I love you, I cannot wait for you to come to Lakewood Ohio I missed you, last I saw you was in Cleveland and it was the best night of my life I got to meet and got to talk to  you and receive a hug and a pic

i realized im rlly faded but u always have a long start up or sometimes do to ur songs this albums theres 2 is it to reach 3 minutes or 2 minutes 50 seconds at most like idc but im seein shit so

this is probably one of the most beautifully put together songs I have ever heard

thank u for ur music man, ily so much❤️❤️

listened to this before the loony bin lsd year. so nostalgic

I don’t think you will see this at all..  I’ve always said you can feel peoples real feelings through the way they express themselves in paintings, songs, etc. better than any conversation. I’ve been real low too, so I know what to look for.

@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Something's in the Way w/ guardin (Prod. Sinxi & Tagliatore)

VInyl & CD pre-sales

lyrics
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so take all that stress
decompress it & hang it up right at the door
feeling like this isn't fun anymore
not that it ever was
but lately everyone's 
misunderstanding what's really import
tantalizing sights & feelings ignored
paths to get over it never explored
overgrown nothingness
stemmed from destruction
it's deeply embedded beneath all my subsidence

goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

so maybe it's grim
but i'll spill on a whim about all that i think
my thoughts subside till i'm pushed to the brink
miscalculated
so often equated
to shit so insane i think i need a shrink
traumatized by flies that hatch in my head
metamorphosis ensued till i'm dead
it's funny how they can grow
little do they all know
their home is rotting & damn near condemned

dissociation 
deserting my patience
i don't think i'll wake up & realize
that feeling this vacant
no communication
is simply leaving me terrorized
i see all these faces
inside of the places
that only exist when i close my eyes
so if this is a phase 
that is bound to erase
then i guess that i ought to just give it time
 
goodness gracious
i'm so cold
my body's filled with brittle bones
they'll break and bend as i grow old
i hope your hand is mine to hold
goodness gracious
i'm alone
broken my sticks & thrown my stones
i'll go somewhere where no one knows me
i don't mind being this lonely  

all i ever will be
is someone that'll kill me 
a parasitic head fuck
monotonous & willing
all i ever wished for
is sanity by twenty four
but i never got that
i never got that

all i ever will be

lyrics
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i am quickly realizing
all the problems that i'm facing
all exist inside this hatred
for myself my thoughts are racing
is there anybody out there
feeling dim, dark & depleting
what is safe cause all i fear is near
& death i'll soon be greeting
i truly wish the flickering would stop
& i could catch my breath
but this films left on repeat again
somehow you soon forget 
you've damn near downed your second bottle
drunken words in full effect
these sober thoughts have always lived here
driving by until they wreck

i'm fucking numb
(yeah)
you don't know a thing about the terror that i breathe into my lungs
and i don't know a thing about myself other than what is soon to come

i think the sky is falling
but it's my imagination
overcasting on & off again
to form a new foundation
hopefully i reconstruct myself
it might take quite a while
obsolete upon comparison
these scars all stretch for miles
i'll never find the person i was then
he's buried deep below
subterranean inhabitant
i hope he likes the snow
did the soul inside his body
ever find his way back home
am i talking in third person
yeah i guess we'll never know

i'm fucking numb
(yeah)
you don't know a thing about the terror that i breathe into my lungs
and i don't know a thing about myself other than what is soon to come

dim, dark, depleting

lyrics
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watch the branches fall
and the leaves ignite the path that saves us all
in the midst of all of this
i will take us home

episode 9,017
an epiphany
i don't know what the hell you mean
everything feels like it's played out on a screen
throwing stones in broken homes in hopes that it'll set me free
illustrations in my
head will be my demise
i'm sick & tired of trying something new
there's a stranger that lives
underneath all of my skin
he let's himself in again
if only you knew

watch the branches fall
and the leaves ignite the path that saves us all
in the midst of all of this
i will take us home

i will take us home

lyrics
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i'm getting bit up by all of the mosquitoes
blister my skin drink my blood like a needle
collect my dna in a vile
clone me again make me less suicidal
my only wish is to regain a smile
i really miss summer days as a child
six flags, suplexes, eddie guerrero
now it's just sex, some caffeine and the narrow
stairs album by the band death cab for cutie
i fear that eventually someone will shoot me
a loop of that scene from american beauty
but this ones for real it's not just from a movie
my anxietys got the worst of me lately
i don't know how the fuck you expect to save me
cause i can't save myself and honestly baby
i want you to know that i hate me
 
if you made it this far then you're probably still dreaming
listen to this when you feel like you need it
my only wish is to regain a smile
i really miss summer days as a child

mosquito

lyrics
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lost boy hoping i find my way home
lost sight of why i'm here & where the fuck i should go
one hundred twenty miles from my area code
spilt whiskey on my shirt inside this evergreen home
might tumble down & fall beneath the thick of the mist
a silhouette sat in the distance comes & swings with a miss
i climb trees just to save myself from what could've been
& hide high upon this mountain with a pad & a pen

the drifter lives down the road
& if he follows me home
then i'll pack everything & leave till i know
that i am safe beside my company although he's below
& then he'll gut me like a pig & leave my bones to the crows
& this time i've convinced myself that i'm gonna die
oh i don't think that it's alright but i'll just pray to the sky
i'll find a god in what i sing & sing it every night
and maybe time will tell my story i won't put up a fight

cause fear leads me towards destruction
crippled unable to function
full of unwanted assumptions
petrified by my consumptions
used to hide along the meadow
and now i practice my falsetto
i've been like this from the get-go
i don't ever wanna let go

the walls we build hide all the bodies
of everyone who lives inside me

the drifter

lyrics
--------
i've been ridin thru the city in the dark while it's lifeless
inside this car is where i found my fucking light switch
stopped doing stupid shit like knife hits
this life isn't priceless
y'all back home the reason imma write this
you a lame lame
it's a shame shame
you took your picture
outta the frame frame
i thought you changed changed
you playin games games
i hardly know you
we ain't the same same
you tryna blame blame
oh what a claim claim
who is the person
that you became came
couldn't relate late
my path is paved paved
so i just packed up & got away way

a-okay
yeah i'm smiling with the sun in my face  
i said wait okay
now the rains pickin up tryna put me in my place
i said wait wait okay kay
borrowed time till im in a grave grave
gonna dig dig and they gon take take
the same ones attending my wake wake 

when the bass hit bass hit
i went back to basics
scrapped another album
i ain't working on no lame shit
genre clashing all the time but i ain't ever lane switch
some of you just play the role while i've been on the same shit
seven in the morning i'm just tryna start my day shit
whippin to the coffee shop the soundtrack on my playlist
horror film apparel chrismas carols on my feet though
peril sent the beat & i just hit it like a cheat code
flipped through all the pages read a story bout a hero
thought i could relate cause at one point he was a zero
time will tell my story if my time is one to borrow
live it how you want cause you might never wake tomorrow

never wake tomorrow all that's left is your achievements
fillin up my cup in hell along with all your grievance
-is it kinda funny how my death changed your perception
was it all coincidence or was it my intention?
deafening to most but some will understand the story
i don't want it all but i want outta purgatory
so it wrote a song or two in hopes that i could reach it
found another key inside my soul i'm playing defense
with it cause i gotta i don't wanna lose control
cause the weight of all the words excused sit still inside my soul
i'm mistreated by my friends sometimes so i stand all alone
i don't fuck with anybody it's a waste of what i know

i don't really think i know you you're a undeveloped mold
it's the people you hold close to you that treat you fucking cold
they stay plotting on the kid & take a bid on when i'll fold
then they wonder why i'm distant and so hard to get ahold
of the people in your life how many gotchu till the grave
probably one or two be honest with yourself and not ashamed
yeah the good ones hard to come across but when you do it's great
life is beautiful in solitude i really can't complain

borrowed time (prod. peril x suli x gwapmane)

lyrics
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flowars
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i’m feeling great (yeah)
like crawling out a grave (yeah)
you can’t see my face yet
but don’t seem afraid (yeah)
i can’t seem to shake the
(don’t look back)
vibe that you’re awake
i hope you can run fast

(yeah yeah)
this is just a game and it sure ain’t safe
i’m just a ghost and i don’t have a face
if you wanna know then i just need a taste
the red on my blade has a delicate sheen
i love what i do
and i love when they scream for me

blood won’t fall without some gravity
don’t bother asking what’s wrong with me
i’m not broken rather i feel free
i just love to hear you scream
and if the hair on the back of your neck
don’t stand up straight right now
i might have to riot
wait…
cause i’m lurking in the dark
and you really oughta hurry on back home
if i catch you i won’t let go
if you beg me i’ll just smile
and the fight is worth the while for the prize

i can’t resist while you still exist
your blood on my lips is like
pure dopamine just ecstasy
i need you in my life

guardin
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i need you, i need you close
i need you, i need you close
i need you, i need you closer (x2)

got a hand full of dirt
as i crawl through the earth
as i make my way to these vacant places
that i hardly remember
as these memories all flood
i start draggin through the mud
with a knife in hand
i'm laying out the plan
& all i'm craving is your blood

so come over
three leaf clover
ain't no luck inside this room
got some posies in my pocket
imma lay em on your tomb
for some closure
i can close your eyes
accept that you are doomed
take the hook
out of your back
and try to run if you want to
you won't make it that far
if i catch you in my grip
you'll be quick to confiscate
what's in the holster on my hip
do not test my capabilities 
i'm built fully equipped
ain't no treats inside this home
you all alone with all these tricks

and we go through all of these cycles
you probably think i'm psycho
that's okay cause i came all this way
just to hit pause on all of your vitals
this could be the revisal
if you focus on your survival
better set your clock 
cause you know i won't knock
when it comes time for me to be michael
myers with the mask
i slash and gash you into two
i don't need no reservation
resurrecting's what i do
so if you see me in your neighborhood
try your best not to scream
cause i'll carve you like a pumpkin
have a happy halloween

guardin x flowars - midnight grove (prod. chxse bank)

lyrics
--------
how can
you live with yourself
when you took another life from the innocent
how can
you sleep at night
knowing you just took the boy's last breath
a cold sweat
steady your breathing
just keep on repeating the last step
forget
everything that you did
your existence of regret

he was a hero in this town
wore his whole heart on a damn string
scribble the faces of all of these people
cause they won't ever know a damn thing
what a shame
you had lots to offer to the world
you were more than just a name
this sort of thing
doesn't happen often round here
but the stories all the same so

how can
you live with yourself
when you took another life from the innocent
how can
you sleep at night
knowing you just took the boy's last breath
a cold sweat
steady your breathing
just keep on repeating the last step
forget
everything that you did
your existence of regret

follow xlhc

silver bullet (prod. xlhc)

prod. @its-naawoj

lyrics
--------
strawberry blunt ash flicked to the pavement
drank too much my minds outta place
this long walk home i hope i can make it
make it
make it

twas the night
i never felt so alive
then you crossed my mind
i tried to leave you behind
but of course you hide
kept out of reach & unkind
so my pulse will rise
as i look into those eyes
and i know
i don't wanna go where you're always chasing
leave me to the road as i start erasing
everything i know it's yours for the taking
take it
take it
walking all alone my feet start to ache
this party isn't over until i say it's
over and i'm over you when i'm waking
waking
waking

waking up to the sun
the stars don't know where i've been
bad luck is all that i know
bad luck is all that i am

i don't wanna go where you're always chasing
leave me to the road as i start erasing
everything i know it's yours for the taking
take it
take it
walking all alone my feet start to ache
this party isn't over until i say it's
over and i'm over you when i'm waking
waking
waking

follow naawoj

bad luck (prod. naawoj)

lyrics
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trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

trapped in between these halls
asbestos inside the walls
it's getting harder to breathe
and lately i'm in the dark
unaware of where to start
i'm falling hard with the breeze
so tell me the truth are we both really losing our minds
in this state of delusion it's easy to lose track of time
and the hands on this clock haven't spun even close to align
-ing but
they'll come around (x4)

'til then i'm
trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

am i really here?
am i not?
is there anywhere that i ought to be
i ain't tryna stay here with these oddities
and honestly it's getting kinda hard to breathe
and hard to speak when barred with teeth
my tongue sittin in my mouth but it's hard to speak
i fall asleep with every fragment haunting me
my dreams turn to nightmares where they're calling me
like hey hi hello it's me how you doing
i'm a ghost to this place amidst of these ruins 
trippin' over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is fucking haunted

trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

haunted (prod. young taylor)

make your dreams your reality

△cid c△stle

'gxf' comin' soon!

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guardin

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