This one always makes me wanna cry I love this one

AND YOURE A THOUSAND MILES AWAY I BET TONIGHT U LOOK SO GOOD

prod xona <3

@heylog

-lyrics-
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live, I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held
but I’ve tried 2much,  2much right now..
but I can lie and that’s alright (:
but all my friends
push me on edge
and they do not sense
on why I feel dead..
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live!
I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held

oh i might cry :,(
when this blade touches my skin
i don't need remorse
for all the sins that i commit
i don't need a friend
to tell me what i'm doing wrong
you think i don't know this
i could tell you the exact same thing
you better watch your back
i see the folks you call your friends will try hurt you
don't be surprised when it happens
cause i was surprised when it happened 
hating on myself
makes the 2 of us
no i don't need help
or any pill
the story of my life
i gotta chill
feel like pennywise
giving me a thrill

spotify

care w/ heylog♡

produced by heylog

lyrics:
the birds all sing a beautiful song
light beams through this is where i belong
peaceful people who fear to talk
they mimic them and love to mock
women from different countries
i feel pressured there's people watching me
pull u in with the sound of harmonies
they say this kid's gifted with prodigy

occupied i'm tired of people
that look in ur eye tells me u are deceitful
you live knowing this time your whole act has been a lie
you walk by the garden and every flower dies

THE BIRDS ALL SING A BEAUTIFUL SONG
LIGHT BEAMS DOWN THIS IS WHERE I BELONG
PEACEFUL PEOPLE WHO FEAR TO TALK
THEY MIMIC THEM AND LOVE TO MOCK
WOMEN FROM DIFFERENT COUNTRIES
I FEEL PRESSURED THERE'S PEOPLE WATCHING ME
PULL YOU IN WITH THE SOUND OF HARMONIES
THEY SAY THIS KID'S GIFTED WITH PRODIGY

yeah u better run from me i said
i'm used to this and being lonely
conversations don't extend when i'm
short on words i guess i don't feel like talking
spare my life it's just begun
i'm still tryna get us back but i know we're done
growing old too fast i'm too slow to outrun
problems chasing me but i know that they won

this is where i belong

produced by heylog

lyrics:
pacing around the floor making circles that could go miles
tears are running down my face they're stacking up in piles
threw us in recycle, unrecognizable files
all our data's lost, babe it's been a while
cause we
don't need
us
remember when we met i was too scared to even look at u
these knots that are in my stomach ain't normal they're all bc of u
and i can't help but stutter the first time i ever talked to you
and i knew u were special, really thought we'd have a future
but we
don't need
us

i stg
this can't be real
2 years gone
nothing to feel
it went so fast
thought it would last
but i was too, arrogant with that

staying the night at your home
feels good waking up, knowing ur close
don't know why or how i go
with you, was never alone
i'm poppin all my cells
where are you now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay right here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that i've always feared
that i fear

CAPABLE OF LOSING EVERYTHING
I GOT NO FRIENDS
ONLY PEOPLE THROUGH A PHONE SCREEN
I'M ALONE LESS
WHEN YOU CALLED I WAS HOPING
YOU WERE COMING HOME
1 YEAR DONE NOW 3
LEFT TO GO
POURING OUT MY HEART TO RANDOM EYES
BET THEY KNOW ME
BETTER THAN YOU EVER DID
COME AND SHOW ME
SHE'S TOO BUSY THROWING UP
ALL THE ALCOHOL
WHILE I'M SITTING IN MY LIVING ROOM
CUDDLING WITH MY DOG
bored out of my mind, riff guitar i love to escape
cut off everyone, i keep swimming in my mistakes
staring at the ceiling
bet it has more feelings
than i ever will i come to realize i'm deceiving

@heylog
produced by @herskylin

(vil)
i stay in the moment i’m lost in
time fractures and i’m exhausted
serpent biting all on the cartridge
perfecting everything in my way
and it sucks to suck
in your world
i mean nothing to you, you say it sucks to be you
(cut me loose)

cut me loose from the ties i’m
holding on despite the
ruckus you’ve caused
i should abandon you but what would that fix
…nothing at all
this confrontation is just breaking us apart
i cant even find the start
and so i

break down (x4)
can’t find a way, need an escape
i’m left for dead blood spewin out
my pores are closing
i’m decomposing
show me what it’s like to be controlling

(heylog)
my life's so concerning
wait too long i need to hurry
my stomach's churning
decide if i need to worry
what am i here for
what is my goal
oh my god i'm so worn from climbing out this hole
abuse my body oh it's hurting
i'm so lost think that i'm worthless
pretty sure i don't have a purpose
make mistakes constantly learning
what not to do next time
too lazy to reply
but i don't even try
desert phone, it's so dry

(vil)
i’m bleeding out from my wrist
and i’m choked up, let me say my final wish
you act like what we had never existed
so i’m blaming you until death

serpent +heylog (skylin ✧)

Stream on Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/5o3zeb6JhEP7x2jGYZj7oa

Artists:
@prod-oc
@heylog

Lyrics:
did i want this, no not at all
does it concern you we still talk
i tried my best but it didnt work out
im tryna see you, dont know if ur taken now
i wanna get what was lost
i just want that for us
and tell you i love you

you lied to me
now the text box is green
so now is it tense
we went through this once
cant do it again
but thats what you get
i dont love me
so how can i love you
when i stand
to look at myself
no im not a fan
i wish i was dead

baby im not the same person i used to be
and when you left, did it have something to do w me
running around with you like it was yesterday
and if i saw you i wouldnt know what to say

you lied to me
now the text box is green
i dont love me
so how can i love you
so how can i love you

oc & heylog - love//heartbreak

https://open.spotify.com/album/2erLjZg3vJPYobdmKrexhW?si=Iu-yZ4N-Qc-Ec5v5DKoxrg

prod. @deademane

(heylog)
between the glass
is filled with poison
i feel like trash
apply the ointment
just stay back
he needs some time alone
cus through the cracks
is the widows home
don't come inside here
i would bounce
we're not alive here
don't stick around
when ur minds clear
come in the house
cus i'm not safe here
so get me out

don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

(casperrr)
oh she
she is lying thru her teeth
i swear that she wants to kill me
lay with my lifeless body
while staring at the ceiling
her actions are deceiving
she cuts herself she's bleeding
the blood is running and she really
fucking loves to see it

welcome to the widows home
there's cracks and holes in every wall
the emptyness fills all those holes
this place really tourments my soul
but you can't leave neither can i
i'll go into a room and cry
i'll try to just make up my mind
cut my hair lock myself inside

there's nowhere to go to now
there's no1 to save you now

(heylog + casperrr)
don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

casperrr x heylog - there's nothing left here (deademane)

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater and leftquiet

lyrics:
ive been to heaven hell and she wanted it
she wanna ham my neck till im on it
switching positions i feel like im in night time
i don't feel the sun no more i dont like sunshine
quicker my heart declines
more that i find myself
shut my windows and blinds
more that i hate myself
i dislike everything
but dislike you the most
my lifes full of sin
cos i dont know where to go

stood outside im seeing flies
im outside you know my time
wait for this im on a climb
fuck my psyche its pain until i die
gaining more likes am i doing something right
its gone up in spikes have i gone up in my life
maybe you should listen to me once in a while
surely you would be different if you werent in denial
EVERY THOUGHT SHES EVER HAD STARTS TO FUCKING PILE
OH I WISH I NEVER HAD SHES FUCKING VILE
depression getting really bad you can crack a smile
you can barely leave your bed stop acting like a child
how did you get rid of your sweat did you run it off
do something w ur life and make it worthwile

heylog:
she's so psychotic, i knew when i saw
speaking so toxic ur just like ur mom
everything i do she gets really pissed
so why does it feel like it's always my fault
god ur chaotic, quit starting a fight
i ain't one to argue, it's a waste of time
she purposely trying to spark up a flame
and now all of this is getting out of line
oh baby
ur so cold
ur making this easy
give more
oh baby
we're off course
she said she want more she said she want more
innocence
don't exist
she'll find ways to get your head
she's offended again
exaggerate things i say
oh my dear
you're in fear
block it out with a few beers
everyone she's ever cursed is in a pile
everyone she's ever hurt calls her vile
and everyone she's done the worst gets away
am i the only one who's learned from her pain
now the whole place burnt down
and i can see it in her eyes she's happy
i hope you know u look like a clown
cus only you would act a little trashy

𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘺 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨

pile w/heylog

heylog - if this was the last time

The shadows

guitar sampled from ichika nito
everything else was produced/mixed/mastered by heylog

lyrics:
often this summer we fight and start over
u were the best but this bye aint forever
ill make space for your tears on my shoulders
cause ill still be here when ur ready to come home

i want u to stay for a while
i cant go to bed havent slept in a while
took u back home from the windmills
cant see us with anyone else
weve tried but its so hard
im just another kid reaching for your arms
like i said, "cant we try again"
i promise ill make it up i dont want this to end

often this summer we fight and start over
u were the best but this bye aint forever
ill make space for your tears on my shoulders
cause ill still be here when ur ready to come home

come home

this track was produced by @nevrfall

lyrics:
i dont think this is my time
place my feet i feel alright
missing all your face again
15 pounds help sleep at night

life ur body, dont feel ashamed
i still feel u miles away
i still feel lonely when im with you
all these people around and i miss you
i dont think this feelings right
caught your stare as we locking eyes
i dont know who these people are
bandages gotta hide my scars

𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶?
𝘰𝘩. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸...
𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨

I BARELY KNOW WHO THESE PEOPLE ARE
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO THESE WOMEN ARE
I BARELY KNOW WHO THIS BITCH IS
BABY JUST HOLD ME ITS GETTING DARK
WHERE I AM 2 HOURS DIFFERENCE
NOW WERE APART EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT
NOW WERE AFAR EVERYTHING FEELS DISTANT
IN 4 YEARS
will we still be kissing?

i dont think this is my time
place my feet i feel alright
missing all your face again
15 pounds help sleep at night

miles away (p. nevrfall)

this song was produced/mixed/mastered by heylog

lyrics:
im popping all my cells
where are u now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay on here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that ive always feared

ur easy to fall in love
i honestly cant get enough
get enough
but hey
youve pulled me away
from the bullshit and pain
i hope that i could do the same
i never been on this page
but tell
tell me this is true
i cant stand being lied to
but you
you wont admit
all the things you did

someone put me in my place
im tired of my mistakes
are u sure wanna love me
baby its too late
i just wanna lay with u
fall back in my dirty shoes
no one even has a clue
i like u cause u think im cool

ur skin and bones feelin mine
thrift shirt reflect off the light
clear frames with big pretty eyes
pretty eyes
but wait
will i see u today?
i already miss ur face
can u call me by my name
i cant go another day
but i
i was in need for your love
i guess i asked for way too much
but you
you wont do shit
you stole what i gave

shelter

the beat was produced by @lindenpearce @nevrfall

lyrics:
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘴 𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘢𝘺, 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦, 𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘯, 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘥𝘰 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘶
𝘥𝘰 𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯? 𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘪 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘶

light blonde hair hangs over your eyes
i dont wanna waste all ur time
am i wrong, i think im right
on the search for duds just to light it one more time

eyeliner covering your eyes
i get nervous wasting your time
am i wrong or am i right
tell her to leave so u can stay for the whole night
on the balcony, im afraid of heights
standing next to u, made my fear shy
is it just me or does this feel right
out here in the cold,
could be here for the whole night

im waitin for you
im bad at the first move
im breaking for you
im sad now, its not new
not afraid of death bitch im burning in both eyes
when she look at me i lose track of mind
if i give u my heart, will u hold it tight?
and if u gimme yours, i promise ill treat it right
i get nervous on what i could say to u
i dont want u to leave so damn soon
i would spare my time just for u
and if this could be it, id take a bullet for u

im sorry u had to go, ill see u in a week or so
i put u in my phone but im nervous to hit u up
now that youre here, im shy gotta cover up
im a nervous wreck, but thats because when ur
eyeliner covering your eyes
i get nervous wasting your time
am i wrong or am i right
tell her to leave so u can stay for the whole night
on the balcony, im afraid of heights
standing next to u, made my fear shy
is it just me or does this feel right
out here in the cold,
could be here for the whole night

im wastin your time
im sorry, ill shut my mind

𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺
𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘰 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘥𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦

nervous (p. linden & nevrfall)

featuring @sewerperson
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
everythings a joke all i hear is people lie
evil is right down the street, so i lock the doors inside
smoking they got black lungs but mine are getting ripe
just a buncha teens getting buzzed up while theyre high
i was just cold but now im getting hot
sweating down my back and i keep playing with my palms
im feeding off the air and i nibble at some crumbs
havent eaten all day i know thatd upset my mom

i was just freezing but now im sweating bad
could u spare ur body heat im running out real fast
i tried to phone death, but they would never answer
u know girl its bad, when ur boyfriend hid the cuts from her
i dont know how ur doin this
logan ur insane
crows talk
but i ignore the fact my old girl has changed
skinny kid eatin chicken
and nothing but eggs
now im finna burn it all off on the treadmill and shame

(sewerperson)
born in the snow
cant be hurt my soul has changed
it isnt fair
i got a body but i share the brain
i want the truth
could u give it to me
dont sugar coat it
i got the pockets on me stinky cause they filled with potent
uh, she just wanted my ok but that shit is horrible
walking inside this hostel what im doing dishonorable
i change out my human into something deplorable
i cannot breathe this air they gotchu huffing so casual
ah, take me in
i cannot do this by myself
i could be back tomorrow i just need a little help
im in a trance
off these pills
i might piss myself
im too skinny for these pants im slippin out my belt
eyes
i could feel her eyes on me
i gotta heart but i move like im a zombie
go
you should go now u dont want me
im a burden
without me u could be happy

(heylog)
everythings a joke all i hear is people lie
evil lives right down the street, so i lock the doors inside
smoking they got black lungs but mine are getting ripe
just a buncha teens getting buzzed up while theyre high
i was just cold but now im getting hot
sweating down my back and i keep playing with my palms
im feeding off the air and i nibble at some crumbs
havent eaten all day i know thatd upset my mom

playing with my hands and i keep tryna pop my knuckles
i did every finger i dont know why i keep tryna crack em
dont give me that look
i told her u should really stop that
eyes are bouncing back and forth and all i feel is anxious
i told u i get anxious when im in conversations
but i just nod and laugh im sorry i wasnt even listening
i can hear the chirp as the room is getting silent
now im getting awkward i think u should really try it

anxious ft. sewerperson

guitars were done by SADisfying & heylog

lyrics:
and i try to run from u but i end up right back where i begin
her waist is skinny young face may i borrow u just for one sec
and there's this place we'll stay where the fire burns, it's nice and quiet
ill be by your side i swear take care of u until i end
i'm in the mud cut up god forgive me for i have sinned
i pull out the nails and heal i guess that's what i get
and i'm pullin out my hair and i'm still learning how to control it
but i'm still doubting me to this day i'm really tryna fix it
and you're a thousand miles away i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess with bags under my eyes and i don't look good
and i run from u and i recommend that u run from me too
and u left me but i left u don't know if we'll be back together soon

i write this song i'm scared to death no one will even like it
and i dump my thoughts to the world i'll probably regret this
and i can't sleep if ur rent free in and out of my head
so basically i'm starting to think i'll be like this for infinite
and you're a thousand miles away i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess with bags under my eyes and i don't look good
and i run from u and i recommend that u run from me too
and u left me but i left u don't know if we'll be back together soon
and you're halfway across the world i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess and my hairs a nest and im too ashamed to look
and i fell for u and i recommend that u fall for me too
and u left me but i left u first i hope we'll meet again soon

there's this place we'll stay

heylog

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