lyrics
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i don’t need a hero to save me
baby you can call me crazy
spit upon my face throw a hook like jay z
lazy lately all i do is hate me
self-sabotage coming clutch i’m shaky
probably from the drinking and the yapping and the 47 times today that i overreacted
it’s a travesty to live like this and i’m merely subtracting
when i choose to move in silence let it blow with the theatrics
i guess it came with living lonely
guess that five year plan wasn’t close enough to hold me
guess that best friend fed up cause i ghost and end up folding
guess that love won’t last cause i always end up bolting
yeah
and i’m afraid of getting closure
i’m afraid of getting sick of this and i’ll only get older
i ain’t shit but a man with some songs inside a folder
why’s it feel like death is dancing on my shoulder?
i don’t like that
and i got hella insecurities
teeth, hair, skin, false hope, nothing pure in me
i’m begging for the silence but the rain hit beautifully
and maybe i’m just lacking some maturity
maybe if i dig upon my past i can super glue my skeleton
fit him to my frame tell him you were only seven nick
you ain’t do no wrong you are beautiful and heaven sent
ignorance is bliss but my innocence irrelevant
trauma bond via satellite
you are what you eat so the music keep me sad at night
sixteen to now pockets still full of that hematite
the only thing i’m lacking is an appetite

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theatrics (prod. neverforever)

situationship

lyrics:
im tryna stack the bands til my pockets blue
im tryna make it back, its overdue
swear i put the work in make it true
ima keep on doing what i do

put the city on my back if it aint too late
thought id be sitting pretty but by now i still cant move weight
fell off overboard and now im hanging by a shoelace
shoutout to my baby, when its stormy thats my crewmate

and someday all this work will pay me back
i aint leaving from my post and thats a fact
i aint going nowhere, you can hate while i get stacks
if i said im sorry, well then shit i take it back

i do it all by myself
i never needed your help
i put the work in i dont think youre clocking the way that im bad for your health

stay in your lane though
i get insane though
heard that you aim low
heard that you chopped, you a lame tho

im tryna stack the bands til my pockets blue
im tryna make it back, its overdue
swear i put the work in make it true
ima keep on doing what i do

Do What I Do

lyrics:
do you know how much i love you
i was down bad still put nothing else above you
i told you all my secrets know it cut through
told you all my moves even shit i could run through

i was in the dirt
picked me out the mud, its like no matter how it hurt
you was by side before i ended in a hearse
swear that you a angel cause you finally lift the curse

i was trippin just to live, you seen the hunger in my soul
you aint even need no diamonds just to say you played your role
loyal to the grave, swear that bond dont ever fold
now its foreign whips and flights, you the only one i hold

you was there when i had nothing
now we counting up in silence
had to hustle through the pain
but you the reason i aint wildin

gave my heart when it was broke
you aint flinch you just stood beside it
want to keep you to myself
but i swear my heart cannot hide it

gave my trust, you never folded, swear you never once denied it
i was lost, you showed the way, like heaven came and just provided
all the pain that we been through, swear we never got divided
you the one i prayed for, i swear this feeling been invited

how much

produced by @prod-dash
thank you for being here.
be as well as you can be
x

sat in the frozen
tundra of olden
letting it go, but
it want me stolen
fevered yet cold
don't see me walk in
somehow they saw me through the door

it ain't that funny
how's it the people i once put above
amass into nothing
so wrong, to think they could help
subconsciously knew they ain't know me that well
to compel every notion that i've ever felt
enough to be something

thirty minutes is the best i can do
now i'm back with a dome full of hate
can't wait on a sky that'll pass up the day
gotta make this borderless brain unrestrained
i don't sound the same; know if i could i would
put out a piece that could wipe out the rain
shambled in vain
this ain't a life for the vivid
guised in a coat, low is gold for the wicked
i get exposed and the core creates distance
the water is calm, you just gotta listen
gouging the doubt with a sleight word of mouth
from the kid who was taught to bestow this forgiveness

but i'm hittin licks, just a young hypocrite
false bliss to the lip;
ain't trip, won't fold
i'm in my room with the gloom i consume
with a tune that restore all of which that i know

i ain't felt trust like i do,
the ghost of her presence can soothe
forced into wrath, yet was taken aback
apparitions that witness the horror in view
crude to the vision, although to begin with
a soul wouldn't visit this misaligned tomb

won't sleep a wink
'cause the potion i breathe's
about all that i need to replace with a snooze

unamusing that the news is
always brewing something stupid
i rebuke this, got me puking
lacking prudence where the truth is

i couldn't be your anything
i couldn't be your anything
my temper, enamored
and plastered, in glamour
dismembered and shattered
he's scattered in laughter
the after won't seem to take him,
this plothole's been forsakened,
left stagnant and stuck waiting
burnt charcoals for the basin

bites
getting bit up in the night
anomalies pleading "arise"
indifferent to those who recline, i
know we coulda been so good
now i'm kneeling deep into soot
sight aligned where she had stood
idealism misunderstood

rainbreaker (dash)

i ain't gonna be here

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lyrics:

i guess u caught me off guard
my head in the sand
a scar on my arm
a knife in my back
a noose on my neck i'm barely holding on to
so exhausted
so exhausted
trust me love, don't think you'd understand
the depth of my lack of trust in other plans
the best that i am i'm barely holding on to
so dishonest
so dishonest

just a moment of respite
is that too much to ask?
i fear they made me broken
am i only a replicant of man?
terrified of my flawed emotions
what a shame
i'll place blame
on my brain
see your face
and lose my focus
i evade, to dodge fate is hopeless
go unnoticed that lately i've been

tongue tied
wish i could speak my mind when i'm not high
wish that you could see me in the right mind
say you're terrified, baby so am i
guess that i just need a way to unwind
when it's late at night do i come to mind?
wish that you could know that you've been on mine
wouldn't lie this time
tell me would you mind if i resided by your side?

i try to breathe but i can't
i think i'm choking up
i need you more than you understand
like very much
i won't deceive you again
i know my words aren't enough
to reconcile with the part of me you'll never trust
take the burdens i carry and i'll desert em
but i know i'll continue to feel like i deserve em
i try to make it right
i fear i've made it worse
i'd die to sing a verse
but lately i've been

tongue tied
wish i could speak my mind when i'm not high
wish that you could see me in the right mind
say you're terrified, baby so am i
guess that i just need a way to unwind
when it's late at night do i come to mind?
wish that you could know that you've been on mine
wouldn't lie this time
tell me would you mind if i resided by your side?

keep it up, it's hard to keep the right course
keep me locked away behind a closed door
i reject the thought that i could ever be enough
what is there to be afraid of?

scared of how i'll b received if i put my heart out on these louis v sleeves
scared that you'll grab all ur things and just leave in the night when i've fallen asleep
i cannot tell u my secrets
i don't believe u can keep them
i'll bury myself in the coffin it's self preservation to get some relief

tongue tied

animal

lyrics:
well there's no saving me
if you think that i be trippin it's the same for me
when i die don't want no fame on me
i'm such a wreck that i feel guilty if you pray for me

i put the blame on me
and i think its necessary when i hate on me
cause myself is still the bane of me
the only enemy i have is all the pain in me

i gotta stop when i talk like that
i cannot break it in my mind and then it get right back
a ghost inside me that i cant fight back
i cannot change it any more than i can change my past

i'm everything i hate
i cant escape i hit the cart until i'm MIA
i know i sealed my fate
when i finally came to terms but now i'm not okay

like, who let me get this way
you don't know me i'm a bomb boutta go off
blue poison in my veins
left for dead i need a map now im so lost

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these are all previously released songs that were either deleted, hosted or are still public that were never boosted with soundcloud pro, so i wanna give them another chance to maybe reach some new ears.
thank y'all for the support
love y'all <3
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CEO (prod. Goyxrd & Kxngrada)

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