pt1 of Lisztomania
a need to listen to music all the time

Theomania

i see the mark on your neck, still red( still red)
you want the leash, don’t look away(look away)
only i can hold your hand(hold your hand)
(only i can hold your hand)

you don’t talk to them, not anymore
your lips are mine, (are mine)

you’re tagged, baby 
you’re marked with my obsession
your breath, your soul — for me
you’re tagged (tagged)
(backing: "mine… mine… only mine…")


don’t text them back, I’ll see it all( see it all)
your phone don’t ring unless I call(unless I call)
you move, I know — I trace your steps(trace your steps)
you're mine in body, blood, and breath...

you’re tagged, baby 
you’re marked with my obsession
your breath, your soul — for me
you’re tagged (tagged)
you’re tagged (tagged)

so obsessed with your touch
can’t breathe, I need that rush
baby, this ain’t love
this a sickness ( sickness )
so obsessed with your lips
every kiss like apocalypse (apocalypse) 
if you go, I won’t exist
I need my fix — I need this

you say you're closed off — but you’re naked right now (oh my god)
I don’t know if we’ll make it past the dawn somehow
you did too much, too much — it’s a setup
and now I’m not sure if it’s even you I mess up
heartbeat glitching when you’re gone
we both know this drug too strong
one second alone — I die slow


tried to quit you
tried to hate you
but the withdrawals feel like death

so obsessed with your touch
can’t breathe, I need that rush
baby, this ain’t love
this a sickness (sickness)
so obsessed with your lips
every kiss like apocalypse(apocalypse)
if you go, I won’t exist
I need my fix — I need this

obsessed

i don’t wanna be your friend...
i just wanna see your lips...
and feel you close enough to stop thinking...
about all the things i’m too scared to say...

take my hand(take my hand)
but don’t ask me why it’s shaking...
or why i go silent when you praise me...
like your smile is something fragile...
that i’m not supposed to touch...

i want more than this(want more than this)
more than just being close(than just being close)
but i don’t know how to say it(how to say it)
i’m too nervous to say anything...

take my hand(take my hand)
and don’t expect me to say anything else
because sometimes(because sometimes)
holding you is all i have left

take my hand

you don’t even know(you don’t even know)
what i gave up to make this(what i gave up to make this)
you thought i was fine(you thought i was fine)
because i said nothing(because i said nothing)

but i was giving it all...
and you were watching...
like it meant nothing...
like i meant nothing...

all u want — made by me(made by me)
all u want — came from me(came from me)
all u want — bled out of me(led out of me)
and you don’t even want it(don’t even want it)

you just let me keep giving...
until there was nothing left...

and now you say...
"you never told me how you felt"...

but i did(but i did)
just not in the way you wanted(the way you wanted)
not in the words you like(the words you like)

forgave things you never said sorry for...

you call that nothing?...
you call that nothing?...
you call that nothing?...
you call that nothing?...
you call that nothing?...
you call that nothing?...


you call this nothing?

why does love feel like a suicide trial?
(suicide… trial…)
how long can love feel like drowning?
(how long… drowning… drowning…)
how deep ‘til I stop breathing?
(stop… stop breathing…)
I thought you'd save me, but you tied the stone
(stone… pull me down…)
you said “forever” in a whisper
(forever… forever…)
then vanished
in the rain
(rain… rain… gone…)
I still wait
in the same place
(same place… still wait…)

why does love feel like a suicide trial?
(suicide… trial…)
how long can love feel like drowning?
(how long… drowning… drowning…)
how deep ‘til I stop breathing?
(stop… stop breathing…)
I thought you'd save me, but you tied the stone
(stone… pull me down…)

how do I breathe
when I’m buried alive?
how do I dream
if you took my sky?

suicide trial

right now i feel your skin pressing slow against mine (against mine)
and everything else falls away until it’s just this moment (this moment)
where my breath gets caught somewhere between wanting and losing control(and losing control)
and the numbness wraps around me like a wave pulling me under( pulling me under)

i don’t know where i end and you begin(and you begin)
all i know is this heavy silence inside me that burns without pain(without pain)
and i’m holding on to you like it’s the only thing keeping me from fading(me from fading)
because right now this numbness feels like everything i ever needed(i ever needed)

right now i feel your skin pressing slow against mine (against mine)
and everything else falls away until it’s just this moment (this moment) 
where my breath gets caught somewhere between wanting and losing control(and losing control)
and the numbness wraps around me like a wave pulling me under( pulling me under)

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