produced by the goat: @nevrfall

lyrics:
i'm hiding in my own pain don't think that i won
my beretta's in the closet locked away in a box
with everything you've said got me collecting the dust
and everything we had is something that can't be undone
so put me in this freezer cause i need to reset
i had an asian girl but she left me for college
"things happen for a reason" that's what she always said
so if i die is that a reason why it happened

n the texts you send, question me how i write
but i'm too afraid to say direct in ur eyes
and this feelings dark but with you i had light
n before u left we loved us one last time

so tell me bout u first
u always cease to amaze me
u still worried about her
i think ur just crazy
u know that it hurts
when u don't even trust me
i'm far from a flirt
nobody even wants me
just another face, i'll forget about
just more extra pain and scars to heal out
just get out my way, i don't need u now
no way we could make up, without a doubt

i'm hiding in my own pain don't think that i won
my beretta's in the closet locked away in a box
with everything you've said got me collecting the dust
and everything we had is something that can't be undone
so put me in this freezer cause i need to reset
i had an asian girl but she left me for college
"things happen for a reason" that's what she always said
so if i die is that a reason why it happened

i'll wait 3 more years until college is done
that's if were alone, with nobody to give love
the war is on its way can u hear them run
they're raging and they laugh, when the jobs done

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undone (p. nevrfall)

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
staring at the random number
but my mind is at a blank
lookin at my computer
so i ask, "who is this"
it was my lover
how could i forget?
ur light im thunder
ill hurt u twice again
staring at the late phone call
whoops did i miss that on purpose?
yeah that was intentional
and all this distortion
girl i never wanted this
for u to go off to college
and honestly i hated it
so id never have a chance

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

i tried my best baby but this is never gonna happen
im not the one to show love, shouldve known that was a problem
i picked these flowers for u i know u probably tossed em
now i just be resting from girls n everybody
she dont really love me
she just like to attention
how am i this stupid
omg im gonna lose it
take in all this caffeine
i still have no energy
drinking all this coffee
still got no energy

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

at least i didn't forget

heylog - at least i didn't forget

Thank you for listening <3 
Follow @heylog he is incredible <3 

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Lyrics:
// chorus (geist)
talk to me i want to hear what you'll say
it's over now, we've got it all on display
and i, i'll miss your company 
but it's too late for therapy 
talk to me i want to hear what you'll say
it's over now, we've got it all on display
and i, i'll miss your company 
but it's too late for therapy  

// verse 1 (geist)
talk to me 
i'm steady digging my grave
truth is there's nothing here we could save
bittersweet stares poison the air,
i feel the pressure, they all want me to cave

// verse 2 (heylog)
talk to me i don't know what to say 
consciousness taking over me and my
dad's never believed in therapy but your
sons got no idea what he needs

breaking down again it's like my ninth time today
staying the night at your house from nighttime to day
and driving home has never been so lonely
but it's too late for therapy
going down again it's like somehow i'm good at this
lookin down shaking my head
ignorance is bliss
tell me do u think about us, do u reminisce
baby i'm losing my mind
i'm struggling to exist
where should i begin i'm telling we're not the same
cut off all my hair cause baby i feel ashamed
now i feel the wind running up n down my scalp
took me 7 months to grow below my eyebrows
took me 2 years to finally figure out
how evil u were like darkness under the ground
now i'm steady growing my heart like it's therapy
ring me through the phone i really want u to-

// chorus (geist & heylog)
talk to me i want to hear what you'll say
it's over now, we've got it all on display
and i, i'll miss your company 
but it's too late for therapy 
talk to me i want to hear what you'll say
it's over now, we've got it all on display
and i, i'll miss your company 
but it's too late for therapy

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i'm geist & heylog - therapy (prod. heylog)

'i'm sorry' produced by heylog

lyrics:
every other june is never hot it's just as cold
staying in my house all day my skin could probably mold
closing both my drapes and sit in silence while i scroll
loving u is hard when i don't love me as a whole
mom notices whenever i'm down i point my chin
she ask, "is something wrong?" but everytime i always fib
people my age are married when i feel like a kid
i write all apologies to people on a list
so i'm sorry for mistakes i've made i need to watch my tone
i'm sorry letting people down u didn't have to go
i'm sorry for responding late just tired of my phone
and i'm sorry for never smiling but can't u see i'm broke
i am out of luck when nothing goes the way i want
i wanted ur opinion u didn't have to be so blunt
telling u my secrets but u were so wrong to trust
everything is hitting now not separate, all at once
and it hurts so much
in the dirt eating mud
let me say it really sucks
i'm so close to giving up
and i really hate it here
this pain is severe
i'm so close from disapearing
yet again another year

there's a reason why i hide my face and my identity
people are so curious if i'm young or if i'm 23
searching for the info and my god it just upsets me
please just let it go i have a life and i'm not telling
show me some respect, there's a point that i'm unknown
maybe i dislike my face or maybe i just don't
music is my second life and my first is personal
finding out the truth u come to realize it just hurts to know

i'm sorry for mistakes i've made, i need to watch my tone
i'm always letting people down and everytime they go
i'm sorry i'm on dnd just tired of my phone
and i'm sorry i don't smile, is it clear to u i'm broke
i am out of luck when nothing goes the way i want
i play out all scenarios but they're too go to trust
dodging my own hatred but i always fail to duck
every problems hitting me like a million bombs
and it hurts so much
in the dirt, eating mud
let me say it really sucks
i'm so close to giving up
and i really hate it here
this pain is severe
i'm this close from disappearing
i survive another year

i'm sorry

<//3

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

'shredder' produced by heylog

lyrics:
at night i wanna end it all
in bed as tears begin to fall
water seeps through my pillow
i had to let it out
why won't u let me be
is it revenge you seek
too bad i cared for u
more than u could ever care for me

right now my only focus is on you
but if i die, i promise that i will warn you
but i cannot guarantee if i'll make it or not
so i'll cherish every moment with u
stay here, i gotta go i'll be right back
i head to war when voices causing this impact
but i cannot guarantee i'll make it out alive
so i'll try my best to stay intact
oh we out here alone with no one there by my side
i keep on hearing these screams and hearing people cry
but i don't know if it's real, don't know if it's a sign
i just know that i'm frightened and horrified
say where is log, i don't know where they went
i vanish into thin air and wait until i'm in
love for who i am
and love for within
u took that away now there's a shredder on my skin
if i were you i would hide
cus u don't know what u caused
u put on quite a show
let's give a round of applause
so are u done hurting me
and are u done w my head?
keep using it like a toy
you must forgot i'm human

don't wait for me now, i don't know how long i'll be
i'm too busy in the ground eating dirt u threw at me
oh u had your chance to let me go so i could breathe
now ur the one who's eating dust that i'm collecting on my feet
so how does it feel now that the roles finally swapped
i've been living too long feeling disgust inside this swamp
people love to talk but never wanna say a thing
when i be standing right there, c'mon and say it to my face
don't piss on my back and say it's raining from outside
i don't need no skin & bones for me to conjure every lie
i know i forgave but honestly i change my mind
cus i could not forgive a person who has stabbed me many times
say where is log, i don't know where i have been
i just stay as far as possible and locking every hinge
love for who i am and love for what i hold within
thanks for ruining what i had, this is where i shred my skin

you hurt..
you hurt
you hurt..
you hurt oh

don't look at me now, i feel so guilty in my chest
reflecting off the mirror is just a boy bout to collapse
i said i wanted peace, instead i got a giant war
and now i feel it slipping through as if this chapters gonna end
better start the next one bringing in new characters
maybe they'll respect me and everything will register
cus i don't need nobody who just screws behind my back
so tell me was it worth it throwing everything we had

shredder

produced by hiraeth and heylog <3

You’ve got nothing to say to me
I’m drowning in the ocean
Always complain to me
I’m dealing with my own shit
Filling my vacancy
(Just breathe)
If I died tomorow I bet nobody’d even notice

harder to breathe
when ur around I’m losing focus
Trying to speak, the words can’t seem to leave my vocal
Getting likes on ig
cause ur half naked in the photos
I’m dying to sleep, if I wake up im meeting god bro

Stay closer to me
I swear that nobody can touch you
if they tried
I’d grit my teeth and fight them all for you
I’m tryna hide, stop tryna reason what I been thru
It’s not my time, I’d kill anyone laying next to you

never should've went for u
and i ain't know your friend exists
if that was the case i would restart and go for her instead
what a shame
u let your life to pieces
who's to blame
(you)
you're the only reason i can't focus
got me losing sleep
and shit oh how i own it
tell that b-
she can drink bleach
you let it out there in the open
u show yourself no respect
and i wonder if u know this

i'm tired of preaching cus babe it really-
babe it hurts from underneath
all the wasted memories
don't go down, get off your knees
it's not the time for any pleasing

bleach ft. heylog

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater and leftquiet

lyrics:
ive been to heaven hell and she wanted it
she wanna ham my neck till im on it
switching positions i feel like im in night time
i don't feel the sun no more i dont like sunshine
quicker my heart declines
more that i find myself
shut my windows and blinds
more that i hate myself
i dislike everything
but dislike you the most
my lifes full of sin
cos i dont know where to go

stood outside im seeing flies
im outside you know my time
wait for this im on a climb
fuck my psyche its pain until i die
gaining more likes am i doing something right
its gone up in spikes have i gone up in my life
maybe you should listen to me once in a while
surely you would be different if you werent in denial
EVERY THOUGHT SHES EVER HAD STARTS TO FUCKING PILE
OH I WISH I NEVER HAD SHES FUCKING VILE
depression getting really bad you can crack a smile
you can barely leave your bed stop acting like a child
how did you get rid of your sweat did you run it off
do something w ur life and make it worthwile

heylog:
she's so psychotic, i knew when i saw
speaking so toxic ur just like ur mom
everything i do she gets really pissed
so why does it feel like it's always my fault
god ur chaotic, quit starting a fight
i ain't one to argue, it's a waste of time
she purposely trying to spark up a flame
and now all of this is getting out of line
oh baby
ur so cold
ur making this easy
give more
oh baby
we're off course
she said she want more she said she want more
innocence
don't exist
she'll find ways to get your head
she's offended again
exaggerate things i say
oh my dear
you're in fear
block it out with a few beers
everyone she's ever cursed is in a pile
everyone she's ever hurt calls her vile
and everyone she's done the worst gets away
am i the only one who's learned from her pain
now the whole place burnt down
and i can see it in her eyes she's happy
i hope you know u look like a clown
cus only you would act a little trashy

𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘺 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨

pile w/heylog

original song 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2MI1WHc6RI
u make me look stupid

lyrics:
i think were fallin outta love
i dont know who i could trust
i said i got issues
i swear to god this aint my luck
i fail at being honest
this was never my intention
im always lying to my parents
i dont know how i keep doing this

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

i hate how u always look at me
but it was nothing new to me
im too distracted by ur eyes
while u continue to keep breaking me
i think that we were fiction
u kept me suffocated
i know u never listened
im crying while im twitchin
your 'tude needs some fixin
thats not even a question
u got me second guessin
now im overthinkin

i tried to make u laugh
i tried to make it right
i tried to get a smile
but instead i make u cry
we'll feel nothing like the start
u just slipped out from my arms
i could never let u go
when i still have ur heart

i know i did u wrong i guess thats what i deserve
i hate to see u gone and the thought just makes it worse
u made it in another song i doubt youll even care
i know that this dont matter so i doubt youll even hear
i know i did u wrong and i know i killed us off
i know its all my fault but i made u another song
i doubt youll even care and i doubt youll even hear
i cut off all my hair just so u could stop and stare

i dont know how i keep doing this
u pretend ur clueless
i try to make u laugh
but baby u make me look stupid
i failed you at being honest
im surprised u didnt notice
atleast i tried to make u smile
but instead i just looked stupid

heylog - u make me look stupid

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i don't have anything
to offer while he sell himself
imma tie him down with rope
and somebody duct tape his mouth
god u must be tweaking
you've done nothing to deserve a crown
deep down he struggles envy
he blocks it with the words he shouts

no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it
no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it

now i'm growing
let the pistol talk
guarantee it'll make him frozen
i think i'm convincing myself i'm going mental
you may have me if you promise to be gentle
my heart may be dark but i promise you it's fragile
yeah i promise you it's fragile
she was saying she relates
but i don't think you do though
no i don't think you do bro
caught them both off guard
yeah i'm lurking in the shadows
finna put him on a gallow
i just opened up to her
sentimental
basic literature
uneventful
now people think they're gods writing poems
just because u take notes
don't make you a poet
if u ever need help
you know i got your back
cause i been through hell
don't want u to go through that
don't know how u felt
good or were u trashed
continue wasting herself
a girl who is down bad

no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
its contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it
no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it

you were all i got
so sad you had to leave
i still have your stuff
but i keep it out of reach
baby it was tough
i gave u everything
don't know if it was wrong
but i don't regret a thing
i don't wanna know
how you been lately
cause i already know
you gotta new baby
didn't want u to go
sacrifice for your dreams
lost contact on my phone
u wont hear from me

(so sad u had to leave)
(i keep it out of reach)
(gave u everything)
(i don't regret a thing)
(how u been lately)
(gotta new baby)
(sacrifice for your dreams)
(u wont hear from me)

out of reach

produced by heylog

lyrics:
rock bottom to the ocean floor
she ask what are u hurting for
u think we're in a simulation
she hasn't felt this fake before
so he cover up his eyes
to shelter from the wicked whores
but he's surrounded with her lies
they're knockin breakin down his door

would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me
no lie
would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me
no lie

everyday when waking up
i swear i'm losing confidence
i been to places seeing things
you'd never imagine
i'm just focused on my life
cut anyone who crosses it
cus any girl or any son
will take upon a deathwish
would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me

i'm tip-toeing metaphors
she ask what are u searching for
i'm looking for the nearest spot
to finally break through my corpse
i'm cleansed my body sanctified
but soon i'll just cry for some more
i screwed up now she's gone
i don't know what i was waiting for
i got dirt in my hands
and cotton in my pants
i look her in the eyes
tell her u don't want romance
cause i'll break ur heart
before u get the chance
does that sound like a plan
i'll warn u in advance

would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me
no lie
would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me