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@heylog

-lyrics-
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live, I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held
but I’ve tried 2much,  2much right now..
but I can lie and that’s alright (:
but all my friends
push me on edge
and they do not sense
on why I feel dead..
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live!
I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held

oh i might cry :,(
when this blade touches my skin
i don't need remorse
for all the sins that i commit
i don't need a friend
to tell me what i'm doing wrong
you think i don't know this
i could tell you the exact same thing
you better watch your back
i see the folks you call your friends will try hurt you
don't be surprised when it happens
cause i was surprised when it happened 
hating on myself
makes the 2 of us
no i don't need help
or any pill
the story of my life
i gotta chill
feel like pennywise
giving me a thrill

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care w/ heylog♡

produced by heylog

lyrics:
pacing around the floor making circles that could go miles
tears are running down my face they're stacking up in piles
threw us in recycle, unrecognizable files
all our data's lost, babe it's been a while
cause we
don't need
us
remember when we met i was too scared to even look at u
these knots that are in my stomach ain't normal they're all bc of u
and i can't help but stutter the first time i ever talked to you
and i knew u were special, really thought we'd have a future
but we
don't need
us

i stg
this can't be real
2 years gone
nothing to feel
it went so fast
thought it would last
but i was too, arrogant with that

staying the night at your home
feels good waking up, knowing ur close
don't know why or how i go
with you, was never alone
i'm poppin all my cells
where are you now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay right here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that i've always feared
that i fear

CAPABLE OF LOSING EVERYTHING
I GOT NO FRIENDS
ONLY PEOPLE THROUGH A PHONE SCREEN
I'M ALONE LESS
WHEN YOU CALLED I WAS HOPING
YOU WERE COMING HOME
1 YEAR DONE NOW 3
LEFT TO GO
POURING OUT MY HEART TO RANDOM EYES
BET THEY KNOW ME
BETTER THAN YOU EVER DID
COME AND SHOW ME
SHE'S TOO BUSY THROWING UP
ALL THE ALCOHOL
WHILE I'M SITTING IN MY LIVING ROOM
CUDDLING WITH MY DOG
bored out of my mind, riff guitar i love to escape
cut off everyone, i keep swimming in my mistakes
staring at the ceiling
bet it has more feelings
than i ever will i come to realize i'm deceiving

'next to u' produced by heylog

lyrics:
𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘪 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘢 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴,
𝘪 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵

𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶?

u make it so hard to live
i feel like i'm in hell
my parents ain't raise no kid
who'll just end up killing himself
i could shut down
and no one will ever find me
i could lie down
and see u there next to me

i need u to focus
i'm crying, i'm broken
but no one really cares how i'm feeling so hopeless
i hate ur guts
and i hate ur friends
i realized u all suck
so i'll just cut u instead
now i think of u less
cus i thought highly of you
so i distanced away
to try something new
i'm steady being myself
something you'd never do
but i still wish u the best
even though i still hate you

YOU TEXTED ME
I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO SAY
I'LL RESPOND IN A WEEK
MAYBE 2, MAYBE 3
AVOIDING US AND MOVE ON
THOUGH I STILL WRITE YOU IN SONGS
IT'S THE EMOTIONS YOU HOLD
THAT NEVER FEELS WRONG
GOD I'M SO DISAPPOINTED AT EVERYTHING THAT I DO
I'LL PLAY SOME GUITAR, RECORD A COUPLE OF LOOPS
BUT IT AIN'T MET WITH MY STANDARDS
SO I START SOMETHING NEW
AT LEAST I PUT IN SOME WORK
WHICH YOU'LL NEVER DO
TAKIN PICS OF THE WALL
ADD A PLANT AND A BOOK
WRITE A VERSE AND A BRIDGE
CUS I AIN'T GOOD WITH NO HOOK
I KEEP REPEATING MYSELF
AM I SPEAKING TOO MUCH?
I'M NOT A PERSON WHO TALKS
SO I'LL JUST CHILL IN THE BACK AND WATCH

next to u

produced by sleepwater leftquiet and heylog
w @heylog

im losing faith and abilities
i wish i was brave im never at ease
what did you say to me
nothing was made for me
nothing went the way of the willow
ill sit right here and wait by my window

picking leaves for you to see
i hate these trees when i cant breathe
im sick of me i said too much
i hate myself not scared to crush
im not scared to crush
i hate myself
not fair no touch
i did this to myself

come destroy me now i rlly wanna know
i locked inside your arms
i hate the way it goes
im locked inside a farm 
while u remove his coat
ive never had the time 
to let anyone close

heylog:
just a log and a tree standing open in fields
rough times for a being if u don't know how to heal
kill me lover, push below the ground
oh i can't stand it here, not even an ounce
oh you
oh my
come back
to my side
i dont know myself
dont go ill stay and get help

no i dont miss you
hate what u done to me
say that your in love me
200 hundred days
where i would see you
i made a mistake
now i cant see you

fields w/heylog

produced by heylog

lyrics:
so
is this the end
we won't give up
just yet
so
what's next
i'll wait for you
even if you've met
someone else

you'll miss me
well i'll miss u too
staring at the sky
cus i see you
you need me
and i need u too
i just need to find where u went
i'm lost, unspoken
don't blame me for parting ways i had to cut u off
even when i smiled you just had to wipe it off
escape into the woods where no species exist at all
i might've found safety and that was all i want

so
this where we end?
i can't give up
just yet..
so
what's next
i'll wait for u
but you probly met
someone else

slip

original song 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2MI1WHc6RI
u make me look stupid

lyrics:
i think were fallin outta love
i dont know who i could trust
i said i got issues
i swear to god this aint my luck
i fail at being honest
this was never my intention
im always lying to my parents
i dont know how i keep doing this

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

i hate how u always look at me
but it was nothing new to me
im too distracted by ur eyes
while u continue to keep breaking me
i think that we were fiction
u kept me suffocated
i know u never listened
im crying while im twitchin
your 'tude needs some fixin
thats not even a question
u got me second guessin
now im overthinkin

i tried to make u laugh
i tried to make it right
i tried to get a smile
but instead i make u cry
we'll feel nothing like the start
u just slipped out from my arms
i could never let u go
when i still have ur heart

i know i did u wrong i guess thats what i deserve
i hate to see u gone and the thought just makes it worse
u made it in another song i doubt youll even care
i know that this dont matter so i doubt youll even hear
i know i did u wrong and i know i killed us off
i know its all my fault but i made u another song
i doubt youll even care and i doubt youll even hear
i cut off all my hair just so u could stop and stare

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

heylog - u make me look stupid

Lyrics:


No I know that you don't really need me
Got caught on in this place you won't see me
On and off, different moods what're you feeling
What're you feeling
What're you feeling
After that let's get out of this place
No ones home now I'm wishing you could stay
Took a step further back staples in my face
Bodies shot red liquid is falling down my leg


This is not the same it is not the same
On the drive home I do not feel safe
I'm the one to blame I'm the one to blame
Without you this time I don't feel okay


Baby your my home, can't imagine it with someone else
Eyes are pointing to the floor don't want you to see myself
Are we on a different page or are we on a different shelf
I'll be reading chapters just so I could be with you or else

Driving home now I'm wishing I could stay
Lightning strikes the summer skies hear the city train
Purest words between your lips is keeping me sain
Ill keep you safe around my arms u give me all your pain
Just miss your flight and stay with me I'll give you better days
The weather shifts with waterfalls we're kissing in the rain
If your in doubt you know I'm here just tell me anything
We're out of time you gotta go is this where it will change?


No I know that you don't really need me
Got caught on in this place you won't see me
On and off, different moods what're you feeling
What're you feeling
What're you feeling
After that lets get out of this place
No ones home now I'm wishing you could stay
Took a step further back staples in my face
Bodies shot red liquid is falling down my leg

heylog - Driving Home & Im Wishing U Could Stay

prod logan

lyrics:
wait here for a minute
i'll be back in a moment
tie me to a rope
pull it back, cut me open
everything we did together
(god)
likes to haunt me
i take it with a grain of salt and everything you taught me
in the end i'm still a human but you hate that
cause you put me in a bottle when u face back
and i remember we were tight but i don't trace back
so ima move on with my life and never think "past"
cause i don't wanna get caught up in flames i've been in before
i see my problems and delete like i just been through a war
and i got 24 hours and 7 days filled with bored
but when someone asks me to hang i don't have time to afford
and by that i mean i just wanna hangout by myself
& i'm sorry but i'd rather work on music n melt
cause oh my god this heat has got me sweating hotter than hell
i haven't showered for a while and i'm starting to smell
now i look into the mirror, sensing anger in me
i wanna smash it into pieces, i don't wanna be weak
i wanna get me out this town and move somewhere overseas
i'm tryna get me to the top but i'm progressing with ease
and the last thing ima do is hang my head and give up
i think they're praying me to fall but so far they're outta luck
cause i continue steady work while they're hungover as f-
and on the weekends i be staying home cause it's just as fun

again

hey guys hope u enjoy this new track.
shoutout to @prodjpjp for the production
& shoutout to @heylog for hopping on it 

LYRICS:
All my friends have turned to strangers
Am I really all alone?
Tell me truth and don't be jaded
Where have you been all night long?
I'm all alone
Struggling to get off my phone
Yeah, I think we did this all wrong
And I cannot get over it
I shouldn't feel this way, not at this young age

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I'll never know
But I wish you the best
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

(I'm leaving home)
Uh, so imma leave all my vices
Leave all the memories
Leave all the trauma
You was just my enemy
You're not a friend of me
I see that now it's clear as day
So, it's time to runaway

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I’ll never know
But I wish you the best 
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

What has my life become?
Can't think how I once was
All these years gone by so fast
How come I still look back?
This blonde boy I used to be
Smiled big and was happy
Now everybody's watching
I hate it to be honest
The past few years have felt this way
And oh I've had so much to say
Thinking I'll get over it
There's a lot here to digest
Another person disrespects
I'm keeping guard oh, yet again
Maybe I should unalive
Piss right off and from my life

bones w/ heylog (jpjp)

produced by heylog <3

lyrics:
tell me this aint true
cus im really scared to speak out
lovers all around me
god i feel twice as lonely now
she said, "log feel my pulse
and listen to my heart pound"
but i aint feel nothin dude
nor do i hear a sound
i dont care about anyone for now
except for you
shes back for the third time
to me thats some great news
i could see u every night
ik u wouldnt want to
she ask to go out for a night
im really tryna play it cool
she said logan smile more
but ur the reason i didnt whore
im dancing while the rain pours
im guessing u could call it bored
got acne growing through my pores
i thought it couldnt get any worse
apparently it can
face is full of red sores

she loves whatever she wants
but she only loves herself
whats that smell
ITS SELFISH
its hard to love someone
when they dont love you back
i tried but it left a birth mark like the one on my forehead
she always checking her phone
and never looks up
it never really phased her
she always got luck
she always got what she want
love and all the fun
i tried to be nice
but u took at my trust

i think im reaching the heavens
beretta come here and just end it
i know that ppl will miss me
but right now it dont really mean nothin
i wanna rest with the goddesses
havent found peace in a minute
im in the section of fantasy
while ur still trapped in the fiction
she said, "i love u logan"
but i know ur full of shit
how could u approach this
save my soul or squash it
i was really lost in it
u took the advantage on me it was really sus
but i was dumb n went with it

so tell me this aint true
cus im really scared to speak out
lovers all around me
god i feel twice as lonely now
she said, "log feel my pulse
and listen to my heart pound"
but i aint feel nothin dude
nor do i hear a sound
i dont care about anyone for now
except for you
shes back for the third time
to me thats some great news
i could see u every night
ik u wouldnt want to
she ask to go out for a night
im really tryna play it cool
she said logan smile more
but ur the reason i didnt whore
im dancing while the rain pours
im guessing u could call it bored
got acne growing through my pores
i thought it couldnt get any worse
apparently it can
face is full of red sores

look u got what u want
u feel good about yourself?
whats down there
ITS HELL
because thats where u belong
with ashes and evil
but i could say the same thing about myself
her face beaming off the summer sun
i wont forget a single lil thing
her flaws she aint got even one
the memories created were more important to me

birth

produced by heylog

lyrics:
shut down
when i feel uncomfortable i need to get out
man i'm losing all my hope it's almost gone now
she manipulating me that i should give out
but i'm getting started now
shut down
my internal memory i gotta burn it out
these voices talk to me i'm kinda freakin out
and she on the side telling me that i should give up
but i ain't giving out

hate me
blame me
now it's common
it ain't phase me lately
but idk if ur just pyscho or crazy
there's a difference between them both so baby
so baby
just know that you're dead
i think it was easy to make you upset
but i didn't want u to go
so baby
just spare me
whatever that you do just don't hate me or blame me
but hurt my feelings
just know that you're dead
i'm tired of the fall
she whisper in my head
said 'ur coming with me next'
come to the forest
to meet the best of friends
please don't ask no questions
they like it quiet
i'm shooting my shot
they talk like a lot
i bet a thousand bucks
that he'll never stop
but i'm cracking up
and that's what i want
cus it ain't going no where
i think this is done

shut down
i'm nervous to talk can never get it out
i'm fumbling my words i always stutter now
their tongue is tied firmly wrapped around
whos laughing now

shut down
when i feel uncomfortable i need to get out
man i'm losing all my hope its almost gone now
she manipulating me that i should give out
but i'm getting started now
shut down
my internal memory i gotta burn it out
these voices talk to me i'm kinda freakin out
and she on the side telling me that i should give up
but i ain't giving out

internal memory

heylog

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