https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
staring at the random number
but my mind is at a blank
lookin at my computer
so i ask, "who is this"
it was my lover
how could i forget?
ur light im thunder
ill hurt u twice again
staring at the late phone call
whoops did i miss that on purpose?
yeah that was intentional
and all this distortion
girl i never wanted this
for u to go off to college
and honestly i hated it
so id never have a chance

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

i tried my best baby but this is never gonna happen
im not the one to show love, shouldve known that was a problem
i picked these flowers for u i know u probably tossed em
now i just be resting from girls n everybody
she dont really love me
she just like to attention
how am i this stupid
omg im gonna lose it
take in all this caffeine
i still have no energy
drinking all this coffee
still got no energy

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

at least i didn't forget

heylog - at least i didn't forget

by https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
for me
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
for me
where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
but u can't even tell

where do i go from here
i'll kick it with my tears
i don't recognize a thing
the water made them sting
where should i even go
i've never felt this alone
should i take my life
cause god it's on my mind

where do i even start
ur making this pretty hard
i cannot die alone
it sucks u had to go
where do i begin
ur making it hard to live
now i'm by myself
well too bad u can't tell

veins

live

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heylog - live

produced by xona
piano by oc

cover by xona and heylog

@heylog
@sleepywater
@prod-oc

-lyrics-
yeah
want me back, want me back?
yeah, yeah

want me ‘back’ back?
i think you got wrong man
yeah
you need a 'hand’ hand?
i threw myself into the past
for you
so what you on with me?
we ain’t close so you can’t bother me
7k to reach so I don’t care if you needed me

~

i just wanted to say
that i hope you're doing okay
her skin is why i'm alive
i hope to feel it someday
getting on top of me
and giving the look, i see
her soul makes me resume life
and build up my legacy
her mind is taking a beating
so far it hasn't been easy
i could just tell from your arm
baby should i be alarmed
should i be scared when i hear about your past
i slowly wear, it's just hard to..
grasp

stop again
ill stop and glare
who am i now i don’t know him there
way i feel when im flowing w her
if i get on w u hold my hair
shut the fuck up ur someone i avoid
it wasnt worth it cos now im destroyed

want me ‘back’ back?
i think you got wrong man
yeah
you need a 'hand’ hand?
i threw myself into the past
for you
so what you on with me?
we ain’t close so you can’t bother me
7k to reach so I don’t care if you needed me

lend

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lend w/ heylog & sleepwater

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

traitor w/heylog

traitor w/ heylog (Now on Spotify)

hey guys hope u enjoy this new track.
shoutout to @prodjpjp for the production
& shoutout to @heylog for hopping on it 

LYRICS:
All my friends have turned to strangers
Am I really all alone?
Tell me truth and don't be jaded
Where have you been all night long?
I'm all alone
Struggling to get off my phone
Yeah, I think we did this all wrong
And I cannot get over it
I shouldn't feel this way, not at this young age

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I'll never know
But I wish you the best
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

(I'm leaving home)
Uh, so imma leave all my vices
Leave all the memories
Leave all the trauma
You was just my enemy
You're not a friend of me
I see that now it's clear as day
So, it's time to runaway

So I run, I swear
It's all I've got left in my shitty bones
And you love to leave
Whenever I need you here with me most
Is it all in my head?
All alone to the end?
I guess I’ll never know
But I wish you the best 
For whatever comes next
'Cause now I'm leaving home

What has my life become?
Can't think how I once was
All these years gone by so fast
How come I still look back?
This blonde boy I used to be
Smiled big and was happy
Now everybody's watching
I hate it to be honest
The past few years have felt this way
And oh I've had so much to say
Thinking I'll get over it
There's a lot here to digest
Another person disrespects
I'm keeping guard oh, yet again
Maybe I should unalive
Piss right off and from my life

bones w/ heylog (jpjp)

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

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BRUISE w/ hiraeth & heylog

MILAN

produced by heylog

lyrics:
look i dont know man
how can i explain this
and not hurt your feelings
cause i care about that
okay ill b honest
ur kinda selfish
i take that back actually
youre very very selfish
wait, where are we going
love where are u taking me
buried in the forest
no sign of vacancy
u hear the thunder roaring
wind breaking through the trees
she said im not important
as the ground collapse beneath my feet

now she aint want nothing to do with me
i got tears comin above my knees
if ur here for an apology
i have changed dont expect a sorry
her pretty words are latching on to me
i cut em off avoiding history
this dairy got my stomach acidy
she my lactose stay away from me

this is my best babe
give u the best
charge me up like a tesla
baby i cannot fix u
she camera me post the picture
she ask "why dont u post me?"
cus our love will fall shortly
i dont wanna share u on my feed
cause i wont have to delete anything
wait where are we going
can u feel my heart breaking
she catching up w my life now
she callin me gotta watch out
its gettin a bit toasty
my face hurts popping acne
she burrowed in breakouts
still look pretty with or without

now she aint want nothing to do with me
i got tears comin above my knees
if ur here for an apology
i have changed dont expect a sorry
her pretty words are latching on to me
i cut em off avoiding history
this dairy got my stomach acidy
she my lactose stay away from me

collapse

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i don't have anything
to offer while he sell himself
imma tie him down with rope
and somebody duct tape his mouth
god u must be tweaking
you've done nothing to deserve a crown
deep down he struggles envy
he blocks it with the words he shouts

no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it
no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it

now i'm growing
let the pistol talk
guarantee it'll make him frozen
i think i'm convincing myself i'm going mental
you may have me if you promise to be gentle
my heart may be dark but i promise you it's fragile
yeah i promise you it's fragile
she was saying she relates
but i don't think you do though
no i don't think you do bro
caught them both off guard
yeah i'm lurking in the shadows
finna put him on a gallow
i just opened up to her
sentimental
basic literature
uneventful
now people think they're gods writing poems
just because u take notes
don't make you a poet
if u ever need help
you know i got your back
cause i been through hell
don't want u to go through that
don't know how u felt
good or were u trashed
continue wasting herself
a girl who is down bad

no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
its contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it
no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it

you were all i got
so sad you had to leave
i still have your stuff
but i keep it out of reach
baby it was tough
i gave u everything
don't know if it was wrong
but i don't regret a thing
i don't wanna know
how you been lately
cause i already know
you gotta new baby
didn't want u to go
sacrifice for your dreams
lost contact on my phone
u wont hear from me

(so sad u had to leave)
(i keep it out of reach)
(gave u everything)
(i don't regret a thing)
(how u been lately)
(gotta new baby)
(sacrifice for your dreams)
(u wont hear from me)

out of reach

produced by heylog

lyrics:
rock bottom to the ocean floor
she ask what are u hurting for
u think we're in a simulation
she hasn't felt this fake before
so he cover up his eyes
to shelter from the wicked whores
but he's surrounded with her lies
they're knockin breakin down his door

would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me
no lie
would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me
no lie

everyday when waking up
i swear i'm losing confidence
i been to places seeing things
you'd never imagine
i'm just focused on my life
cut anyone who crosses it
cus any girl or any son
will take upon a deathwish
would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me

i'm tip-toeing metaphors
she ask what are u searching for
i'm looking for the nearest spot
to finally break through my corpse
i'm cleansed my body sanctified
but soon i'll just cry for some more
i screwed up now she's gone
i don't know what i was waiting for
i got dirt in my hands
and cotton in my pants
i look her in the eyes
tell her u don't want romance
cause i'll break ur heart
before u get the chance
does that sound like a plan
i'll warn u in advance

would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me
no lie
would u
say you're proud of me cus i'm
very proud of you
no time
no
to show jealousy
not right
u got the best of me

simulation

produced by heylog

lyrics:
oh now you notice
me when I'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth
oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth

she ask me "what'd u say?"
i'm just talking to myself
i may sound evil
but u gotta get to know me first
i promise i'm nice
but that could quickly take a turn
caught me by surprise
this is not even my worst
she claims that she's gay
wait
but why are u kissing me
don't tease with my brain
cause it's buzzing like a bumblebee
burn out the flame
hoping i get third degree
call me by your name
when ur famous overseas

oh now u like me
since i've changed
so ur saying i wasn't good enough before
what a shame
don't let out the beast
that would be a big mistake
drool drops from his teeth
and his canines concave
u want him released
i believe you've met your fate
she spill all the tea
now the problems piling up with pace
show no mercy
if this water hit me like a wave
begging no please
i'm finally awake

oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth
oh now you notice
me when i'm thriving
i'm a bipolar kid
i'm happy, then i'm crying
don't tell me u love me
cus i know you're lying
what's going on what's happening to me
i'm foaming out between my teeth

don't tell me u love me
ik ur lying
lips bittersweet
hint of violet
don't tell me u love me
id rather die
skin like candy
i cant decide