
And you just threw it all away

fake

Tell me if you feel it now
Tell me that you saw it coming
Tell me how you really felt
And if my love to you was nothing
Tell me that my heart’s allowed
It’s allowed to feel something
Tell me what’s inside your head
Cus I can tell that something’s up
And lately I’ve been feeling stuck
Lately I just want to run
The absence of my happiness
My skin and bones are numb
And I still bite hard
Both my lips have scars
Would you tell me for real
If you think about us
Tell me if you feel it now
Tell me that you saw it coming
Tell me how you really felt
And if my love to you was nothing
Tell me that my heart’s allowed
It’s allowed to feel something
Tell me what’s inside your head
Cus I can tell that something’s up
Tell me if you feel it now
Tell me that you saw it coming
Tell me how you really felt
And if my love to you was nothing
Tell me that my heart’s allowed
It’s allowed to feel something
Tell me what’s inside your head
Cus I can tell that something’s up

Something's up

Lyrics:

You and i
You and i
We could of been
We could of been
Something more
Wasted my time
Your love was a lie
Why'd you go
When i, needed you the most
Fucked me up 
And i lost control
Can't let go
Of you from my life
Even tho
You cut me like a knife

I tried so hard
But it falls apart
Taking my heart
Didn't love me from the start
You knew me so well
But left me in hell
Told me you would stay
But your actions would tell
I know, we weren't perfect
But i gave, you my all

You and i
You and i
We could of been
We could of been
Something more
Wasted my time
Your love was a lie
Why'd you go
When i, needed you the most
Fucked me up 
And i lost control
Can't let go
Of you from my life
Even tho
You cut me like a knife

you and i

[LYRICS]
Run away, I'm not coming home
Nobody here, been all alone
Not a single soul, for way too long
At the waters edge, where I belong
Now I'm drowning, could you take me home and tell me that it's fine?
I've been lost tryna find out what's in your mind
Can you even hear me when I cry?
Do you even listen when I cry?
How long will it take for you to realize?
Gave you a million tries
You let me down a million times
Said you'd come back for me
Now tell me was it all a lie
Somehow I'm not surprised
Your love had wandering eyes
You looked for someone else and
I guess that's why I
Run away, I'm not coming home
Nobody here, been all alone
Not a single soul, for way too long
At the waters edge, where I belong
Now I'm drowning, could you take me home and tell me that it's fine?
I've been lost tryna find out what's in your mind
Can you even hear me when I cry?
Do you even listen when I cry?
How long will it take for you to realize?
(Would you take me home and tell me that it's fine?)
(I've been lost tryna find out what's in your mind)
(Can you even hear me when I cry?)
(Do you even listen when I cry?)
(How long will it take for you to realize?)


Drowning

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