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Lyrics:

i could kill a fucking heart expressing how i felt
solitary with these thoughts is an existential hell
i'm only visiting i won't be here for long
preach good decisions while i rip another hit out of this bong
i can see right past ur face into ur mind 
if i send this fucking message i swear it's suicide  
i'll ask you every single option that i have
to make it right
and then in desperation complete the cycle and the questline

so what i'm just a monster with a mop
earning 12.50 an hour 9-5 upon the dot
it's me the janitor you know so very well
i just vented every thought of mine through songs to break my shell
and i
haven't made those in a week
and i'm getting so scared that this could be the end of my
career and it worsens my fear 
so i contemplate
all of the things that i'll never find
days turn to weeks
then to months then to years
could this project ever get done in time
pushed it back twice 
and the rush is a lie
n i'm sitting here stuck on a fucking line
i was a sight seer
i spent the night here
hang on a lease
while i ruin my teeth
and make sense of some things that should never rhyme

and i

and i hide my fucking feelings 
from my friends
and raise my walls
they can see a couple cracks
but they've not seen a thing at all
cement breaks
it's tempting
to breakdown
and lay waste

janitor pt. II

music video: 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dkKOD3eET-U

She's a piece of shit she treats me horribly
She really makes me hate myself 
I've been having nightmares that are better than real life to be honest
I've been hopin' I never wake up again
When I was a kid I looked up her home phone number
I tried to call it but I hung up quick
Nowadays I never call no one 
I just sleep until the sun is down so I never have to make no plans
I feel like a heartbeat 
Riddled with clots in my arteries
I hope they block my bloodstream
I hope my lungs stop rising yeah
Can't remember her face now
I only remember how she told me to kill myself
Every day I agree with her more than I did back then
I know and yet 

I don't care no
I don't care no
I don't care no 
I don't care  
I don't care no
I don't care no
I don't care

She's a piece of shit she treats me horribly
She really makes me hate myself
I've been having nightmares that are better than real life to be honest 
I've been hoping I never wake up again
When I was a kid I looked up her home phone number
I tried to call it but I hung up quick
Nowadays I never call no one
I just sleep until the sun is down so I never have to make no plans
I feel like a heartbeat
Riddled with clots in my arteries
I hope they block my bloodstream
I hope my lungs stop rising
I can't remember her face now
I only remember how she told me to kill myself
Every day I agree with her more than I did back then 
I know and yet 

I don't care no
I don't care no
I don't care no
I don't care
I don't care no
I don't care
I don't care

spotify

piece of shit (p. tennis player)

burn w/ NAVYXOWER (prod. aureola)

lyrics 

I was in love with u 
but what was that u saying 
'coz im fucked up it's over 
and u just look like satan

was it just the sex
was it just the head
was it what was left of all my fucking flesh

u told me to stop
i'm going full throttle
u got all this dirt on my name
and u throwing the bottle

sometimes hard for me to wake
so I gotta wake and bake
I can't be the one to save u now
i'm not good with fake love

fucked my image but thats not enough
left my body in acid for a month
I don't love u baby it's just the drugs
I don't love u baby it's just ur body

I know that my soul was there to take
and it just fucking kills me when ur sorry
'coz I know u don't really feel that way 
I feel like i'm soon to take a bath thats bloody

in those first days..
in those first few days I look back and i'm ok

'coz thats not how I thought it'd be 
I told her she was my queen
she told me I was her king
but now our kingdoms dust & leaves

thought i'd set the perfect scene
but now I'm coming out clean
all I wanted u to be
was just happy in these sheets

first those whispers then those screams
hollow body, yes
sit aside my bones for u so u can chew on the flesh

dust & leaves (hollowprpl)

shoutout @notmorgn 4 existing <333

i'll regret it till im gone
but next time when you're leaving
make sure my hearts not beating
make sure my hearts not beating
make sure that im not breathing
make sure that im not breathing
make sure that im not breathing.

fingers crossed when i say that im sober
2 o clock and my nights not over
crooked thoughts tucked inside a folder
ima let em out until i feel like im better

she lied to me again
said that she was only goin out with her friends
i was writing love songs when i got a text
god that really fucked up my head 

what do you want from me
ill try to be your anchor 
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe in anger
why are we
so blind to see a stranger
as a friend with good intentions
never

and i messed up
tryna be the one that you
let your anger out upon

i was blinded
vowed to silence
pointless arguments that i never couldve won

i'll regret it till im gone
but next time when you're leaving
make sure my hearts not beating
make sure my hearts not beating
make sure that im not breathing
make sure that im not breathing
make sure that im not breathing.

fingers crossed when i say that im sober
2 o clock and my nights not over
crooked thoughts tucked inside a folder
ima let em out until i feel like im better

she lied to me again
said that she was only goin out with her friends
i was writing love songs when i got a text
god that really fucked up my head

fingers crossed

fingers crossed (notmorgn)

side-by-side don toliver sleep version

ft gmo  
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outside 3rborn beat

WELCOME TO MY LONELY WORLD U LIL LONELY GIRL 
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twitter: @myemofruit
instagram: @emofruits
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lonely world outro <//3
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do u see what i dont see 
do u bleed when i dont bleed
i die little more every week
maybe its time that i dont breathe
do u see what i dont see 
do u bleed when i dont bleed
i die little more every week
maybe its time that i dont breathe 

i cant sleep 
yeah i cant sleep 
maybe its these drugs inside of me
im sorry that u see this side of me 
im sorry that u see this side of me
yeah im lost 
yeah i know
good drugs
and bad hoes
im cold 
yeah so cold
im on my own 
yeah im on my own
.
-ur friendly neighborhood fruits

LONELYWORLD 

lonely world outro (prod. domyno music)

Prod @tothegood
I'm just a fucked up kid, with some real bad skin
I throw up too much, spill my guts from within
I always feel sick, and my heart wrapped in sin
I don't wanna fit in, I just need some medicine

Sitting in my room I just can't think of you
Why you be so far and why you feeling blue
Feeling like I'm dead I know you feel it too
Wanna leave my body its just what I do

I been spendin all of my time tryna be an angel
But this darkness held within will kill me slow and painful
Cause we live fast and die young yeah but its fucking shameful
Way I talk to myself has been really hateful

Locked inside this old room with a gram
All that's left now I'm dead in the sand
Desert heat, a mirage on command
Leave me left for dead I black out on demand

fkdup (prod. tothegood)

Did a beat and song collab with @lily-gilbert-970297039 !

Now im pourin up ciroc with a little bit of bubbly
Mixin all that shit ion even give a fuck b
Smokin all that gas yeah my shawty wanna fuck me
Green eyed girl yeah she always be my bunny

I been real depressed on the low
I been feelin less, never know
I been feelin numb in my home
cold front moving in, ice and patrone

I dont wanna be the one who drinkin all this venom
I wrote you all these messages but i aint never sent em
Now you know the way i feel i just wanna forget em
Spending all my nights just staying up and im finessin

Every day im just piling Ks
Every day like a new vacay
Every day but im numb and im cold, and i get what i want but im dead in the day

XOXO (w/ HITGIRL)

Featuring https://soundcloud.com/cartoonben
Mastered by https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by https://soundcloud.com/emotionalbuu

[cartoon ben]
Why you playing with my heart like that
Stabbing that knife right through my back 
You talked a lot of shit please take it back
Why you gotta play my heart like that
Cause a scene like that do you want the drama 
Good at arguing, get it from your momma 
Wish I never met you, so things could be easier 
There’s a crater in my heart, you hit me like a meteor

[king theta]
Have another crisis,
You'll be runnin right back to me by the end of the night
It's how you like it,
Try to start a fight cause the drama's keepin you high
X2
She's a little bit crazy
One minute she hates me
In the next one she'll be runnin right back
Excitement, yeah she likes that
Won't fight back cause I'm not frightened
Come lie down, baby that's the right track

Always tryna find a way to push my buttons
Tryna play games but you don't win nothing
How'd you start flame from a simple discussion
Huffing and puffing, pushing and shoving
When you found me you knew that I couldn't draw a boundry
Now see, I know who I am, say it proudly
Doubt me, you know that tonight I'll sleep soundly
I know you wanna be around me
And you know that I want you too
I'm just not willing to waste my time
When tomorrow it'll be just fine
Girl I hope that you keep our truce
I'm just not tryin to ride that wave
You know I'm always gonna keep you safe

Have another crisis,
You'll be runnin right back to me by the end of the night
It's how you like it,
Try to start a fight cause the drama's keepin you high
X2
She's a little bit crazy
One minute she hates me
In the next one she'll be runnin right back
Excitement, yeah she likes that
Won't fight back cause I'm not frightened
Come lie down, baby that's the right track

Crisis ft. cartoon ben

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

fkdup (prod. tothegood)

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