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Sample: Giselle - Silk 
Visual: www.youtube.com/watch?v=_GWkCOjUKRE
EMPATHY EP AVAILABLE @ CHRSBRRY.BANDCAMP.COM

ｈｅｙ ｉ ｍｉｓｓ ｕ (VISUAL IN DESCRIPTION)

@misogi

sample: real friends - i've given up on you

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blúrr w/ misogi

Tracklist

Scarlett johansson- moon song
Drip-133- shedding pastel
eden steet- pain of creation
earl sweatshirt - grief 
the bear romantic- desantes
delusional thomas - bill
melanie martinez- dead to me 


Play melancholy mix

I wish we had met before I got hurt and strange
before all I knew was trying to escape

if there’s a way out, I’ll find it
I’m like smoke, 
if there’s an open window
I’ll leave as quickly as I can
it’s a sad way to be but it’s the way I am 
I’ll leave as quickly as I can

I’m so cute when I lie but you’d rather I tell the truth
I swear if I knew what was wrong I would tell you 

if I could see the fire, I’d put it out 
if I knew what to strangle, 
I’d put my hands around and choke it out  

smoke

Panucci's Pizza - Aesthetic? (more like ass pathetic)

sometimes it's hard to take your own advice.

Love can hurt you
In many kinds of ways
Leave you beaten
And broken for days
It's hard to find but when you do
You better hold on tight
And don't let up
Without a fight
Don't give up
Without a fight

Love is simple
It's black and white
Either you both fall together
Or it won't be right
So if you find yourself without somebody to hold
Don't worry
You're not alone
Don't worry
You're not alone

Love's not easy
But isn't really hard
You just better prepare yourself
For letting down your guard
And if someone else decides
That maybe you're the one for them
Give them a chance
Let them in
Give them a chance
Let them in

Love is friendly
Love is kind
It'll run in circles
And will change its mind
So when you think you feel it
Just make sure that it's true
And things will be fine for you
Let someone else
Love you

advice for future me (demo)

gotta love some edge (ft the shitty guitar left in a dgn practice room and my fantastic bronchitis voice)

In time I'll probably learn how to be a better guy, but until then
I'm searching for reasons to say I'm happy until I die
That might seem dramatic but it's really just the truth
I just wish I could say what's on my mind
To you

The lights are out, the beat is pumping
Hopes are high, and hearts are thumping
When I wake up I won't know you

I don't even remember
What I did, who I did, what I said last night
But I'll always know when you're
Feeling good, feeling great, yeah I feel alright
Don't stop the music, keep it loud
I wanna shout my name, yeah I'm fucking proud
To be a messed up worthless kid

I loved the feeling of falling out of the tree in my yard
My bones cracked, teeth rattled, eyes rolled back in my head that I hit too hard
I flew up, above my body
I was looking down at myself
I realize a bit too late you shouldn't climb trees with nooo help

The tree's a metaphor if you didn't catch that
For gettin high by yourself

I don't even remember
What I did, who I did, what I said last night
But I'll always know when you're
Feeling good, feeling great, yeah I feel alright
Don't stop the music, keep it loud
I wanna shout my name, yeah I'm fucking proud
To be a messed up worthless kid
I'm proud to be a messed up worthless prick

I don't even remember (I don't even remember)
What I did, who I did, what I said last night (ooh, wee, ooh, wee ooh)
But I'll always know when you're (I'll always know when you're)
Feeling good, feeling great, yeah I feel alright
Don't stop the music, keep it loud
I wanna shout my name, yeah I'm fucking proud
Yeah I'm proud to be a 
Messed up, worthless, pointless, nervous, good for nothing, screwed up person, I am nothing but a piece of shit

edgy teen song about edgy teen things (shit quality)

favorite song written in a long time, recorded in a key far too low

give me a reason
that i should stay
if you can tell me just one
i won't leave today
my mouth is running but you aren't saying much
a guilty conscience is a bitch to try and touch

but i'm not strong and i won't go
for reasons that even i don't know
i've tried so hard to make you want me
what do you want from me?

but here i am
it's where i've always been
i'm not the one who's changing places
i try to stay consistent
here i am
it's where i'll always be
so i can be there if you decide you need me
you say you miss me, and to tell the truth
i miss missing you

please give me one more chance
you beg and plead
yeah that's what you want to happen
but i want what i need
i know the right answer
but god damn emotions suck
i wish i never found
how much you fucked this up

i'm not perfect, but i'm not to blame
and i break inside when i hear his name
i've tried so hard to make you want me
what more do you want from me?

here i am
it's where i've always been
i'm not the one who's changing places
i try to stay consistent
here i am
it's where i'll always be
so i can be there if you decide that you need me
so i can be there when you decide that you need me
you say you miss me, and to tell the truth
i miss missing you

our late night calls used to be happy (first demo)

the only song that is fully recorded. i <3 the fake accordian.

I don't believe that life's a mystery
It's more like a
Complicated puzzle, but if you finish you've made history
I like to think that one day all my ramblings will make sense to you
But for now they are just words
And for some reason that is not enough for you

If I say yes then you say maybe
If I say maybe you say "I don't know"
It's getting harder for me to let that go
If don't want to, you get angry
And if I get angry, you just get pissed with me too
What am I supposed to do with you

This brings me back to the time when I thought I could rhyme the word orange with another word
You told me it wouldn't work, turns out you were right
That happens a lot, yeah I'm wrong a lot
And you like to point that out a lot
But when I'm right
It makes up for all the rest 

If I say yes then you say maybe
If I say maybe you say "I don't know"
It's getting harder for me to let that go
If I don't want to, you get angry
And if I get angry, you just get pissed with me too
What am I supposed to do with you

I used to love the way I felt when I was with you
But now I just want to die
Yeah I wanna die
I used to count the minutes before I would see your face again
But now I'd rather die
Yeah I'd rather fucking die

If I say yes then you say maybe
If I say maybe you say "I don't know"
It's getting harder for me to let that go
If I don't want to, you get angry
And if I get angry, you just get pissed with me too
What am I supposed to do with you

frustration usually writes itself

i don't remember writing this song but i guess i did.

Feeling better now that I know that you are home
But the last few weeks were hell not sure if you were on your own
In a perfect world I'm always there for you
But in the real one I have things that I don't want but have to do

Yeah I feel upside down and sideways
I can't find which way to go
I wish life was just a straight line
But it zigzags through my skull
If I could figure out the key to all my
Closed doors I'd be fine
So until then I'll keep singing songs
About my views on life

Someday I will stop complaining to you about my friends
The bad relationships and other things I wish I could just end
High school seems pointless if you're ready for a change
But I'm too young for opinions, I guess some things never change

Yeah I feel upside down and sideways
I can't find which way to go
I wish life was just a straight line
But it zigzags through my skull
If I could figure out the key to all my
Closed doors I'd be fine
So until then I'll keep singing songs
About my views on life

Nothing matters anymore
Nothing matters anymore
Nothing matters anymore

Yeah I feel upside down and sideways
I can't find which way to go
I wish life was just a straight line
But it zigzags through my skull
If I could figure out the key to all my
Closed doors I'd be fine
But I can't, so I'll just shut up about
All my views on life

upside down and sideways (shit quality)

twitter:
https://twitter.com/karsonxmichael

free download

happy

fade away

listen on youtube:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2LLkJE-L-IA&feature=youtu.be

itunes

feelings

tired

a few weeks ago i could only do 10 push-ups
and six months ago i thought you were my girl
now things have changed and i'm so tired
i thought that i was your world

but now you've got new friends
you have all these beginnings while i've got ends
that i didn't want
and yeah you fucked some other dude
i guess he loves you more than i do

you say that you've found god
but that's for brownie points
a lie only a sad sad person would tell
i don't buy religion, so here's my concept
your school spirit is sending you straight to my hell

but now you've got new friends
you have all these beginnings while i've got ends
that i didn't want
and yeah you fucked some other dude
i guess he loves you more than i do
yeah putting up with all your shit
didn't work out like i'd hoped it would
so i guess i'll just move on
shower song

school spirit

shower song

try and try again
you bring me up and break me down
life is bland
i'm tired of playing around
new faces i don't know the voices of
yours is not the one i long for
anymore

i fell in love with a temporary tattoo
i risked a lot to ink my skin
but it fell through
and every day i miss the old you
i'm not saying that you gotta stay the same
but i didn't think you'd change

remember now and then
the way we used to feel, in love
now i'm spent
from hours of thinking i'm alone
how should i feel
now that you say the past few months
have not been real
you used me

i fell in love with a temporary tattoo
i risked a lot to ink my skin
but it fell through
and every day i miss the old you
i'm not saying that you gotta stay the same
but i didn't think you'd change
i'm not saying that you gotta stay the same
but i didn't think you'd change
yeah you changed
i wish you hadn't changed
but you changed

try and try again
you bring me up and break me down
life is bland

temporary tattoo

artwork done by my mom. thanks mom, love ya :)

we've been growing apart for a while now
and it's been breaking my heart for a while now
the laughs have turned into silence
every argument added to my list

how come you don't listen
to the same music anymore
and why do i feel
like i just make you bored

i'll be in chicago
who knows where you'll be
i know you and i hate this person
that you're trying to be
i loved you the way you were
but now that part of you's gone
i know what i should do
but i just don't want to

i'm doing everything i can to move on
telling myself it'll be okay, but i've been faking for too long
a lot has changed in these three years
but it hasn't felt like three years

the smell of weed
and disappointment
the little things
are adding up to this

i'll be in chicago
who knows where you'll be
i know you and i hate this person
that you're desperately trying to be
i loved you the way you were
but now that part of you's gone
i'll love you but i hate this person
that you've somehow become

chicago

this is a song letting out three and a half years of pent up frustration.

you're going to community college
which means that i'll be here for you
so you can place me on hold and call me
when you fail your tests
cuz you'll fail your tests
and you say god fucking hates you
because you think you try so hard
but you were born to fail
and i've known that yet i still love you

i know you better than i should
accept the bad and love the good
but at some point love isn't enough to make this worth it

so this one's
for the rides back home
the only time we'd get alone
all the pictures on my wall
now we don't take any at all
it's for the catholic school you hate
but suddenly you seemed to change your mind
and now i'm second place
it's for you

and all your new friends will leave you
cuz they have better things to do
while i've spent three years knowing you'll stay at your house
wasting away the days like you do
you don't deserve to go away quite yet
because failure and laziness end up the same
but they're achieved by different ways

i can't keep lying to your face
you shouldn't be proud of your place in life
because 18 years of bullshit doesn't pay the bills

so this one's
for the rides back home
the only time we'd get alone
all the pictures on my wall
now we don't take any at all
it's for the catholic school you hate
but suddenly you seemed to change your mind
and now i'm in second place
it's for you
yeah this is for the lies you told
all the hands you chose to hold
every place you said you'd be
but you were always late for me
for your dad who never tried
when i held you while you cried
our beginnings and our end
it's for you

you're in community college
which means that i'll be here for you
so i can love you until i can't do it anymore
i can't anymore

artwork done by @midnaut (luke davenport) on instagram, thanks man!!!

community college (high school 2.0)

the afterthoughts.

all that you said was i'm sorry
cuz everything was too true
gave every reason that i had
for why i could no longer love you
a single tear on your face
but still no words to explain
your actions, words, and demeanors
the times you lied to my face

so i had to move
otherwise i would sink
because these weights in my chest keep bringing me down
and i just need a little more time to think
so far i still really miss you
but i'm not changing my mind
because it's time

48 hours of sadness
some anger thrown in there too
when i woke up this morning
i hoped that i'd hear from you
i haven't cried yet which hurts me
but i'm not really surprised
cuz we've been over for months
everything since then was lies

i thought that we were the long run
different from all of our friends
but we expired a while ago and i've been too scared
to bring this to an end
so far i still really miss you
but i'm not changing my mind
because it's time

i'm sorry that i'm not enough for you
i'm sorry that you don't care anymore
i'm sorry that i'm an idiot
i'm sorry that i can't love you anymore
i'm sorry that i can't change this
i'm sorry that this is a shitshow
i'm sorry that this was the way we ended
but i never wanted to end it

48 hours of sadness
some anger thrown in there too
when i wake up in the morning
i won't hear from you

s/o to my good friend lock for the artwork, canboy forever <3

48 hours

Finn Wolfhard singing "my kind of woman" Mac Demarco!
"this cover is just for you to appreciate the art"
- losxrsclub on twitter/
This is only for me and you!
Enjoy it!

Finn Wolfhard - My Kind Of Woman ( Live Cover )

A very early song of mine I finally recorded for my EP 'Disposable Love'
You can find it on Spotify and what not if that's your vibe!
Pic by @alyciarubulis

//LYRICS//

Cause I don't know you but I'd like to know you 
If you know what I mean 
I might not like you but I doubt that I won't like you 

Roses are red, violets are blue 
and I think I'm in love with you 
Making me blush every time that I'm with you 

Something about you that make's me wanna light up inside 
It's to do with you eyes 
Nothing you say or do is ever gonna change my mind 
Cause I'm in love 

Roses are red, violets are blue 
and I think I'm in love with you 
Making me blush every time that I'm with you

STREAM/BUY

A Shitty Love Song

$ynthetic lov3 ft. martini fartini

mind trapped in flesh
feel my distress
i cant hear you
i cant heal you

see me in dreams
its not the real me
waking up to nothing

open his eyes and hes smaller than anything hes ever known
floating in nothingness running from everything hes ever known
rip him away from the boy in the mirror he wants to be known
holding his insides they spill out so easy dont want them to go

holding softly
lose my senses
feels exhausting
conscious ended

slow decay 
this skin will change
but mind the same
as always

open her eyes and shes smaller than anything shes ever known
floating in nothingness running from everything shes ever known
rip her away from the girl in the mirror she wants to be known
holding her insides they spill out so easy dont want them to go

it unfolds

this was a song i wrote and recorded in one take (i had no lyrics planned before this). i originally uploaded the full writing process, and this is the edited version from that. sad times lol. 

sorry for the shit quality.

waking up next to you
probably won't happen
i know that i want it
but i also know what's real
sometimes i forget myself
and i think "what's the point of living?'
the point of it i that there's none

and i'm sick
of being sick of it all
and i miss
not being afraid to fall and fail
i know it's not too late
but in my head it is
and that's all that really matters

it' not like i've got much to complain about
but the second i can i find a way
i don't like things about myself
but i probably won't change them
because i'm lazy and kind of a dick

and i'm sick
of being sick of everything
and i'm so done
with myself
you're the only thing i have to escape from
but even now
you're not always there
and i don't need
to worry about that right now
maybe i don't need you right now
and it hurts to say that out loud
i usually don't really think out loud

venting (edited demo, jan 2017)

fredo disco