produced by: @jolst & @remghost
mixed and mastered by me

lyrics:

i dont like you, 
and I haven't for a minute
talking shit on twitter but these pussies never with it yea
right thru, see your heart and now im grinning,
addicted to the violence only care bout fuckin winning yea 
stay there ill be right back in a minute
gotta shut this kid up two black blades you know im twinning yea
slice you, now theres blood all on the ceiling 
maybe that'll stop it but who the fuck am I kidding

thats life tho
i’m prone to lose it, watch my eyes glow
running rings around these pussies on a tight rope 
blacked out, ur no king of a castle
I fuckin hate that flowrs guy he seems like an asshole

i be touring 
doing 60 in a foreign
couple years I swear I got it 
I dont even need to talk and I 

think I saw it in my dreams when I was snoring 
now its so close I can floor it
shawty love me but she not my type

she be callin
at 4,5,6 in the morning
but you'll never see me answer
tell that bitch she gotta wait in line

on my flex shit all these pussies they be texting 
but they'll never fuckin touch me swear to god I put that on my life

on my life, but I bet they still try tho
pussy see me he gon blame it on a typo,
think I need to chill out or just fight more
what am I so full of this rage all times of night for?

i dont like you, 
and I haven't for a minute
talking shit on twitter but these pussies never with it yea
right thru, see your heart and now im grinning,
addicted to the violence only care bout fuckin winning yea 
stay there ill be right back in a minute
gotta shut this kid up two black blades you know im twinning yea
slice you, now theres blood all on the ceiling 
maybe that'll stop it but who the fuck am I kidding
that’s life tho

imperial (jolst & remghost)

@hammy
@prod5head
@freveltrothy

https://open.spotify.com/track/5BkW5V0RWNHTXQlNzBfMQu?si=38b4139a445f4660

sick of waking up in pieces 
i can’t find no inner peace 
fighting all these feelings 
try to keep em underneath 
broken on the inside 
but i still try 
had to kill the old me
he’s in a past life 

don’t know where i’m going 
i’m just going till im gone 
imma stray dog 
i don’t know where i belong 
it’s a lost cause 
yeah i know im living wrong
gotta stay strong 
gotta keep moving on

yeah i’m moving on 
i’m finding my way out
they always talking down 
my head up in the clouds 
no i can’t feel a thing 
im fucking withering
i was flying outta hell 
till you cut my wings 

i keep falling down 
i get back up 
said you hate me 
i couldn’t give a fuck 
i’m counting cash bitch
i can’t get enough 
in a fast life 
they not catching us 

wasting all this time 
wonder where it goes 
watching years fly by 
and i’m still alone 
gotta a voice in my head 
we don’t get along
know i’m too fucked up 
too far gone 

trapped in the cold 
froze my soul 
broken down 
i’m 6 below 
in too deep
hanging by a thread
walking on a thin line
dancing on the edge 

sick of waking up in pieces 
i can’t find no inner peace 
fighting all these feelings 
try to keep em underneath 
broken on the inside 
but i still try 
had to kill the old me
he’s in a past life 

don’t know where i’m going 
i’m just going till im gone 
imma stray dog 
i don’t know where i belong 
it’s a lost cause 
yeah i know im living wrong
gotta stay strong 
gotta keep moving on

stray

10.07.2021

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stray (prod. frevel & 5head)

(: <3 lyrics below

I know you see me
You check up on me now and then we're stuck in repeat
One week we're fine the next we're not you love to break me
I don't feel good right now ooo
Right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Oh right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Oh right now right now
Don't feel good right now now now now

I can't take back what I did to you
Girl its the same for you
Don't lie yeah we both know it's true
Yeah we both know it's true
Ooo
It's you I needed
Ooo
My hearts always bleeding
Right now right now now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now now
Right right right right now now now now
Ugh
Right now right now now
Now now now now
I don't feel good now now
I I I don't feel good now

I don't feel good now
But baby ill put it behind me
She just pulled up to the party and i'm in the corner where no one can find me
I'd rather would keep to myself
I'm not the type to be following blindly
I don't need anyones help
Fuck it I lied man i'm practically dying
And I know she never cared
She just wants a couple dollars
I don't know why the fuck I bother
And to be honest girl i'm scared
If I keep going down this path then ill end up just like my father
And I know she never cared
She just wants a couple dollars
I don't know why the fuck I bother
And to be honest girl i'm scared
If I keep going down this path then ill end up just like my father

I can't take back what I did to you
Girl its the same for you
Don't lie yeah we both know it's true
Yeah we both know it's true
Ooo
It's you I needed
Ooo
My hearts always bleeding
Right now right now now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now now
Right right right right now now now now
Ugh
Right now right now now
Now now now now
I don't feel good now now
I I I don't feel good now

I don't feel good now I hate it by myself
And my mom is telling me that I should get some help
Couple pills to start I learned to play the part
And lately I been thinking I might break apart
And I know he never cared
He was all that I needed and i'm just taking the bleeding and I
Wanted to tell you it ain't fair
I hope it hurts when you see me
I won't be there when you need me and I

I can't take back what I did to you
Girl its the same for you
Don't lie yeah we both know it's true
Yeah we both know it's true
Ooo
It's you I needed
Ooo
My hearts always bleeding
Right now right now now
Don't feel good right now now now now
Right now right now now
Right right right right now now now now
Ugh
Right now right now now
Now now now now
I don't feel good now now
I I I don't feel good now

spotify

i dont feel good

i dont feel good (feat. kennedyxoxo & skele) [p. irby]

imma go smoke

prod @sorrow_bringer

 it really does kill me that i'm not able to showcase what i create/put out how i want it to be, but the piece itself matters the most to me. hopefully one day i'll be able to put together like a music video/lyric for a majority of what i put out, but for now, this is all i got. thank you so much for supporting me and music to this point. i really, really appreciate it. more than just that. this is everything to me. thank you for listening. <3

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

brass knuckles mounted on my fists
sweat n grease; let it drip
like a typhlosion, my body is molten
i will not let opportunity slip
it's all for the kid, that i had been
i fucking miss him, but i shouldn't let
adolescence turn to codependence
just how in the fuck did we grow up to this

i'm sorry if you don't like my voice
cause i don't either, i do not have a choice
i take a break for a couple days
then i come back, just to fill the void
i'm so annoyed by every noise
and a breath away from breathing poison
a leap of faith isn't what i'd take
just freefall into clairvoyance

i don't keep track of the shit i accomplish
trying my best to avoid being pompous
now the weight of the world's being pushed on the girl who had given me hope
for the things i had wanted
ain't that some bullshit
honesty lies in between the cracks
of what we deem that is evil
but we can't live without it
can't live without it

oh, it feels like i stall time
when i submerge myself in a foreign pathogen
all feels well, till i cross that path again
flicker the blood off your hands into mine
what an orthodox method of covering crime
i just wanna cry
she just wanna crash
just leave me behind
there's no going back

but, what if i fuck this up again
would you be my only friend
my mentality's kicking the bin
cause honesty lies within sin
with every thought, grows ornery tension
every night i'm a loss, and i'm building retention
stars don't cross if you don't pay attention
my tears don't drop if they're not worth a mention
you cannot feel what i feel.
she's probably not even real
i'm probably not even real
so i'm going in for the kill

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

did it ever happen..

retention [prod. sorrow bringer]

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my coat at anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(it’s not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
i’ll stay here if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before? 

(oh, for real?) 

my bad, i guess not but- 
do you wanna go
we can smoke at mine
if you don’t smoke
i got some beers n we can pass time
i don’t give a fuck about what’s going on 
as long you’re here watching always sunny
til bout quarter past 5 

and hey there 
“hey u :)” 
im fucked up
turned blue 
yeah im too slumped
how bout u 
like oh god !!!!
you’re too cool 

dont walk out 
leave me 
im cut up 
bleeding 
so just stay
these sun rays 
they make me 
feel okay 

all of the things 
that i could now say to you
i don’t know whether to laugh or cry
do you even feel at least half of this?
or will you just sit with your friends and all laugh at this- 
FUCK

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my at coat anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
but i’ll stay here
if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before?
oh, for real?

pale (pekarot x jolst)

I know imma die this way
I know that I can't change
Baby I been down for life
I know that you feel the same
You can help heal my pain
And we can make it through tonight
I'll let you waste my time
Cause your love is hard to find
Yeah yeah
Your love is hard to find
Your love is hard to find

Your love is hard to find
Your love one of a kind
Can't get you off my mind
You cross it every night
You cross it every night
Just like stars up in the sky
Hold me close
Or let me go
If you need me
Let me know
I can't turn back on this road
I've been down to many times
Keep my feelings locked inside
Yeah they wanna eat me alive

Time been moving slow
It's hard to stay afloat
I'm steady losing hope
Can you tell me where to go
Cause really I don't know
And really I could care less
I been trying my best
Don't wanna see you upset

I know imma die this way
I know that I can't change
Baby I been down for life
I know that you feel the same
You can help heal my pain
And we can make it through tonight
I'll let you waste my time
Cause your love is hard to find
Yeah yeah
Your love is hard to find
Your love is hard to find

hard to find (prod. roxa + tommet)

Cupcakes

my head is pounding w/ hm.wav (prod. senpai)

Nowadays I never sleep
Work until the sun fading
I can't fuck with all these lames
Cause they keep changing
Lying to my fucking face
Feel my heart breaking
She left me in the rain
Now my hands shaking

Yeah
I could never trust
I don't have it in me
Now my pockets full
But I'm still empty
Smoking out the pound
Keep it in my Fendi
Black knife on me
To protect me
Keep it tucked in
To these true religions
She think I'm an angel
But I'm a demon

I remember when they hated
But now they listen
I always knew
I had a clear vision

Shoutout to my day 1's
Who stood by me
We in newport beach
In a v8 audi
I'm lighting up the weed
Now it's looking cloudy
I could give a fuck
If they wanna doubt me

I see what they can't see
I'm high above
They can't reach
His girl wanna talk to me
But her touch is deadly
I can't fall in love again
I can't have to many friends
My heart is growing heavy
And my bones are wearing thin

I can't fall in love again
I can't have to many friends
My heart is growing heavy
And my bones are wearing thin

I can't fall in love again
I can't have to many friends
My heart is growing heavy
And my bones are wearing thin

My bones are wearing thin
It's getting pretty bad
All the walls are caving in
You turned me to a fiend
Yeah you were my medicine
I miss your fucking touch
Felt like spiders on my skin

Made a promise to myself
I would never fall again
Try so hard to wake up
But this nightmare never end
People used to talk shit
Now they wanna be my friend
Keep my feelings locked down
I can never let you in

To this head of mine
I'll search but
I can't find
Satisfaction
I can't ever get it right
I'm staying up all night
Bags under both my eyes
I'm not tired
Yeah I'm working overtime

Nowadays I never sleep
Work until the sun fading
I can't fuck with all these lames
Cause they keep changing
Lying to my fucking face
Feel my heart breaking
She left me in the rain
Now my hands shaking

Yeah I could never trust
Just don't have it in me
Now my pockets full
But I'm still empty
Smoking out the pound
Keep it in my Fendi
Black knife on me
To protect me
Keep it tucked in
To these true religions
She think I'm an angel
But I'm a demon

I remember when they hated
But now they listen
I always knew
I had a clear vision

nowadays (prod. xtravulous)

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing 

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing 

New year
Same dreams
Old faces
I'm tired
I can't take it
So sick of this bullshit
I might fill my brain with a full clip

I might fill my brain with a full clip

They wanna see me dead
Voices in my head
Falling off the edge
I can't stop it

It's hard to love again
I don't have no friends
I just got a hole where my heart is

Yeah I got some scars
Don't get me started
Gave my all for you
I tried my hardest
We're nothing in the end
We die regardless
I just wish my head
Wasn't like this

I isolate myself I can't help it
Cause nowadays I'm always fucking anxious
Waking up at night still faded
I don't even know what the day is

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing 

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing

problems (prod. jody)

hamltn