prod Liminaldream

lyrics

I just pray that I get out of debt so I can get some rest
I just hope that she's out of the hospital, my life is such a mess
My head is living in this chaos, I have faith here, for the best
There's no one in the world that means this much to me, digress

Can you take me home
Take me home
Take me home
Me home
Me home

Irreplaceable, iridescent
Cloudy skies, filled with depression
Look at my eyes, im tearing up
Every day, felt like giving up
But when you're back, and you're in my arms
I promise that, I wont dissolve
My whole life changed for the better, with you as my love!

You're my home, my ever green
I've struggled issues, amounts to see
Every day is a challenge now
I been on the brink, with you not around

But every call
And every breath
Helps me get through this emptiness

home

lyrics:
dont know myself
how could you know me then?
hundred percent, im feeling lost
always feel lonely then

the root of my problems is all myself
ill just go back to bed
why am i so fucked, i stay inside
think about eating the lead

why do i see myself im dead now when i fantasize
got too much to lose, i dont want to go, so im staying high
id rip out my brain if i only could, so i dont say goodbye
perform lobotomy, im begging, on this brain of mine

its so empty i cant mistake it
hallow chest, but i still can fake it
cold black eyes, my soul cannot take it
if there's hope, then why do i break it

face down, a flood in the basement
i sink the more that i face it
when im awake, the more that i hate it
venom spills, the more i can taste it

i just wish i knew who i was
call me semi-automatic, the same as my gun
its like im stuck on autopilot the way that i run
its like im sinking in myself, but theres nothing, im done


lobotomy

the truman show (noah thomas+back2thapast)

lyrics:
you probably ‘ready know this
but my soul is pretty ugly
that's why i never feel myself now
'less i'm leaning on a substance

everybody way too normal
i'm informal and i'm fucked up
and i hate to disappoint you
when i still cant get my bucks up

skin crawling out my flesh now
everything i learned to hate
i used to burn it in a blunt
and send it up to outer space

but i'm unstable and psychotic
way i'm feeling as of late
its like i'm stuck in Silent Hill
in here forever shall i wait

suicide when i think about my fate
i know its do or die if i still cant pull my weight
another stupid lie if i say ill be okay
i know its stupid i'm way too old to feel this way

you probably ‘ready know this
but my soul is pretty ugly
that's why i never feel myself now
less i'm leaning on a substance

everybody way too normal
i'm informal and i'm fucked up
and i hate to disappoint you
when i still cant get my bucks up

you probably ‘ready know this
but my soul is pretty ugly
and i ain't even mean to do it
i know its borderline it must be

everybody way too normal
when i'm dying on the inside
feel my skin is still on fire
end this quick dont need an invite

you probably already know this
but my soul is pretty ugly
i hope that God will still forgive me
i cant even ask him humbly
there’s a pit inside my chest
and i feel bad now if you love me
cause i'm sinking in myself
i need a substance, i need something

Ugly

lyrics:
well there's no saving me
if you think that i be trippin it's the same for me
when i die don't want no fame on me
i'm such a wreck that i feel guilty if you pray for me

i put the blame on me
and i think its necessary when i hate on me
cause myself is still the bane of me
the only enemy i have is all the pain in me

i gotta stop when i talk like that
i cannot break it in my mind and then it get right back
a ghost inside me that i cant fight back
i cannot change it any more than i can change my past

i'm everything i hate
i cant escape i hit the cart until i'm MIA
i know i sealed my fate
when i finally came to terms but now i'm not okay

like, who let me get this way
you don't know me i'm a bomb boutta go off
blue poison in my veins
left for dead i need a map now im so lost

Blame

lyrics:
nightmares in my brain but, its too late now to back out
tell me i wont make it, bet i'm still gon chase the bag now
ten years comin clutch, i swear that i'm gon get the cashout
hope i stay alive for all this shit if i don't crashout

if i die know they'll copy all my syntax
when i'm gone smoke a blunt for me, hit the Maui in some gift wrap
there heaven or a hell? or will it all just end up pitch black
i cant really tell, i just know people known to flip facts

i'm my biggest opp, i pull the blade out in a crisis
i'm still standing up, i'm still breathing all despite it
i move how i want, give a fuck if they ain't like it
i'm here to get this bag, i always knew i would i'm psychic

i will get this this shit solo, ion need no team
got a hundred ways to get it, know it simple as it seem
watch the world on fire, they said fuck my lil dream
but i still do this shit, while its tearing at the seams

ion even rap, i just speak how a demon move
cold hearted from the jump, ill probably leave you bleeding through
its me myself and i, when i face death and pay my due
'til then i still be grinding while i'm tryna make it through

ion hear the hate boy, i'm tuned into the bag now
stack it up in silence, all the talking get you dragged down
work until i make it, i wont stop until i pass out
i was born to be in front, i refuse to be the background

if i die know they'll copy all my syntax
when i'm gone smoke a blunt for me, hit the Maui in some gift wrap
there heaven or a hell? or will it all just end up pitch black
i cant really tell, i just know people known to flip facts

Delusion

i'll scream
your name
so loud
it echos away

i can't breathe
oh ur not right here with me
oh such a shame
shame

i've got your blood
all on my hands
oh what a mess
that i have made
i froze im stuck
tell me what the next step is
cause i don't know
how to control
myself

i want this
im watching
like tell me
how do you want love?
im nauseuos
i lost it
right before us
cant help it
im obsessed
with the way you touch
i need you
i cant help 
but feel im not enough


its all okay
maybe that was a lie
you wont ever know
i wont see your face
i do this for nothing
i wake up 
just to find out
its all the same

i've got your blood
all on my hands
oh what a mess
that i have made
i froze im stuck
tell me what the next step is
cause i don't know
how to control
myself

Blame

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