curated by @eeeeeeeugenia for GHUNGHRU residency on @boxoutfm

The Shape of Memory

Words by Eugenia about this sonic memory: 

In this episode, I reflect a moment I had last summer, late August. I was sitting with a new friend, up on a raised wooden platform late at night, the second day of Waking Life. We had talked at length, having just begun to understand the ebbs and flows of each other’s minds. I told them that lately I had been holding onto moments of unresolved conflict, of goodbyes that felt rushed, or pains of others I was unable to heal. I was carrying the weight of these small, broken up moments which had accumulated over time.

A thick, dreamlike fog rolled in front of us, as we sat, holding each other tightly, It suddenly parted, revealing the outlines of graceful figures moving towards us in the distance. This vision coincided with a moment of precise clarity: I noticed my idealistic need for harmony in every moment; at the influx of this realization, I began to accept and lean into the dissonance that repeats itself, in spite of this desire. I tried to forgive myself for the lack of closure of past connections, the loose ends.

I realize I felt this because I deeply cared about each moment, and this is natural, human, and essential to who I am. The anxiety and subtle shards of pain I had been clutching in my chest for so long burst out of me, leaving me transparent, spacious, and light. I was filled with gratitude to have had the possibility to be heard, and seen, in this realization, by a person who I felt intrinsically understood me.

In this first transmission, I wished to guide listeners through a moment I experienced in which a long-existing emotional weight left me, feeling swept away by the space around me. Through this, the previously hazy details of my inner self came into my field of vision.

tracklist // Deepchord - Rooftop // Lawrence - Floating // Sonmi451 - Rienza // Conforce - Desolate Ground // Function - Ember (Field) // Kettel - Electrician and the Adventurer // Sa Pa - Epiphanic // Loscil - Black Tusk // Autechre - Brochusevenmx // Taylor Deupree - Thaw // Sigha - Light Swells (In a Distant Space) // Aleksi Perala - GBBVT1337122 // SND - 9 // Ciò D’Or - Ur // Sollman / Gurtler - Watte (efdemin version)

ghunghru 023 // eugenia / The Shape of Memory

ghunghru 030 // r.ss / The Shape of Memory

by @berrmax, curated by @eeeeeeeugenia

The anchor of this mix is a recollection of a moment from sometime in September 2017. I'd left my job and begun traveling abroad for several weeks. Almost a full month into my trip, I was visiting some friends in Australia, in Far North Queensland. We spent four or so days walking around a cute little resort town tucked between the beach and sprawling mountains covered in deep jungle. 

One morning during my stay I crept out of the house early and walked by myself along the beach and out to the end of a long pier extending eastward over the Pacific. As I stood and looked out at some islands balanced delicately on the horizon, and then back towards the dark green slopes jutting upwards behind the facade of the town, I was overcome with the idea that this was just about as far as I could possibly be from where I grew up in Michigan. I have long fixated on the feeling of being "far from home;" even now as I approach five years living in LA I still often find myself pausing to soak in the fact that I'm really *all the way over here* as if I need to bottle up the sensation to make sure I don't forget it. 

But here it was in full force, that feeling totally distilled and concentrated in a way that could never again be matched, leaving me rapt in silence as sunburnt Ozzies milled around me. It felt triumphant but not final, as though I had completed a journey outwards and could now work out my path back, rediscovering what I'd skipped or discarded along the way. 

This selection of tracks is meant to start from that specific moment and then unfurl itself towards the more general "far from home" idea, the little tingle that you get when you've left your usual corner of reality and are facing unknowns with eager eyes; full of euphoria yet grounded, reminded of all that it took to get to this point.

Tracklist:
Julianna Barwick & Rafael Anton Irisarri - A1
Anton Zap - Miniature
5ive - Almost Heaven
Dan White - Digital Detox
Benoit B - Vague à l'Âme
Aleksi Perälä - NLL561606934
Shaded Explorer - Underwood
Bigeneric - Oro Verde
Ambien Baby - Cosa
Melly - Shrubbery
C.K. - Hybrid Textures
Udmo - Float

The image is from a hike in Mossman Gorge near the area where the aforementioned memory took place!

ghunghru 034 // max ellington / The Shape of Memory

by @avsluta, curated by @eeeeeeeugenia

"We stood together facing the horizon. In front of us, a giant. A massif that is something of a hill and a
something of a mountain and the Moon has just gently spilled the first of its glow over its spine. We
walked together and inside, a feeling of gratitude and love was expanding. We shared this journey.
Alone. Together. As I lay down to face the sparkling sky, I feel your presence with me when you left
my side and ventured to explore. This human presence transformed into something cosmic. I float in
my inner space, gathering music from the air into my innermostness. The world folds itself on my body,
on my mind, on my soul - and everything is one. From the abyss within come bubbling out energies I
seem to know, existing on a different plane of consciousness. These are artefacts of ancient female
wisdom which I hold within and finally can reach. I feel fertile, pregnant with my own reality. The
reality that is constantly in flux, always emerging. Pulsating in transformation, giving birth to
someone other and yet so familiar, I come into being."

TRACKLIST:
Kazuya Nagaya - Wolfman's Dream
Neel - Life on Laputa Regio
Ancestral Voices - Forn Sidr
Biosphere - Poa Alpina
Geir Jenssen & Pete Namlook - A Way To Focus The Mind
Max Würden - Wirkungsgrad
Acronym & Korridor - Sscending
Vril - Eos
Lena Deen - Dorsal
Bobby Cazanova - Fallin'
Akis - Christmas (Bartosz Kruczynski Remix)

ghunghru 035 // avsluta / The Shape of Memory

by @penumbra_0, curated by @eeeeeeeugenia

In the shimmering sunlight the city was a transparent lake, but as the sun crept down the city dissolved into a veiling grey horizon. I remember the faint remoteness as I stared out to my hometown of Los Angeles. I had recently moved back home and had expected for the rush of nostalgia to bloom into a previous self. However, there was instead a stillness that seemed to be waiting for something. The rolling hills before me arched up and down but only seemed to descend. The moments that followed dilated around me and I took solace in knowing that I was truly happy again.

This progression of music tries to embody the slowed and slurred first moments of my days rediscovering Los Angeles and the unintentional ebb and sway of finding myself again. A gradually looping state of lethargy breaks out into its own speed and dance.

Tracklist:
96 Back - Ambient Banger
Andres Zacco - Leit
Loscil - Lucy Dub
Ocio - No es para palabras escritas
JFC - Strange New World
Pontiac Streator - transier unt
Vibert & Simmonds - Knaim’n’No
Aleksi Perälä - UK74R1514210
Piezo - A Touch Of
Kinesthesia - Sanq (Autechre mix)
Desert Sound Colony - Aunt Wendy’s Wedding in Wales (Instrumental)
Simo Cell - Storm Steven
Mohlao - Amber
Mathis Ruffing - Bismuth
XY0815 - Tool Matter
Aleksi Perälä - UK74R1514120
Onsy - Cutoff V3
B12 - Gimp
Ura - Entertainment
Jimmy Edgar - Wanna Do It
Nautiluss - WiFi Oasis
Leif - Igam-Ogam
Mark - Incantation For The Protection Of JC
Aleksi Perälä - NL-L56-18-07385
Brainwaltzera - 17 Acetonia (Au Pied de Cochon Aescoba)
D. Tiffany - AK
Martsman - Static
Loop LF - Always NV (Martsman remix)
SUDS - Sad and Done
PlatEAU - Three Years

ghunghru 036 // penumbra / The Shape of Memory

by @hi-vis-dj, curated by @eeeeeeeugenia

Hi Vis - The Shape of Memory:
 
awake in an empty room
hidden by leaves, forest cover
limitless plateau, endless horizon
drifting in the ocean at night
everywhere, nowhere, here at once
-- -- -- -- —
Track List:
Best Available Technology - Gold (Working Nights)
Page - Reef (c-)
France Jobin - inertia (Editions Mego)
Jay Bernheim - Contact Flight (Light of Other Days)
Biosphere - Arafura (Biophon)
J. Albert - Amygdala (Bandcamp self-released)
Jon Hassell - Dreaming (Ndeya)
Space Afrika - more than (Bandcamp self-released)
Mura Oka - 990933 (Latency)
Ñenado - We Turn Into Planets (Astro:dynamics)
Koriand’r - Acrylic Pour (Reserve Matinee)
Galcher Lustwerk - Left in the Dark (Ghostly)
Pascäal - Duppy Wrist / Trilobite (forthcoming Dreamtone)
The Detroit Escalator Co. - The Inverted Man Falling (Peacefrog)

ghunghru 038 // hi-vis / The Shape of Memory

by @eroooos, curated by @eeeeeeeugenia

as we become temporally removed from moments in life, our memories of these events fade. details morph and evaporate, the once-vivid colors, sounds, and experiences increasingly washed out and out of reach. is that conversation or that dance truly remembered? or is it an unconscious invention of the mind intended to maintain a ‘complete’ memory?
this human capacity to misremember and to subconsciously reinvent memories has long enthralled me, and this mix is an exploration of such phenomena. rooted in three environments i inhabited two summers past – the parks in and around berlin, my flat in moabit, and late-night u-bahn rides to and from dancefloors – this assortment of tracks aims to encapsulate both my concrete recollections and my hazy half-notions of the events that transpired therein. imbued (i hope) with an awareness of the mystery of misremembrance, it is an ode to the people and places that made that summer so formative and liberating.

Tracklist:
kaiji - よしの
tetsu inoue - invitable colour
low flung - dust on water
rosy parlane - versa
michel redolfi - too much sky
kara-lis coverdale & lxv - grigori in jakarta
porn sword tobacco - untitled
andrew pekler - description of rain
topdown dialectic - a4
ben bondy - saline drip
dettinger - untitled
hidden valley logging company - 2,000ft
downstairs j - 4 seater
pontiac streator - tuscany
aleksi perälä - uk74r1409137
terre thaemlitz - trucker
de leon - 02
dj python - sbloq
fischerle & persuasion - haiop
juneunit - enwm
2lanes - midwest splendor

ghunghru 040 // eros / The Shape of Memory

by @tape-ghost, curated by @eeeeeeeugenia

When I was 11, my dad and I took a summer road trip through Idaho and Montana.
While driving through the mountains, we came to such an elevation that even in the
middle of July, a snowfall began. We stopped the truck at a small lake along the road
as the large flakes gracefully descended. From here, we watched as the snow landed
and evaporated into a thin mist resting on the surface of the water - transfixed by the
strangeness and stillness of the moment. As I journey back through memory, I am
transported to a vision of him standing by the water, camera in hand, quietly observing
the moment.

“When you approach something to photograph it, first be still with yourself until the
object of your attention affirms your presence. Then don't leave until you have
captured its essence.”
― Minor White


Artwork by Will Hamiton
Tracklist:
Loon and Bugling Elk - Yellowstone National Park Public Audio Archive
Yellow-Flowered - Echium
Peacock’s Tail - Jake Muir
Kaleidoscope - Christina Giannone
New World Order - Markus Guentner
for voice - Sarah Davachi
April (book, shuro brush) - Taylor Deupree
Blue.Shift - Yann Novak
Isolated From the Land - Acronym
Ulottuvuus - Pan Sonic
Ilta - ø (Mika Vainio)
Room With a View - Sa Pa
Conclusione - Anna Caragnano & Donato Dozzy
Lotus Leaves - Deepchord
Frisland (Dub) - Andrew Pekler
Bucaneve - Chris Watson
Elegy For Beach Friday - Bee Mask
Movement.1 - Ryuichi Sakamoto, Illuha, Taylor Deupree
Your Privilege of Remembering - Forest Management

ghunghru 041 // tape ghost / The Shape of Memory

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