'me' produced by heylog

lyrics:
you see
i'm always down
down bad and
turn around
walking backwards
hit the ground
lookin up pushing me down
my biggest enemy
is
me
but how can
this
be
look i
step in a party
wonder why
am i here 
and check the time
check the weather 
and do it twice
then i realize my biggest enemy
is
me
but how can
this
be?

if u know me well enough then u know i got flaws
u gotta get going, when u leave i shut off
argue with me all the time i'm just overthinking
grab the brain and took the mind connecting all the pieces oh
the enemy
here is me
this whole time..
i been
in front of me

can't get me to stop
my shoes giving me blisters
it's difficult to crop u out the picture
but i gotta do it one of these days or later
baby i'm a nuisance
my hearts covered in layers oh
the enemy
here is me
this whole time
i been..
in front of me
look here i go through it
this not a joke i'm so pissed
wake up and mope, slouching
always no hope
(but don't quit)
hate on myself
that's my loss
i don't need help
i'm so done
one two three four
i'm it
but i give up
you win
take me out the frame i don't do this
swear like every single day i'm always losing
can't tear me apart already ruined
but i don't know why u lie what are u doing
already knew it
hating myself twice now i don't even cry no more
underneath my eyes, rapidly bounce back and forth
seeing through your lies
now i don't get phased
but thank god, now i realize
that the enemy is me

spotify

https://open.spotify.com/album/2erLjZg3vJPYobdmKrexhW?si=Iu-yZ4N-Qc-Ec5v5DKoxrg

(casperrr)
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a solution to u 
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a replacement to u 
tell me who did u lose

(heylog)
she just burn right thru the past
like we were never a thing
baby how could u do that
and throw me against the wave
i just need someone to talk to
and have a soul to stay
i wonder if ppl are leaving me
and parting their own ways
morning always passes by
when i see u it's never right
right right right
when i see you it's always night
our insides exchange heat
when ur body lies w me
i don't want u to leave now
how bout we both just shut down

(casperrr + heylog)
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a solution to u 
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a replacement to u 
tell me who did u lose

casperrr x heylog - when ur body lies next to mine (nevrfrvr)

produced by hiraeth and heylog <3

You’ve got nothing to say to me
I’m drowning in the ocean
Always complain to me
I’m dealing with my own shit
Filling my vacancy
(Just breathe)
If I died tomorow I bet nobody’d even notice

harder to breathe
when ur around I’m losing focus
Trying to speak, the words can’t seem to leave my vocal
Getting likes on ig
cause ur half naked in the photos
I’m dying to sleep, if I wake up im meeting god bro

Stay closer to me
I swear that nobody can touch you
if they tried
I’d grit my teeth and fight them all for you
I’m tryna hide, stop tryna reason what I been thru
It’s not my time, I’d kill anyone laying next to you

never should've went for u
and i ain't know your friend exists
if that was the case i would restart and go for her instead
what a shame
u let your life to pieces
who's to blame
(you)
you're the only reason i can't focus
got me losing sleep
and shit oh how i own it
tell that b-
she can drink bleach
you let it out there in the open
u show yourself no respect
and i wonder if u know this

i'm tired of preaching cus babe it really-
babe it hurts from underneath
all the wasted memories
don't go down, get off your knees
it's not the time for any pleasing

bleach ft. heylog

produced by: @tnvr555
vocals and lyrics by: me and @heylog

lyrics:
just a sec, i needa bit to catch my breath
i try to hold onto what's left
but it seems that you're leaving again
and i saw your face
you're laughing at the back of the room
you're with someone and i can assume that
you have moved on, so soon
(you have moved on, so soon)

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think i've fallen in too deep

summer's coming round the corner, i can't wait to be warm
the uv's high so we lay some blankets out on the porch
and do you remember what you said to me
our past is something hard to believe
don't go
cause i don't want anybody else
oh no
i really don't want anybody now
i'm edging toward the ground
but that's what happens all the time as soon as life goes on
to you i'm not important
and i hope i'm wrong
without you it's harder to breathe
cause you're not laying next to me

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
(not laying next to me)
and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think I've fallen in too deep

hope every1 has a good day/night xx

jealousy w/ heylog (tnvr)

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

i run away out of fear and out of panic
i dissipate everybody who cause damage
i love it here
i think i can manage
i disappear into trees and into foliage
i walk a path, clear my head for my advantage
no one knows i'm here
no one knows i vanish

walking through mud, all the mire's climbing up my pants
water soaking through my jeans, why is it all swampy land
i'm so getting sick of this, take me to the flower field
i need to lay down and rest
sleeping would be ideal

love

vanish

SPOTIFY

heylog - vanish

hey guys hope u enjoy this new track.
shoutout to @prodjpjp for the production
& shoutout to @heylog for hopping on it 

LYRICS:
All my friends have turned to strangers
Am I really all alone?
Tell me truth and don't be jaded
Where have you been all night long?
I'm all alone
Struggling to get off my phone
Yeah, I think we did this all wrong
And I cannot get over it
I shouldn't feel this way, not at this young age

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I'll never know
But I wish you the best
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

(I'm leaving home)
Uh, so imma leave all my vices
Leave all the memories
Leave all the trauma
You was just my enemy
You're not a friend of me
I see that now it's clear as day
So, it's time to runaway

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I’ll never know
But I wish you the best 
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

What has my life become?
Can't think how I once was
All these years gone by so fast
How come I still look back?
This blonde boy I used to be
Smiled big and was happy
Now everybody's watching
I hate it to be honest
The past few years have felt this way
And oh I've had so much to say
Thinking I'll get over it
There's a lot here to digest
Another person disrespects
I'm keeping guard oh, yet again
Maybe I should unalive
Piss right off and from my life

bones w/ heylog (jpjp)

Prod @heylog

I’m dreaming in rem
Wake up I’m still asleep
This nightmare is horrible
Following me
Cause I try my hardest 
All for me to think
That you’re getting bored of me
Hate when I leave 
Eyes laying heavy 
Got no sleep last night
Cause im day dreaming about me by your side 
I know that’s it’s horrible 
I wouldn’t lie
You’re all that I’ve really got in my life

So ashamed of me
Feel my body limp
I was sat wondering
What I’ve ruined again
If part of me listens 
The other half’s dead
I was waiting in the corner 
I was rotting in my bed

I see waves come in
I see oceans rise 
You were there for it
Fractions of my life
I wouldn’t spend this 8th with anybody else
Know I saw through it
Puppet on a screen 

I’m dreaming in rem
Wake up I’m still asleep
This nightmare is horrible
Following me
Cause I try my hardest 
All for me to think
That you’re getting bored of me
Hate when I leave 
Eyes laying heavy 
Got no sleep last night
Cause im day dreaming about me by your side 
I know that’s it’s horrible 
I wouldn’t lie
You’re all that I’ve really got in my life

limp

this song was produced/mixed/mastered by heylog

lyrics:
im popping all my cells
where are u now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay on here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that ive always feared

ur easy to fall in love
i honestly cant get enough
get enough
but hey
youve pulled me away
from the bullshit and pain
i hope that i could do the same
i never been on this page
but tell
tell me this is true
i cant stand being lied to
but you
you wont admit
all the things you did

someone put me in my place
im tired of my mistakes
are u sure wanna love me
baby its too late
i just wanna lay with u
fall back in my dirty shoes
no one even has a clue
i like u cause u think im cool

ur skin and bones feelin mine
thrift shirt reflect off the light
clear frames with big pretty eyes
pretty eyes
but wait
will i see u today?
i already miss ur face
can u call me by my name
i cant go another day
but i
i was in need for your love
i guess i asked for way too much
but you
you wont do shit
you stole what i gave

shelter

produced by heylog

lyrics:
karma is a bitch and now im upset
put me in a freezer gotta reset
i dont like this time that im living in
pull me out when i say ill never be giving in
karma is a twat and now im tweakin
she in love but i dont even feel it
pull me out my grave i dont care that ur here bitch
im on the road to healing i dont need you to hurt it

now i ghosted, wait thats normal for me
i change the setting cause its gobbling me
i turn off my notifs, no ones bothering me
i muted his feed, shits so annoying
she keep an eye on me like im up to something
but im not girl its still the same old me
i got my body on the floor i promise im not crying
im like waterpark tears just keep on running
theres this bitch called karma u familar with her?
shes like a greenhouse gas chemicals in the earth
dont know why she picks on me she said its what i deserve
i eat my body weight in almond butter n chocolate dessert
𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘵
oh girl i could come and kill u nice and easy
but i dont wanna waste my time on dumb history
used to look back and cry but now I'm laughing
im a monster with my words i can never help it

please quit reaching out what part of you think its okay?
i only need myself and love so aint that what you said
ik ur prolly back is it the time that u meet death
oh my god whats gotten into me this shits spinning my head
she dont fit in the aesthetic more like in the piece of shit
karma will come for me if i keep talking all this shit
cause right now i promise you that i dont give a shit
but in the future i know that ill be like, oh shit..

karma is a bitch and now im upset
put me in a freezer gotta reset
i dont like this time that im living in
pull me out when i say ill never be giving in
karma is a twat and now im tweakin
she in love but i dont even feel it
pull me out my grave i dont care that ur here bitch
im on the road to healing i dont need you to hurt it

i couldnt provide ur shelter
i dont think u remember
how was ur first lover?
but hey its whatever

oh baby i could come and kill u nice and easy
but thatd be a lil rude and kinda petty
i boss for a bit then target defense
shes like a garden full roses and a barbed wire fence
id never see it coming she keep it a secret
personality is 2 kinda like a catfish
ur the last person id choose to be my friend
i know im not the only one that thinks ur a bitch

hey, it's whatever

produced by heylog

lyrics:
its nice to see your face 
how u been today
oh she said im great
oh shes goin great
yeah im good i guess
but i lied abt that
im losing all my friends
im losing what i have

i love u mom and dad
youre the only ones here left
oh mom and dad
u are all i have
ive lost all my friends
im ready for whats next
dont u see im a mess
idk who i am

recently i been so alone
even when im out of my home
dead end dont know where to go
ill jump im getting pretty close
so close
so close
i havent seen u in awhile
and im teaching me how to smile
whats new with u got a guy
time to leave and say my goodbyes

i love u mom and dad
youre the only ones here left
oh mom and dad
u are all i have
ive lost all my friends
im ready for whats next
dont u see mom and dad
idk who i am

and all the things that u said to me
i thought u really meant it
but i guess u were bluffing

mom & dad

produced by heylog

lyrics:
rock bottom to the ocean floor
she ask what are u hurting for
u think we're in a simulation
she hasn't felt this fake before
so he cover up his eyes
to shelter from the wicked whores
but he's surrounded with her lies
they're knockin breakin down his door

would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me
no lie
would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me
no lie

everyday when waking up
i swear i'm losing confidence
i been to places seeing things
you'd never imagine
i'm just focused on my life
cut anyone who crosses it
cus any girl or any son
will take upon a deathwish
would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me

i'm tip-toeing metaphors
she ask what are u searching for
i'm looking for the nearest spot
to finally break through my corpse
i'm cleansed my body sanctified
but soon i'll just cry for some more
i screwed up now she's gone
i don't know what i was waiting for
i got dirt in my hands
and cotton in my pants
i look her in the eyes
tell her u don't want romance
cause i'll break ur heart
before u get the chance
does that sound like a plan
i'll warn u in advance

would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me
no lie
would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me