Agony.

Produced by ABXMINVTIXN

prod by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
bitch i get you rest in peace
breaking your skull, never felt so bliss  
i fuck it all up? i deserve this shit? 
they breaking my heart but i let them quit

wow, fuck
never gave a fuck about scars 
but i feel it like a trauma first of all to my own nerves
im disgusting piece of shit and you just fuckin on my thoughts?
that's what you believe in, that's what you've been taught

how much was said of this cold empty words?
what had to happen to make me the worst?
i'll never let these crows peck at my corpse
yeah im tired of all the black cats going cross 

yuh 
never seen the point of this shit
when you lying to my eyes. you was right, disappear 
i will never miss again all this worries you bring 
when you look at me this time, what the fuck do you see? 

i cant stay. but yeah i wanted... 
i dont feel the same...
i dont feel it like i should  
survive again this hurricane...

i dont feel the way of living 
with this shit i grap...
but it's not your only fault 
i know i fucked it up...

i just want to feel some better cuz i feel
i fucked it up
i cant stay here for too long because i know 
i fucked it up 
i dont want to see your eyes again, i see 
i fucked it up 
but you will watch me how i start decay because 
i fucked it up 
(x2)

betrayed. [prod. svrviiive]

prod by @audioabomination 
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
i was cold in past four years of my own suffering
i dwelled my room for nothing every time i woke alive again
i lost a part of myself, in the walls of mental hospital
i still remind these days and why the fuck im digging in my brain

im dig into my brain
now it's not the same
i dont feel like that
but in the depths i feel my pains

dig into my brain
my question is the same
am i really health
or is it the new one self deceit

yeah i don't give a fuck of my past
i just wish i'll never back again to this state

yeah, i felt stucked,i felt brain is up in mud
and yeah i felt like world is stopped
so what's for now? and now i thought

yeah im better be away
yeah im better be health
yeah im better be straight
yeah im better be dead

yeah i fucked up things
and they fucked up me
i was blind as fuck
but i learn to see the fuck i live?

i dont ever back to all these wards
i wish i'll never felt this pains as before

selfdeceit. [prod. abxminvtixn]

prod by @audioabomination
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
bitch i pull up to my memories its cold like in a mortuary
i used to slit my skin its like a suicidal surgery
i see dystrophic body in the corner and there's nobody
the tears are like a needles make it feel so fucking suffering

but i also see the times of how i feel
like when i was a fucking child and when im walking thru the fields
i was so happy but years later i feel i just wanna leave
the ones who used to love and cover are just watching how i sink

come it back and see this shit and how it comes
go see the fuck bitch i got so cray and why i trapped in a mental ward
i felt a lot of painful shit and they just said its by my fault
but bitches stop, fucking drop, you know you wrong at all your words

and when i drop me out of all this pit they ripping on my nerves
this fucking whore was acting shit and made me feel like im cursed
yeah i had a fake friends but for now i glad they gone
you should forget my fucking face, my fucking name, my fucking songs

the pain is gone and i won't lost in all this pit
all can i do is make me prove myself i'll never feel this shit, again, again
im gonna show the ones who see no fucking light
you always bout to find a way out, and im here to help you find

cuz i remember all those times when i was gon to shoot my brains
when im the one in my own room, when i was losted in the space
but now i feeling so much better and im going just to help
all can i do with all the past is make it never was in vain

not in vain. [prod. abxminvtixn]

prod by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
im traumatized
by the shards of life
that makes me gnaw my veins
and bite my lips and jowls to the ulcers

it breaks my mind.
and im still dwell this cage
it makes me feel so vile
and i swallow my nails like blades

ashes of my dreams
yeah it settled in my lungs and it break my ribs
yeah i fuck with this shit and i feel it like a burden of me
like i'll never escape i will never be free

sleeves up, and im back, to the scars on my hand
to my burns that i made, like a mark of my hate
to myself and the past, that is piercing my chest
hit the heart end - to -end, and im feel like im dead

I'm still breathing, spitting blood
and now im walking on the blade
to lose my hope and fall,
or hold and maybe see the light again?
the pain is gone, the wounds are healed
but i feel trapped in my own cage
which holds me back, it's like a prison
built of my own mental state

i used to wake up from my faintinings with my sleeves are fucking up
Im in a pool of still wet blood that flows like wine from my own wounds

and I dont want this shit to happen in my life again, no
and I just want to break this prison in my head to end this cold

mental prison. [prod. svrviiive]

prod by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
all my lyrics and shit
wouldn't make any sense if i wasn't a whin
but even if it is, at least ima real.
and i'm not a fucking pussyboy, not a fucking bitch

i don't give a fuck, i don't give a shit
if you think that ima low cuz i never was heard
try to make some sense of this pile of my scream
and you'll see the truth, you will see me bleed, you're just a bitch

sometimes i feel like piece of trash
and im tear on my lungs and my morbid flesh
i repeat it often like its my prayer
but it's my own life, i've never played

my creativity is self-medication
not a money counter , or love motivation
for me this commerce like a decapitation
i curse this shit and i will never make it

i curse this time when i was sick and doesn't know where i go
and while these motherfuckers think its an image im tryna cope
and my life is a record, ima needle on a gramophone
which draws new scratches everywhere until it comes to abrasion
(x2)

where will my fate take me this time i want to know
i feel so sick but if i've come this far, it means that i can't stop

i am feeling like erased
and i got no trace
so i hurt myself
like it's just in case

you can see it in my face
i am got in impasse
and i hate this place
and i hate my space

and i keep on fucking trying
all the motherfucking ways
how to love my flesh
how to love my face

and i'm really fucking try
win this goddamn hate
and i'm really trying
to win this hate

abrasions. [prod. svrviiive]

prod by @pieruun
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
did i dropped to my sins?
did i losted all my feels now?
and when we all fall asleep
how you see me in your dreams?

maybe i am feel healthy and im enjoying everything?
im spending time with my close friends and we are still a fucking clique
or maybe im suicidal again and bleeding on my knees?
and im still sitting in motionless state like i am fucking freeze

but my whole life is constant duality
so every fucking dream that about me is can be prophetic.
it maybe looks like obvious garbage, a shitty tragedy
but im even got no hope to once decide the only side of me
(x2)

and now my thoughts are taking shades of empty houses and the crows
that pecking colors of my feels but i can't even let em go
they feed on brightness, but they never ever touching to my dark
and that's remains inside the wounds
and toxify me to my soul

but i'm still fighting them again
and i keep coloring my days
and trying not to touch my veins, bitch

and this is the answer to this shit
my ego conflict is a gift
that has become my fucking burden for my feels bitch

my duality concerns everything
should i run, should i stay, should i leave?
it is helps me, but it's like i'm weak
cuz i feel like im going to split 
(x2)

egoconflict. [prod. pieruun]

Vocals by hollow mind. (@hollowmindisdead)
Produced/Artwork by ABXMINVTIXN (@audioabomination)
Released September 1, 2023.

Lyrics:

blade straight to my convex veins
i can bleed myself to leave my empty space
i keep dying everyday i feeling bad, emotional stray
my bloody suffering is ended but i keep on my own fade

what's up with your bullshit, lame?
going dumb and talking shit you acting just for fame
i don't give a single fuck of you i do it for myself
its hollow mind APATHYZED type of shit we did the case

(hollow taking his blade up)

i strayed my through in keep of finding what's the point?
it feels like an anomaly like bathing in endless void
its like a thorn that in my mouth i feel it scratching from the throat
i opened soul instead of scars, and maggots feasting it are crawling here

i burned them with words i saying into my own mic
its helping me to see the truth instead my mental lies, bitch
i burned them with words i saying into my own mic
these worms are crawling cuz of suffer, now they know the pain of mine

----

bitch its something apathetic by my side
its a voided bleeding structure, an anomaly inside me
i can't see the future but i swear i gonna fight
again its me vs my mental and im sure that now I'll fight
(x2)

i burned them with words i saying into my own mic
its helping me to see the truth instead my mental lies, bitch
i burned them with words i saying into my own mic
these worms are crawling cuz of suffer, now they know the pain of mine.

APATHYZED© 2023.

Anomaly Inside

Anomly Inside

hollow mind. — Anomaly Inside [Prod. ABXMINVTIXN]

Artwork by ABXMINVTIXN (@audioabomination)
Produced by ABXMINVTIXN (@audioabomination)
Mixed by ABXMINVTIXN (@audioabomination)
Vocals by CHXEU (@chxeu)

Lyrics:

My soul cries out for death
My soul cries out for suffering
My soul wants my body set on fire
Torture
Kill me
The fallen altar
The candles burning
On my skin
The human sacrifice
The ritual of my own soul

Stream on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IGvEFvGqG3w

We're opening 2024 for consume this abominable world.

Inceneratio

CHXEU — Inceneratio [Prod. ABXMINVTIXN]

the first single from my upcoming debut album "shadow shelter.", which will be released in 2025. 
stay tuned for more details. i love y'all and thank you.

prod by @audioabomination
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
bitch im pulling to the ward and all this pit is sing me drown 
now im stuck in shadow labyrinth like im still afraid of sun 
yeah i still wonder what's the purpose in my fucking endless cuts? 
i ain't got butterflies in stomach, i got worms right in my guts 

all this ward is lull to sleep and i could pass me out right now 
what's going on outside the door? i hear the suffers all around 
i see the shadows in the windows they are looking like a crows
they are wandering the corridors, they covered with scars, bitch

i don't get it what the fuck i gonna do?
what a mistake did i done and what a solve to that i could?
so maybe that's cuz of my father that was choke me in my 2?
or it's the fault of braindead bitch i tried to fuck in my 12? 

this whore was talked and i went crazy how they started hate me up
nobody cares about she wanted it herself, they made me scum
and when im looking back at life i see so many fuckin "cause"
and looking back i have no wodrs to it (don't talk to me im cursed) 

all my thoughts are left me sticking at this place and they bring me all this cold and this muhfuckin hate...
and now i can't accept this state of myself...

i would let these shadows pick my corpse 
but when i was completely fucked i realize, now im afraid going die 
all you motherfuckers won't get to me now 
and you fucking scum don't even talk to me now

all these shadows maybe want to have my eyes to find the way out
you can't  trick me with this stunt (don't even talk to me now) 
all these motherfucking bitches want to lick my ears with lies 
i won't let em fucking do (don't even talk to me now) 
I don't want to fucking deel with no-one else instead of me 
now i have no fucking friends (don't even talk to me now) 
i want to get me on the top, don't talk to me now
i just want to get me better don't talk to me now

i just want to get me better don't talk to me now
you can't trick me with this stunts, i've seen a lotta from these cunts 
all these motherfucking bitches want to cut my eyes apart 
i won't let em fucking do (don't even talk to me now) 
I don't want to fucking deal with no-one else instead of me 
cuz now i have no fucking friends (don't even talk to me now) 
i want to get me on the top, don't talk to me now
i just want to get me better don't talk to me now.

сursed (don't talk). [prod. abxminvtixn]

Artwork by hollow mind. (@hollowmindisdead)
Produced by ABXMINVTIXN (@audioabomination)
Mixed by hollow mind. (@hollowmindisdead)
Vocals by hollow mind. (@hollowmindisdead)

Lyrics:

wrapping my skin with layers of dirt bitch
putting some mud in my fresh deep wounds 
i tearing my nails to fucking escape this 
well of despair that want me to frost 

I don't wanna rot in state of much distress 
but on my hands are holes of pus 
im trying to scream and climb off my mistakes 
But this dirt flows into my mouth

this pit is laughing at me
it's laughing on all my attempts, fuck 
this pit is laughing at me but
i keep on my creeping along to the light but stuck 

this pit is laughing at me 
it's laughing on all my attempts oh fuck 
i don't wanna die of this shit and 
i keep on my creeping along to the light from dark

i just wanna leave 
all i want is breaking these walls apart 
no one speaks to me 
cuz this well is deep as mother's womb 

and i just wanna leave 
all i want is breaking these walls like bomb 
don't tryna speak to me 
my mindset is so sick as fucking plague

and i just wanna leave 
and all i want is breaking these walls apart 
no one speaks to me 
cuz this well is so deep as mother's womb 

and i just wanna leave 
and all i want is breaking these walls like bomb 
don't tryna speak to me 
cuz my mindset is dying im sick and it's lethal as plague

and this well is absorbing emotions and kindness 
im lurk in this circle that getting so small
and i feel like my bones breaking of all this pressings 
its pressing so hard so my guts throwing up

all this well of despair was awaiting for my head 
it's feeding my flesh and it's drinking my blood 
there's my soul and my hopes that were drowned in depressing 
reflection of me in this water and mud

hollow mind. — Well Of Despair [Prod. ABXMINVTIXN]

written by @hollowmindisdead
produced by @audioabomination & @trauma-6-6-6
cover art, m&m by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics: 
yeah, anxiety's piercing on my chest 
i keep on murdering my sence
my shaking hands are holding sharp knifes...

depression feels just like a trance
and im beyond this mental fence 
i jump in front of it to see like...

like my dreams and hopes are crashing off my state.
how they drowning in my blood
and all my lust to see me dead.

i jump and see me as a kid 
that blindly searching for defence
and finding nothing else instead of crippled cold anxiety's hands

(jump) i see my past (jump), i see my blood (jump), i see my path convolves to mess
nobody liked me cuz of sad 
now no-one likes me not depressed

but in the depths of all my nature 
looking like a dying swan 
i keep on dream to see my future 
bright as blood reflects these lamps

and sometimes away of this fence... 
i see my future bright and blessed....
utopic like a dream of mad...
and do i still believe in that?...

yeah, anxiety's piercing on my chest 
i keep on murdering my sence
my shaking hands are holding sharp knifes...

depression feels just like a trance
and im beyond this mental fence 
i jump in front of it to see, like...

my bright future...
getting closer sometimes...
i'll tryna chase it...
to feel a moment of fine...

beyond the endless fence of mental... [prod. abxminvtixn & trauma]

hollow mind.