what would u know abt being retarded
i throw my brain straight into the garbage
because im sofucking bad at social interactions
because i have such a strong passion for star wars
and also ww2 and ancestry and history 
and all these other things that normal people dont obsess over
i guess its just over
i guess its just over

im a fucking retarded loser i have no friends
i spend everyday inside on my computer i wanna die
the only girl that gave me valentines every year was my mom
i got bullied viciously i live in misery

oh my god i hate my fucking life dude

im anxious as fuck and im depressed as fuck and im suicidal
and i have been for a while
but its hard to wake up every morning and pretend its alright
but at least i have my favorite video game fortnite

why is my life harder because im autistic

youre so nice i dont know why you would ever talk to me
im nothing special im a loser and im fucking ugly
shes so pretty shes the girl that i- girl of my dreams
but no matter how hard i try she'll never notice me

im writing songs in my room
im writing songs about you
cus i dont know what to do
i want this one to come true

so lets make this one a two
i never wanna be through
i could never tell the truth
i think im in love with you

youre so pretty and ive seen all of star trek the original series

you wanna call me? i ask you often
i make some noise but i never end up talking
i dont know how to make it better
and im sinking further everyday 
cause im so full of condemnation
of all my thoughts, all my actions, everything i do
so on the day when you end up leaving
ill blame a lot of things but i wont blame you

no i wont blame you
i wont blame you
i wont blame you 
no i wont blame you
i wont blame you

won't blame you

no hope // no harm

and californias so warm
and michigan is so cold
and californias so warm
and michigan is so cold
and i wish it was snowing
where are you going

that song got stuck in my head and so i sung it till i couldnt anymore, where are you going

i wanna ask what youre gonna do after you turn 20
if im being honest its not that big of a deal to me
i wonder if we’ll still be together after we turn 20 i wanna know
and i dont think we’ll be together
will i ever be with u
my head spins when im with u
tell me how many mistakes youve made and then ill tell you mine
to feel like im just garbage

i wanna ask what youre gonna do after you turn 20

The fisrt song I've ever felt proud about

[chorus]
I feel bad!
I feel bad all the time!
I feel bad!
I feel bad all the time!
I feel bad!
I feel bad all the time!
I feel bad!
I feel bad all the time!

[verse]
I don’t really know why
(i feel bad all the time!)
I need to lay down for the rest of the day
I feel really bad right now
(i feel bad all the time!)
When I don’t want to feel anything 

[chorus]

[verse]
I can’t be my best self
(i feel bad all the time)
My health isn’t doing all that well
And I really don’t want to
(feel bad all the time!)
Revel in the fact but I can’t avoid that

[chorus]

[bridge]
I don't care about the blood loss
I need to stop the painfullness
With a fast way to repress my emotions
I don't care about the memory loss
I need to stop the painfullness
With a fast way to repress my emotions
I don't care about the friends lost
I need to stop the painfullness
With a fast way to repress my emotions
I don't care about the stuff lost
I need to stop the painfullness
With a fast way to repress my emotions

[outro]
Inject me with needles and overload
Woah, woah, wo-o-oah
Cut up and shred me to the bone
Woah, woah, wo-o-oah
Floor the gas on a gravel road
Woah, woah, wo-o-oah
Do all these things 'till my name's on a gravestone
Woah, woah, wo-o-oah

i feel bad!

Prolly my last cover for a bit, don't want to only do covers lol

Fly me to the moon by Frank Sinatra and Count Basie

fly me to the moon (Sinatra cover)

my sister

idc what u say

Unapologetic

You Grew Up

Find Raven on Spotify!

demos & throwaways (main is @h4rtbrkr)

i delete stuff alot and then spam upload and then reupload said deleted stuff

no hope // no harm

h2rtbrkr