Guardin why are you so fucking amazingggg

@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Something's in the Way w/ guardin (Prod. Sinxi & Tagliatore)

VInyl & CD pre-sales

lyrics
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so take all that stress
decompress it & hang it up right at the door
feeling like this isn't fun anymore
not that it ever was
but lately everyone's 
misunderstanding what's really import
tantalizing sights & feelings ignored
paths to get over it never explored
overgrown nothingness
stemmed from destruction
it's deeply embedded beneath all my subsidence

goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

so maybe it's grim
but i'll spill on a whim about all that i think
my thoughts subside till i'm pushed to the brink
miscalculated
so often equated
to shit so insane i think i need a shrink
traumatized by flies that hatch in my head
metamorphosis ensued till i'm dead
it's funny how they can grow
little do they all know
their home is rotting & damn near condemned

dissociation 
deserting my patience
i don't think i'll wake up & realize
that feeling this vacant
no communication
is simply leaving me terrorized
i see all these faces
inside of the places
that only exist when i close my eyes
so if this is a phase 
that is bound to erase
then i guess that i ought to just give it time
 
goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

all i ever will be
is someone that'll kill me 
a parasitic head fuck
monotonous & willing
all i ever wished for
is sanity by twenty four
but i never got that
i never got that

all i ever will be

lyrics
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i've been ridin thru the city in the dark while it's lifeless
inside this car is where i found my fucking light switch
stopped doing stupid shit like knife hits
this life isn't priceless
y'all back home the reason imma write this
you a lame lame
it's a shame shame
you took your picture
outta the frame frame
i thought you changed changed
you playin games games
i hardly know you
we ain't the same same
you tryna blame blame
oh what a claim claim
who is the person
that you became came
couldn't relate late
my path is paved paved
so i just packed up & got away way

a-okay
yeah i'm smiling with the sun in my face  
i said wait okay
now the rains pickin up tryna put me in my place
i said wait wait okay kay
borrowed time till im in a grave grave
gonna dig dig and they gon take take
the same ones attending my wake wake 

when the bass hit bass hit
i went back to basics
scrapped another album
i ain't working on no lame shit
genre clashing all the time but i ain't ever lane switch
some of you just play the role while i've been on the same shit
seven in the morning i'm just tryna start my day shit
whippin to the coffee shop the soundtrack on my playlist
horror film apparel chrismas carols on my feet though
peril sent the beat & i just hit it like a cheat code
flipped through all the pages read a story bout a hero
thought i could relate cause at one point he was a zero
time will tell my story if my time is one to borrow
live it how you want cause you might never wake tomorrow

never wake tomorrow all that's left is your achievements
fillin up my cup in hell along with all your grievance
-is it kinda funny how my death changed your perception
was it all coincidence or was it my intention?
deafening to most but some will understand the story
i don't want it all but i want outta purgatory
so it wrote a song or two in hopes that i could reach it
found another key inside my soul i'm playing defense
with it cause i gotta i don't wanna lose control
cause the weight of all the words excused sit still inside my soul
i'm mistreated by my friends sometimes so i stand all alone
i don't fuck with anybody it's a waste of what i know

i don't really think i know you you're a undeveloped mold
it's the people you hold close to you that treat you fucking cold
they stay plotting on the kid & take a bid on when i'll fold
then they wonder why i'm distant and so hard to get ahold
of the people in your life how many gotchu till the grave
probably one or two be honest with yourself and not ashamed
yeah the good ones hard to come across but when you do it's great
life is beautiful in solitude i really can't complain

borrowed time (prod. peril x suli x gwapmane)

lyrics
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flowars
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i’m feeling great (yeah)
like crawling out a grave (yeah)
you can’t see my face yet
but don’t seem afraid (yeah)
i can’t seem to shake the
(don’t look back)
vibe that you’re awake
i hope you can run fast

(yeah yeah)
this is just a game and it sure ain’t safe
i’m just a ghost and i don’t have a face
if you wanna know then i just need a taste
the red on my blade has a delicate sheen
i love what i do
and i love when they scream for me

blood won’t fall without some gravity
don’t bother asking what’s wrong with me
i’m not broken rather i feel free
i just love to hear you scream
and if the hair on the back of your neck
don’t stand up straight right now
i might have to riot
wait…
cause i’m lurking in the dark
and you really oughta hurry on back home
if i catch you i won’t let go
if you beg me i’ll just smile
and the fight is worth the while for the prize

i can’t resist while you still exist
your blood on my lips is like
pure dopamine just ecstasy
i need you in my life

guardin
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i need you, i need you close
i need you, i need you close
i need you, i need you closer (x2)

got a hand full of dirt
as i crawl through the earth
as i make my way to these vacant places
that i hardly remember
as these memories all flood
i start draggin through the mud
with a knife in hand
i'm laying out the plan
& all i'm craving is your blood

so come over
three leaf clover
ain't no luck inside this room
got some posies in my pocket
imma lay em on your tomb
for some closure
i can close your eyes
accept that you are doomed
take the hook
out of your back
and try to run if you want to
you won't make it that far
if i catch you in my grip
you'll be quick to confiscate
what's in the holster on my hip
do not test my capabilities 
i'm built fully equipped
ain't no treats inside this home
you all alone with all these tricks

and we go through all of these cycles
you probably think i'm psycho
that's okay cause i came all this way
just to hit pause on all of your vitals
this could be the revisal
if you focus on your survival
better set your clock 
cause you know i won't knock
when it comes time for me to be michael
myers with the mask
i slash and gash you into two
i don't need no reservation
resurrecting's what i do
so if you see me in your neighborhood
try your best not to scream
cause i'll carve you like a pumpkin
have a happy halloween

guardin x flowars - midnight grove (prod. chxse bank)

lyrics
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how can
you live with yourself
when you took another life from the innocent
how can
you sleep at night
knowing you just took the boy's last breath
a cold sweat
steady your breathing
just keep on repeating the last step
forget
everything that you did
your existence of regret

he was a hero in this town
wore his whole heart on a damn string
scribble the faces of all of these people
cause they won't ever know a damn thing
what a shame
you had lots to offer to the world
you were more than just a name
this sort of thing
doesn't happen often round here
but the stories all the same so

how can
you live with yourself
when you took another life from the innocent
how can
you sleep at night
knowing you just took the boy's last breath
a cold sweat
steady your breathing
just keep on repeating the last step
forget
everything that you did
your existence of regret

follow xlhc

silver bullet (prod. xlhc)

prod. @its-naawoj

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strawberry blunt ash flicked to the pavement
drank too much my minds outta place
this long walk home i hope i can make it
make it
make it

twas the night
i never felt so alive
then you crossed my mind
i tried to leave you behind
but of course you hide
kept out of reach & unkind
so my pulse will rise
as i look into those eyes
and i know
i don't wanna go where you're always chasing
leave me to the road as i start erasing
everything i know it's yours for the taking
take it
take it
walking all alone my feet start to ache
this party isn't over until i say it's
over and i'm over you when i'm waking
waking
waking

waking up to the sun
the stars don't know where i've been
bad luck is all that i know
bad luck is all that i am

i don't wanna go where you're always chasing
leave me to the road as i start erasing
everything i know it's yours for the taking
take it
take it
walking all alone my feet start to ache
this party isn't over until i say it's
over and i'm over you when i'm waking
waking
waking

follow naawoj

bad luck (prod. naawoj)

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fuck my life
fuck my health
you don't care so i'll go fuck myself
fuck this job
fuck this car
every song that i write just coexists with a scar
and i've got paragraphs about the shit that i will never say
cause it'll kill you just to hear me whine and bitch all fucking day
maybe the grass is green in other states where i choose to reside
maybe a glimpse of light will formulate and catch my fucking eye
and maybe you'll hear this when you check my page and ask if i'm alright
cause i've been afraid of all the darkest places lying in my mind

i will convince myself i'm dying but then act like i'm just fine
my mind's a scary fucking place and i can't fix it while i drive
but my car is lucy in the sky with diamonds going sixty five
and you're just a pot hole maybe yoko ono screaming by my side
is this the end of things i'm strumming strings just trying to decide
cause i am afraid of me so save me please i beg you just to try
i'm losing my purpose lifes a circus they said please enjoy the ride
my seatbelt is broken eyes wide open as my body starts to slide

if i escape the wreck i'll disconnect from everyone online
i'll pack my belongings i've been longing for this moment my whole life
i'll disappear for months no mentions of my status or a clue
i'm fine don't you worry there's no hurry to return to what i knew
it's hard to calculate these conversations if i'm being truth
-ful i wanna congregate all that relate to everything i spew
in midst of my disconnect i'll stay in check & keep in touch with few
as long as i'm open im just hoping that it's something i'll get through 

cause i'm a fucking wreck
oh what the heck
why do i even try
i lie in the grass
high off my ass
& watch the clouds just pass on by
if life has a purpose
i am nervous
to unravel what is mine
i'll trip & i'll travel
down the rabbit hole
& ditch my bags inside

ditch

just another lil fun one cuz i miss my friends
creature pt. 3 otw
<3

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you know it's import
-tant i can't ignore
feeling like forever might be shorter than before
it's been on my mind
all throughout the night
so me and all my friends go drink until we feel alright
till we feel alright
sprite ciroc and ice
down another cup but it gotchu feelin nice
might light up another slice
it ain't even noon but we gotta smoke twice
got a double in my cup
with a soda on the side
chicken noodle soup
way i'm spittin all this fried
with the gx engine we gon bring the coupe to life
in the tx 972 with all my guys

got my foot elevated while we drivin up the 5
06 ludacris followed by nelly furtado
breeze past you goofies in the sprinter with my gattos
feed lines to bitches off my dick like a silo
jesus where the pen at imma write another rap
jesus where the pen at im just trying to get smacked
ayy you kinda quiet is it getting to you bad
we a long way from home when home is all you've ever had  
i'll just redefine my character & get right in my bag
the tequila made it worse now i'm cursed with all this lag
eyes bloodshot crossed while i'm puffin on the zag
i don't wanna talk about it i don't really wanna drag 
you down with it
kiss another blunt go round with it
pop another top go drown in it
feelin like i got to
this pain heavy so the substance what i'm bound to

bound to round two
googling just how to
c-o-p-e cope with
-out chu out chu
(x2)

sour then sweet then i'm gone
feel like this tour wasn't long
nuff with the chit chat
man i miss my dogs
fuck it man i miss my dogs
control alt deleting this song
y'all really keepin' me strong
nuff with the bullshit
man i miss my dogs
started tallying the score
i think i've been here before
went from hollywood to venice
back to crying on the floor
i know this bout to be rough
you know you can call my bluff
we did everything we wanted
but everything's not enough

round two (prod. twix x g06 x thirtyyy)

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make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

might disappear by the morning
soaring higher than i was while recording
i'm warning you to stay away cause i'm boring
fuck i'm a mess face down in the flooring
worth another shot taking shots till i'm snoring
in my dreams i've been wide awake just exploring
a distant memory of better days i'm ignoring
if i keep fucking up then imma lead you all to mourning

make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

might fuck around with these toxins
i'm locked in a box with these puppets that i'm not with
obnoxious how they've been tryna limit all my options
hit em with the blade then i warp like i'm noctis
stop this all this fucking gossip got me nauseous
fuck the repetition i've been whippin new concoctions
and just because i'm reinventing they gon say i'm pompous
wait until the album drop cause that shit is colossus
lost his touch cause everything he made was flawless
creatively he's broke again like gromit to your wallace 
it's hard to stay awake & just create in midst of all this  
regardless i still hope you like the shit i drop in august

make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

mistakes (prod. peril x mekai b)

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trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

trapped in between these halls
asbestos inside the walls
it's getting harder to breathe
and lately i'm in the dark
unaware of where to start
i'm falling hard with the breeze
so tell me the truth are we both really losing our minds
in this state of delusion it's easy to lose track of time
and the hands on this clock haven't spun even close to align
-ing but
they'll come around (x4)

'til then i'm
trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

am i really here?
am i not?
is there anywhere that i ought to be
i ain't tryna stay here with these oddities
and honestly it's getting kinda hard to breathe
and hard to speak when barred with teeth
my tongue sittin in my mouth but it's hard to speak
i fall asleep with every fragment haunting me
my dreams turn to nightmares where they're calling me
like hey hi hello it's me how you doing
i'm a ghost to this place amidst of these ruins 
trippin' over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is fucking haunted

trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

haunted (prod. young taylor)

lyrics
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she makes home feel like a home in my head
and when i’m with her i feel hope again
i swear the weather on the coast all depends
on where we are but it’s still home in the end

i felt hopeful for once
you’ve got all of my trust
you have no clue what you’ve done
we were drowning in love
i lost myself in us
i don’t know where to go
and who to call when things get like this

my car ran outta gas
you said you could pick me up
but i feel like an asshole
offered you some cash you declined
it didn’t matter
i was full of glee and you were full of laughter
laughter and after
we went home and watched shit
turned on the tv, kickin’ back we were exhausted
flipped through channels three to thirty six while eating chex mix
couldn’t find a thing so we resorted back to netflix
till we passed out
and then i got up off of the couch
i picked you up in my arms & wiped the drool from your mouth
both half asleep but i still stumbled silently through the house
until i came upon a path that i’ve never known about
and then i saw some lights in my reflection of doubt
my conscience beheading north while my heart trips to the south
and honestly i’m feelin’ torn in which direction i route
because i believe in everything we’re building around

hope again

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle

'gxf' comin' soon!

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borrowed time (prod. peril x suli x gwapmane)

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