i could do this all day ffrr someone get me signed

thought if I tried it would make a change 
come around again do u feel the same
I’m going down my friend 
scared of thoughts in my brain
lost and found know that shit been goin down
need a break burnin bodies in this town 
need 2 face the fuckin facts
still got open wounds know I can’t focus, all the shit I’m holdin back
I been runnin so long, don’t know how much longer that I can last 
yea I’m fucked up don’t really know if ima come back
1 to dome feel that pistol fuckin blow back
U make me wanna go to the point where I only see black 
Buried under trees not a single thought Is left of me
feels like nothin in this life was ever meant for me
wanna go back home but I’m fallin now 
Yea I’m fallin down

spotify link<3

declinee (guda)

prod @jolst + @pekarot_161
mastered by: @jolst

right here
won’t you hold me right here 
cus everybody switched up
i had to fight fair 
i been
stressed out
think i need a cold beer 
said fuck that 
i’ll smoke a blunt
and pull out my hair 
x2

cus i been spending my money and livin up
and i been textin her she just don’t give a fuck
at least i got my friends right here to jus show me love
if i was alone right now i’d probably kick the buck 

i just want my baby to come and kiss me a little bit 
i know i get too greedy and i wanna take it off
if you ever need a friend just hit me for the thrill of it 
she give me a little but i rlly want it all >:•)

baby im a loner :(
straight to the fucking face 
smoke a blunt n then i phone her 
im beggin beggin baby please 
why won’t u just come over (im kinda bored)
im not tryna be dramatic
but im gonna fucking throw up !!!!!!!!

not tryna be dramatic but i'm guess that im a loner ): 

(alan watts speech)
(ak47 reload)
(lightsaber sheath)

revenant (jolst x pekarot)

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7ziotsoQJ9Sc1hnBodbesL?si=d731d90e037d49d7
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/fi/album/is-there-anyone/1614267269?i=1614267270
YouTube: https://youtu.be/z7zB8dKa4Uk

[Verse 1]
Lately I’ve been hating everything that I’ve been making
I’ve lost the motivation for the dreams that I’ve been chasing
I know this ain’t a race, no, but all I’ve done is racing
I’m noticing how everything I’ve built is slowly fading

I’m dedicating all my time to overthinking,
Drinking & the heavy medications I’ve been taking
I’m slowing down and breaking
I’m tripping out like I’m on a vacation

[Chorus]
Is there anyone that is strong enough to save me 
If I fight for love, will it come back around to bite me?
If I fall in line, I am surely gonna break it 
Take me back in time, life is moving too fast for me now

[Verse 2]
All I want is for someone to understand who I am
Someone to sit there in the silence by my side and hold my hand
But all I have is me, myself and I and my imaginary friends
And a broken hourglass that’s running out of sand

Life is tricky, time is ticking, life’s a ticking time bomb
I’m dying slowly like the battery on my phone
I’m alone, I don’t like to be lonely
But I’m pushing away everyone that say that they love me

[Chorus]
Is there anyone that is strong enough to save me 
If I fight for love, will it come back around to bite me?
If I fall in line, I am surely gonna break it 
Take me back in time, life is moving too fast for me now

Is There Anyone? (feat. XAM)

ty for listening 

// lyrics
oh love
just face it
you’re so complacent
its selfish cravings
don’t care what anyone’s thinking
oh love
just face it
left my heart breaking
is yours that vacant?
don’t believe a word you’re saying

go on and kill the lights
you do it all just for the money
so go live your life
but don’t you talk about a heartbeat
when yours clearly died
and don’t you talk like u once knew me
or i’d be alive

said we met at wrong time
saw the devil in your soul
i swear he took mine
fuck i wanted more
the life in your eyes
it was love i so dearly adored
and watched it all die :/

got me on her mind
she said that i’m her sire :)
you know i’m always pulling up in an all black attire
and you can say the fuck you want but don’t call me a liar...
talk about me on your media
i promise i pay it no mind
wasted all this time but for you love i’d waste it two times...
hate what you’ve become i’ve come to terms the one i loved died
the red inside my eyes just signifies that geist has switched sides
bloods all on the walls i made a grave for what was soul tied

oh no
i grieve
i go ghost in the night
hide in trees search for light 

it’s killing me.
it’s all taking toll on my soul
i cannot feel
cant cope no more
i’m losing sleep
and self control
there’s so much pain
breaking my bones

spotify

complacent [wetmall]

resize frame - track 1

crowd vox ft. birdbay, sagebrsh, flesh golem, evan carr, matt kelly, & homesick

lyrics:
if what i said was a lie
could it amount to a half of it all?
it was never your mind
that was at fault for all the cracks in the wall
and as its starting to dry
the paint is peeling and i’m sick of it all
i’ll never get that goodbye
don’t color me blind
i struggle finding reasons why i’m taking the fall

i never lost my composure
feel like i’m the only one thats getting older
well if the silence passed,
then i may get mine back
run my mouth like a motor
never filter, only book it in a folder
if you could have my back
i prolly wouldn’t run so fast

four years gone, what can i say?
my life’s all broken and frayed
to find love i had to put on a face
now i regret it as im walking in place
eyes up, are you lacking in shame?
i knew once that i was finding my space
two ones like the eyes of a snake
i knew once that you loved me the same

if what i said was a lie
could it amount to a half of it all?
it was never your mind
that was at fault for all the cracks in the wall
and as its starting to dry
the paint is peeling and i’m sick of it all
i’ll never get that goodbye
don’t color me blind
i struggle finding reasons why i’m taking the fall

break it all down
i wanna know what you stand for

all the pain grows between the lines

i had to find out
why you lead with that candor

sever those binds to hang me dry

<resize frame>

crack in the wall [flesh]

spotify & apple !

forever
i'll love you
forever
you'll be on my mind (my mind)
forever
you'll stay by my side (my side)
and i won't let you die

keeping your legacy alive, forever. i will never forget your voice & laugh. missing your advice. missing you. will cherrish every moment forever. you were truly special and will forever stick in my heart. i love you. rest easy my dear friend. i really need you here so please don't ever leave my head fully.

(instrumental by smokerose)

forever (for Jude)

i could never hold my stance
when its slipping through my hands
like the tide against my bones
pull me under, drag me home

buried deep beneath the weight
of the words we left too late
salt and silence fill my lungs
sing my name in fading tongues

i trace the air of where you stood
faded outlines, splintered wood
i could scream but you wont hear
waves crash down, i disappear

pulled apart but still in place
lips are bloody, i can taste
i can always tell when ive lose myself
i feel insane

memory of a ghost

Bones - FrozenGauntlet (Insomnia Remix)

FALLING

Lyrics:
tonight tonight, i been livin too high, got me trapped inside my mind
tonight tonight, i been livin too high, got a little bit of syrup and i do it out of spite

i feel it runnin throughout my head tonight
feel it in my chest feelin dead tonight
i still cant eat i cant sleep tonight
i aint close my eyes in like twenty-two nights

always losing sleep cuz they say im too nice
i know the night time well im friends with the moonlight
come to me with questions ill give you some advice
but i cant help myself when im dependent on a vice

always scared of thoughts inside my head ya
always scared of everything been said ya
always wonder where im being lead ya
always wake up feeling deep in dread ya

never wanna see you down and sad no no
never been real happy so im high no no
never thought i ever be alright no no
always feel im broken deep inside no no

i feel it runnin throughout my head tonight
feel it in my chest feelin dead tonight
i still cant eat i cant sleep tonight
i aint close my eyes in like twenty-two nights

always losing sleep cuz they say im too nice
i know the night time well im friends with the moonlight
come to me with questions ill give you some advice
but i cant help myself when im dependent on a vice

twonight (prod AdjustIsac)

:)

videoo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZ-vYeRh2Tg&feature=youtu.be

lyrics:

i feel lik im toxic 
everytime that i talk
but recently im thinkin
im probably not
u can find me bottom board
becuz im a bot
...i dont have a chours dont except one..
thers not....

i love feelin loved even tho im probably not
ur still in my head but i never give u a thought
i feel like im toxic everytime that i talk
i love feelin loved even tho im probably not

catch me up to speed 
i think that i am probably lost
u deny makin these calls
ur tongue is tied in knots

2am n ur knockin up on my door
i told u im fed up 
i cant take this anymore

everything is opening
but i still wont go out
plz still wear ur mask
im filled up with all of this doubt
u wont hit my phone no more
u think im goin south
i wont take dis shit no more
i think that im fine without

im way 2 fucked up bb
i woke up on da floor
i think that ive fallin in love
but i cant b 2 sure

i think id like love but 
i could b fine without
i dont have any stimulants 
i think that im out :(

i dont like adderall
i know i could benefit :(
i have no work ethic 
i think im jus really sick

i think i finally lost it..
i think that im obnoxious..
x2

probably not (p. hibleach)

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

memory of a ghost

HKFIFTYONE