x7kami Mallita

goodnight lavender & revenant — the seconds
a part of “afterstory.” LP

artwork by sakire:
twitter.com/sakanfish

lyrics

i'm wide awake thinking of
all the things i did today
wish i could retake my mistakes
again

chasing your shadow
through all the noise
passing the seconds
tracing back your steps

i wish i'd never crossed that line
i wish i'd never said goodbye

autumn calling, i'm still falling
but still i can't forget your name

chasing your shadow
through all the noise
passing the seconds
tracing back your steps

i wish i'd never crossed that line
i wish i'd never said goodbye

i will cry another night
i will try another time

bandcamp

the seconds w/ revenant

porter robinson — fullmoon lullaby (goodnight lavender x nila cover)
a part of “afterstory.” LP

artwork by sakire:
twitter.com/sakanfish

lyrics

hora, tsugi no asa
oto ni tsurare
hora, mado no soto
nani ga mieta?

tōi hoshi no sora ni
jūgoya wa michikake
natsukashii utagoe
nemuri ni tsuku made

kaerimichi no nioi
akari no kazu dake
fuwafuwa makura de
nemuri ni tsuku made

so tell me how it felt
when you walked on water
did you get your wish?
floating to the surface
quicker than you sank
idol, idol

fullmoon lullaby

official amv

fullmoon lullaby ft. nila

Center of Attention

goodnight lavender — february sky
a part of “afterstory.” LP

artwork by sakire:
twitter.com/sakanfish

lyrics

there's no reason to carry on with this masquerade
as you carry the ending to this endless tragedy

i tried and i tried, but there was nothing left to hide
as i search for something more, i've got nothing to show for

you were the only one, but all is said and done
i dry my eyes again, will i remember you?

lately i'm alone again
you're out of range, but i tried to change
there's something in my heart again
i shed a tear, but does it help?

you were the only one, but all is said and done
i dry my eyes again, will i remember you?

an endless cycle, i'm in denial

cause i still dream of tomorrow
you were the only one, but all is said and done
all my dreams filled with sorrow
i dry my eyes again, to hide the pain inside

february sky

The main guitar is taken from Goonnights' song "sober"
link: https://soundcloud.com/goonnights/sober-ft-ever

The lead guitar in the second half was recorded by 2045
link: https://soundcloud.com/sc2un-sh4re
link: https://soundcloud.com/2045

Struggler is written about a sort of cycle I go through a lot, and trying to break it, but failing.
I always end up falling into slumps of creative block, and I always try way too hard to get out of it, and I always end up feeling horrible.
This song is also indirectly about me and my new alias, with some lyrics specifically referencing and responding to "To Disappear" which was a very difficult song for me.

As for this new alias, there's a full post on twitter, I'm sorry for deleting everything so suddenly, it was a really silly decision. "Rapture" will always be available on bandcamp for free.

remix stems:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1L6wVfOrNyYRWd7d7iVrHIA5V-PZnGjcb/view?usp=sharing
(162bpm, idk the key)

As always, Soundcloud isnt the best listening experience (specifically butchers the high end on this song), try spotify or youtube or something
The mixing is definitely intentionally a little messy, the vocals are a little quiet on purpose, I really enjoy the sound this song has, but I can agree it might not be for everyone.

[LYRICS]

And Oh, I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
And Oh, I might struggle and I might die

So tell me, is this healing?
Or it's a cycle that's repeating
And I need to know
If I'm gonna be here

Thickened Water
And Tarot Smoke

I guess I can feel it now
My gums are melting away
But they continued

And Oh, I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
And Oh, I might struggle and I might die
So please don't disappear
Don't leave me in a shallow river

Struggle 'til I die

Struggler

232323 +tekea

will probably delete lol
https://soundcloud.com/m2ntal/confession
@resolve1k

confession

This year, I’ve lost a lot of people who I used to call my friends.  The type of friends you’d hang out with for years on end and the ones that you could trust with everything you had.   At times it was hard to sleep at night and I would find myself still awake at 6 o’ clock in the morning thinking about it.  Since then, I've moved on while connecting with people that actually care about my well being.  Big thank you to JUE for the enormous help on this one and arid for such an amazing ft.

prod. me & jue,
spotify & other links: 
https://songwhip.com/bento5/the-reaper

Follow @musicbybento
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https://twitter.com/byjuseva
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https://twitter.com/aridluv
https://www.instagram.com/0arid/

Lyrics:

(Bento)
I cut deep
You know me
Can’t see through all these boundaries

Don’t tell me
girl maybe
Why we've grown distant lately

Cold nights and I can't let you leave me
Lowlights but I'm scared that you'll see it again
Hold tight but I can’t seem to keep her
She stole my heart now I'm calling the reaper

(arid)
It all went into my head and I ain’t even notice
I try to make you tell me why but you still wouldn't show it 
I know I left it all behind but I still keep it going
I keep it going I wish that I could hold it now 
You’re  taking all of my time don't think I’ll be alright 
Yeah I had to rewrite 
Over again yeah until the end 
I try to pretend oh it's not what I intend

(Bento) X2
I cut deep
You know me
Can’t see through all these boundaries

Don’t tell me
girl maybe
Why we've grown distant lately

Cold nights and I can't let you leave me
Lowlights but I'm scared that you'll see it again
Hold tight but I can’t seem to keep her
She stole my heart now I'm calling the reaper

You cannot save me
I'm still lonely

Stream

The Reaper (ft. arid)(Bento + JUE)

Fairyland

Peachy World

'determination'. So as long as you hold on, so as long as you do what's in your heart, I believe you can do the right thing.

https://open.spotify.com/track/0M6aOVY4GMX32Ad9JSiJoF?si=7a8fa06594324324
________________________________________

lyrics:

I feel alive
The years have passed us by
Still holding on feelings
Im healing 
Im reaching

Just to survive
Id watch you turn to ash and burn the sky
To take a life
Just to survive
________________________________________

everything by me

I haven't been able to come up with anything new musically recently, hopefully that will change soon. This ones a little different but I always like experimenting with new ideas.  

much love for all the support everyone <3

flourish

In this darkness (Jersey Club)

Limbx :
@limbxo
www.instagram.com/rezamgstr/
SlushSoPretty :
@rvb666
https://www.instagram.com/slushsopretty/
Ajixxx :
https://www.instagram.com/resikokunci/
Lyric :
[limbx]
can you stop wasting my time and tell me what you need?
oh baby, honestly i never wanted you to leave
but all the lies from you have always been deceiving me
oh now your poison in my system and it's killing me
you got me anxious, ruining my canvas
already gave you a lot of chances
but you went and burn it all like it don't even happen
up all night, tryna find an answer
and i see your face when i look up to the sky
and i need more time just to get you out of my mind
leave it all behind, hide it all under the ground
up all night, tryna find an answer

[slushsopretty]
up all night tryna find you an answer
but you spared me no time just to listen
but i don't mind
all that shit don't even matter 
i'm falling way too deep so i know it's my fault
waiting for all the wounds to heal into scars
when the minutes turns to hours or my heartbeat stops
just know i did it all for you
for you that i put all in the past now
put all in the past now
your love make me nauseous
don't give me advice now
girl you think you flawless
i don't wanna hear you tell me-
list all of my faults
when all you do is complain
enough dissin' all of my efforts
you don't think you ever hurt my feelings
what kind of thoughts do you have on your head?
do you ever think of me even just for a minute?
every second getting older
wasting all that time with you

[ajixxx]
turning the lights off cause i'll fight with my mind
i bring all the demons to roll with
all lies and the falsehood you gave me
makes me ruined, its a shoo-in, oh
the day when you called, said you're waiting so long
and tryna proof that you ain't wrong
i know it's just a bluff from you to see me and cuff me, oh girl
now i'm closing myself
i'll leave it all behind
i know you will be lonely
you don't need to be worry
i know you'll find another me on somebody else
you need to know how to behave,
don't make him disenchanted
or this thing could be uncounted
i want you to stop bring a disease
and broke someone into pieces, yeah
now let me here alone, all alone, all alone

Haxsews & Limbx - Disenchanted (Acoustic Ver.) ft. SlushSoPretty, ajixxx

i'm back :)

~lyrics~
haven't seen you since we had to stay inside our home
last year feels so long ago, I'm staying on my phone
graduated last week but I still feel like a kid

and now I'm staring at the ceiling

staring at the ceiling

goodnight lavender — airhead
a part of “i hope that you never forget me.” LP

artwork by sakire:
twitter.com/sakanfish

lyrics

old and faded polaroids
were you real at all?
led astray by these memories
they brought me to your grave

so lost and i don't know how to
air out these thoughts of mine
throughout this endless summer
all just to say goodbye

so lost and i don't know how to
air out these thoughts of mine
throughout this endless summer
all just to say goodbye

all just to say goodbye

lately i'm alone again
maybe there's something i can do?
led astray by these memories
they brought me to your grave

so lost and i don't know how to
forget these thoughts of mine
rewind this endless summer
all just to say goodbye

so lost and i don't know how to
forget these thoughts of mine
rewind this endless summer
but these hopes get lost to time

all just to say goodbye

look into my heart
hollow reflections
nothing in my thoughts
empty-hearted smiles

though i know it's not my fault
that view still stuck in my head
now i'm singing the same songs
all just to say goodbye

lately i can't hear your voice
i guess there's something i could do
led astray by your memory
they brought me to your grave

i hope that you never forget me.

airhead

stream

goodnight lavender — something more
a part of “i hope that you never forget me.” LP

artwork by sakire:
twitter.com/sakanfish

lyrics

the pain in my heart
starts to unfold
do you feel what i feel?

so bright, that sight
i still recall
that fright, i might
cry tonight

every july, it's still cloudy
still i wonder, if i'll forget?
every july, it still haunts me
now i wonder, who you used to be

sometimes i feel
like i'm on my own
even by your side
longing for something more

sometimes i feel
like you're still right there
still by my side
longing for something more

something more
something more
something more

but i'm right here still next to you
the past is in the past
and the future holds your dreams
your dreams

push through and through and through and through and through and
through and through and through
you've got to let go

push through and through and through and through and through and
through and through and through
you've got to push through

something more

he//him
#balls #codm #game #peler #anjing

something more

goodnight lavender

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