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🖤✨ The Miracle Syndicate - "Practiced on Me"

She said I looked tired, but smiled when I spoke —
The kind of smile you offer a patient.
My coffee was cold before I noticed
That her chair had never been taken.

I tried to remember what we talked about —
But my mouth held no shape.
I wiped her lipstick off my glass,
But it was never there in the first place.

I wrote down half of a name
In the steam on the window,
But it bled down the glass
Like it didn’t want to be known.
She may have loved me —
Or just practiced it on me
In case it ever counted.

The restaurant closed and I kept sitting,
Listening for footsteps that never walked away.
A waiter asked if I was alright,
And I said I was just waiting for a mistake.

He smiled like I was joking,
The way you smile at someone you pity.
I left a tip for the absence,
Then walked home through a city
That didn’t blink when I crossed the street.

I said her name out loud —
But it wasn’t mine to say.
It sounded like someone I almost was
But lost somewhere halfway.
She may have loved me —
Or was just testing the weight
Of what a goodbye might weigh.

There are conversations we never had
That I still apologize for.
She might’ve been real,
But I kept building her
Each time she vanished more.

In the end, I forgot her face
But not the silence she taught me to hear.
And sometimes, when I pass the place —
I swear, I see her disappear.

Practiced on Me

Back in Japan

for love…
for love…
i gave it all…

I’ll bury myself so your flowers grow
I’ll vanish slow so your world can glow
I stayed in pain so you could smile
held my breath for one more mile

for love…
I let you go
even if it kills me slow
for you…I’ll disappear
(for you…I’ll disappear)

for love…
tell them I was just a name
just a ghost you never blamed
I’ll carry every scar you gave
if that’s what helps you walk away

for you… for you… for love…

I saw the world inside your eyes
and made it mine
but now it’s time
to let it shine
without me by your side

for love… for love…


for love…
I’ll cry alone (I’ll cry alone)
but say I’m fine into the phone
for you…
I’d die again(I’d die again)
and smile through it, in the end

for luv

i see the mark on your neck, still red( still red)
you want the leash, don’t look away(look away)
only i can hold your hand(hold your hand)
(only i can hold your hand)

you don’t talk to them, not anymore
your lips are mine, (are mine)

you’re tagged, baby 
you’re marked with my obsession
your breath, your soul — for me
you’re tagged (tagged)
(backing: "mine… mine… only mine…")


don’t text them back, I’ll see it all( see it all)
your phone don’t ring unless I call(unless I call)
you move, I know — I trace your steps(trace your steps)
you're mine in body, blood, and breath...

you’re tagged, baby 
you’re marked with my obsession
your breath, your soul — for me
you’re tagged (tagged)
you’re tagged (tagged)

so obsessed with your touch
can’t breathe, I need that rush
baby, this ain’t love
this a sickness ( sickness )
so obsessed with your lips
every kiss like apocalypse (apocalypse) 
if you go, I won’t exist
I need my fix — I need this

you say you're closed off — but you’re naked right now (oh my god)
I don’t know if we’ll make it past the dawn somehow
you did too much, too much — it’s a setup
and now I’m not sure if it’s even you I mess up
heartbeat glitching when you’re gone
we both know this drug too strong
one second alone — I die slow


tried to quit you
tried to hate you
but the withdrawals feel like death

so obsessed with your touch
can’t breathe, I need that rush
baby, this ain’t love
this a sickness (sickness)
so obsessed with your lips
every kiss like apocalypse(apocalypse)
if you go, I won’t exist
I need my fix — I need this

obsessed

Angels cry too, I've seen them fall...(Angels cry too, I've seen them fall...)
You're the reason I'm alive and sick...(You're the reason I'm alive and sick...)
Love is war, and I dramatic...(Love is war, and I dramatic...)
I write your name on broken glass...(I write your name on broken glass...)
My fingers bleed, but I still laugh....(My fingers bleed, but I still laugh)
You're my heaven and my hell all rolled into one(You're my heaven and my hell all rolled into one)
And I still run to you, every damn time(And I still run to you, every damn time)

Angels cry too...
I'm about to break, and I don't care...
As long as I'm falling for you alone...
Angels cry too...

Heaven is closed, but your door is open(Heaven is closed, but your door is open)
If this is madness, give me more...(give me more...give me more...)
If I lose it, let me lose it for you(lose it for you...lose it for you...)
(Heaven is closed, but your door is open
And I crawl with blood and hope
If this is madness, give me more
If I lose it, let me lose it for you)

A train wreck

knife in my hand
i dont understand
just close your eyes
let me hold your hand

your lifes in my hand
you gotta trust me for a night
you gotta trust itll be alright

just for a night
save your sleep
i’ve been restless
youve been reckless

i want the best for us

you gotta give me trust
we gotta give up lust
i want the best for us
you gotta give me trust

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