i dont care noone cares
keep on breathing

only feel numb 
or falling in love 
while dying in ya 
youll be my drug
just one more touch 
give me that much
or theres no hope 
fade out alone 

kill me please 
quick and clean 
give me peace 
before i leave 
cut out my spleen 
do you like me 
im in too deep
lord set me free 
echo of the flashlight 
see the dam of the damned and it just might 
flood open on the open till we all night 
im no one i hive hide 
uve seen my worst side
still shared ur chest wide 

im not your best guy
move on ill just die 
you take my left eye
feel like a pest i
try to put rest life 
but your smell, flesh might
add to it more time 
add to it be mine 

im searching to see 
im begging and plead
for a fix to free me 
from the pain of no pain chasing me while i bleed 
the feeling invade as im losing my feet the colors turn grey and make all believe

kill

𝙴𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕 𝚅𝚘𝚒𝚍 𝟸 (𝙿𝚛𝚘𝚍. 𝙿𝚞𝚑𝚏)

YOU A LESBIAN? SO WHAT BITCH I LIKE WOMEN TOO FT. KYOKI x. (PROD. 510)

@trauma-6-6-6
unreleased song from 2020.
was supposed to be on the "inspiring self-destruction" ep at first, but it wasn't included in the final tracklist.
later i wanted to release it as a single but lost the project and didn't finish the mix so this track was never finished...



withdrawn. [prod. trauma] (2020)

written by @hollowmindisdead
produced by @audioabomination & @trauma-6-6-6
cover art, m&m by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics: 
yeah, anxiety's piercing on my chest 
i keep on murdering my sence
my shaking hands are holding sharp knifes...

depression feels just like a trance
and im beyond this mental fence 
i jump in front of it to see like...

like my dreams and hopes are crashing off my state.
how they drowning in my blood
and all my lust to see me dead.

i jump and see me as a kid 
that blindly searching for defence
and finding nothing else instead of crippled cold anxiety's hands

(jump) i see my past (jump), i see my blood (jump), i see my path convolves to mess
nobody liked me cuz of sad 
now no-one likes me not depressed

but in the depths of all my nature 
looking like a dying swan 
i keep on dream to see my future 
bright as blood reflects these lamps

and sometimes away of this fence... 
i see my future bright and blessed....
utopic like a dream of mad...
and do i still believe in that?...

yeah, anxiety's piercing on my chest 
i keep on murdering my sence
my shaking hands are holding sharp knifes...

depression feels just like a trance
and im beyond this mental fence 
i jump in front of it to see, like...

my bright future...
getting closer sometimes...
i'll tryna chase it...
to feel a moment of fine...

beyond the endless fence of mental... [prod. abxminvtixn & trauma]

written by @hollowmindisdead
produced by @audioabomination & @trauma-6-6-6
cover art, m&m by @hollowmindisdead



intro: utopia. [prod. abxminvtixn]

written by @hollowmindisdead
produced by @audioabomination & @trauma-6-6-6
cover art, m&m by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics: 
(im trapped inside, im trapped inside, im trapped inside )

im trapped inside...
in all this reckless of my mind 
that left me naked, bleeded dry 
within that night i stepped this side.

i've lost my sight...
(lost my sight...)
lost my attemps to live my life.
im just a pointless bag of flesh i hate 
and cutting with my knives (for all these times x2)

for all these tries to leave this ward
this call of death is my temptation 
signing me to fall apart 

and at my colder blood reflection 
every wound is shining star
i feel that my life imitation 
for too was gone so far

there's not much chance to survive 
nobody fucks with my kind 
don't really think im alive 
cuz all this life imitation 
is like whole my life
(x2)

life imitation. [prod. abxminvtixn & trauma]

written by @hollowmindisdead
produced by @audioabomination & @trauma-6-6-6
cover art, m&m by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics: 
i wish i could carve out all of these worms
only making my every days worthless
i feel they keep on devouring my thoughts 
and i open my scars just to pour them all out of me, bitch.

but they settled into my head, like an old man in an apartment drowning in garbage...
and it hurts me so much when they slide under my woeful skin cuz i thought that it's long off it, bitch.

taking sharpest knife 
i sharp their bodies off me 
off my skull, my freshest wounds, even between my ribs 

when the normal life 
becomes utopian dreams 
you start to get - you nothing more 
than worm infested meat

all these eaters of my happiness making my life state fragile  
it's always feeling like i am an ice and im blurring and flow to the wormhole..

cuz my whole body's replaced by a tangle of these worms that raging 
they are living my life and they fucking up my dreams, they are slowly devouring my thoughts off, bitch

they're twisting inside my throat...
and devastate me dry...
i guess it's only my fault...
im a nest for parasites...

beyond the endless fence of mental... [prod. abxminvtixn & trauma]

hollow mind.