In the winter my hair turns dark and the tips curl

dont care for the sun, but i love all the flowers <3

this man made me love pets and people, even just little moments, loneliness or company, depression or happiness like as it was my last time living, ily heylog, hope u keep it up <333

Heylog :]

featuring @xona
produced by heylog & xona

lyrics:
(heylog)
in the winter my hair turns dark and the tips curl
when can i learn how to meet a girl
hurry back need to defend the available angles
i swear i've made contact with monsters and angels
in the winter my skin dry's after a shower
don't care for the sun but i love all the flowers 
you missed my call now she thinks she has the power
do what you want just know that you are a coward
oh hi, 
didn't see u waving by
its not like ur wasting my time
finding out what its like
to be the light
cause you
um
don't know where i'm coming from
your life's only just begun
i can show you what its like
to feel numb

(xona)
cause I hate when i'm alone 
I’ve witnessed what she honed
it burns me through my core 
so tell me what’s-
and I don’t wanna waste my time
see a blur of image that I like
seeing nothing but girl who tries to lie
and you wish that I’ll fall again 
just to show your other friends
but I know I’m adamant, toxic is your finest edge
day by day it’s on myself
feeling weaker on my guilt 
told no one I needed help 
It’s on myself

(heylog)
need to get my life together climbing up steep hills
enjoying the sunset under the windmills
i cannot stand here nor can i sit still
i'm not on anything nor do i take pills

(heylog & xona)
i'm done with everything nor do i even care
do you want attention?
laugh all u want i'm just tryna be nice here
and i don't know why
i think i'm normal, maybe a little weird
do you think i'm here? maybe something's not clear
i got my morals, tryna meet my peers
don't need a sign on why i need you right?

spotify

animus ft. xona

produced by heylog

lyrics:
am i alive? guess we'll know if i breathe
i killed them all i can live in peace
i lost a lot, praying for enemies
avoiding evil that i might bring
i'll fight till death if it keeps u safe
i'll kill them all just to make sure ur okay
they charge at me, hold my ground, be brave
i lost my mind and there's nothing that remains

(one, two, three, go)

i just wrote you a letter
i wish u the best
yea i been doin better
and that's a big step
u got what u asked for
a life with no us
but u come back for more
and it's never enough
i just sent a letter
all the way from home
i'll miss u forever
why'd u have to go
i'm caught up in the center
baby i could die
it has been a pleasure
i'll meet u in the sky
this is it yea can't let down my guard
i never talk man, don't put me in charge
i cut her off should've done that from the start
leaving marks
i don't love me
why do i continue? swim in agony
we were so close until u stabbed me
i cut u off too cause u were bad for me
don't come back to me no

i'm so nervous right now i'm tweaking, why can i not speak
i fidget, it's so obvious i have anxiety
u sat there and did nothing while u saw me slowly bleed
i wiped it from my skin now there's scars for eternity
am i okay? guess we'll know if i breathe
check for my pulse to make sure it beats
i lost a lot, it's too much for me to see
i talk to god, praying for my enemies

the war II

produced by heylog
guitar by ashen

lyrics:
my minds
dizzy and my head is way too light 
middle of nowhere just i
now i wish u could be here
the plan is to go disappear

no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here
cause i'm too used to people leaving
why is it never good timing
and i'm sick apologizing 
when ur the one who should b sorry
i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our dna
too soon for home yea i'll be there late
still see grey

i'm sick
i'll pass it over with one kiss
now we're both sharing our eye's
what is it like sharing lives?
tonight i plan to make u mine
hearts so lost, thinking u could change that
i been through a lot and i lost a couple friend's 
but if i'm being honest i could care less
i don't wanna go through hell again
i need nothing, from u or anyone
i see something in her, i felt like i have won
(won)
translate my words into love
a better me, better evolve
no i
wanna leave so bad i sigh
and i'm sick of everything i cry
and i don't if i should be scared
just let me know if you'll be here
‎ 
‎ 
‎ 













‎ 
‎ 
‎ 




‎ 
‎ 
‎ 
‎ 


‎ 
‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 
‎ ‎ ‎ 
‎ 
‎ 
‎ ‎ 
‎ 
‎ 
‎ 
‎ 
‎ ‎ 
made this with strep throat yuh

evolve

produced by heylog

lyrics:
(keep thinking that i'm stuck 
falling from the sun
you found me in the mud
can you tell i've had enough)

getting muddy
hurts when your words crush me
can we please lie here
maybe i'm just tired
i'm strong when i'm alone
right now i feel so weak
breaking all my bones
i know ur judging me
i left it and our home
i feel u getting closer, hoping i can fix
your only little problem, praying that you'll quit
i'm sorry i'm such a bother, i probably ruined this
i don't know if i should call her, just saying that i miss you
but i'm confident that i got her, talking with her lips
took a chunk out of my shoulder, rashes on my neck
my mouth is filled with water as she take another sip
i don't know if i should stop her, trying to convince
that ur not even fair, do you think this is a game?
scrunching up my hair, do nothing how am i drained?
why do u even go? when this party's filled with hoes
MY STOMACH DROP, NERVOUS NELLY
TWISTS AND TURNS IN MY TUMMY
oh down another bottle it's her 3rd now
getting wasted quick
i don't see a point in this
turn towards a drink
baby let me tell you it ain't gonna fix a thing

i don't know if i can do this
continue making music
i've grown to be something
and i don't wanna lose it
i'm feeling all this pressure
they want me to start over
but that ain't gonna happen
i'll continue being a loser

getting muddy
hurts when your words crush me
can we please lie here
maybe i'm just tired
i'm strong when i'm alone
right now i feel so weak
breaking all my bones
i know ur judging me
left it and our

breaking out of my shell, tell me how do u do this
these stories that you tell, aint no coincidence
forgot how love is felt, you reminding me of it
don't need u to compel anything ur not comfortable with

(i'm not done yet)

my iris glistens, she told me "im amazed, 
i've never seen such blue eyes on a face"
hard to listen what did you even say
going fast it's too late to hit the breaks
getting stabbed busy drowning in a lake
on dnd i promise i'm not okay
associate with no one just only me
talk to people trying not decay

coincidence

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i wait patient for karma
butterflies and larva
pain in my sternum
poking me in my heart oh
floating i've risen
fall apart, rebuild it
emptiness, refill it
but i'm out of liquid
i made it far
low on juice, recharge
going through some photos, i feel pain in my heart
(god)
love me or not, do something
don't tease or play w my feelings
wait here in the cold
anger, unfold

you
oh
you
oh
you
oh
oh
you
baby hold me
enough is not enough
i need something
when i fall out of love

listen here u need to know
come closer, this is unknown
our love is what i'd die for
i don't bluff so let's explore
(ok)
i love u and no one else
i left u so i'll take the guilt
please don't move and just sit still
don't let go it's me i'll kill

can't stop coughing
bruising my chest
i make mistakes, keep losing my head
avoiding talk, don't wanna see friends
afraid of toxics i can feel it
you said u was my boy
but i hear the fake in your voice
(so fake)
"WHY DO I NEVER HEAR FROM YOU OR SEE YOU
WHY DO I NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU BEEN UP TO"
I DON'T FEEL LIKE CONVERSATING
I BOTTLE UP, GIVE IT TIME TILL I BREAK IT
DROWNING AND DROWNING MY SENSE
HOW AM I BLESSED WHEN YOU SAW WHAT I DID
LET OUT MY EMOTION UPSTAIRS IN MY CRIB
PROCRASTINATING AGAIN AND AGAIN

@heylog
produced by @herskylin

(vil)
i stay in the moment i’m lost in
time fractures and i’m exhausted
serpent biting all on the cartridge
perfecting everything in my way
and it sucks to suck
in your world
i mean nothing to you, you say it sucks to be you
(cut me loose)

cut me loose from the ties i’m
holding on despite the
ruckus you’ve caused
i should abandon you but what would that fix
…nothing at all
this confrontation is just breaking us apart
i cant even find the start
and so i

break down (x4)
can’t find a way, need an escape
i’m left for dead blood spewin out
my pores are closing
i’m decomposing
show me what it’s like to be controlling

(heylog)
my life's so concerning
wait too long i need to hurry
my stomach's churning
decide if i need to worry
what am i here for
what is my goal
oh my god i'm so worn from climbing out this hole
abuse my body oh it's hurting
i'm so lost think that i'm worthless
pretty sure i don't have a purpose
make mistakes constantly learning
what not to do next time
too lazy to reply
but i don't even try
desert phone, it's so dry

(vil)
i’m bleeding out from my wrist
and i’m choked up, let me say my final wish
you act like what we had never existed
so i’m blaming you until death

serpent +heylog (skylin ✧)

'collide' produced by heylog

lyrics:
removing pieces of flesh
ur gonna leave me i bet
i don't stand a single chance
when u don't even lend me a hand
i'm hurting but i'm fine
i'm burning, still alive
i watch all my emotions collide
put me to a test
anchored, need to rest
but right now i can't and it's
because i'm so stressed on my last and final breath
sad just like usual, oh boy i'm such a mess
i don't fit in, something just doesn't click
worry u won't hurt my feelings i'll just lay in bed

I AM LOST FOR WORDS I'M AFRAID OF GETTING CURVED
do u think u feel me well enough to know my hurt
I AM LOST FOR WORTH HONESTLY THIS COULD BE WORSE
all the things i've done tell me what do i deserve
I AM SO DEPRESSED IS IT A LITTLE OBVIOUS
searching for a light but it seems all the powers dead
I FEEL MY DESCENT WEIGHT ME DOWN AND SLOWLY PRESS
barely ever happy always find it hard to get

i am so depressed
nothing new i guess
sum up everything and i'm hanging by a thread	
constantly regret
flip a switch and just reset
wish it was that easy, repeat it all again

collide

follow heylog

@heylog

support heylog - spotify - https://open.spotify.com/artist/5Jf6pl4SGgueZHZ4pC313c?si=4gRVQC47SBql7WYQ8JUpeA

lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

produced by sleepwater & leftquiet
mixed and mastered  by sleepwater

if you dont love me
you wont see this
if you dont wanna love me
you dont wanna see this
how after all
how have i become
who, who

removing myself from everything
show you the world
cos your everything
cos your everything

that i need
so please
want me
cos your everything
i need
i need

she made me wanna die and i dont know why
i cant see the light i got the tunnel vision
reapers getting life call it double time
i dont think ill be able to stand here
dont want my personalities meeting
drowning thoughts seem to be sinking

cos your everything
cos your everything
cos your everything
i neeed

you gotta bottle it up
you gotta pack that in 
i wanna flood the gates
she betta celebrate it
so where would be the line
if i ever wanted to cross it
never felt right
when i tried
to love you
you
help

please

bubbles /
depends, can you go fuck yourself

hira /
i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

is it too much to ask for your time
love my patience is walking the line
save me
its not like youd try
fell too close
breaking my spine

too close i feel like an option
i keep tryna run girl 
run into the forest
i could use some safety
are you tryna hold me?
stop shaking
eyes are getting blurry

i dont trust nobody
but i saw you as family
its getting too warm im struggling to breathe
its blatant im nothing to see

i can see a lot of shit coming out of you 
throwing hands until my face turns a darker blue
the evil in your eyes is pouring out of you
i still wonder why, im never mad at you

you could have some decency 
left me vacant while youre down on your knees
i should be more patient 
but its hard to be
when youre out fucking anybody that

breathes

breathe

prod by me :) <3

lyrics -
ur telling me to hold on
i don't really think u see the best in me
'cos i know
if u really want it you'd make it work
oh i can see the end of us
can't believe that the wall was breached
god i don't wanna go
but you've been pushing me out for a while now
oh no

i hide my face when she laughing at it
cant lie, i dont care, cause shes going nowhere
told ur boy if he wanna back it, come out on the street but hes going somewhere
she getting cold now
pulled out, undercover when she come round
whole streets on the floor, what she know now
tears ready on the floor when she go out

breaking loads of bottles again
got a problem when you talk on ya friends
you want to tell me how she loves me
take you to dance
say you want to trust me I can’t relax
taking all you pour out
i don’t want the door down
7 milli foreign with the Roley got me iced out
in my dreams you know I’m having it
i can barely breathe when all these problems keep on happening

my nose red, blood is pouring out fast
i sit down, think i need to relax
she start her month say, "let's go to the bath"
she look at me when i cause her to gag
after i'm done i gotta leave ur house
cus i don't got time for any cuddles now
a kiss goodbye but she pulls me down
she told me she wanna go another round

couldn’t get enough, ignore the other side
I’ll tell it from the front
you speak about love, that’s never been us
these doors stayed shut
keep your facade
laid out-
knowing it was dormant
a few years and I’m back to this torment
is it really that important?
you know it better than me
you couldn’t let it at peace
this whole story was about me
I’ve got you right on your knees
the only thing that I need
is to make you forget at least…

the end of us (feat. hiraeth, erxn, heylog & xona)

theres something in this world 
i feel like 
no one even wants me here 
calm along the surface 
deep inside ive got my layers of fear 

theres something in this world 
i feel like 
no one even wants me here 
calm along the surface 
deep inside ive got my layers of fear 
i promise everybodys doing better than me 
stuck here cutting losses so you can watch me bleed 
fuck that im burning money 
give a shit what it means 
my bad i pray to god you bring some comfort to me

you're safe here don't worry
i'll come back as quick as i can
rush, i'm in a hurry
can't see anything on my end
my end
haven't been the same since the last time
my peripheral is gone, there's twitching in my left eye
i think i go insane, hear the war cries
strike it down, i can't be seen neither dead and neither alive
why all of the sudden now you believe in me
"i had no potential" is what you'd think of me
now ur switching sides and wanna be on my team
i'll be the better man and just cut you off and leave

i swear youre only doing it out of spite
you got a question
ima bite
i cant believe im still alive
your bullshit is the reason ima die

you can keep on picking me up 
and putting me down slowly
youre too close 
for someone who dont know me
im too far motherfucker dont bro me
bro me bro me bro bro

something in this world 
i feel like 
no one even wants me here

here w/heylog

original song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e_Rc33SgCTs


lyrics:

we were lookin at the sky
i hope u know u been in my mind
i wanna tell u but it dont feel right
im sorry but atleast i try

i hope ur doing good i think youre better off without me
she said ur pretty cute and mentioned that ur kinda funny
the hole inside her jeans match the one inside ur chest
I hope i can repair it with my love and all the rest

ive told you a thousand times that Im sorry
its cause my head been hurt and damaged lately
its just another cycle
i dont know where my mind goes
its just another cycle
everyday i feel my mind go

i see ur doing great knew u were better off without me
my brain is feeling good and my fingers keep on shakin
ringing in my ears and the voices always haunt me
dirt between my teeth from the face plant happened last week

the freckles on her face match the heart inside her chest
no hope for a repair with my love and all the rest

i hope ur doing good i think youre better off without me
she said ur pretty cute and mentioned that ur kinda funny
the holes inside her jeans match the one inside ur chest
I hope i can repair it with my love and all the rest

i dont wanna leave but i got to
before i hit the road she say i love you
its just another cycle
im just another pyscho

walking to your door
i catch myself staring at ur face
i need ur love
can u set the pace
u called me im mean
i feel like the monster
i feel like the monster
i feel like the monster

i tuck
my neck
its cut
you did this

just breathe
but i cant
youll be okay
grab my hands
dont fall off
dont want u slipping
u need to calm down
what are u doing

i see ur doing great knew u were better off without me
she said u always haunt me
how do u keep coming back to me
ur so frighting

heylog - hope ur doin good

thank you to @seenyona for helping me write.
produced by grasior
<33

lyrics -
talk to me
make me bleed
silence keeps
holding me
falling apart is just another day
remines of the stupid shit we'd say
who do you keep when no one ever stays
battling life yet not a single gaze

but maybe life would disappoint
cause no one ever sees your joy
pilling up with emotions
does the fact you sit alone bring you omens

cause no one ever sees your joy
does the fact you sit alone bring you omens

talking to loud
feeling so found
girl your dead to me
piercing their skin
hearing them scream
so emotionally
flowers to frown
I'm so over it
messing shit up
so you cant come home from this
you keep on talking like its 
never been before yah
paralyzed in those white lies
wonder if this is this end for me
guess common sense is nothing
but fallacies to you

but maybe life would disappoint
cause no one ever sees your joy
pilling up with emotions
does the fact you sit alone bring you omens

cause no one ever sees your joy
does the fact you sit alone bring you omens
-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

omen

conversation, we should give it up
i think im struggling to fight you
and theres no need for me to act so tough
id throw my life away to find you
and we can stop, tell me its enough
inflict all the damage you want
you can bruise my bones and be rough
id never tell you to stop

this is the only time i get to hear you
ive wasted all my life, trying to see you
and i dont go outside, cause im ashamed to
id rather stay and hide, its what im bound to

bound

produced by heylog

lyrics:
oh now you notice
me when I'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth
oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth

she ask me "what'd u say?"
i'm just talking to myself
i may sound evil
but u gotta get to know me first
i promise i'm nice
but that could quickly take a turn
caught me by surprise
this is not even my worst
she claims that she's gay
wait
but why are u kissing me
don't tease with my brain
cause it's buzzing like a bumblebee
burn out the flame
hoping i get third degree
call me by your name
when ur famous overseas

oh now u like me
since i've changed
so ur saying i wasn't good enough before
what a shame
don't let out the beast
that would be a big mistake
drool drops from his teeth
and his canines concave
u want him released
i believe you've met your fate
she spill all the tea
now the problems piling up with pace
show no mercy
if this water hit me like a wave
begging no please
i'm finally awake

oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth
oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth

don't tell me u love me
ik ur lying
lips bittersweet
hint of violet
don't tell me u love me
id rather die
skin like candy
i cant decide

animus ft. xona

heylog

Recent comments

𝙿ᥙr𝙿ℓᥱтяꪖѕʜʜ

𝙿ᥙr𝙿ℓᥱтяꪖѕʜʜ

secre

kyledied

Related tracks