It's been far too long since I got Teddy on one of my tracks.

I haven't been doing well in regards to my mental health lately, so this song paints a small picture of how I've been feeling inside my head these days.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

Explain away the reasons I can’t find my way back to the way I used to be before
You changed me, and I don’t know why
I’ll starve myself to see the ribs poking out of stomach like a sore
And I can only bring myself to cry
I don’t see a reason to be here anymore
But reasons lead to treason that I cannot ignore

I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

(Teddy)
My health doesn’t matter
I’ve been going too hard
See a blade jump to my skin
It goes “oo la la”
Like “oo la la”
I’m addicted to it
Like “oo na na”
Like “oo na na”
I’m tired of coping the way that I have the last couple of years, um
Starving myself because food disgusts me, I hate the feeling
I hurt myself because you won’t do it, jump from the building
Freefall, heart beats, love is an illness

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Intrusive thoughts will be my end
Rewind the clock so we can start again
Any of this even matter?
It makes my heart go pitter patter

Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

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Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

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