just pull me away
just somewhere to stay
i know where you've been before
just soften to me
if they find out
i know a place
what could i even say?

breathe through the worst parts, i'm told that it's not fair
i've been so focused on something that's not there
voice down my essence, it's clearer than you said
knew that you'd find me and put it all to rest
said so much but you still don't know me
outside on the road i slowly, get back to the place so coldy
don't ask, don't speak what you know please
just been turning away

when you're turning the page
i know what it takes
you said that you're better
i'm feeling the same
it's all dead
the morning hasn't come yet

when you're cursing your name 
and the steps that you take
a year tryna move on
i'm standing in place
it's all dead
the morning hasn't come yet

just pull me away
just somewhere to stay
i know where you've been before
just soften to me
if they find out
i know a place
what could i even say?

Keep in Touch

prod, caves
Rip sleep… miss you brother

married in hell // cover

i hear cracks from the mirrors inside
glitter n light in front of my eyes
with it coming too close into sight
scared of what might be coming alive
i left notes about taking my life
and the scenes that unfold in my mind
give me reasons for why i should hide
now that i’ve seen their hollow disguise

my sudden demise
they’d cope
but i can’t lie
they’d know
that i had died with hope
lost

i feel my heart turn cold
pick up a moss clad stone
sneaking along cold floors
now

then i see it
turn of the corner
i hear heavy breathing
running for cover
the terror is seething
at this point there’s no god to believe in

oxygen low, bone dry
sucking out all my life
clenching my fists, ready to fight
checking again if i’m dead or alive

the daylight vanished before i could catch it (dash)

eden

a forest reprieve from the withering eve of a sun
(like, can i go? are we done here?)
he walks on his teeth and he talks through depictions of scars
(they say you never know what you don't hear)
that fostered relief at the cost of neglection of star
(longevity's enclosed until the soul gears)
he's cosmically sore but apprentice of tethering hearts
(my body's been remote, but i'm all ears)

crush two and i'm in it, he's waking bruised and deflated,
i got this habit of spitting, but all this acid come with it
he's turnt to ash every minute, a song and dance resurrection
you rabbits ripping up carrots, i'm canis lupis incarnate
got sonic booms when i'm barking, converting rooves into starships
this ain't your average invention, it's more than natural selection

thought she was safe up in his head
so he'd removed the padding covering his weakened flesh
but abrupt departure cut the flora thriving on his skin
now cattle's grazing on the flowers bursting through his chest

the green evades from being subject to an open wind
in apprehension of it's fate awaiting overhead
so nature waits in subtle breaks between the pavement
for many moons are to elude at compensation, but still, he's anxious

uncertainty enveloped through subtly of enthrall
but i regulate that haze through a blizzard of getting gone
with remedies for those emmitting vacancy of want
disheartened, hurt, and starving, yet crucial to it all
cast within a marshland, enhardened, enswamped
in emergance of that influence, the arteries are clogged
but the potency that comes with it is rightful in it's wrongs
as doubt within neglect to beauty's sewn within the flaws

so what's the word? you know i'm down for it
as mother earth determines counterfeit
the now dispersed yearns inhabitance
of bird and fern, the worm is blurred

might be universe impairing peers with lightning
a white screen thrown about, a crown ensures the stifling
so often i'm haunted and falter from nonsense,
the world's still revolving, he's not what she wanted
if you were just honest, it'd lessen the starving
this trail led of crumb that you thumb's disembarking
he's all but undone, but is stunned from the heartless
injected was rust, muck, and lust in her harvest

always unheard, speaking my word, they just wanna flirt
better or worse, embracing the curse 'till covered in dirt
wrapping in silk, given the earth, i know it'll hurt
off of the pills, downing that cardi, merlot, for the heal, yea

a forest reprieve from the withering eve of a sun
(like, can i go? are we done here?)
he walks on his teeth and he talks through depictions of scars
(they say you never know what you don't hear)
that fostered relief at the cost of neglection of star
(longevity's enclosed until the soul gears)
he's cosmically sore but apprentice of tethering hearts
my body's been remote, but i'm all ears

bird and fern (dash)

something a lil sleep token/ brakencey/ sinxi/ deadfishy inspired
obviously


i hear a little whisper between silence on the phone
you say you really miss me, god i hope you really dont
the feelings shattered across somewhere, between the ash and gold
i feel a bit uncomfortable, pretend i really dont

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

i hear a little breath between the distance of our call
maybe im just paranoid, can tell youre getting bored
ive been consumed by everything, the feelings getting cold
a half drunk glass of tea on the windowsil of our home

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction


im sure youve heard this song before in every genre
always ranting about something and nobodys bothered
i could try be clever write a double entendre
just for you to listen and not read the lyrics
or maybe i’ll produce something spend ages working on it

-------------just to be compared to every artist that you know ----------------             
                     ===================================
or maybe it’s your fault for listening to everyone and nobody at all
i guess i could be wrong
i guess ill never know
everything’s generic so im reaping what they sow

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

i hear a little breath between the distance of our call
maybe im just paranoid, can tell youre getting bored
ive been consumed by everything, the feelings getting cold
a half drunk glass of tea on the windowsil of our home

radio silence

made 3 years ago so i’m dropping it by itself instead of in the collab ep 💕 s/o @user-411557229

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

if i keep it down, never make a sound
call log empty but the bottle aint
staying quiet now, yet this silence loud
left the read receipts on my overlay
then act surprised when friends gotta leave
fuck it never said that you had to stay
in fact better yet fuckin hit the books
cuz it’s nothin left 2 say n drugs to take

she told me hop off the adderall
we just not meant to be after all
i’ll be somewhere in the night time
cause ur not urself when there’s alcohol
i got sum thoughts i aint said yet
swear this codeine got me touchin sunsets
i got purple stains all in the bedspread
and i’ll be by myself till i drop dead
baby i’ll get back 2 you in the morning
i know to you that my life ain’t important
took away shit that was making me numb
blade drip my blood and it paint in the portrait
nowadays when it’s dark out
see ur face with the same doubt
leave that bitch in the past
and leave my name out of ur mouth

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

radio silence

hiraeth